Chieftain (15 page)

“Three, four days. Red should have his fill of Meg by then. His men will hunt while they are here, so do not despair of feeding them after tonight.”

Drummond thought of the evening to come. Discretion told him to approach his wife before the meal and in private. He finished off the ale and went in search of her.

Johanna had just lathered her hair the second time when a knock sounded on the pantry door. “Who is it?”

“Your gracious lord.”

Yanking up a towel, she drew her knees to her chest and covered herself as best she could. Should he barge in, the soapy water would afford her some modesty. She should have latched the door, but she was unaccustomed to having a resurrected-from-the-dead husband interrupt her toilet. He was supposed to be entertaining guests; she hadn’t considered that he’d abandon them. “I’m unavailable.”

“Because you’re bathing?”

Drat that Evelyn for her loose mouth. “Yes, and I prefer privacy.”

“I prefer to talk to you.” The door swung open, and he stood on the threshold.

She looked past him into the kitchen, but Evelyn and the cook were nowhere in sight. The traitors.

He stepped inside and latched the door.

“Where are the servants?” she asked.

“The market and the buttery.”

The urge to cower was almost overpowering, but she fought it. With a casualness that she was far from feeling, she tied the towel around her neck to hide the brand that would betray her secret and cost her all that she held dear. Then she draped an arm on the rim of the wooden tub and strummed her fingers to hide the shaking. “Can you not wait half an hour?”

“Nay. I may have left the matter too long as it is.”

The cryptic remark said, he rolled a barrel near the tub and sat down. Light poured from the high window and threw his shadow across the pantry floor. He’d raked his hands through his hair and laced up his jerkin. He looked all legs and arms and beguiling blue eyes. The beast.

She had often been at a disadvantage with him, but those former occasions paled. Sitting naked, him towering over her with something weighty on his mind, made her feel completely at his mercy.

“Alasdair will sit between you and me at table tonight,” he said.

It was the last thing she expected. “I’m certain he’s very excited. Thank you for telling me.”

He half smiled and made a slow inspection of her hand, her wrist, and her arm.

A shiver worked its way up her spine, and her fingers stilled. “Was there something else?”

His eyes narrowed with mischief and his grin turned cocky. “I imagine so.”

Borrowing one of Glory’s particularly successful remarks, Johanna said, “Don’t be tiresome.”

“I thought I was a beef-witted troll.”

She’d wring Alasdair’s neck, and then she’d seek Glory’s counsel on how to avoid a husband she did not want. “A beef-witted troll will do for now.”

He scanned her face and the mane of wet hair trailing over her shoulder and pooling in the water. “You enjoyed kissing me.”

“I’d as soon watch milk clabber.”

Laughter fluttered his belly, and she remembered the dark mat of hair that tapered to a thinner line and led past his navel and pointed the way to his—

“And if I command you to kiss me again?”

Her heart thudded against her ribs. He’d said those same words on the night she’d comforted him on the battlement. At the time she had answered honestly, because she’d been genuinely moved to heal the wounds of the past. But he’d spoiled the occasion, and now she faced a mother’s worse terror. “I would refuse to kiss you, unless you threatened to take my son away.”

He winced, but she wasn’t fooled by a prick to his conscience; Drummond Macqueen was heartless to his core. “If that will be all…” To emphasize her dismissal, she lifted her brows in query.

Grabbing his ankle, he drew up his left foot and rested it on his right knee. “What of our hard-won truce? We’ve not discussed provisions.”

Heaven help her. He was settling in for a chat. With the door latched. “Provisions?”

“Aye. We both make concessions to show that we are earnest about keeping the truce.”

When her hands began to shake again, she curled her fingers around the edge of the tub. “I’ve done my conceding.”

“You did it exceptionally well, if I may say so.”

“You may say it to the Pope.”

Bracing his arms on the barrel, he leaned back and stared at the bundles of drying heather that hung from the ceiling. “I’m certain you felt desire for me.”

The jerkin fit too snugly across his chest and upper arms. The seams would rip if he didn’t stop flexing his muscles or have the garment altered. She hoped his tailor lived in London. “I’m certain you will color up the event as you see fit.”

In a lithe move, he stepped off the barrel and picked up the bucket of warm water. “I’ll rinse your hair. You never liked doing it yourself.”

She stared at the wall shelves and tried to ignore her nakedness and his insistence, but sacks of dried peas and crocks of honey did little to ease her trepidation. She was his wife. His faithless wife. “I’ve changed.”

He sniffed her hair. “In your choice of soap as well. You know ’tis my favorite.”

She knew no such thing. She also found the fragrance pleasing, but he seemed destined to claim responsibility for that, too. “Heather is abundant here, and I haven’t the coin for expensive scents.”

“You chose it for me. ’Tis another of the ways you’ve changed.”

His eyes turned hungry as he gazed at her. Her skin turned to gooseflesh. “Think what you will, Drummond. Just think it elsewhere.”

“Why order me out? You were never so modest before. Quite the contrary. You were proud of your body and the predictable effect it had on me. Why do you blush now?”

With tremendous glee, she said. “I am not the woman you married.”

He was staring at her breasts. “I like you better now.”

Kindness from him would never do, not if she hoped to keep him at a distance. “I like you less.”

A self-effacing grin added charm to his already handsome features. “Even a beef-witted troll can see that you’re angry with me.”

“Stop being so accommodating; that only makes me question your motives.”

“I could tell you my motives outright, for they concern you,” he said in a silken whisper, his cheek very close to hers. “Then you wouldn’t wonder.”

As if the oaken bucket were a lightweight crock, he grasped it in one hand. “Lean over, unless you want water everywhere. And take off that towel.”

Not for all the world’s riches would she risk exposing the brand. “I can rinse my own hair.”

“Indulge your husband.”

Trapped and disgusted, she hugged her knees and kept a tight hold on the towel.

“Close your eyes.”

She did. A moment later warm water trickled over her head, and his fingers kneaded her scalp. She’d been correct about the size of his hand, for the span of his fingers captured her skull, and like a man prone to thriftiness, he rationed the water, spreading it carefully over every strand of her waist-length hair.

Soap stung her eyes, and she pressed the soaked towel against them. Even though she tried to ignore him, she felt the heat of his body and the rush of his breath very close, too close. She tried to move out of reach.

“Be still. I have always wanted to taste heather on your skin.”

Clare had favored lilacs or roses, and she had never mentioned Drummond’s penchant for tasting skin. Then he pushed her hair aside and kissed her unmarked shoulder and her neck.

Johanna’s toes curled. Thank God the servants would be back soon. With so many visitors, Evelyn and the cook wouldn’t tarry at their errands. Johanna felt moderately safe, and if she kept talking to herself she could ignore the voice of weakness and its never-ending plea for her surrender to Drummond Macqueen.

“Do you remember my recurring dream?” he said. “The one you thought vulgar.”

A brilliant excuse came to mind. “I forced myself to forget it.”

He spoke against the cap of her shoulder, his teeth lightly grazing her skin. “I lay on the grassy bank of a fast running burn. ’Twas a glorious summer morn. Eagles soared overhead, and forest creatures scurried in play. The world and all in it seemed on display just for me. Then you rose, naked from the water.”

“I walked on water?”

He nipped her skin in a playful bite. “Hush. Irreverence is not allowed.” In a too husky voice, he continued. “You smiled and knelt beside me. You told me you had been sent especially for me. Then you granted me three wishes.”

The sensual cadence of his voice lulled her, and the tale sounded harmless so far, except the naked part, but it was fitting. The troubling part was, he thought she was his wife.
No,
she realized, would not be a big enough word to extricate herself if he didn’t stop nibbling her skin.

“What did you wish for?” she said.

“That depends on which time I had the dream.”

Humor him, she thought, and perhaps he would leave. “The first time.”

“I asked for a sword, a bed without two snoring brothers, and a pony.”

Laughter burst from her. He joined in, and the sounds of their mirth felt so natural she wondered if they might find lasting accord after all. He hadn’t seen the brand today. He hadn’t once called her a whore, either. He hadn’t even mentioned Clare’s sin. Pray God he would soon forget it.

“How could you have a dream about me when you were a lad? You didn’t even know me then.”

“’Twas fate.”

When it came to fate, Johanna Benison could go him one better. “What did you ask for the last time you had the dream?”

“Very adult things.” He gathered up her hair. She snatched the ends of the towel in a death grip.

Making a rope of her hair, he wrung out the water, then picked up the brush and began to work out the tangles. “A room with many windows at the top of Fairhope Tower.” His lips fluttered down her spine, leaving a trail of shivers on her skin.

“Drummond…”

“Shush.” He breathed the word into her ear, and she had to strain to keep from crying out. Showers of pleasure cascaded over her, refreshing, taunting, bringing to life a picture of the idyllic scene he’d described, complete with her kneeling naked beside him and awaiting his bidding.

“Aren’t you curious about my second wish?”

“Wish? What wish?”

His arrogant, manly chuckle sounded a warning. She grasped the gist of the conversation. “Your second wish.”

Brush forgotten, he lifted her arm, ducked under it and kissed the tender side of her breast. His other arm went around her shoulder and tried to rake the towel aside.

“You must stop.” The feeble request sounded unconvincing even to Johanna’s ears.

His mouth hovered over the tip of her breast, his breath puckering the nipple. “’Twas a wish to find you here bathing in the pantry and in need of someone to rinse your hair.”

His sensual tone and romantic words lulled her, and she squeezed her eyes shut. “What was your third wish?”

He took her nipple into his mouth and dragged his lips back and forth, around and around, stealing her breath and clouding her thoughts.

“Do you know,” he murmured. “I think I’ve forgotten.”

“Try,” she gasped, “to remember.”

“You’re too distracting.”

“No. I’m conceding to you again.”

“Admirably so.”

He sounded so satisfied by her answer that Johanna almost rejoiced; they were conversing easily. Conversing? She could lay claim to the title of second biggest fool if she equated having her breasts suckled to carrying on a conversation. But if she didn’t stop him, he would expect her to take her wifely duties one step further. She was already in over her head.

Yet the need to yield blared like a seminal call, summoning deep emotions, compelling her to pair up with this man and build a nest and a future. He was luring her to forget the harm her discovery would cause others. What of the bride of Christ who’d devoted her life to raising the daughters other people hadn’t wanted? What of Johanna herself? What would become of her? To the world, she lay buried beneath the consecrated soil of Scarborough Abbey.

Fear of dire consequences fled when his mouth moved to her other breast, and he busied his free hand with soothing the nipple that he’d just abandoned. Tension stirred deep in her belly and her neck went limp. Words and phrases spun in her head, but she could not string together enough of them to form a coherent thought, not when his mouth settled on hers in a kiss that sent rivers of pleasure flowing to her toes.

Seeming to know how she felt, he laid his hand on her stomach and gently kneaded the ache. Her thighs relaxed and her hips tightened, then lower she felt a dampness as different from bathwater as conversing from suckling. He continued in his role of wizard by tipping his head to the side and deepening the kiss just when she thought to make the move herself. He slid his hand lower and dipped into her dampness.

She gasped and pulled her mouth from his. The expression in his eyes bordered on dreamy, and she asked if he hadn’t drunk too much of the ale she’d tasted on his mouth.

“Oh, nay. I intend to remember every moment of our lovemaking.”

Lovemaking.
What a beautiful word.

Then his arms were lifting her, hauling her up and against his chest. She clung to him as he sat on the barrel, put her on his lap, and drew up her legs to straddle his hips. Naked and exposed, she felt his straining need even through the fabric of his trunk hose. The tightness began again in her belly, and when she shifted her position, the tension magically eased. His hands caressed her back and exerted gentle pressure as he thrust upward, then down, settling into a rhythm that made porridge of her brain and nonsense of her will to resist him.

He rocked against her, sliding his hardness against the precise spot that craved his touch.

“Be adventurous with me, Clare.”

Clare.

Like a scream snapping her from a nightmare, the sound of her sister’s name awakened Johanna to where she was, what she was doing, and with whom. Desire urged her to forget the consequences and step completely and irreversibly into her sister’s life.

She rebelled. With the keep full of extra mouths to feed, the cook and Evelyn should have already started the evening meal. They would return, and if she could but bide her time an escape would surely present itself.

She gave opportunity a nudge. “You haven’t told me all of your wishes.”