Authors: Dwayne S. Joseph
Eye for an Eye (2 page)
Past
1
Love.
It was tried a long time ago. Like
Star Wars
, in a galaxy far, far away. A world very different from the one that existed now. One in which I didn't exist. Only Lisette Jones.
Star Wars
, in a galaxy far, far away. A world very different from the one that existed now. One in which I didn't exist. Only Lisette Jones.
She thought she'd known what it was to be sexy. She thought she'd known about the power of manipulation. She thought she'd had a true understanding of what control was.
But she hadn't known shit. Not the way she needed to. That's why love snuck in through a back door she hadn't closed and tried to fuck up her life.
Lisette Jones was naïve. A young girl living her life the way she wanted to, until one thing eventually destroyed her.
Love.
She'd never really had it.
Her mother had none for her. Her jealousy never allowed it. For as long as Lisette Jones could remember, the only things her mother ever gazed at her with were eyes filled with envy and disgust.
Although she was attractive in a plain, everyday-looking kind of way, Lisette Jones knew that her mother lived with a heart filled with daily contempt because her daughter had the beauty she wanted.
Natural. Exotic. At the age of eleven, Lisette Jones was unknowingly making the boys take notice. By fourteen, she made the teenage boys cum, and unlike her eleventh year of adolescence, she knew full well that she'd been doing that because at age thirteen, manipulation had become the most important word in her vocabulary.
Manipulation.
She learned all about it. Its meaning. Its purpose. Its strength. She learned how to break the word down. Learned to understand that the first three letters of the word were all that mattered.
Man.
At thirteen, Lisette Jones had been shown by her father that she could do and get whatever she wanted. All she had to do was use what she'd been born with. Her eyes. Her lips. Her tongue. Her hips. Her ass. Her legs.
This was the arsenal with which she'd been blessed and at thirteen years old, her father demonstrated to her that this arsenal was more effective than any gun or knife could be.
Her natural assets could render a man powerless and make him do whatever it was she wanted him to do, and it was all because that from the time she began to fill out, her father desired her in the way that he used to desire his wife.
Lisette Jones learned this valuable life lesson every day she spent in her father's presence. And this is why her mother abandoned her. She couldn't compete, and she couldn't handle it. She couldn't deal with the fact that her own daughter was more attractive and more in tune with her own body. She couldn't take the men on the street paying more attention to the child she carried for nine months and labored to deliver for almost forty-eight hours. Most importantly, she couldn't take the cold, hard reality that her husband fucked their daughter visually with his eyes and mentally in his mind, more than he physically fucked the woman he'd exchanged vows with.
Envy became jealousy.
Jealousy became contempt.
Contempt became disgust.
Disgust led to her mother walking out of the house one morning and never coming back.
That was the love Lisette Jones received from her mother.
Left alone with her perverted father, she learned nothing about love, but everything about manipulation and control. She became the master of the home, coming and going as she pleased. Sexy stances, seductive looks, prancing around the house with a towel wrapped around her and nothing on underneath, or in shorts giving visibility to the bottom of her ass, or in low-cut or tight shirts, calling attention to her firm and full breastsâthese were her tactics.
Her father had never touched her, but there'd been no doubt in her mind that he'd masturbated daily to the thought of ravaging her young pussy.
Her father. The first man she learned to control. The first man to show her that, despite the thumping of their chests and the dicks they swung as they walked with a pimp's limp, men would never be as powerful as a woman could be.
From thirteen to eighteen, Lisette Jones lived her life according to her own rules. Things and people that had no meaning or importance were used up and then cast off to the side to be ignored completely. People were tools. Men in particular.
She had her father to thank for that knowledge.
Love, which hadn't existed in her world, was never sought, and then Jamil Parker materialized out of thin air to steal her breath, and nearly her life, away.
2
Jamil Parker.
Dead now, but back then, he was the man.
The only man.
Lisette Jones had never known what it was to be weak. Never known what it meant to not be in control. The experience of being powerless had been one she couldn't fathom going through. She'd always had things go her way. Nothing happened unless she allowed it to happen. No one existed unless she wanted them to exist.
Jamil Parker.
He'd gone against the grain. He'd broken the rules.
Freshman year. Art Institute of New York. Second semester. Lisette Jones was having coffee at Chock Express. It was the reintroduction/reinvention of the Chock full o'Nuts coffee chain, which was the original Starbucks before Starbucks came along and moved in on every corner across the free world. That was where Lisette Jones went to study when her roommate was around. She'd wanted a room to herself, but the Institute didn't give freshman those privileges.
Fashion and style had been her passion. Knowing the right colors, the right combinationsâLisette Jones considered herself to be extremely knowledgeable about the dos and don'ts. She'd chosen the Art Institute of New York because she wanted to leave her mark in the fashion world. She always had. The Institute was the best place to be in order to make that happen, and the best was the only thing she would accept. Like it or not, she had to take the good with the bad.
Despite the constant activity, Chock Express became the best place for her to study. The commotion around her became background noise that she would hear, yet not hear at the same time, and that helped her focus.
“The Art Institute, right?”
Lisette Jones looked up from the book she'd been reading, and for the first time ever, her heart skipped a beat.
Denzel Washington had been the Rock, or Dwayne Johnson as he prefers now, at that time. His smile could make women wet. His charm made them shiver. His confidence made them scream and lose their minds. Sean Combs, AKA Puffy, A.K.A. P. Diddy, A.K.A. Diddy, A.K.A. the Shiny Suit Manâhe was style ahead of style. Before the shiny suits and the all-white linen parties, before the clothing line and the cologne, he was baggy jeans, sports jerseys, or tank tops, with a black Chicago White Sox hat to the back. His style, along with the ultimate swagger he possessed, made women drop their panties. 50 Cent, or Fiddy, as some call him, wasn't around back then, but a body like his was what women dreamt of touching. The chest, the arms, the absâthey made it easy to bypass the face. That and the money.
Standing in front of her table was a combination of those three men.
More handsome than Denzel with a close-cut fade, as stylish as Diddy in Cross Colours clothing, with wide shoulders and a broad chest, Jamil Parker caused ripples between her legs. The sensation was unexpected and unsettling.
Lisette Jones squirmed in her seat a bit and said, “Yes,” and nothing more.
The Denzel-Diddy-Fiddy combo smiled.
Lisette felt a gush.
He said, “I've seen you around. Studying design, right?”
She nodded. “Do you go there?”
“Yeah. I'm in the film and video program. I'm getting ready to be the next Spikeberg.”
“Spikeberg?”
“Spike Lee and Steven Spielberg . . . my favorite directors. I'll be making movies like them soon.”
“You're pretty confident.”
He shook his head. “Nah . . . not confident. Just stating a fact.”
“Isn't that being confident?”
He shook his head again. “Being confident means there's room for something to not go your way, but you're just sure that it will. Reality is reality. It just is. I'm going to be Spikeberg. Shit . . . bigger than both of them. There's no room for any other reality.”
Lisette Jones nodded and felt a shiver creep up from the base of her spine. She'd encountered guys before who'd stepped to her with lines and the “I'm-the-man” bravado before. Pretty Rickys and sexy thugs who thought that a little smile and a little swag could gain them open-door access to slide into her pussy. But unless she had something to gain by giving them her time and attention, or she had simply been horny, they got about as far as the word hello could stretch, and very rarely would they make it that far.
They may have had the looks, but the looks weren't enough to compensate for what they had been severely lacking. Style. Charisma. True swagger. They were perpetrators.
Most females fell for the bullshit, but that was because most females were either stupid, naïve, or pathetically desperate for a man's attention. Lisette Jones wasn't stupid or naïve and she'd yet to find a man who could do for her what she couldn't already do for herself. But what had never happened before happened with Jamil Parker standing in front of her. Lisette Jones became intrigued and aroused, and that made her like most females.
She smiled.
So did Jamil, as he extended his hand. “Jamil.”
She took it. “Lisette.”
“Nice name.”
“Thanks.”
“Exotic. Like your looks.”
“My mother was Puerto Rican and black. My father's from Barbados.”
Jamil's thumb lightly moved from side to side against her skin. “Your parents put together one hell of a mix.”
Lisette Jones felt hot and cold at the same time. It was an electric feeling.
“So how long are you planning to stay here?” Jamil asked.
Lisette Jones took a slow, full breath, released it slowly, and shrugged. “Not long.”
“Want to get something to eat?”
Before that moment, the only answer that existed was, “No.”
Before that moment, there would have never been a moment, because the opportunity for the question to have been asked would have never been given.
Before that moment, Lisette Jones had been herself.
Before that moment.
She opened her mouth. Studied his full bottom lip. Imagined herself sucking on it. Then imagined sucking on him. Electric heat radiated between her thighs as she said, “I'm ready to leave now . . . if you are.”
Jamil gave a smile that made her heartbeat stutter. He didn't let go of her hand as she rose from her seat.
Lisette Jones was powerless and, for reasons she could never fully understand or explain, it was an intoxicating feeling.
3
Two years.
That's how long Lisette Jones dated Jamil Parker.
For six months, the relationship was heaven. Better than anything she'd ever experienced before. All of the men she'd encountered in the short life she'd lived had all done whatever she'd wanted them to do. They were mindless tools to her that she discarded without a thought or care after their uses were served.
Satisfaction was never something she'd known before, at least not in the truest sense of the word. She thought she'd been satisfied whenever she'd gotten the things she wanted. She thought she'd been pleased when her needs were met. It was only when Jamil came along that she realized that hadn't been the case. Her satisfaction had never been real. It had never been Tom Cruise and Renée Zellweger in
Jerry Maguire
. It had never been complete.
Jerry Maguire
. It had never been complete.
Jamil Parker.
For six months, he 'd the hell out of her emotionally and physically.
For six months, he did things only the men in movies did.
For six months, he was the man who existed only in novels.
For six months, Lisette Jones could spell the word she never believed in, forward, backward, sideways, and in circles.
Love hadn't been real until Jamil introduced it into her world. He did so without being asked. His equal and opposite reaction came before her action. He was considerate, attentive, romantic, and caring in ways that left her stunned. Flowers and cards just because. Phone calls to say hello and to let her know that she'd been thought of. He cooked for her, filled her bathtub with hot water and the right amount of bubbles. He listened when it hadn't been the time to talk, and when it had been time to converse, he genuinely asked about her dreams and her desires. More importantly, he genuinely cared about them.
And then there was the sex.
Lisette Jones had never been religious. She believed in a higher being and had an occasional conversation with Him, but occasional equated to once, maybe twice a year. Religion, something her mother tried to force-feed down her throat before she abandoned her, had never been something she could get into. She never connected with the stories in the Bible. She never had a desire to know anything more than how to recite the Hail Mary. To her, things in life happened, not because of a snake or a bite out of an apple.
Things just happened.
But when Jamil slid inside of her for the first time, at that moment, she fully believed in a higher being, because only a higher being could have created a dick as perfect as Jamil's.
The size, the thickness, the way it moved. Jamil made her orgasm flow from dams tucked far away, deep within the caverns of her pussy.
Sex with Jamil had been like an opera performance. Steady, calm, melodic beginnings. Swelling and rising middles. Powerful, explosive, climactic endings that took her breath away and left her craving more. She'd heard of women becoming dick-whipped before, but as far as she was concerned, that only happened to women who went through life being controlled and never controlling. Before Jamil, the idea of her ever becoming dick-whipped had been an impossibility.
But for six months . . .
For six months, Lisette Jones was hooked. For six months, Lisette Jones was in love. For six months, Lisette Jones lost the absolute and burning need to be in control. For six months, her satisfaction came from not only being satisfied, but also from her wanting to reciprocate freely without a self-satisfying motive. For six months, Lisette Jones lived in emotional and physical utopia.
Then month seven came along and she began to die.
Slowly.
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