Authors: MJ Fields
Sad Love
MJ Fields
Sad Love
Book 3
of the LOVE series
Other Titles by MJ Fields
~The Love Series~
Blue Love
New Love
Sad Love
True Love
~The Wrapped Series~
Wrapped in Silk
Wrapped in Armor
Wrapped Always and Forever
~Burning Souls~
Stained
Forged
~Men of Steel~
Men of Steel Novella
Jase
Jase and Carly (Summer Lovin)
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Copyright 2013 MJ Fields
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This book is a work of fiction. The names, characters, places, and incidents are a product of the writer’s imagination or have been used fictitiously and are not to be constructed as real. Any resemblance to person, living or dead, actual events, locale or organization is entirely coincidental.
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ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
I am very grateful to all who have taken the time to read Tessa and Lucas’s story.
My hope is always t
ry to be better, a better mom, wife, sister, daughter, aunt, niece, and partner. And to do so with grace, dignity, and the knowledge that each step in my journey will lead me to who I am to become without anger or resentments, always forgiving, knowing I too need forgiveness.
To have loved and to have been loved is the greatest gift. A gift that should be re gifted when the heart and soul heal. You never know what is just around the corner. .
Again I want to thank all those whose support has helped me through life and love. Laura, Karen, Stephanie, Suzanne, Tiffany, Taylor, Emily, Erica, Faye, and Mary. Your feedback was truly appreciated. I Love you all…Anyway.
My promise to you is that you will be happy with Tessa’s choice and even continue to love Lucas…Anyway.
Table o
f Contents
Tessa stood back and admired their work, the place looked beautiful. Tan and blue decorations hung from the ceilings, and there were balloons everywhere. Phoebe and Cassidy were putting even more balloons on the mailbox. Everyone would be arriving at Jade’s shower in less than an hour.
She walked upstairs and took a deep breath. She opened the door to Lucas’s room and could smell him. She froze momentarily, letting his scent waft through her. She closely looked at the dresser that had held photos from Lucas’ previous proms that were now gone, replaced by one photo of him and her. Tessa dreaded seeing him again, but still the thought of never seeing him again was worse. She took a deep breath, walked into the bathroom, and turned on the shower.
As she stood naked under the hot water pouring down on her, she thought of the many times she and Lucas had shared this very shower. Tessa thought of his hands caressing her and hers caressing him.
She knew it was still too soon to be face to face with the boy who once professed to love her, the boy that she without a doubt, loved. She got out and toweled off her hair. She walked out into his room wrapped in a towel and sat on the bed. She looked down at the place she and Lucas first had sex. She sat on the bed and fought the desire to curl up and fall asleep in its warmth. She had not slept decently in weeks and now was not the time.
Shake it off Tessa stay busy-- you’ll be fine,
she thought to herself. She stood and dropped the towel and walked into the bathroom to brush her teeth. She threw on her panties and bra, walked out to grab her dress and jumped when she saw Lucas standing in his closet pulling on his boxer briefs.
“Oh I…I’m sorry I didn’t think you’d be here yet,” she grabbed the towel.
Lucas slowly closed his eyes and let out a deep breath and walked in his closet. She grabbed the pale green halter dress and pulled it up to cover her.
He walked out of the closet with his pants on.
“Tessa, you look amazing,” he whispered as he walked over to zip her dress the rest of the way up.
As soon as his finger touched her skin, millions of tiny little Goosebumps appeared and she arched her back.
She cleared her throat, “Thanks,” and stepped away from him. She grabbed her belongings and started to walk out of his room.
He lightly touched her arm, “You can get ready in here. I’ll leave.” Lucas grabbed his shirt and walked out.
Okay
she thought
get it together you can do this, see? It’s fine
. She dried her hair, applied makeup and left his room looking back reflectively before shutting the door to her first love’s room.
When she walked down the stairs she saw Molly.
“Are we telling anyone yet?”
Molly smiled and rubbed a hand over her belly, “Not today, tomorrow.”
“Good because if I dare say so myself-- I know how to put a shower together,” Tessa laughed and hugged her sister.
Tessa and Molly walked outside into the back yard. Tessa watched as Landon, Audrianna, and the girls walk in through the gate. Ally and Alexandra ran up to her and hugged her.
Tessa smiled and hugged them back, “Princesses you have both grown.”
“Where’s Lucas?” they asked in unison.
“I’m not sure, but I know he’s here somewhere,” Tessa stood and smiled.
“Help us find him,” Ally said jumping in her arms.
Alexandra grabbed her hand and dragged her towards the house.
They walked in and Lucas stood in the kitchen smiling, “Three beautiful Princesses.”
Ally jumped down and ran into his arms.
“Tessa group hug,” Alexandra smiled.
Tessa took a deep breath and walked towards them, “Sounds fun.”
“Thank you,” Lucas whispered in her ear.
“Alright, I have to excuse myself,” Tessa curtseyed before making her escape.
Tessa brought food outside and handed a package of hamburgers to Jack and John who manned the grill. She hugged herself literally holding herself together.
Audrianna smiled as she walked towards Tessa, “Can I steal you away for a minute?”
Tessa followed her into the house and to the empty living room, and they sat down.
“Tessa, how are you?”
“Fine thank you. How are you?” Tessa asked politely.
“I’m good. Tessa I know what happened with you and Lucas, and I’m sorry.”
“Well... me too,” she felt her eyes heat up but smiled.
“Is there a way to get past this? He loves you,” Audrianna asked.
“Well I love him very much too, but I just can’t keep getting hurt.”
Tessa words were more self-talk than an answer. An affirmation she had repeated to herself several times in the past few weeks.
Landon walked in the room, “He screwed up Tessa, and he’s nineteen. He’s skipping classes and not playing all that well, my son is a mess.”
“With all due respect Landon, I’m nineteen and not his parent,” Tessa stood and started to walk out.
“Tessa, please sit. Landon-- enough,” Audrianna said firmly.
“Audrianna-- he loves this girl and has proved that by the way he has changed this past year. Now he’s slipping and screwing up the biggest chance he’s ever had. I don’t feel like it’s too much to ask,” Landon said. “She has stuck by him through much worse. If she loves him, this should be a non-issue. He gets through this, and she won’t have a thing to worry about, ever.”
“Landon,” Audrianna scolded.
“I wasn’t raised that way. Nice seeing you both,” Tessa walked out the door.
Lucas walked in the house and smiled at Tessa, tears fell down her face, and she turned and ran upstairs.
Needing to be alone she opened the door to the room she had just said goodbye to; the one she would now seek comfort in. Tessa buried her face in his pillows and cried. She couldn’t believe his father. She thought to herself:
how could Lucas ever even have a chance with someone like him as a role model? Landon was an ass.
“Tessa, are you okay?” Lucas asked from the doorway. She shook her head no. “What’s wrong baby?” she felt him sit next to her.
“I’m fine,” she sat up putting her head in a pillow.
He sat behind her and hugged her.
“Please don’t touch me, Lucas,” she said quietly.
“Why not?”
“Because you can’t.”
“I’m sorry,” he whispered.
She leaned into him, taking comfort in his embrace, and he breathed out deeply. He didn’t move, and she didn’t either.
“What are you two doing?” Jade asked smirking as she walked in the room.
Tessa sat up and got off the bed.
“Sorry-- is it time for gifts?” Tessa asked trying to smile.
“Sure,” Jade and Tessa started walking towards the door.
Tessa turned around, and Lucas still sat on the bed looking lost.
"Come on Lucas," Jade grabbed his hand and pulled him up.
They walked outside, and Audrianna looked at her apologetically. Once Lucas was no longer behind Tessa she approached her.
“I didn’t tell Lucas anything, you can tell Landon I think he’s a jackass, and I do care for his son. Maybe he could get over himself long enough to realize that it’s not my job to parent him,” Tessa whispered.
“That's not what I was trying to do," she said.
“I know, but HE was.”
Lucas watched her as Jade opened gifts; he watched Tessa laugh and smile being her perfect helpful, happy self. He didn’t mean to hurt her
, it wasn’t his fault
.
Almost everyone had left the party and cleanup was commencing. Lucas and Ryan carried all the larger items up the stairs to the nursery. Tessa stood at the sink doing dishes, singing softly to the music playing on the radio.
“There’s a dishwasher Tessa,” he said from behind her and reached around opening it.