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Authors: Audrey Harrison

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The Captain's Wallflower

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Dedication

This book is dedicated to Julie and David Oliver and Queenie the Guide Dog.

I met Julie and David through my work with the charity Guide Dogs a few years ago. Julie is blind and deaf and is completely inspirational—and I don’t use that word lightly. She is a lovely lady who helped explain to the volunteers I was training just what it’s like to be blind on a practical level. Those sessions contained a lot of laughter, and every volunteer left with the confidence to approach someone who may need help. That Julie enjoys a full life the way she does just proves how wonderful and resilient she is. I don’t admire many people, but she is on the top of my list.

David Oliver, Julie’s husband is a true gent and a lovely man. He does so much for Guide Dogs, both alongside Julie and in his own right; the organisation would be worse off without him. He was always unfazed at whatever was asked of him and always supported me whenever he could, which I completely appreciated, and I thoroughly enjoyed working alongside him. Words seem inadequate to express how much I value him.

The dog that appears in these pages isn’t based on Queenie, but I had to mention her. When working for Guide Dogs, you meet so many lovely, amazing dogs that you wouldn’t think you would have favourites, but you do. She is a lovely natured dog who tries to follow Julie out of the door if she is left behind. I did enjoy my Queenie cuddles!

Chapter 1

London – early November 1806

Alexander took a steadying breath. He might have faced the French navy without any serious thought of the danger to himself or his ship, but this was different. The noise was overwhelming, and the shadows and shapes that were constantly passing in front of him sent his mind reeling as his brain tried to make sense of the signals. He had to get away, but he was trapped. Trapped in a world of near total darkness, noise and bewilderment.

Time seemed to stretch out before him. He recognised some voices, but no one seemed to want to approach him or to offer help. For the hundredth time in recent months, he was at the mercy of others; a muscle twitched in his cheek at the frustration of it.

Eventually, he heard a familiar voice. “Critchley?” he asked, a note of desperation in his voice.

“Yes, Worthington. I’m here,” his friend responded.

“Where the bloody hell have you been?” Alexander ground out. He was beyond the point of caring whether he would shock anyone who had the misfortune of hearing his base language.

“For a dance,” Richard Critchley, his long-time friend replied in surprise. “I told you I had secured Miss Birkett for the first two.”

Alexander glowered at Richard; he might be blind, but his face still showed clearly the feelings he was struggling with. “Get me out of here! I can’t stand any more of it!”

Richard came closer to his friend and touched his arm in an act of reassurance. “We’ve only been here for an hour; it’s your first trip out, and it’s bound to feel strange. Give it time,” he soothed.

Alexander gritted his teeth, the twitch in his cheek becoming more pronounced; he wanted to shout with frustration at being so dependent on others. He breathed deeply in an effort to keep himself under control; even in his present state he could not behave so abominably and do something as gauche as losing control in a room full of people. “I don’t care how long we’ve been here; it’s felt like an eternity. Get me out of this place!” The words were said quietly, but were full of anger and annoyance.

Richard was not one to give up easily, but he acknowledged that Alexander must have been feeling overwhelmed to be responding in such a way. His friend was not one for dramatic gestures; ever the cool one previously, he was now agitated. The ballroom was overcrowded and hot; it had perhaps not been the wisest place to start Alexander’s return to Society. “Let me help you to the edge of the ballroom for a while. If you still feel the same after my dance with Miss Stobbard, we shall leave,” Richard said. He could not leave while he had promised to dance with Miss Stobbard. Her blonde curls and rosebud mouth could easily keep most men in a ballroom, especially Richard, who had a particular interest in her.

Alexander sighed but let himself be led to the edge of the room. He was totally reliant on Richard, and it grieved him. His shoulders sagged in defeat as the men moved through the crowd. He would never normally behave so badly, but these were no longer normal circumstances. When they came to a halt, he followed Richard’s lead as his friend guided him to a bench, and Alexander sat down.

“I shall leave you here and see you in half an hour. Then we can call the carriage if you wish,” Richard said cheerfully before leaving his friend once more.

Alexander compressed his lips to try to prevent saying something he would regret later. He tried to school his features into what he hoped was a less forbidding expression. The next half hour was not going to pass quickly.

He had thought he was alone until he heard a gentle sigh at his left. “Hello?” he asked quietly. He did not want to make a fool of himself if he had misheard and there was no one close. With so much noise going on around him, what little perception he had of his surroundings had completely disappeared.

“Hello,” came the equally quiet reply.

Alexander had no idea who he sat next to. He should wait to be formally introduced, but he decided that he would flout convention. Apart from Richard, this was the first person who had spoken to him since his entrance at the ball, and he did not wish to let the opportunity pass. He had never expected a ballroom to feel so lonely.

“Your sigh would suggest that you’re as delighted to be here as I,” he responded, hoping the person he was speaking to was no relation to the people holding the event. Such an insult would not be looked upon kindly.

“Oh, I don’t mind being at a ball,” came the clear, confident voice of a young lady, although she still spoke quietly. “It’s sitting all night as a wallflower that I have a problem with.”

“He sat me with the wallflowers?” Alexander asked in disbelief. It was not so many months ago that he had been considered the catch of the season, and now Richard had tucked him out of the way with the unmarriageables. He would express his views on
that
insult when Richard returned.

“Yes, but as you aren’t dancing, I suppose technically you could be considered a wallflower yourself. I realise it may be a shock to the system, but it can happen to the best of us,” the unknown lady responded tartly.

Alexander acknowledged to himself that he had been rude in the extreme. No young lady would want the fact that she was on the shelf to be pointed out. His reaction had been such that it was very clear what he thought about being classed as a wallflower. The gentleman in him tried to make amends. “Forgive me; I cannot see very well. It was just a comment about where I was in the room.”

Amelia looked at the man beside her. She was fully aware of who he was and also under no illusion that he would never have spoken to her in normal circumstances. He was completely out of her social sphere: a successful captain of the British Navy, who had made his fortune before joining Nelson at Trafalgar. He had managed to get his men out safely when their ship had been badly damaged, but he had been injured during the skirmish. He was a hero to his men, but he had lost his sight as a result of his injury. There had been no word of him for over a year, but he had unexpectedly appeared tonight. It did not seem to be going well, she mused. He was not surrounded by his usual group of friends: strange when the only outward appearance was a line of small scars at the side of his eyes and across his forehead. Surely, even the more fickle members of the
ton
could cope with a few small scars?

“I am aware of your injury Captain Worthington,” she replied. Her tone was still cool; he had offered an insult, and she stung from it. She accepted that her evenings were mainly spent with the other wallflowers, but she did not appreciate being reminded of the fact.

“Then you have the advantage of me; I beg your pardon, but I do not recognise your voice. I’m relying on a dismal memory of voices to reacquaint myself with everyone. I wish I’d taken more notice of them in the past,” Alexander responded. He always listened more these days, his hearing helping to give him vital extra clues to his surroundings. It was a frustrating task not being accustomed to recognising the voices of people he had not seen in a long time.

“We have never been formally introduced; I’m usually to be found helping polish these benches along with the other unfortunates. I find moving slightly in time to the music heightens the shine with the smallest of effort. At some balls, I can almost see my face in the wood by the end of the evening,” came the tongue-in-cheek response. His words had stirred her sympathy, dissolving the annoyance she felt. After all, it was not his fault she was forced to sit out the dancing.

Alexander’s mouth twitched in appreciation of her humour. “In that case I wish I’d discovered them earlier. With the size of my rear, I could have saved you many minutes of work.”

Amelia laughed, “The wallflower benches have been my home for over two seasons, so we are well acquainted with each other. I can guide newcomers on the best view or the best hiding place, depending on their preference, of course,” she said cheerfully.

“Two seasons?” Alexander asked in surprise. That was the sign of a young lady truly on the shelf. He wondered what her circumstances were that she was so obviously unmarriageable. She did not sound ugly, if ugly had a sound. He wondered if she had no dowry. “Do you never dance?”

“Sometimes,” Amelia admitted. “But very rarely, especially during evenings like this one where the cotillion went on for a full hour and a half. That reduces the number of dances of the evening, so it prevents opportunities for those of us who sit on the side-lines.”

“Ah, yes, the Bakers Wife; it can be tedious to dance,” Alexander admitted.

“I would argue that it’s more tedious to wait for the dance to end when one is anticipating the next dance,” Amelia responded.

“I can see your point, but believe me, the wrong partner can make an hour and a half seem an endless amount of time,” Alexander said with feeling.

“Yes, I suppose so,” Amelia said with a mock sigh. “In that instance being on the wallflower benches wouldn’t seem quite so bad. I’m accustomed to it now, and it wouldn’t be unbearable except for the pitying stares one gets during the evening.”

“I expect I’ve had my fair share this evening,” Alexander said.

“Yes, but at least you can’t
see
them,” Amelia said with feeling.

Alexander was a little taken aback at the insensitivity of the remark. “I suppose I’ve never seen my blindness as an advantage, but it seems that you have just shown me one,” he said, a little coldly. Normally people would stumble and stutter, rather than mention his blindness, if they spoke to him at all. He was not used to anyone referring to his disability so openly, so mockingly.

“I’ve upset you; I didn’t think!” Amelia said, putting her hand on his arm and squeezing it gently. “I’m truly sorry. I suppose it’s just that you look exactly like you did prior to the battle: all stiff lipped, glowering and reserved. I thought it hadn’t affected you. I apologise; I should have been more sensitive,” she babbled. She had not intended to offend him; that was the last thing she wanted to do to the great Captain Worthington. Amelia cursed herself for being her usual flippant self; she really did deserve to be with the wallflowers.

“Stiff lipped, glowering and reserved?” Alexander asked in disbelief as he almost choked on the words. He would have never considered himself vain, but he was aware of his reputation as handsome and charming—when it suited him to be of course. He could give a set-down with the best of them. Was her description how people really saw him? He was stunned at the thought. “I see now that my blindness is the least of my worries!” he said, his shock clear in the tone of his voice.

Amelia slapped her free hand over her mouth in horror. The most attractive man she had ever seen in her life, and she had just insulted him—
twice
. Thank goodness he had no idea who she was. “I’m so sorry; I didn’t mean it. Appearances can be deceiving; I’m sure you are perfectly amenable.” Her words came out in a strangled voice; she did not know whether to laugh or cry at her mistake.

Alexander laughed at her obvious mortification. He placed his hand over Amelia’s, which still rested on his arm; in her distress, it seemed she had forgotten about it. “Don’t fret! I should not take offence. I have taken umbrage at anyone who skirts around my blindness, and now I’m criticising you for treating me normally. It is I who should be apologising.”

“At least you can’t see my embarrassment either, so I should be relieved I suppose, but please believe me when I say that I’m truly sorry,” Amelia repeated.

Alexander smiled, his first genuine smile in a long time. “And I’m glad I can’t see the pitying looks that you speak of. I might have caused a fight if I had.”

“Well, that would certainly have made the evening more interesting,” Amelia said with a longing sigh. “Would you have needed me to direct your punches?”

“Would you have done that for me? That would have been very sporting of you. I can’t imagine it would be much use shadow boxing, not if the other fighter can see. I have faith in my ability but would not like such poor odds,” Alexander said good-humouredly.

“No, you would certainly need a way of being able to improve your chance of winning; it would be foolish to enter into something you are never going to win. One does like a fighting chance in all we face,” Amelia mused entering into the spirit of the conversation.

“Yes, I see the error of my ways in being persuaded to come to a ballroom on my first foray into Society. Critchley can be so persuasive when he wants to,” Alexander said, half to himself.

“I can understand his reasoning; you have been missing from Society for quite a while,” Amelia said. The fact that he did not know who she was giving her the opportunity to be bolder than she would be normally.

“Yes, more than a year,” Alexander admitted. “Although it would seem my friends have not only forgotten where I live but forgotten what I look like,” he said bitterly at the fact that no one had approached him since he had entered the ballroom.

“It’s a harsh way to learn who your true friends are,” Amelia admitted.

“Yes, although I’m even doubting Critchley; he seems to have disappeared,” Alexander muttered. His companion might be charming, but he still felt out of his depth. It was strange to feel so lost when surrounded by so many people.

“I think the fact that you haven’t got golden curls and deep red lips might explain his absence,” Amelia said with a chuckle.

“Ah yes, Miss Stobbard,” Alexander said. “Is she a diamond?”

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