A Forbidden Love (The Forbidden Series) (14 page)

I
looked at the clock on his radio and it was already 2:30 in the morning.

“Damn
the time went by so fast. I wish that happened at work today, it was so slow.”

“Guess
that’s what happens when you’re having a good time. What kind of work do you
do?”

“I
work at a sub shop part time.”

“That
must be fun, making sandwiches for indecisive assholes,” he said with a laugh.

“It
can be, if I have the right crew with me.
You sure you don’t want to come in?”

“If
you really want me too I will, but I can’t stay long, I have a very important
case in the morning.”

“Alright.”

He
locked his car door and followed me inside my complex.

“Be
quiet, I don’t want to wake Lacey.”

It
was our third date and I was ready to give myself to him, if he’d have me. We
quietly walked through my apartment and into my room.

“I’ll
be right back, have a seat on the bed.”

I
went into the bathroom, stripped completely naked, covered my body with my pink
bath robe, and met Lance back in my room. He had a puzzled look on his face at
first, but it didn’t take him long to figure out what was about to happen. I
sat on his lap and helped him remove his jacket and shirt. He ran his hand up
my thigh exposing my naked body underneath the robe.

Flipping
me onto my back he asks, “Are you sure you want to do this?”

“I’m
sure.”

He
slowly peeled the robe from my shoulders and tossed it onto the floor, while
passionately kissing in between my breasts, sending chills throughout my entire
body. His touch was soft, almost subtle against my skin. Leaning over to kiss
me, I held his scruffy jaw in my hands as he gently guided his dick inside of
me.

Clutching
my hips with his hands, he thrust himself in and out of my body. His strokes
made me feel like a lady and not a filthy whore. Lance was a very passionate
lover and I enjoyed every moment we spent together as he made me climax.

We
laid
in bed until his alarm went blaring through my
room at five-thirty in the morning.

“Shit!
I’ve got to get out of here Alecia. I have to be at the courthouse at eight.”
He planted a kiss on my forehead, grabbed his clothes and took off. I followed
him shortly after to lock the doors.

Chapter
11
:
The Decision

I
haven’t heard from or seen Lance since we had sex a couple weeks ago and I’m
actually okay with it. I got what I wanted from him and had a great time while
doing it. Nik was right when she said it would be different this time around.

I
had just got in from work, when my phone rang. A picture of Allan and me showed
up on my screen and I froze where I stood. He had been gone for so long; I
didn’t even know what to say. Before the final ring, I answered.

“Hey
Ice, are you there?” I couldn’t find the strength to respond. I just exhaled
heavily into the phone.

“I
know it’s been a while since I called you.”

“It’s
been a lot longer than ‘a while’ Allan. Why didn’t you call me back or respond
to any of my messages?”

“Honestly,
I don’t know. I just couldn’t, it was easier not to.”

“Fuck
you, Allan. That is the
lamest
excuse I’ve ever heard
in my life. You lead me on to believe that I could at least come to visit you,
yet I’ve been on school vacation twice and you couldn’t even take time out of
your busy schedule to send me a text. Do you have any idea what that did to me?
I fell into a deep depression for months because I couldn’t talk to you. And
guess who was there to pick up the pieces, no one!”

“What
do you want me to say? I fucked up alright, but I do have good news if you’ll
hear it.”

“What?”

“I’m
coming back for good tomorrow and I want you to come see me.”

“I’ll
think about it,” I said while hanging up.

I
can’t believe he’d call me now, after all this time.
I had finally buried him in the
back of my mind and boom here he comes again toying with my heart. I called
Nikki in hysterics and begged her to come over. She lived right down the street
from me and arrived in less than five minutes.

“What’s
wrong Leci?” she said, while trying to console me in her arms.

“Allan
called.”

“Seriously,
what did he want?”

“To
torment me and tell me he’s coming back for good tomorrow.”

“So,
after a several month hiatus he finally decides to call you?
Interesting.”

“I
know right? I went through hell for months waiting for this man and now he just
‘pops’ back up when it’s convenient for him.”

“Well,
what are you gonna do?”

“What
should I do? Part of me wants to strangle him, and the other
part wants to fuck the shit out
of him.”

“Leci,
I know you still love him, just
go
and see what he has
to say. No sex, just adult conversation.”

“What
about Lance?”

“What
about him? When’s the last time you even heard from him? He eliminated himself
from the equation already.”

“Alright,
I’ll give Al a chance and see where we go from there.”

Nikki
stayed with me all night. We decided to have a girl’s night, stuff our faces
with junk food and watch sappy love stories until the sun came up.

“Hey
Leci, I have to go, my shift starts in an hour.” She worked at the local diner
around the corner, as a waitress.

“Alright,
are you sure you have to go?”

“Unfortunately,
my boss will have my head if I call in today.”

“I’ll
let you out then, thanks for staying with me I really needed that.”

“Anytime.
You know I’m always here for
you. Remember, don’t give in right away. Stand your
ground,
he needs to learn you’re not his doormat!”

“I
know. No promises, though.”

If
I was going to see Allan today, I had to try and not let my emotions get the
best of me. He had to earn my trust back and he wasn’t going to get it handed
over on a silver platter.

Me
: Hey, I’m on my way over.

Lover
: Alright, do you want to meet at
the house?

Me
: That’s fine, I have nothing to
be afraid of anymore.

I
obeyed every single posted speed limit, until I arrived at his house, trying to
delay the inevitable as long as I could.

It
was a beautiful spring day and Al was already outside sitting on his semi
broken front steps waiting for me. He reluctantly made his way over to the top
of the paved driveway and patiently waited for me to get out of my car.

This
didn’t seem real. I felt like standing here in front of him was a cruel, sick,
dream I’d awake from any second.

“I
know you hate me right now, and you have every right to be pissed at me, but
I’m glad you showed up.” He extended his hand towards mine and I stepped back.

“It’s
not that easy Allan. I could deal with you leaving, but you completely ignoring
me, that hurt. My heart ached for you.”

“That
wasn’t my plan Alecia.”

“Then
what was your ‘plan’ Al? Because it failed, you know what I’ve been through.
After all the failed relationships and heartache, I gave myself to you!
Everything I did was for you! What were you thinking? That I’d bow down and
forgive you because you said ‘sorry’?”

“No!
Do you want the truth?”

“Yes!”

“The
job in Cali wasn’t right for me. I couldn’t cope with the thought of you ending
up in the arms of another man. The fact that I didn’t even have the balls to text
you a ‘hello’ kills me. I honestly thought if I cut all ties with you, things
would get better, but they didn’t. They got a fuck of a lot worse. I’ve never
been that guy who feels ‘emotion’ and strong ‘love’ for someone. I just fucked
and kept it moving. But, you changed all of that.”

“I
did?”

“And
I won’t lie to you. In San Diego I did fuck someone else. She didn’t mean
anything to me but at the time, she filled the empty void I had in my pants. I
got rid of her after a week though. Did you meet anyone?”

I
didn’t know how to tell him about Lance and part of me didn’t want too since I
hadn’t heard from him in weeks.

“I
met a guy at the club a few weeks back with my friend Nikki.”

“Did
you fuck him?”

A
massive knot formed in my throat when he asked me that. He told me the truth so
I had to do the same.

“Yes,
we fucked.”

He
turned around and punched the wooden light post that was right next to us.

“I
was hoping you’d say no, I didn’t want to hear about another man touching what
belongs to me.”

“Excuse
me? You just admitted to fucking someone else in Cali. And If I ‘belonged to
you’, I wouldn’t have been depressed for fucking months waiting to hear from
you!”

I
smacked him right across his face for the remark he just made.  He looked
me dead in my eyes and fell to one knee in front of me, with tears gathering in
his eyes.

“I
promise that as long as you are in my life, and I’m still breathing, I am
yours, you will always own my heart, Ice.”

I
fought long and hard to hold back the abundance of tears that wanted to escape
from my eyes, until he held me in his arms again. Every emotion that I had ever
felt for him suddenly came rushing back, as if he had never left.

“Al,
I promised myself I wouldn’t let my feelings get in the way, I can’t get hurt
again.”

“You
won’t, I am never leaving again unless I have you by my side.” He placed my
hand inside his, and walked me back to the passenger side door of my car.

“What
are you doing?”

“Taking
my girl out to eat.”

“Al,
I’m not your girl. You have to earn that
privilege,
a
few pathetic apologies aren’t going to be enough.”

“Fine,
but I’m still taking you to the Breakfast Bar, though.”

“I
haven’t been there in ages.”

“Good,
hope you’re hungry.”

I
handed him the keys to my car-and let him lead the way. Once inside, we
engorged ourselves full of pancakes, syrup, omelets, and home fries. I’m glad
he was driving because I was ready to slip into a food coma.

Once
we got back to his place, we were both dead to the world. Neither of us had
woken up again until long after night fall. I always slept better when he was
around me and he did, too.

“Talk
about pure exhaustion, all those months of sleep deprivation finally caught up
to me today,” he said.

“Why
couldn’t you sleep?”

“Because
you weren’t with me, I get my best sleep when you’re in my arms.”

My
eyes started to swell full of tears.

“I
love you, Alecia.”

“I
love you, too.”

“Hey,
where are your keys? I’ll go and grab some dinner.”

“They’re
in the side pocket of my bag. I’m locking the door behind you though, so you
better think of a creative knock to get back in here.”

“If
you don’t want your food to get cold, then you’ll let me back in regardless.”

“True,
but you had still better knock first.”

“Whatever.”

Dressing
himself in an all gray hooded sweat suit, with my keys in tow, he left the room
and shut the door behind him. I quickly locked it and waited for him to return.
No one knew where Jake was and I refused to have any surprises. I ran to the
window and watched Al speed down the street. He was only gone for thirty
minutes at most, but it felt so much longer sitting alone in his room.

Four
quick knocks and a whistle later, I let him back in the room.

“Was
that creative enough for you?” he said, while holding a bucket of chicken, and
two small paper bags.