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Authors: Joseph Boyden

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The government gave her a little money, just as they gave her parents a little. It was strange to realize that, now that
she was free to see her parents, she rarely did. She spoke a different language, liked different things. This fact made her sad sometimes, made her feel as though she'd lost something very important, and when the sadness swelled up from inside her, she blunted it with sugar in its many forms.

For all the pleasant feelings that these sweet things brought her, the Sugar Girl began to notice bad effects. Her teeth were turning brown and hurt her horribly. Her skin had suffered too, as the poor diet ate away at that as well. She noticed that when she didn't eat sugar she felt run down and got horrible headaches. She kept eating it.

On her twentieth birthday, the Sugar Girl's friends gave her her first taste of alcohol. That night she felt once again the way she had as a small girl when she'd been given her first taste of sugar. It made things seem brighter, warmer. It made her happy and made her laugh. It made her forget. She didn't know that alcohol was sugar in its fermented, purer form. “Think of it as candy for adults,” one friend said to her that night, and she laughed and laughed until the tears flowed.

And so it was that alcohol became her new candy. But the effects of this new candy were stronger. She felt its effect soon after she drank it, felt it the next morning. Worse than that, she did things while drinking that she normally wouldn't do. For the first hour or so she and her friends would talk more and laugh more than normal, and that was nice. But when they continued to drink, the laughing turned to sadness or anger. She never knew for sure which way it would go.

She wanted the warm feeling of happiness that first came upon her to last, but the alcohol wouldn't allow it. When the Sugar Girl drank too much and the sadness or anger came, she tried to figure out where it came from. She was angry with the
nuns. They'd threatened her and hit her until she'd become what they wanted. But she didn't really know who or what this new person was that she'd turned into.

There were mornings when the Sugar Girl would wake up sick, never wanting alcohol again. Sometimes there would be a man she knew, or even one she didn't know, lying beside her. On these mornings, the Sugar Girl wanted the life of her childhood back. The fire at night. The sound of her mother singing an old Cree song. Her father's stories, the games with her brothers and sisters. But her parents were too old now to go back and live in the bush, to teach her brothers and sisters how to hunt and trap and make Indian clothing and prepare game for eating. That life was gone.

As those awful mornings turned into afternoons on the reserve where she lived, and her body began to feel better, the Sugar Girl questioned whether she even wanted that old life back. She'd gotten used to and learned to like what the nuns and government had given her. The soft bed, the radio and its music, the food that was as available as the Hudson's Bay store. Life was easy. If she was careful with the money the government gave her each month in exchange for her family's old hunting grounds and life, she could just get by. But there was still the nagging worry, like a mosquito buzz late at night, that her life was missing something.

When the day came that the Sugar Girl found she was pregnant, she thought maybe this was the thing she had been missing. The white doctor informed her that not only was she to have a baby but she had a disease, something wrong with her body and how it dealt with all the sugar she'd consumed since childhood. “You should take better care of yourself,” he said. “Many of your people have this problem. Your bodies can't deal
with the awful diet you subject it to. If you're not careful, if you don't change your ways, it will kill you.”

And so it came to be that the Sugar Girl gave birth to her sugar baby. She gave him a Bible name, in the hope that this would help him in his life with the white people, and raised her boy as best she could. She thought back to her own childhood and what her mother would do when the Sugar Girl was sick or acting up or needed help. But that seemed so long ago. There weren't too many memories of that time left. Sometimes it was easier to do what the nuns had done to her, and spank her boy when he was naughty, and quiet him with candy, and feed him the same things she ate.

For a short time when she was pregnant and when she was breastfeeding her baby, the Sugar Girl felt as healthy and happy as she had as a child. But it wasn't long after that time that she fell into her old ways again. She saw it in the grocery store, at the restaurant, in her home. It had made itself a permanent part of her. It was impossible to separate herself from the thing she had become.

So she raised her child as best she knew how and lived as best as she knew how. But the Sugar Girl got sicker and sicker. The same sugar that had befriended her and comforted her as a child and helped her live as the nuns demanded, was her enemy, had been her enemy from the beginning, eating away at her from the inside out. And by the time it was the son's turn to help look after his mother, he too was taken away to the residential school. The Sugar Girl had lived long enough to feel the same pain her mother and father had felt. The son suffered the fate of a residential school child, and in painful ways, at the hands of certain sick men, that his mother had fortunately never faced.

But legends are not meant to be sad stories only. They are told to express a people's magic, to make victors out of weaklings. The Sugar Girl died, but a part of her was carried on in her son — that good part that the nuns couldn't take out of her, that had been in her all along though she didn't know it.

The Sugar Girl's son was strong. After all, his blood was Cree. He left the residential school and watched it crumble at the hands of the ones who had built it, watched it rot and collapse because of their physical and mental and sexual abuse. The Sugar Girl's son went on to learn everything he could about the dangers that had silenced his mother, and in turn he taught some of his people about the dangers of the sugar disease.

White men gave Indians a lot of gifts. Hockey and electricity, prefab houses, snowmobiles, running shoes, pickup trucks, pavement and reserves.

In turn, Indians gave white men some gifts back. Lacrosse and long hair. Corn and the peace pipe. Names for professional baseball teams. Powwows, Tonto, Custer's Last Stand. Land. Lots of land. Thanksgiving.

It's the gifts that are never mentioned, though, that we all feel the most.

ABITIBI CANYON

W
hen Richard, my second cousin, told me he was here to arrest Remi for suspicion of involvement in the Abitibi dam getting blown up, I laughed at him till his red cheeks blushed purple. Richard's the tribal police sergeant, the big one sent when a drinking party turns violent or there's a standoff between an abusive husband and his wife's brothers. They send him when the situation calls for muscle. We call him the Equalizer. That he was here for Remi, his own blood, it didn't make sense. Remi's the first frog child. He can't comprehend what a dam is for, never mind how to blow it up.

Four of us on the reserve had frog children. You have to have one to be a member of our club.
Anigeeshe awasheeshuk
. The Cree word for them. My son Remi was the first. Born nineteen years ago. Big bulging eyes. Thick, muscled limbs. A long sloping back. His voice a croak. The old ones on the reserve, they named him first.
Aneegishush
. Little Frog. And when more came, over the years, to different women near the Abitibi Canyon,
anigeeshe awasheeshuk
. Frog children.

You see the Abitibi Canyon from the Little Bear Express, appearing like a
windigo
's grave out of the trees, dipping slowly at first, then shooting straight down, the rock cliffs dropping

for a lifetime until the brown water of the river licks them and swallows them up. Long fat pike there. Sturgeon big as my husband, Patrick. Old Isaac Tomatuk, who's dead now, lost part of his finger to a pike there, years back. The odd part is, Isaac swore till he was gone for good that the pike had a man's eyes. No one doubted him. If there's a sacred place still left for us, it's Abitibi Canyon.

Me, I didn't want another after Remi. Not because he looks like a frog. Children are too much work. My life is full enough. I sound selfish now, and I guess I am. I do love Remi. I've fought for Remi. Big fights. Hair pullers. Nose bleeders. Cheek bruisers. It got so that they called me the freight train. No man or woman was safe if they insulted Remi. It soon got, though, that he could defend himself. At least make others think twice when they saw the size of him.

All the trouble, Remi's trouble, began with work in the canyon. The band council had been battling over whether to let the hydro people build a dam for power. It was a big project being proposed. A year of construction. More money than I'd ever heard of was involved. How much the band would ever see was questionable. One side loved the idea — especially the chief, Jonah Koosees. Big money for all of us, he said. New schools. New houses. Prosperity. The down side is that thousands of hectares of traditional land will be swallowed up by water. No more hunting. No control in our own country. Negative environmental impact. My husband, Patrick, he's against. He's on council.
Hookimaw
of the ones who are against Jonah. Give the
wemestikushu
a little, he knows, and they find a way to take it all. Thing is, Patrick's got a lot of history, a lot of examples to back him up. We might lose hunting ground, Jonah said to
Patrick at one meeting, but just think of all the new fishing area we'll gain. Jonah's humour isn't so funny.

This battle has been going on for two years. It's split the community. It's good for our side that more on the reserve are wary of giving so much land away in return for promises. We've seen it before. No one trusts handing over all we have in return for paperwork. That's what treaties are for. Jonah Koosees, he knows he's in a losing battle. Election for chief is in a few months and the majority here don't trust him. The way things are going, my man Patrick will be the next chief.

Me, I'm against it for a more selfish reason. Me and Shirley and Mary and Suzanne, we get up there twice a year to camp with our
anigeeshe awasheeshuk
, where we keep the idea of the Abitibi Canyon Ladies Club alive. It's a simple club. We just leave the reserve behind for a little while and camp with our children up in the canyon. Where else could we meet that has the same meaning to all of us? Strong magic there.

It's pretty much an accepted fact around here. It's what the older ones refer to as a place of power, a place where the manitous live. Lots of boys been sent there by their fathers for a first fast and vision. Many girls for their first blood of womanhood, their strawberry ceremony. Strange lights have been seen there at night. Everybody here knows someone who's seen them. Government men in red parkas came to investigate that. Said it was the northern lights playing tricks. Wasn't no northern lights. It was manitous. Sky children. At least these manitous were. They come out and run around like that when they're unhappy. With what's been going on around the canyon lately, I expect people will see a lot more of them soon.

This one time when Remi was no bigger than a goose, I left him with my mother, his
kokum
, while I went to the bingo.

I still remember winning a hundred dollars. Big money back then. Not anymore. Pots in the thousands now. New cars, snowmobiles, trips to places where snow has never fallen. When I came back, Remi was sleeping on the couch, his sloped naked back shining in the lamplight like a wet piece of driftwood. My mother, she wasn't sleeping. She'd sat up watching Remi, waiting to tell me.

“He spoke,” she said. Nothing new. He'd been putting his mouth around certain words in Cree and English for a whole year. “No,” she said. “He spoke whole sentences. He spoke like that priest does, about water covering the land.” At the time I didn't think much of it. I brought Remi to church since he was born. Had him pray right along with me to keep winning bingo. Maybe he had a gift for repeating. But mother — old school. From then on she had Remi to every medicine man, every circle, every feast, every sweat when his lungs got strong enough. It got so that I teased him, though he couldn't grasp that. Called him
aneegishush dekonun
. Little frog medicine man. He smiles and shows his crooked teeth when I call him this, even now. I like that he likes it.

He spoke strange words for a while, talking like a slow minister on a roll. I remember the first time I myself heard him speak like that. He was six. We'd just fitted him for glasses. Black, thick-rimmed things. He was angry and hated them. “The Lord says, Repent!” he shouted at Patrick and me when we got him home. “Heed my word and be saved!” Then he went back to talking like he always did. Slurred words and lots of smiling. I was never quite sure if he was acting or not, wasn't sure where it came from, but I got used to it. You get used to anything after a while. Right about the time he turned twelve, he quit talking like a minister. We don't know why. He just
went back to being a handicapped kid, his tongue thick when he talked, his mind searching hard for the words.

Mary and Shirley and Suzanne are the three others with
anigeeshe awasheeshuk
. None of those kids ever talked like prophets, though. They are all younger than Remi. All born in the Abitibi Canyon. All of us lived in Abitibi Canyon when our husbands worked on the railroad crew. All of us who had frog children conceived them while we were living there. Doesn't take a genius. Again, government men came in to investigate. These ones had green parkas. Lots of needles. Lots of questions that made the other girls blush. Lots of prodding. Lots more blushing. Results are inconclusive, the government men finally said. Possible coincidence. Possibly eating the same fish poisoned by a sunken Soviet nuclear sub thirty-five hundred kilometres away. Lots of possibilities.

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