The Book of Philip K Dick (1973) (14 page)
Porter yawned. “Am I supposed to orate the whole works? It’ll take hours.”
Jack relaxed, weak with relief. Then he would survive another six months, at least. In that he could bring to a successful completion his discussions with General Ernest Butterford, chief of staff of the armed forces of the United States. He pushed past Thelma and out of the kitchen.
“Where are you going?” she demanded.
“Back to see Butterford again. I’m going to make one more try.”
“You always say that,” Thelma complained peevishly.
“And I always am,” Jack said. Until I’m dead, he thought bitterly, resentfully. Until the half conscious old man lying in the hospital bed at Baltimore, Maryland, passes away or is destroyed to make room for some wounded private carted by boxcar from the front lines, charged by Soviet napalm, crippled by nerve gas, insane from metallic ash-particles. When the ancient corpse was thrown out—and it wouldn’t be long—there would be no more discussion with General Butterford.
First, he descended the stairs to the supply lockers in the basement of the shelter. Doris lay asleep on her bed in the corner, dark hair like cobwebs over her coffee-colored features, one bare arm raised, a heap of clothing strewn on the chair beside the bed. She awoke sleepily, stirred, and half sat up.
“What time is it?”
Jack glanced at his wristwatch. “One-thirty in the afternoon.” He began opening one of the intricate locks that sealed in their supplies. Presently he slid a metal case down a rail and onto the cement floor. He swung an overhead light around and clicked it on.
The girl watched with interest “What are you doing?” She tossed her covers back and got to her feet, stretched, and padded barefoot over to him. “I could have brought it out for you without all that work.”
From the lead-lined case Jack removed the carefully stacked heap of bones and remnants of personal possessions: wallet, identification papers, photographs, fountain pen, bits of tattered uniform, a gold wedding ring, some silver coins.
“He died under difficulties,” Jack murmured. He examined the data-tape, made sure it was complete, and then slammed shut the case. “I told him I would bring this. Of course, he won’t remember.”
“Each time erases the last?” Doris wandered over to get her clothes. “It’s really the same time again and again, isnt it?”
“The same interval,” Jack admitted, “but there’s no repetition of material.”
Doris eyed him slyly as she struggled into her jeans. “Some repetition … it always comes out the same, no matter what you do. Butterford goes ahead and presents his recommendations to the President.”
Jack didn’t hear her. He had already moved back, taken his series of steps along the time-path. The basement, Doris’ half-dressed figure, wavered and receded, as if seen through the bottom of a glass gradually filled with opaque liquid. Darkness, mixed with shifting textures of density, wavered around him as he walked sternly forward, the metal case gripped. Backward, actually. He was retreating along the direction in which the flow itself moved. Changing places with an earlier John Tremaine, the pimple-faced boy of sixteen who had trudged dutifully to high school, in the year 1962 A. D. in the city of Chicago, Illinois. This was a switch he had made many times. His younger entity should be resigned, by now … but he hoped idly that Doris would be finished dressing when the boy emerged.
The darkness that was no-time dwindled, and he blinked in a sudden torrent of yellow sunlight. Still gripping his metal case he made the final step backward and found himself in the center of a vast murmuring room. People drifted on all sides; several gaped at him, paralyzed with astonishment. For a moment he couldn’t place the spatial location—and then memory came, a swift bitter flood of nostalgia.
He was back in the high school library where he had spent much time. The familiar place of books and bright-faced youths, gaily-dressed girls giggling and studying and flirting … young people totally oblivious of the approaching war. The mass death that would leave nothing of this city but dead, drifting ash.
He hurried from the library, conscious of the circle of bewilderment he had left behind. It was awkward to make a switch in which the passive entity was near other people; the abrupt transformation of a sixteen-year-old high school boy into the stern, towering figure of a thirty-year-old man was difficult to assimilate, even in a society theoretically aware of Psionic powers.
Theoretically—because at this date public consciousness was minimal. Awe and disbelief were the primary emotions; the surge of hopefulness hadn’t begun. Psi-powers seemed miraculous only; the realization that these powers were at the disposal of the public wouldn’t set in for a number of years.
He emerged on the busy Chicago street and hailed a taxi. The roar of buses, autos, the metallic swirl of buildings and people and signs, dazed him. Activity on all sides: the ordinary harmless routines of the common citizen, remote from the lethal planning at top levels. The people on all sides of him were about to be traded for the chimera of international prestige … human life for metaphysical phantoms. He gave the cabdriver the address of Butterford’s hotel suite and settled back to prepare himself for the familiar encounter.
The first steps were routine. He gave his identification to the battery of armed guards, was checked, searched, and processed into the suite. For fifteen minutes he sat in a luxurious anteroom smoking and restlessly waiting-as always. There were no alterations he could make here: the changes, if they were to materialize, came later.
“Do you know who I am?” he began bluntly, when the tiny, suspicious head of General Butterford was stuck from an inner office. He advanced grimly, case gripped. “This is the twelfth visit; there had better be results this time.”
Butterford’s deep-set little eyes danced hostilely behind his thick glasses. “You’re one of those supermen,” he squeaked. “Those Psionics.” He blocked the door with his wizened, uniformed body. “Well? What do you want? My time’s valuable.”
Jack seated himself facing the general’s desk and corps of aides. “You have the analysis of my talent and history in your hands. You know what I can do.”
Butterford glanced hostilely at the report. “You move into time. So?” His eyes narrowed. “What do you mean, twelfth time?” He grabbed up a heap of memoranda. “I’ve never seen you before. State what you have to say and then get out; I’m busy.”
“I have a present for you,” Jack said grimly. He carried the metal case to the desk, unsnapped it, and exposed the contents. “They belong to you—go ahead, take them out and run your hands over them.”
Butterford gazed with revulsion at the bones. “What is this, some sort of anti-war exhibit? Are you Psis mixed up with those Jehovah’s Witnesses?” His voice rose shrilly, resentfully. “Is this something you expect to pressure me with?”
“These are your goddamn bones!” Jack shouted in the man’s face. He overturned the case; the contents spilled out on the desk and floor. “Touch them! You’re going to die in this war, like everybody else. You’re going to suffer and die hideously—they’re going to get you with bacterial poisons one year and six days from this date. You’ll live long enough to see the total destruction of organized society and then you’ll go the way of everybody else!”
It would have been easier if Butterford were a coward. He sat gazing down at the tattered remains, the coins and pictures and rusting possessions, his face white, body stiff as metal. “I don’t know whether to believe you,” he said finally. “I never really believed any of this Psi-stuff.”
“That’s totally untrue,” Jack answered hotly. “There isn’t a government on the planet ignorant of us. You and the Soviet Union have been trying to organize us since ‘58, when we made ourselves known.”
The discussion was on ground that Butterford understood. His eyes blazed furiously. “That’s the whole point! If you Psis cooperated there wouldn’t be those bones.” He jabbed wildly at the pale heap on the desk. “You come here and blame me for the war. Blame yourselves—you won’t put your shoulders to the wheel. How can we hope to come out of this war unless everybody does his part?” He leaned meaningfully toward Jack. “You came from the future, you say. Tell me what you Psis are going to do in the war. Tell me the part you’re going to play.”
“No part.”
Butterford settled back triumphantly. “You’re going to stand idly by?”
“Absolutely.”
“And you came here to blame me?”
“If we help,” Jack said carefully, “we help at policy level, not as hired servants. Otherwise, we will stand on the sidelines, waiting. We’re available, but if winning the war depends on us, we want to say how that war will be won. Or whether there’ll be a war at all.” He slammed the metal case shut. “Otherwise, we might become apprehensive, as the scientists did in the middle fifties. We might begin to lose our enthusiasm … and also become bad security risks.”
In Jack’s mind a voice spoke, thin and bitter. A telepathic member of the Guild, a Psi of the present, monitoring the discussion from the New York office. “Very well-spoken. But you’ve lost. You lack the ability to maneuver him … all you’ve done is defend our position. You haven’t even brought up the possibility of changing his.”
It was true. Desperately, Jack said: “I didn’t come back here to state the Guild’s position—you know our position! I came to lay the facts out in front of you. I came here from 2017. The war is over. Only a remnant survives. These are the facts, events that have taken place. You’re going to recommend to the President that the United States call Russia’s bluff on Java.” His words came out individually, icily. “It’s not a bluff. It means total war. Your recommendation is in error.”
Butterford bristled. “You want us to back down? Let them take over the free world?”
Twelve times: impasse. He had accomplished nothing. “You’d go into the war knowing you can’t win?”
“We’ll fight,” Butterford said. “Better an honorable war than a dishonorable peace.”
“No war is honorable. War means death, barbarism, and mass destruction.”
“What does peace mean?”
“Peace means the growth of the Guild. In fifty years our presence will shift the ideology of both blocs. We’re above the war; we straddle both worlds. There’re Psis here and in Russia; we’re part of no country. The scientists could have been that, once. But they chose to cooperate with national governments. Now it’s up to us.”
Butterford shook his head. “No,” he said firmly. “You’re not going to influence us. We make policy … if you act, you act in line with our directives. Or you don’t act. You stay out.”
“We’ll stay out.”
Butterford leaped up. “Traitors!” he shouted as Jack left the office. “You don’t have a choice! We demand your abilities! We’ll hunt you out and grab you one by one. You’ve got to cooperate—everybody’s got to cooperate. This is total war!”
The door closed, and he was in the anteroom.
“No, there isn’t any hope,” the voice in his mind stated bleakly. “I can prove that you’ve done this twelve times. And you’re contemplating a thirteenth. Give up. The withdrawal order has been given out already. When the war begins we’ll be aloof.”
“We ought to help!” Jack said futilely. “Not the war— we ought to help them, the people who’re going to be killed by the millions.”
“We can’t. We’re not gods. We’re only humans with paratalents. We can help, if they accept us, allow us to help. We can’t force our views on them. We can’t force the Guild in, if the governments don’t want us.”
Gripping the metal case, Jack headed numbly down the stairs, toward the street. Back to the high school library.
At the dinner table, with black night lying outside the shelter, he faced the other surviving Guild members. “So here we are. Outside society—doing nothing. Not harming and not helping. Useless!” He smashed his fist convulsively against the rotting wooden wall. “Peripheral and useless, and while we sit here the communes fall apart and what’s left collapses.”
Thelma spooned up her soup impassively. “We heal the sick, read the future, offer advice, and perform miracles.”
“We’ve been doing that thousands of years,” Jack answered bitterly. “Sibyls, witches, perched on deserted hills outside towns. Can’t we get in and help? Do we always have to be on the outside, we who understand what’s going on? Watching the blind fools lead mankind to destruction! Couldn’t we have stopped the war, forced peace on them?”
Porter said languidly, “We don’t want to force anything on them, Jack. You know that. We’re not their masters. We want to help them, not control them.”
The meal continued in gloomy silence. Doris said presently, “The trouble is with the governments. It’s the politicians who’re jealous of us.” She smiled mournfully across the table at Jack. “They know if we had our way, a time would come when politicians wouldn’t be needed.”
Thelma attacked her plate of dried beans and broiled rabbit in a thin paste of gravy. “There isn’t much of a government, these days. It isn’t like it was before the war. You can’t really call a few majors sitting around in commune offices a government.”
“They make the decisions,” Porter pointed out. “They decided what commune policy will be.”
“I know of a commune up north,” Stephen said, “in which the workers killed the officers and took over. They’re dying out. It won’t be long before they’re extinct.”
Jack pushed his plate away and got to his feet. “I’m going out on the porch.” He left the kitchen, crossed through the deserted living room and opened the steel-reinforced front door. Cold evening wind swirled around him as he blindly felt his way to the railing and stopped, hands in his pockets, gazing sightlessly out at the vacant field.
The rusty fleet of cars was gone. Nothing stirred except the withered trees, along the road, dry rustles in the restless night wind. A dismal sight; overhead a few stars glowed fitfully. Far off somewhere an animal crashed after its prey, a wild dog or perhaps a quasi-human living down in the ruined cellars of Chicago.
After a time Doris appeared behind him. Silently, she came up and stood next to him, a slim dark shape in the night gloom, her arms folded against the cold. “You’re not going to try again?” she asked softly.