Twinsequences (A Twisted Twin Series) (11 page)

I
 started
 shaking
 my
 head.
 A
 new
 set
 of
 tears
 filled
 my
 eyes.
 “She
 wouldn’t!
 I
 
mean,
 I
 didn’t
 tell
 her
 I
 liked
 you,
 but
 I
 didn’t
 want
 her
 to
 know.”
 
“Why?”
 
“Why
 what?”
 
“Tell
 me
 why
 you
 didn’t
 want
 her
 to
 know.
 Better
 yet,
 let
 me
 tell
 you
 why
 I
 
think
 you
 didn’t
 tell
 her.
 I
 think
 you
 were
 afraid
 to
 tell
 her
 because
 she
 always
 had
 to
 
have
 what
 you
 had.
 I
 think
 you
 were
 afraid
 she’d
 try
 to
 take
 me
 for
 herself.”
 
What
 a
 douche.
 “Do
 you
 hear
 yourself?
 You’re
 making
 it
 sound
 like
 you
 are
 
royalty.”
 
“Would
 you
 just
 listen?”
 He
 sat
 his
 beer
 down
 and
 grabbed
 my
 hands
 again.
 I
 
started
 to
 pull
 away,
 but
 he
 held
 them
 tighter.
 “You
 know
 I’m
 right.
 Trust
 me,
 I’ve
 
lived
 with
 her
 for
 four
 years.
 All
 she
 does
 is
 take
 what
 she
 wants.”
 
I
 gritted
 my
 teeth.
 “Fine.
 Say
 that
 was
 the
 reason.
 It
 still
 doesn’t
 explain
 why
 
she
 would
 do
 that.
 She
 didn’t
 even
 know.”
 
“I
 thought
 about
 her
 motives,
 too.
 I
 guess
 she
 could
 have
 had
 two
 reasons.
 
She
 could
 have
 just
 wanted
 to
 sabotage
 your
 chance
 of
 happiness
 before
 you
 could
 
have
 it,
 or,
 maybe
 she
 knew
 how
 you
 felt
 without
 telling
 her.
 I
 think
 she
 did
 it
 to
 
spite
 you.”
 
I
 stood
 up,
 pulling
 my
 hands
 away
 from
 him.
 “You’re
 an
 asshole!”
 
He
 chased
 me
 to
 the
 front
 of
 the
 boat.
 When
 I
 was
 cornered,
 I
 had
 to
 turn
 
around.
 “Take
 me
 home
 or
 I
 swear
 I
 will
 jump
 and
 start
 swimming.”
 
He
 just
 stood
 there.
 “You
 wouldn’t!”
 
I
 climbed
 up
 and
 steadied
 myself
 to
 take
 the
 leap.
 I
 was
 so
 angry
 at
 him
 for
 
accusing
 her.
 I
 couldn’t
 see
 his
 sincerity.
 All
 I
 saw
 was
 him
 trying
 to
 swoon
 me
 into
 
believing
 she
 could
 be
 so
 evil.
 
 
I
 felt
 him
 grab
 me
 and
 throw
 me
 over
 his
 shoulder.
 I
 kicked
 and
 screamed,
 
but
 he
 refused
 to
 let
 me
 down.
 Once
 we
 were
 in
 the
 bedroom,
 he
 tossed
 me
 down
 
onto
 the
 bed
 and
 climbed
 on
 top
 of
 me.
 He
 was
 intent
 and
 I
 was
 afraid.
 I’d
 never
 
seen
 him
 look
 the
 way
 he
 was.
 He
 grabbed
 my
 arms
 and
 put
 them
 above
 my
 head.
 
He
 straddled
 me
 with
 his
 heavy
 body.
 I
 couldn’t
 move.
 
“Let
 go
 of
 me,
 Stosh.
 You’re
 scaring
 me!”
 
“I
 don’t
 have
 a
 choice.
 You
 won’t
 listen.
 Why
 can’t
 you
 just
 hear
 me
 out,
 Will?”
 
I
 realized
 he
 wasn’t
 going
 to
 get
 up
 unless
 I
 agreed
 to
 listen
 to
 him.
 I
 didn’t
 
think
 he
 was
 going
 to
 physically
 hurt
 me,
 but
 I
 was
 a
 little
 concerned
 about
 his
 
motives.
 “I’ll
 listen.”
 
He
 leaned
 down
 and
 kissed
 me,
 holding
 his
 lips
 over
 mine.
 I
 turned
 to
 the
 
side
 to
 break
 away.
 I
 hated
 that
 he
 was
 in
 total
 control.
 It
 was
 like
 he
 brought
 me
 
here
 to
 take
 advantage
 of
 me.
 I
 was
 alone
 and
 nobody
 could
 help
 me.
 
 
Was
 this
 the
 same
 man
 that
 I
 had
 always
 been
 in
 love
 with?
 Was
 he
 capable
 
of
 being
 someone
 else?
 Maybe
 my
 sister
 was
 running
 from
 him.
 
“I
 never
 agreed
 to
 go
 to
 Prom
 with
 your
 sister
 until
 she
 started
 crying,
 saying
 
that
 she
 didn’t
 have
 a
 date.
 She
 said
 we
 should
 go
 as
 friends.
 She
 told
 me
 it
 would
 
make
 you
 jealous
 and
 make
 you
 want
 me.
 My
 stupid
 ass
 believed
 her.
 I
 was
 willing
 
to
 pretend
 to
 be
 with
 her,
 if
 I
 had
 a
 chance
 to
 be
 with
 you.”
 
He
 finally
 sat
 up
 and
 stopped
 holding
 me.
 
 I
 didn’t
 try
 to
 move
 away
 from
 
him,
 though.
 “That
 kiss
 outside
 of
 Biology?”
 
“I
 knew
 it
 was
 you
 the
 whole
 time.”
 
The
 butterflies
 were
 back.
 Unless
 he
 was
 really
 a
 twisted
 person,
 his
 story
 
was
 making
 complete
 sense.
 I’d
 always
 wondered
 why
 he’d
 kissed
 me.
 It
 wasn’t
 to
 
put
 on
 a
 show
 for
 the
 teachers.
 He
 wanted
 a
 chance
 to
 kiss
 me,
 not
 Ivy.
 “That’s
 why
 
she
 wasn’t
 mad
 when
 I
 told
 her?”
 
“Now
 you’re
 catching
 on.”
 He
 smiled,
 like
 he
 had
 finally
 made
 some
 ground.
 
“It
 doesn’t
 explain
 how
 she
 ended
 up
 pregnant.
 Obviously
 you
 liked
 her
 
enough
 to
 sleep
 with
 her
 on
 Prom
 night.”
 Saying
 it
 out
 loud
 was
 like
 a
 nail
 being
 
slammed
 into
 my
 beating
 heart.
 
He
 scratched
 his
 head.
 “Willow,
 I
 don’t
 remember
 that
 night.
 I
 remember
 
being
 at
 the
 dance
 and
 us
 being
 invited
 to
 the
 party.
 I
 hated
 being
 there
 with
 her,
 so
 
I
 started
 drinking
 heavily.
 The
 next
 thing
 I
 know,
 it
 was
 morning
 and
 she
 was
 asleep
 
next
 to
 me
 with
 no
 clothes
 on.
 I
 felt
 horrible
 for
 what
 I’d
 done.
 I
 swear
 to
 God
 that
 I
 
never
 wanted
 to
 be
 with
 her.”
 He
 started
 to
 laugh
 a
 little,
 which
 was
 weird,
 
considering
 we
 were
 talking
 about
 something
 so
 serious.
 “It
 turns
 out,
 that
 I
 never
 
did.
 She
 staged
 the
 whole
 thing
 as
 another
 notch
 in
 her
 ultimate
 betrayal.”
 
Even
 I
 started
 to
 laugh.
 “Is
 this
 some
 comic?
 Ultimate
 betrayal?
 I
 can
 believe
 
that
 she
 did
 the
 first
 things,
 but
 this
 is
 going
 a
 little
 too
 far.
 Are
 you
 trying
 to
 get
 me
 
to
 forgive
 you
 or
 something?”
 
He
 got
 up
 off
 the
 bed
 and
 paced.
 “I
 knew
 it
 would
 be
 too
 hard
 for
 you
 to
 
understand.
 I
 didn’t
 want
 to
 have
 to
 show
 you
 this.
 It’s
 going
 to
 hurt
 and
 I
 don’t
 want
 
you
 to
 feel
 that
 way.”
 
He
 pulled
 out
 a
 little
 brown
 book.
 I
 recognized
 it
 immediately,
 because
 I’d
 
gotten
 the
 same
 one
 as
 her
 one
 Christmas.
 “She
 didn’t?”
 
He
 slid
 it
 over
 toward
 me
 on
 the
 bed
 and
 sat
 down
 on
 the
 edge.
 “Willow,
 I
 
have
 never
 lied
 to
 you.
 I
 meant
 what
 I
 said
 earlier.
 I’ve
 never
 stopped
 loving
 you.
 I
 
can’t
 change
 the
 past
 four
 years.
 I
 am
 responsible
 for
 those
 years.
 Had
 I
 have
 known
 
what
 was
 really
 going
 on,
 I
 never
 would
 have
 let
 it
 happen.
 I
 never
 would
 have
 
married
 her
 and
 promised
 to
 take
 care
 of
 a
 child.
 I
 would
 have
 spent
 every
 single
 
second
 doing
 whatever
 I
 had
 to
 do
 to
 make
 you
 fall
 in
 love
 with
 me.
 It
 was
 all
 I
 
wanted.
 It’s
 all
 I
 still
 want.”
 He
 kissed
 me
 on
 the
 top
 of
 my
 head
 and
 stood
 up.
 
“You’re
 going
 to
 be
 reading
 for
 a
 while,
 so
 I’ll
 be
 outside
 when
 you’re
 ready
 to
 talk.
 
Please
 keep
 in
 mind
 that
 I
 was
 also
 a
 victim
 in
 all
 of
 this.
 I
 hope
 you
 don’t
 hate
 me
 
too
 much.
 I’d
 at
 least
 want
 to
 be
 your
 friend,
 if
 that’s
 all
 I
 can
 be.
 I’ve
 missed
 you
 like
 
a
 fat
 guy
 misses
 a
 hamburger.”
 

I
 started
 to
 laugh.
 “I
 missed
 you,
 too.”
 
He
 walked
 away,
 leaving
 me
 staring
 at
 the
 book.
 
I
 traced
 Ivy’s
 name
 on
 the
 front
 and
 the
 words
 ‘keep
 out’.
 Obviously,
 Stosh
 
wanted
 me
 to
 read
 it.
 It
 felt
 wrong,
 but
 I
 had
 to
 know
 the
 truth,
 no
 matter
 what
 it
 
was.
 
I
 took
 a
 deep
 breath
 and
 opened
 it
 to
 the
 first
 page.
 
 
 
 
Chapter
 7
 
Back
 Stabbing
 Bitch.
 
 
We
 got
 the
 little
 books
 when
 we
 were
 fourteen,
 so
 the
 first
 couple
 pages
 
were
 her
 complaining
 about
 her
 hair
 and
 talking
 about
 crushes
 she
 had.
 It
 wasn’t
 
until
 I
 got
 halfway
 in
 when
 things
 became
 apparent.
 
 
Jan
 26
^th
 
 
Once
 again
 my
 parents
 praised
 Willow
 for
 her
 perfect
 report
 card.
 Do
 they
 even
 
pay
 attention
 to
 me
 at
 all?
 I
 kept
 my
 room
 clean
 for
 the
 whole
 month
 and
 they
 never
 
even
 walked
 inside.
 Of
 course,
 little
 Mrs.
 Perfect
 got
 to
 go
 out
 to
 a
 fancy
 dinner
 at
 the
 
country
 club
 with
 dad
 for
 getting
 straight
 A’s.
 Can’t
 they
 see
 that
 I
 need
 help
 with
 my
 
school
 work?
 I
 guess
 they
 only
 need
 one
 child
 to
 make
 them
 proud.
 
 
Feb
 10
th
 
My
 sister
 is
 so
 oblivious
 to
 life.
 She
 hides
 behind
 those
 books,
 like
 she’s
 too
 good
 
for
 everyone
 else.
 Now
 she’s
 all
 up
 in
 that
 new
 guy’s
 ass.
 They
 make
 me
 sick,
 smiling
 at
 
each
 other
 the
 way
 they
 do.
 It’s
 so
 damn
 obvious
 they
 want
 each
 other.
 If
 that
 dude
 
thinks
 the
 Virgin
 Mary
 is
 going
 to
 give
 it
 up,
 he’s
 going
 to
 have
 a
 shriveled
 up
 dick
 
while
 waiting.
 PATHETIC.
 That’s
 what
 they
 are!!!
 
 
I
 was
 already
 crying
 after
 reading
 just
 those
 two.
 I
 couldn’t
 believe
 she
 was
 
saying
 those
 things
 about
 me
 and
 then
 acting
 like
 we
 were
 best
 friends.
 
 
April
 15
^th
 
Shoot
 me
 now!
 I
 hooked
 up
 with
 someone
 at
 a
 party
 and
 I
 can’t
 remember
 
which
 guy
 it
 was.
 Randy
 is
 hotter,
 but
 Ben
 is
 built
 better.
 I
 wouldn’t
 want
 to
 date
 either
 
of
 them
 exclusively.
 Shoot
 me
 now!!
 
 
Why
 does
 this
 always
 happen
 to
 me?
 I
 didn’t
 even
 drink
 a
 lot.
 Maybe
 I
 shouldn’t
 
have
 taken
 the
 ecstasy.
 My
 period
 is
 due
 in
 two
 weeks.
 Hopefully
 I
 get
 it
 and
 this
 
nightmare
 will
 be
 over
 with.
 My
 parents
 will
 kill
 me
 if
 I
 get
 pregnant.
 They
 offered
 to
 
get
 my
 sister
 an
 apartment
 at
 college,
 but
 haven’t
 offered
 me
 shit.
 I
 can’t
 wait
 to
 get
 
out
 of
 this
 Hell
 hole.
 I
 will
 find
 a
 way.
 
 
April
 27
^th
 
I
 have
 got
 to
 figure
 out
 how
 to
 get
 away
 from
 this
 cesspool
 of
 assholes.
 It’s
 
exhausting
 trying
 to
 pretend
 that
 I
 give
 a
 damn.
 Now
 I
 know
 why
 kids
 scheme
 to
 kill
 
their
 parents.
 I’d
 do
 it
 myself
 if
 I
 wasn’t
 scared
 that
 they’ve
 left
 everything
 to
 Willow.
 
It’s
 apparent
 who
 their
 favorite
 is,
 so
 clearly
 they’d
 leave
 me
 on
 the
 street.
 The
 sad
 part
 
is
 that
 Willow
 would
 feel
 sorry
 for
 me
 and
 share.
 Why
 does
 she
 have
 to
 be
 so
 
pathetically
 sweet?
 Ugh!
 I
 hate
 her
 so
 much!
 
 
May
 20
^th
 
I
 am
 
 so
 sick
 of
 hearing
 about
 my
 sister
 getting
 into
 her
 dream
 college.
 Gag
 me
 
please.
 The
 worst
 part
 is
 that
 she
 doesn’t
 know
 if
 she
 wants
 to
 go.
 She
 says
 she
 doesn’t
 
want
 to
 leave
 me.
 I
 just
 want
 her
 gone!
 I
 am
 so
 sick
 of
 living
 in
 her
 shadow.
 I
 want
 my
 
own
 life.
 
 
May
 22
^nd
 
Something
 amazing
 happened
 today.
 Willow
 won’t
 know
 what
 hit
 her.
 I’m
 
going
 to
 get
 that
 little
 bitch
 for
 everything
 she’s
 ever
 taken
 from
 me.
 When
 I’m
 done
 
with
 her
 she’ll
 leave
 and
 never
 come
 back.
 The
 best
 part
 was
 that
 I
 didn’t
 even
 have
 to
 
look
 for
 it.
 It
 came
 looking
 for
 me.
 
 
May
 23
^rd
 
Can
 this
 guy
 be
 anymore
 lame?
 I
 mean,
 who
 wants
 a
 guy
 that
 acts
 like
 an
 old
 
man.
 He
 actually
 opened
 the
 door
 for
 me.
 We
 aren’t
 even
 really
 dating.
 He
 thinks
 I
 am
 
letting
 him
 date
 me
 to
 make
 my
 sister
 jealous
 and
 like
 him.
 What
 an
 idiot.
 
I
 will
 never
 forget
 the
 look
 on
 her
 face
 when
 we
 told
 her
 we
 were
 going
 to
 
Prom.
 She
 looked
 like
 she
 was
 going
 to
 throw
 up.
 
 
I
 hope
 she
 did.
 She
 deserves
 it.
 
I
 wish
 she
 didn’t
 exist.
 
 
She
 gave
 me
 some
 excuse
 for
 not
 wanting
 to
 go
 to
 Prom,
 like
 she
 was
 too
 good
 
to
 be
 acting
 like
 a
 teenager.
 Gag
 me!
 I
 hate
 her
 so
 much.
 
 
May24th
 
Hearing
 my
 sister
 cry
 herself
 to
 sleep,
 never
 gets
 old.
 That’s
 what
 she
 gets
 for
 
making
 me
 cry
 myself
 to
 sleep
 for
 years.
 She
 doesn’t
 know
 what
 it’s
 like
 to
 hear
 her
 
own
 parents
 saying
 that
 she’d
 never
 amount
 to
 anything.
 
 
She’s
 so
 upset
 over
 this
 guy.
 Soon,
 she
 will
 pack
 her
 shit
 and
 leave.
 My
 plan
 
couldn’t
 have
 worked
 out
 better.
 Only
 a
 few
 more
 little
 details
 and
 I’ll
 be
 waving
 
goodbye
 to
 that
 bitch
 once
 and
 for
 all.