Very Much Alive (20 page)

A mirror on the ceiling?

She wasn’t at home. This was most definitely not Foxborough, Connecticut. People in Foxborough didn’t tend to go for red heart-shaped furniture.

Was it real? She gingerly touched the satiny bedspread. It felt real. She got up and looked through the open door, which led to a rather lavish tile and chrome bathroom with a heart-shaped tub. That looked real, too. Tacky, but real.

Unless this was a particularly lifelike dream. She’d had some very lifelike dreams lately, dreams where when she woke up she had to lie in bed and catch her breath for a few minutes before she could remember where she was and who she was. Dreams that were populated by strange, shadowy people, and weirdly intense feelings.

This could be one of those dreams. Except it appeared that she was alone.

Experimentally, she gave herself a hard pinch on the arm. It hurt.

“Wake up,” she told herself. Nothing happened.

“I’m Cassandra Mary Elliot, of 46 Maple Street, Foxborough, Connecticut, USA,” she said aloud. Her voice sounded flat, its loudness absorbed by the shag carpeting. “I’m twenty-one years old, and I am probably dreaming right now.”

Well, she knew who she was, anyway. That was a step up. Unless she wasn’t really Cassandra Elliot of Maple Street, Foxborough, and she was only dreaming that she knew who she was.

Cassandra shook her head. It didn’t do to think too much in dreams. She’d read a book about it recently. You should relax and enjoy and forget about logic and reality.

That decided, she sat down on the heart-shaped bed and looked around her. There was something weird about this room, besides the fact that nobody in Foxborough would be seen dead in somewhere like this, and that she shouldn’t be here either. She couldn’t quite put her finger on it, though.

Instead, she tried to remember what her last waking thought had been. She’d read that sometimes when you fell asleep your brain kept on going over what you had been thinking about and your dreams reflected that.

But the last thing she could remember was sitting in her bedroom, at her desk, half-heartedly studying because she couldn’t sleep. Cassandra looked down at herself; she was wearing her cream satin nightgown and her green Chinese silk bathrobe. Well, she hadn’t been wearing that before. She’d been in flannel pajamas. And there was no way on Earth that she would be wearing this outfit in somebody else’s bedroom; she practically blushed every time she put in on in her own bedroom, where nobody could see her.

So she must be dreaming. It was good she’d got that settled, anyway.

“Hey, hi there.”

A deep voice, slow and drawly and masculine.

Cassandra’s head shot up. And immediately she knew what had been weird about the room on top of its general weirdness, because there was an open door in the room and there hadn’t been any doors before except for the one leading to the bathroom.

But now there was a door open in the wall across from her. And a man standing in it.

Cassandra scrambled further onto the bed, as if it would give her protection. The man was tall and strong-looking. He had long straight brown hair that tumbled over his shoulders and a goatee around his mouth. And he was wearing—this got worse and worse—faded jeans, a black leather jacket, and a black T-shirt that had some rock band’s name printed on it.

“Who are you?” She couldn’t keep the fear out of her voice.

The man regarded her evenly. “My name’s Beauregard B. Bryson, but you might as well call me Beau because everyone does. Is this your place?”

“I—I’m not sure. If it’s my dream, I guess it’s my place. But it’s a little strange.”

Beau nodded, slowly. “Yeah. Well, I’m glad I’m not the only one who feels like they’re having an acid flashback.” He stepped forward and Cassandra retreated a little further back on the bed. It might be her dream, but she wasn’t so sure that he wasn’t a psycho rapist. She’d seen a photograph of a psycho rapist one time in the newspaper and she was pretty certain he’d been wearing a leather jacket and a rock band T-shirt. It might even have been the same rock band he was wearing.

Instead of leaping onto the bed and raping her, he held out his hand. “Guess we’d better get to know each other if we’re dreaming together.”

His hand was big. The nails were short and his fingers looked pink and scrubbed. Cassandra took his hand and shook it as if it were the tail of a rabid raccoon she thought was going to spin around and bite her at any moment. Despite her fear, it felt warm and welcoming.

Beau smiled. “What’s your name?”

If it was a dream, it probably wouldn’t do any harm. “Cassandra.”

“Hi there, Cassandra.” He sat down on the bed beside her. Cassie tried not to breathe too much, but she couldn’t help noticing that he smelled of soap and something minty, like gum. “Do you think we should go have a look around this place and see where the hell we are?”

“I don’t know.” Something occurred to her. “How did you make the door happen?”

As soon as she said it she realized it was a bizarre question, but Beau just nodded and shrugged. “Dunno,” he said. “I thought of there being a door and there it was, and there you were.”

“That’s weird.”

“Yup.”

“Maybe it’s just a coincidence.”

“Maybe.”

“Do you remember how you got here?”

“Nope. Last thing I remember I’d just beat my brother at poker and I was watching a rerun of
Wheel of Fortune
. That’s why I thought it was a flashback. The spinning lights can do that to ya.”

Cassandra nodded, though she wasn’t sure what he was talking about. “Maybe you’re right, we should go and look around and figure out where we are.”

“Can’t hurt,” Beau said amiably. He stood up and offered her his hand again, presumably to help her off the bed. Flustered, she ignored it and slid off the bed by herself. Her bathrobe rode up her legs and she tugged it back down before she stood up. When she looked at him, Beau’s gaze was on her bare legs where she’d just covered them, and she blushed.

“Uh,” he said, and ran his hand through his long brown hair. “I guess we’d better start with that door.” He went to it, still open in the carpeted wall, and waited for her to join him.

Well, if he was going to rape her, it seemed like he’d have done it when they were sitting on the bed together. And really she might as well see what this dream was all about before she woke up. She joined him at the door and they walked out into the corridor together.

It looked like a hotel corridor: long, papered in beige, with sunken lighting and tastefully patterned carpet. Soft music piped in. They walked down the hallway in silence, their footfalls muffled by the carpet. Beau’s legs were much longer than Cassandra’s, but he walked slowly to keep pace with her, and she could smell the clean scent of his hair.

The hallway ended in a single white door. It had a gold handle.

“I guess this is it,” Beau said and he reached out and twisted the knob. Even though Cassandra knew this wasn’t real, she still held her breath with trepidation as he opened the door.

The vast room beyond was lit with a dim blue light. It seemed to be coming from a large transparent blue tube in the centre of the room that stretched from the floor upwards toward a distant ceiling. The walls of the room were invisible, shadowy and too far away to perceive.

“Cool,” said Beau appreciatively and he stepped inside the room. Cassandra followed him, looking down at their shadows, cast long by the light from the hallway behind them.

And then their shadows disappeared along with the light.

Cassandra whirled around. There was nothing behind them but darkness. The door was gone.

“Beau—” she started.

She felt his hand curl around hers. She blinked, and tensed, and the world dissolved around her and then reformed.

They were inside the blue tube. She held out her hand and knocked on the wall of it. It felt like some kind of strong, thick glass. There wasn’t a light source; the walls themselves seemed to be glowing.

“What’s going on?” she asked. Beau was close beside her. The tube wasn’t that wide, but there was enough room for them to stand and move around a little bit.

“Beats me.”

There was a noise, something like a vent opening, and a rush of air. She felt something warm whoosh over her skin and breathed in a smell that seemed familiar somehow. Appealing, exciting.

Heat flushed through her body. But it wasn’t like any heat she’d ever felt before—not like the warmth from sunshine, or an open fire. It came from deep inside her and radiated from her center into her limbs, making her fingers tingle, her breasts feel heavy, her belly melting, sending a pure sizzling lightning bolt between her legs.

“Oh my,” she gasped.

She heard a deep growly sound from next to her and realized it was Beau. She felt Beau like a magnet beside her. She could hear his breathing, hear his heart, feel him warm and big and alive beside her, and she suddenly felt more hungry than she’d ever been in her life.

But not hungry for food. Hungry for him. For Beau.

She turned to look at him and God, he looked good. Tall and strong and handsome. There was a dark light in his blue eyes.

He looked as ravenous as she was.

His tongue moistened his lips and her gaze stuck on his mouth. His lips were full, his tongue pink and wet, and there was nothing in the world she wanted to do more than to kiss him.

She
had
to kiss him. She didn’t care if he was a stranger, or that she didn’t know where they were. She licked her own lips and imagined tasting him there already. It was maddening, tempting, irresistible.

She stepped forward and he met her halfway, wrapping his arms around her and pulling her tight against his hard body. When their mouths met it sent another shock down her spine, and she actually felt her crotch dampen, felt the lips of her sex swell inside her underwear.

She would have blushed if it didn’t feel so wonderful. Her nipples were hard and rubbed against him through the layers of silk she wore, begging for his touch.

His lips were soft and warm, and right away they opened, coaxing hers open too. His tongue traced her lips and dipped inside her mouth, filling her with his masculine taste, and Cassie knew that this wasn’t all she wanted.

She wanted him. All of him. Inside her. His hands on her naked skin, his—his penis. Inside her vagina.

This time, she did blush.

“What’s happening?” she whispered, between kisses. Normally she wouldn’t talk and kiss at the same time. But she didn’t seem to be able to stop, even to find out what was going on. His mouth was too delicious and his body too exciting.

“I don’t know,” he murmured back to her. His voice vibrated against her chest where she was pressed against him, and his facial hair tickled her chin. “But I like it.”

Should she like it, too? She couldn’t be sure; her body’s demands were too strong. She couldn’t stop to think. She didn’t want to. She groaned and pressed herself against him still closer, sucking his tongue into her mouth and biting on his lower lip. She grabbed the front of his leather jacket and pulled him to her as hard as she could, arching her body up into his.

She heard Beau moan and then she felt his hands pushing at her robe, then on her breasts through her nightgown. His fingers tweaked her nipples and she cried out, unprepared for the sensations that zinged the entire length of her body.

“Dang,” he muttered roughly and with a single, swift movement he grasped the neck of her nightie and ripped it open to her waist.

“What are you—” She barely had time to gasp half the question before his lips were at her breast, sucking her nipple deep into his hot mouth, his hand clamped around her.

“Oh!” she squealed as pleasure bolted through her. She looked down and saw the top of Beau’s head, his shiny, long hair. She could see his mouth on her, feel the rasp of his beard against her sensitive skin. His hand was dark against the creamy skin of her breast. The sight of his lips on her and the feeling of his tongue and teeth urgently suckling her, were incredibly erotic.

And I just met him five minutes ago, she thought.

“This dream is amazing,” she gasped.

“It is,” Beau breathed, and he moved to her other breast. This time she could feel the air cooling her wet left nipple as he attacked her right one, and it was as if he was licking both of them at once.

She’d never known it would be so exquisite. But it wasn’t enough. Cassandra’s hands itched to touch Beau. She had a sudden flash of imagining what it would be like to hold his hot, hard rod in the palm of her hand.

She knew what a penis looked like, of course. She’d seen pictures and movies and read descriptions; this was the twenty-first century, after all.

But she’d never before imagined the feeling of one so much that she could actually
feel
it, hot and throbbing and alive in her hand. There would be hair at the base of it. Would it be coarse, like the hair between her own legs, or would it be soft and silky, like the hair on Beau’s head? She let her hand drop to the top of his head and tangled her fingers in the strands.

She pulled him up to kiss her again and this time she was the one who thrust her tongue inside his mouth, her whose hands were fumbling with his clothes. She tried to undo his belt buckle but the angle was unfamiliar, and she tugged without any result.

“Let me do it,” Beau mumbled, and he took one of his hands away from her breasts, the other one still squeezing her. With a deft movement he unfastened his jeans and kicked them and his boxers down his legs, and his cock leapt into her hand.

Even with all her anticipation she was unprepared for how he felt: his length, his girth, his hardness and the softness of his skin. Beau groaned and pushed his penis into the tunnel of her palm. She squeezed him experimentally.

“Darlin’, that feels so good.” He pushed against her, and she stroked him. She should stop, look down, experience this moment fully. She shouldn’t rush this. She—she shouldn’t be doing this in the first place.

He was so big. So strange, so new.

She wanted him inside her. Penetrating her.
Fucking
her.