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“This world is more mysterious than I ever
imagined. When Addie tells me about her dreams, even the ones she
calls “silly,” I see them come true and I know there are things out
there that can never be explained. I wonder if I’m the wolf that
chases her thru the ravines. If I change into one will I change
back, will I hurt Addie or my family? I’ve got to find out what
parts of this folklore are true and not. I was scratched, not
bitten and not killed, which tells me I’m
NOT
a vampire. I
feel like I sound ridiculous thinking any of this could be true,
but blood does revive me, it makes me feel like I have a new lease
on life.”

“I went into my room and peered out the
window at the silvery almost full moon and had to look away; its
brightness burned my eyes. I looked back when the clouds covered it
and admired the golden glow that encircled them. The clouds whipped
past and then I got mad. I felt the pull from it as though the moon
could have something to do with the change. The sky looked so
ominous, the way the clouds shifted over the moon effortlessly
taking away its shimmer for moments at a time. Is it a full moon
tonight? I felt a pang in my chest and fell to my knees, but then
it was gone. I have one more night to go.”

“Not that the moon is my only trigger. When I
get upset it seems to initiate an onset and when I’m with Addie and
I get… or we get involved… it seems to trigger my illness; anything
that heightens my emotions. If I cannot be with Addie in every
sense of the word, I’m not sure she’ll want to be with me. I can’t
seem to bring myself to tell her all these things and I always
engage with her despite knowing the possible consequences. But
after this last incident I hope I have the courage to not let it
get that far next time. I need to confess everything to her, but I
can never bring myself to do it.”

“Assuming Cale is still alive and he is
looking for a cure, I will try and stay alive and find him to get
the help I need. However, I cannot help but want to die every time
the change starts. I wonder if he goes through the same thing I do.
Does he sleep like the dead for a couple of hours after a
transfusion or feeding? Does he have the insatiable hunger I feel
and it worsens with each change? I have a lot of questions that
need to be answered.”

“I’m afraid to tell Addie too many details.
If she finds out I have actually been feeding off animals when
blood transfusions are not available to keep this torture of mine
manageable, will she understand? I’m afraid she’d never want to see
me again, ever. I’m tortured everyday about what I should do, who I
should tell or confide in, and I’m tormented by the fact that I
could possibly hurt someone eventually and …. It’s exhausting. I
have thought about ending my life but Addie seems to make me want
to live and keeps me going, at least for now.”

“If I am a vampire like Addie thinks, I was
infected by being scratched, I wasn’t killed or bitten or even fed
vampires blood and I walk in the sun, eat food and garlic; maybe
I’m not fully changed….or maybe those are all stories, myths….maybe
I really do have some kind of illness. All I know is that Cale
holds the answers for me so I need to find him soon to stop this
insanity… my insanity.”

“Everyone wants to find Cale because of what
he’s done; I would like to find him to find out what’s wrong with
me and find a cure. I wish and pray that Addie could have a dream
and find him for me, but she tells me she can’t control what she
dreams… or better yet maybe my Uncle Grey can track him down. I
hope I can hold out that long.”

“My fear is if Cale’s in the same Hell I am
and he likes having company and there is no cure. No way out, no
light at the end of the tunnel just darkness. Just despair. Will
Addie stay with me after the reality of me biting her sets in.
After I fed from her it was the best I had felt in months.
Everything was brighter felt more exhilarating felt more….. I’m
afraid human blood will be…”

“I guess my next move is to try and find Cale
and his partner along with Cale’s father’s notes from his
experiments. Maybe that will tell us what he did and how to heal
us. Sheila had read the whole list of people’s names that were
experimented on and supposedly they never got sick. Maybe they hid
their illness like I have because no one knows what’s wrong with
me. I’ll have to start a journal myself so I can see the progress
being made, this will be my first. I wonder if there are any
official records in books or news articles, I’ll have to check the
Akron library downtown. This is my new mission in life, to find
Cale and find answers or I may not survive.”

“I looked back at the silvery moon and a pain
struck hard in my chest and quickly spread everywhere. I wanted to
die. I squeezed my eyes shut and remembered how it felt when I bit
Addie, the glorious rush of bliss I felt when her blood hit my
veins, the sheer sensation of pure pleasure and ecstasy and that I
could never do that again, ever. I would die first.”

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Shera Eitel-Casey is a first time novelist
living in the Chicagoland area. A web designer and analyst for the
past 15 years. She started out writing down some good ideas and
eventually it lead to writing a novel. She is now working on her
second novel “The Addie Gellar Series” book 2 the sequel to
“3:17a.m. ...the waking hour”.

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