A Beautiful Mess (18 page)

She slowly started to move her hips in a circular motion, causing his erection to get even harder.

“Happy to see me this morning, Mr. Burnham?” Olivia smirked.

“Why Miss Adler, I’m always happy to see you. Haven’t I made that quite clear?” He let out a small breath as she continued torturing him with her body. “God, Love. I can feel how wet you are through our clothes.” Alexander found it hard to keep his head. He wanted to be intimate with her, but he wanted to be truthful with her first. He didn’t know which one of his heads would win out. He had a feeling it would be the wrong one.

“Well, let’s get rid of them, shall we?” She slowly trailed kisses down his chest and torso, taking her time to enjoy the taste of his skin. Olivia looked up and could see that he barely held it together, desperately looking for release.

She slid his boxer briefs down his muscular legs and he sprung free. Her eyes grew wide as she looked at him and gasped, surprised at his size. He smiled, stroking his erection.

Olivia pried his hand off, her hand taking its place. She slowly lowered her lips to him while staring into his green eyes, taking him in her mouth. He moaned with obvious pleasure as she continued moving her mouth over his length, slow and then fast, and then slow again.

“Fuck, Olivia,” Alexander growled. He couldn’t believe that his Olivia was there. And that she was doing
that
to him. It was so much more spectacular than anything he had ever felt before with any other woman.

Olivia started to pick up the pace. She felt him get harder, tasting the bit of pre-cum that escaped his tip. He wrapped her hair around his hand, helping to guide her as she continued torturing him.

Before long, he felt that familiar sensation, surprised at how quickly he reached that point. Something about Olivia’s mouth and tongue on his most sensitive part made him feel things that he never thought possible. “I’m going to come,” he breathed, warning her. She looked up at him, continuing her relentless motion. He gazed at her, wide-eyed, knowing what that meant. She gently barred her teeth, pushing him over the edge, and he released into her mouth as she continued to suck on him, the sensation overwhelming his entire body. He shuddered as he began coming down from his orgasm, trying to remember the last time anyone had made him feel that good. “Fuck,” he exhaled, giving one last jerk.

Olivia slowly crawled back up to him when he grabbed her, throwing her on her back and kissing her deeply, their tongues engaged in a passionate dance. Alexander was so incredibly turned on. He could taste him and Olivia. It was an intoxicating combination.

He released her and Olivia tried to catch her breath. Alexander collapsed next to her and they both laid on their backs, attempting to slow down their breathing after such an intense moment.

“Fuck,” he breathed again.

“You’ve got that right, Mr. Burnham.” She turned and smiled at him. She didn’t know what had come over her. She would normally never do that for anyone, but there was something about Alexander that made her want to please him. She felt amazingly satisfied.

“Oh, Olivia. What am I going to do with you?” he asked, running his hand up and down her stomach.

“You keep saying that. What are you going to do with me?” She raised an eyebrow and leaned in, kissing him softly on his mouth. He pulled her in toward him, wrapping his arms around her small frame. She nuzzled against his chest and fell back asleep, listening to the rhythm of his breathing.

Several hours later, Alexander begrudgingly got out of bed, needing to get into the office. Olivia walked him to the door to say good-bye. “I’ll miss you this weekend.” She embraced him, taking in his scent. She wasn’t looking forward to her weekend without him.

He looked down at her and gave her a deep kiss. “I’ll be thinking of you every day, Love,” he said sweetly. He pulled out of the embrace and looked out front where there were two black SUVs parked, just like the night before. Olivia wondered if they were out there all night. When his eyes returned to her, Alexander’s expression was serious. “Carter is out front keeping an eye on things. I have two of my best men coming over this afternoon to install your security system. If you need to run any errands, Carter will escort you. Do you understand, Olivia? This is just for today.”

“Yes. I understand. I just have an appointment at eleven, and then I was planning on going to the gym to work out.”

“All that’s fine. You can do whatever you need to do, just do not go anywhere without Carter. I cannot emphasize that enough.”

God. Why is he treating me like a child?
Olivia thought. “I got it, you overbearing ogre.” She winked.

He glanced down at her, a menacing look on his face. “Oh, you have no idea how overbearing I can be, Love.” He embraced her again and she was back in his arms. She never wanted to leave those arms. She could have died happy at that moment. He planted an affectionate kiss on her forehead before leaning down and quietly whispering, “I’m always going to protect you, Olivia.” He turned to leave, closing the front door behind him.

Olivia’s heart started racing, remembering her dream, that boy’s voice, and those green eyes.

“M
ISS
Adler, ma’am. Where can I escort you to?” Carter asked as Olivia locked her front door later that morning before heading to her appointment with Dr. Greenstein. Carter was big, black, and very no-nonsense. Olivia wondered whether Alexander had anyone working for him that couldn’t bench-press five hundred pounds.

“Um, hi. You can call me Olivia. Libby. Whatever.” It wasn’t the first time she had an escort. Her uncle had usually insisted on her having a chauffeur when she was growing up. Of course, that had become a point of contention between the two of them as she got older and wanted more independence to do whatever she wanted. Plus, she never really liked telling people what to do.

She immediately thought of all the romance novels she had read, having her very own escort ordered by her hot, rich, handsome whatever he was. She giggled before regaining her composure.
Carter must think I’m crazy
, she thought to herself.

“I have an appointment at the Prudential Center. I was just going to walk.” She didn’t live that far from the Prudential Center and she loved walking through the streets of Boston. Olivia thought there was no reason for Carter to drive.

“Ma’am, I have very strict orders from Mr. Burnham to drive you wherever you need to go. It’s just a precaution.” Olivia realized that she wasn’t going to win that battle and she didn’t want to disappoint Alexander so early on in their relationship, if it was a relationship.

“Okay,” she said, walking down her front steps toward the idling SUV. In a matter of minutes, they arrived at the Prudential Center. Carter proceeded to park in the underground garage.

He intercepted Olivia as she left the car to go into the center and up to her appointment. “Ma’am. I need to escort you into the building. Again, just a precaution. This should all be over by the end of today.” She could tell that Carter knew she wasn’t a fan of being subjected to constant security, but Olivia bit her tongue.

“Okay. But, just so you know, I have an appointment with my shrink. That’s where I’m going.” His face remained fixed with no reaction. He was probably trained to be rather discreet. “I guess that’s better than having to accompany me to the gyno, huh?” She nudged him in the elbow as they walked into a waiting elevator, trying to get a laugh out of him.

He smiled at her. “Yes, ma’am. It definitely is better.” He chuckled.

“This is her office,” Olivia said as they stepped out of the elevator, nodding toward the office immediately in front of them.

“I’ll wait out here,” Carter said after assessing the arrangement. The doors to the doctor’s office were all glass, so he would be able to keep her in his sights while she waited for her appointment to begin. And since she was seeing her therapist, he figured it would be good to give her some semblance of privacy.

 
When Olivia walked through the doors into the reception area, she received a warm greeting. “Olivia. It’s wonderful to see you again.” Dr. Greenstein had been waiting for her by the receptionist’s desk. She was a middle-aged woman with short blonde hair and a tall frame. “Come on in.” She followed the doctor into her office.

It didn’t look like a typical shrink’s office. It was large with floor-to-ceiling windows, black tile floor, and several comfortable white couches with green, orange, and yellow accent pillows. Dr. Greenstein had great decorating style.

She sat at an oversized white chair, motioning for Olivia to have a seat on the couch in front of her. “So, what brings you back to me, Olivia?”

“Well, I figured it was time.” She laughed.

Dr. Greenstein picked up a notepad and a pen, looked at her patient, and said, “Do you think? What was the reason for you calling me? It’s been quite a while.”

“Yeah. Several years. I know.”

“So, tell me. What’s going on?”

“Well, I met this guy.” Olivia smiled as she proceeded to give Dr. Greenstein a general overview of what had been going on in her life recently. About how she would refuse to get into a relationship with anyone, but would hook up on occasion. She talked about Simon and how she met Alexander. She mentioned that she asked him to stay over the previous night.

“And how do you feel about that?”

She hated that question and her doctor knew it. “I don’t know how I feel about it.” Olivia glared.

“Okay, okay. Sorry. But we need to discuss your feelings, Olivia. What was going through your mind when you asked him to stay over? You’ve said that you never let guys stay over your place. If they were invited over, you would kick them out after sex. So, why Alexander?”

“Hold on. We haven’t had sex.”

“Okay. So you haven’t been intimate yet.”

“I didn’t say that,” she interrupted the doctor. “I mean, we’ve done some things, just haven’t had sex yet.”

“Hmmm… And do you think that’s why you don’t have a problem with him staying over?”

“No. I mean, I want to have sex with him. But, I don’t know. We seem to be taking our time and I’m actually enjoying it. It’s weird. Normally I just want to jump straight to sex so I can kick the guy out of my bed.” Olivia looked down as she fidgeted with her skirt. She hated talking about her sexual habits with her doctor. Unfortunately, it was necessary for her to do so.

“Well, the act of sex is an intimate act, but you haven’t made it so. When you jump right into things, you skip over the act of forming a bond with another individual. You use sex as a coping mechanism while, at the same time, keeping your subjects at arm’s length so that you don’t get attached. What is it about Alexander?”

Olivia looked up and met the doctor’s eyes. “I don’t know. Before me, he would kind of do the same thing I did, but I think his reasons are vastly different from mine. He doesn’t have these attachment issues like I know I do. But now, I don’t know. He said he wants more with me. He’s sweet. He cares about me. He’s always trying to protect me. He’s incredibly sensual.” Olivia’s face flamed just thinking about some of the things he had said. “He’s very gifted with words.” That was the best way she could think to say he liked to talk dirty.

A smile crept across Dr. Greenstein’s face. “So he’s prolonging the seduction and you’re enjoying it.”

“Yes. Definitely.” She was absolutely enjoying every fantastic minute.

“Olivia,” the doctor said, removing her reading glasses from her face. “You, unfortunately, had your parents taken from you at such a young age. You never had the means to learn how to form a relationship with someone. You were so traumatized by that event that you pushed everyone away. When you were older and discovered sex, you wanted that without the emotional attachment. Now, you’re experiencing a slow seduction for the first time. Most of us have experienced that early on in our development. Granted, early on, it’s not necessarily about sex. But later in life, our bodies crave that release, so it becomes a slow seduction, which can sometimes last years before the actual act of intercourse.

“You need to embrace this. Enjoy it. Go for the ride and face your fears. Don’t worry about whether Alexander will ever leave you or be taken from you. We can’t control those things. But you can control your actions. If you want to have a meaningful relationship with this man, and it sounds like you do, don’t push him away. Let him in. You’re a beautiful, intelligent young woman. Let him fall in love with you. And keep yourself open to fall in love with him in return.”

Olivia looked down. That woman was good. She was definitely worth every penny. Dr. Greenstein glanced at her watch. “Oh, I’m sorry, dear. We’re out of time for today. We’ll pick up again on Tuesday.” She led Olivia toward her office door before giving her a gentle hug. “It’s great to see you again, Olivia.”

She turned to leave the office and really put some thought into what the doctor said.
I’ll tell her about my dreams next time
, Olivia thought to herself.

~~~~~~~~~~

Shortly after she finished eating lunch that afternoon, Olivia heard a gentle knock on her door. Looking out the peephole, her heart fluttered when she saw Alexander standing there, a sexy smirk on his face.

She quickly opened the door and he swept her into his embrace. Olivia had missed that man and she had only been away from him for a few hours. “Miss me, Love?”

“You have no idea,” she replied into his chest. He pulled back, giving her a chaste kiss on her mouth. “My security team is here to install your system.”

“And I’m such a high profile client that the big boss man had to come supervise?” Olivia batted her eyelashes at Alexander.

He curved toward her, softly saying, “You are Burnham and Associates’ number one priority, Miss Adler.” He stepped aside to allow two gentlemen in the house to install the state-of-the-art security system Alexander had selected.