A Christmas Bride / A Christmas Beau (42 page)

And he remembered again that visit from her father putting an end to it all. Just the memory made the bottom fall out of his stomach again.

Yes, he would be happy. Or satisfied, at least. Justice would have been done.

K
ATE WAS ASLEEP
on Amy’s lap, a fistful of Amy’s cloak clutched in one hand. Rupert should have been asleep but was not. He was fretful and had jumped to the window twenty times within the past hour demanding to know when they would be there.

Judith did not know when they would be there. She had never been either to Denbigh Park or to that part of the country before. All she knew was that it would be an enormous relief to be at the end of the journey but that she wished she could be anywhere on earth but where she was going.

Her anger had not abated since the afternoon during which she had been trapped into accepting this invitation. But she had been forced to keep it within herself. Amy was quite delighted by the prospect of spending Christmas in the country after all, part of a large group of people. And the children were wildly excited. Judith had voiced no objections, realizing how selfish she had
been to have decided against spending the holiday with Andrew’s family that year.

Amy of course was delighted not only by the invitation but also by what she considered the motive behind it.

“Can you truly say,” she had asked after the marquess had left the house, “that you no longer believe he has a
tendre
for you, Judith? Do you still refuse to recognize that he is trying to fix his interest with you?”

“I do not know why he has asked us,” Judith had said, “but certainly not for that reason, Amy.”

Her sister-in-law had clucked her tongue.

But Judith had lain awake for a long time that night. He had said that he had waited eight years for a second chance with her. He had called her by her given name. He had kissed her hand, something he had done several times during their betrothal.

She could not believe him. She
would
not believe him. And yet her breath had caught in her throat at the sound of her name on his lips and she had felt the old churning of revulsion in her stomach when he had kissed her hand.

Except that it was not revulsion. She had been very young and inexperienced when they were betrothed. She had called it revulsion then—that breathless awareness, that urge to run and run in order to find air to breathe, that terror of something she had not understood.

She had called it revulsion now, too, for a couple of weeks, from mere force of habit. But it was not that. She had recognized it for what it was at the foot of the stairs when he had kissed her hand. And the realization of the truth terrified her far more than the revulsion ever had.

It was a raw sexual awareness of him that she felt. A sort of horrified attraction. A purely physical thing, for she did not like him at all—and that was a gross understatement. She disliked him and was convinced,
despite his words and actions, that he disliked her, too. She distrusted him.

And yet she wanted him in a way she had never wanted any man, or expected to do. She wanted him in a way she had never wanted Andrew, even during those weeks when she had been falling in love with him and contemplating breaking a formally contracted betrothal. In a way she had never wanted him even after their marriage during that first year when she had been in love—the only good year.

And so if the Marquess of Denbigh was trying to punish her—and it had to be that—then he was succeeding. She was a puppet to his puppeteer. For the wanting him brought with it no pleasure, no longing to be in his company, but only a distress and a horror. Almost a fear.

Amy closed her arm more tightly about Kate and reached up for the strap by her shoulder. Rupert let out a whoop and bounced in his seat. The carriage was turning from the roadway onto a driveway and stopping outside a solid square lodge house for directions. But the coachman’s guess appeared to have been right. The carriage continued on its way along a dark, tree-lined driveway that seemed to go on forever.

“Oh,” Amy said, peering from her window eventually. “How very splendid indeed. This is no manor, Judith. This is a mansion. But then I suppose we might have expected it of a marquess. And then, Denbigh Park is always mentioned whenever the great showpieces of England are listed. Is that a temple among the trees? It looks ruined.”

“I daresay it is a folly,” Judith said.

The house—the mansion—must have been built within the past century, she thought. Or rebuilt, perhaps. It was a classical structure of perfect symmetry, built of gray stone. Even the gardens and grounds must be of recent design. There were no formal gardens, no parterres, but
only rolling lawns and shrubberies, showing by their apparent artlessness the hand of a master landscaper.

Their approach had been noted. The front doors opened as the carriage rumbled over the cobbles before them, and two footmen ran down the steps. The marquess himself stood for a moment at the top of the steps and then descended them.

And if she had had any doubt, Judith thought, tying the ribbons of her bonnet beneath her chin and drawing on her gloves and cautioning Rupert to stay back from the door, then surely she must have realized the truth at this very moment. Something inside her—her heart, her stomach, perhaps both—turned completely over, leaving her breathless and discomposed.

And angry. Very angry. With both him and herself. He looked as if he had just stepped out of his tailor’s shop on Bond Street, and there was that dark hair, those harsh features, those thin lips, the piercing eyes and indolent eyelids. And she was feeling travel-weary and rumpled. She was feeling at a decided disadvantage.

The carriage door was opened and the steps set down and the marquess stepped forward. Rupert launched himself into his arms—just as if he were a long-lost uncle, Judith thought—and launched into speech, too. The marquess set the boy’s feet down on the ground, rumpled his hair, and told him to hurry inside where it was warm. And he reached up a hand to help Judith down.

“Ma’am?” he said. “Welcome to Denbigh Park. I hope your journey has not been too chill a one.”

She was more travel-weary than she thought, she realized in utter dismay and mortification a moment later. She stepped on the hem of her cloak as she descended the steps so that she fell heavily and clumsily into his hastily outstretched arms.

A footman made a choking sound and turned quickly away to lift down some baggage.

“I do beg your pardon,” Judith said. “How very clumsy of me.” There was probably not one square inch on her body that was not poppy red, or that was not tingling with awareness, she thought, pushing away from his strongly muscled chest.

“No harm done,” he said quietly, “except perhaps to your pride. Is the little one sleeping?” He turned tactfully away to look up at Amy, who was still inside the carriage. “Hand her down to me, ma’am, if you will.”

Judith watched as he took Kate into his arms and looked down at her. The child was fussing, half asleep, half awake.

“Sleeping Beauty,” the marquess said, “there will be warm milk waiting for you in the nursery upstairs, not to mention a roaring fire and a rocking horse. But I daresay you are not interested.”

Kate opened her eyes and stared blankly at him for a few moments. Then she smiled slowly and broadly up at him while Judith felt her teeth clamping together. A long-lost uncle again. How did he do it?

“Do let me take her, my lord,” she said, and felt his eyes steady on her as she relieved him of his burden.

He turned to help Amy down to the cobbles.

“What a very splendid home you have, my lord,” Amy said. “It has taken our breath quite away, has it not, Judith? Are we not all fortunate that there has been no more snow in the past week? Though of course it is cold enough to keep the ice on the lakes and rivers. I do declare, it must be the coldest winter in living memory. And it is only December yet.”

“I have snow on order for tomorrow or Christmas Eve,” Lord Denbigh said. “And plenty of it, too. It cannot fail, ma’am, now that all my guests have arrived.
And it has been trying so hard for the past two weeks or more that it surely will succeed soon.”

He had taken one lady on each arm and was leading them up the front steps and into the tiled and marbled great hall with its fluted pillars and marbled galleries. And if the approach to the house had not taken one’s breath away, Judith thought, then this surely would. The hall was two stories high and dwarfed any person standing in it.

And yet it was unexpectedly warm. Fires blazed in two large marble fireplaces facing each other at either side of the hall.

The Marquess of Denbigh presented his housekeeper, who was standing in the middle of the hall curtsying to them and smiling warmly from a face that must boast a thousand wrinkles, Judith thought, and turned them over to her care. Mrs. Hines smiled with motherly warmth at Rupert, clucked over Kate, and led them all upstairs to their rooms.

Tea would be served in the drawing room, she told them, after they had refreshed themselves. She would return to conduct them there in half an hour’s time.

The children had been put into the care of a very competent nurse, who had been provided by the marquess. Judith sank down onto a small daybed at the foot of the high four-poster bed in her room and blew out two cheekfuls of air.

So it had begun. A week’s stay at Denbigh. The final week of her punishment, doubtless. There was a week to live through before she could make arrangements to return to her own home in Lincolnshire and try to begin normal life again.

A week was not an eternity. It was a shame that it had to be the week of Christmas so that her first Christmas free of Andrew’s family was to be ruined after all. In fact, it was more than a shame, it was infuriating. But
nonetheless it was only a week. She must fortify herself constantly with that thought.

She frowned suddenly. All his guests had arrived, he had said. Where, then, were all the children he had promised Rupert and Kate? Had he lied to them on top of everything else?

She straightened her shoulders suddenly as there was a tap on her door and Amy’s head appeared around it.

“Are you going to change your frock, Judith?” she asked. “Or are you just going to wash your hands and face?”

“Oh, let us change by all means,” Judith said, getting briskly to her feet. She had already made a disaster of an opening scene—her mind touched on her clumsy stumble and the firm security of his arms and chest, and veered away again. At least she would face the next one in a clean and fresh dress and with combed hair. “There is a maid in my dressing room, unpacking my things already.”

“Yes, and in mine, too,” Amy said. “I shall see you shortly, then, Judith.” She withdrew her head and closed the door again.

Yes, shortly, Judith thought, drawing a deep breath and walking through into the dressing room.

“W
E WERE FACING
that much-dreaded experience,” Lady Clancy was telling Judith during tea in the drawing room, “a Christmas alone. Why is it, I wonder, that no one would dream of pitying a married couple for having to spend any other day of the year alone in each other’s company whereas any number of people would consider it a dreadful fate on that one particular day?”

“Perhaps because Christmas is for families and sharing,” Judith said.

“Oh, undoubtedly,” Lady Clancy agreed. “Clement
and I have been assuring each other since November that it will be delightful to spend one quiet holiday free of our daughter and her family. But of course it was mere bravado, and Max saw that in a moment. He always does. His home is always filled with lonely persons at Christmas—first at his other home and now here. Not that I am for a moment suggesting that you are one of that number, Mrs. Easton. Your two children are upstairs? They must be weary after the journey. Carriages and children usually do not go well together.”

Filled his home with lonely persons? Judith thought as she answered Lady Clancy’s questions. That did not sound at all like the Marquess of Denbigh as she knew him.

“He used to fill his house to overflowing,” Lady Clancy said. “But last year and this there have been fewer invited guests because he has been taking in the children for the holiday. I daresay it will be very noisy once they arrive. I am not sure whether to look forward to it or to plan my escape tomorrow. But we have had plenty of warning, of course. And I like the idea. I really do admire Max more than I can say for actually doing it instead of merely talking about the problems as most of us do. Are you in any way apprehensive about your children’s mingling with them, Mrs. Easton?”

Judith looked at her companion, mystified. “Lord Denbigh mentioned that there would be children here,” she said. “But where are they? And who are they?”

“He has not told you?” Lady Clancy laughed. “How naughty of him. They are children from the streets of London, Mrs. Easton, children who had no homes and no prospects for the future except perhaps a noose to swing from eventually. They are housed in the village and fed and clothed and taught. The older ones will be trained eventually to a trade and I am sure Max will see to it that they find suitable positions. From what I
have heard, they also enjoy a great deal of recreation and merriment. They will be here, staying at the house, for Christmas.”

“Ten boys and ten girls,” the marquess’s voice said from behind Judith’s shoulder. She had not heard him come up. “And a more boisterous score of youngsters you would not wish to meet, ma’am. Did I neglect to explain to you in London who the children were? I did mention the children, did I not?”

He seated himself close to Judith and Lady Clancy and proceeded to engage them both in conversation. His manner was amiable, Judith found. He seemed at ease, relaxed. The country and his home apparently suited him.

Lonely persons? She had been introduced to everyone in the drawing room. Lord and Lady Clancy were without their daughter and her family that year and would have spent Christmas alone. The Misses Hannibal, his aunts, were elderly ladies, both spinsters, who would perhaps not have been invited anywhere else. Sir William and Lady Tushingham she did not know. But she remembered Mr. Rockford. She had been slightly acquainted with him during her come-out Season. Andrew and his friends had used to make ruthless fun of the man because no one could listen to him talk without falling soundly asleep after three minutes if they suffered from insomnia, they had used to say.