Authors: Wilbur Smith
Robyn went back down the ladder, past her own cabin and down the companionway to the after quarters. She reached Mungo St John's quarters and tried the door. Once again it slid open easily, she stepped through and closed it behind her again.
It took her only a few minutes to find the case of pistols in the drawer of the teak desk. She opened it on the desk top and took out one of the beautiful weapons. The mottled Damascus steel barrels were inlaid with bright gold, a hunting scene with horses and hounds and huntsmen.
Robyn sat down on the edge of the bunk, held the weapon muzzle-up between her knees while she unscrewed the silver powder flask and measured the fine powder into the cup. It was a familiar chore, for Zouga had spent hours in her instruction. She rammed the charge down into the long, elegant barrel under the felt wad, and then selected a perfect sphere of lead from the ball compartment of the case, wrapped that in an oiled patch of felt to give it a close fit in the rifled barrel and then rammed it down on top of the powder charge.
Then she reversed the pistol, pointing it down at the deck while she fitted one of the copper percussion caps over the nipple of the breech, drew back the hammer until it clicked at full cock, and laid it on the bunk beside her. She did the same with the other pistol, and when they were both loaded and cocked, she placed them on the edge of the desk, butts towards her, ready for immediate use.
Then she stood and, in the centre of the cabin, lifted her skirts around her waist and loosened the draw string of her drawers. She let them fall to the deck, and the air was cool on her naked buttocks so that she felt the little goose pimples rise on her skin. She dropped her skirts and picked up the cotton under-garment. Holding it across her chest she tore it half through and threw it across the cabin, then she took the fastenings of her bodice in both hands and ripped them down almost to her waist, the hooks and eyes hung on the torn threads of cotton.
She looked at herself in the polished metal mirror on the bulkhead beside the door. There was a lustre in her green eyes and her cheeks were flushed.
For the first time in her life, she thought her image beautiful â not beautiful, she corrected herself, but proud and wild and strong as an avenger should be. She was glad he would see her like this before he died, and she lifted her hand and rearranged one of the thick tresses of hair that had broken free of its retaining ribbon.
She sat back on the bunk and picked up a loaded pistol in each hand, she aimed first the one and then the other at the brass handle of the door, and then laid them in her lap and settled down to wait.
She had left her watch in her own cabin so she could not tell how long she waited. The voices and laughter from the officers' saloon were completely muffled by the closed door, but every time a plank creaked or some part of the ship's gear clattered, her nerves sprang tight and she lifted the pistols to cover the doorway.
Then suddenly she heard his footsteps, there was no mistaking them for any other man aboard. They reminded her somehow of a caged leopard pacing its bars, quick, light and alert. He was on the deck above her, but the footsteps were so close that it seemed he was in the cabin with her. She looked up at the deck, swinging her head slightly to follow his turns from one side of the quarterdeck to the other.
She knew what he was doing, she had watched him on a dozen other nights. First he would talk quietly with the helmsman, checking the slate on which the ship's course was chalked before going back to inspect the log trailing astern. Then he would light one of his thin black Havana cigars and begin pacing the deck, with his hands clasped in the small of his back as he walked, darting quick glances up at the trim of his sails, studying the stars and the clouds for signs of change in the weather, pausing to feel the scend of the sea and the run of the ship under him before pacing on again.
Suddenly the footsteps stopped and Robyn froze, the moment had come. He had paused to flip the stub of his cigar over the rail and watch it fizzle into darkness as it hit the surface of the sea.
There was still time for her to escape, and she felt her resolve weaken. She half rose. She could still reach her own cabin if she moved now, but her legs would not carry her across the cabin. Then she heard his footsteps cross the deck above her with a different tread. He was coming down. It was too late.
Almost choking on her own breath, she sank back on to the bunk and lifted both pistols. They wavered uncertainly and she realized that her hands were shaking. With a tremendous effort she stilled them. The door slammed open and Mungo St John stooped into the cabin, and then stopped as he saw the dark figure and the twin barrels that menaced him.
âThey are loaded and cocked,' she said huskily. âAnd I will not hesitate.'
âI see.' He straightened slowly, so the dark head just brushed the deck overhead.
âClose the door,' she said, and he pushed it closed with his foot, his arms folded on his chest, and that mocking half-smile on his lips. It made her forget her carefully rehearsed speech, and she stuttered slightly, and was immediately furious with herself.
âYou are a slaver,' she blurted, and he inclined his head, still smiling. âAnd I have to stop you.'
âHow do you propose doing that?' he asked with polite interest.
âI am going to kill you.'
âThat should do it,' he admitted, and now he smiled, a flash of white teeth in the gloom. âUnfortunately they would probably hang you for it, if my crew didn't tear you to pieces before that.'
âYou assaulted me,' she said. She glanced at her torn drawers lying near his feet and then with the butt of one pistol touched her torn bodice.
âA rape, by God!' Now he chuckled aloud, and she felt herself blushing vividly at the word.
âIt's no laughing matter, Captain St John. You have sold thousands of human souls into the most vile bondage.'
He took one slow pace towards her and she half rose, panic in her voice.
âDon't move! I warn you.'
He took another pace and she thrust both pistols towards him â at the full stretch of her arms.
âI shall fire.'
The smile never wavered on his lips and the yellow flecked eyes held hers steadily as he took another lazy pace closer.
âYou have the most beautiful green eyes I have ever seen,' he said, and the pistols shook in her hands.
âHere,' he said gently. âGive them to me.'
He took the two gold-worked barrels in one hand and turned their muzzles upwards, pointing them at the deck above them. With the other hand he gently began to open her fingers, untangling them from trigger and butt.
âThis is not why you came here,' he said, and her fingers went slack. He took the pistols out of her hands and uncocked them before laying them back in their velvetlined nests within the rosewood case.
His smile was no longer mocking, and his voice was soft, almost tender as he lifted her to her feet.
âI am glad you came.'
She tried to turn her face away, but he took her chin between his fingers and lifted it. As he brought his mouth down to hers, she saw his lips opening, and the warm wet touch was a physical shock.
His mouth tasted slightly salty, perfumed with cigar smoke. She tried to keep her lips closed, but the pressure of his own lips forced them gently open and then his tongue was invading her. His fingers were still on her face, stroking her cheek, smoothing her hair back from her temples, touching lightly her closed eyelids â and she lifted her face higher to his touch.
Even when he slowly unfastened the last hooks of her bodice and eased it down off her shoulders, her only response was to feel the strength go out of her thighs so she had to lean against his hard chest for support.
Then he lifted his mouth from hers, leaving it empty, cooling after the warmth and she opened her eyes. With a sense of disbelief, she saw that his head was bowing to her breast, and she was looking down on the thick dark curls that covered the back of his neck. She knew it must stop now, before he did what she could hardly believe he was about to do.
When she tried to protest, it was only a whimper in her throat. When she tried to seize his head and thrust it away from her, her fingers merely curled into the springing crisp curls the way a cat claws a velvet cushion, and instead of thrusting him away, she drew his head down and arched her back slightly so that her breasts rose to meet him.
Yet she was unprepared for the feel of his mouth. It seemed as though he were about to suck her very soul out through the swollen, aching tips. It was too strong, she tried not to cry out, remembering that the last time she had done so, it had broken the spell â but it was too strong.
It was a sobbing choked-up little cry, and now her legs gave way under her. Still holding his head she sagged backwards on to the low bunk, and he knelt beside the bunk without lifting his mouth from her body. She arched her back and raised her buttocks off the bunk at his touch and allowed him to draw out her billowing skirts from under her and drop them to the deck.
Suddenly, he pulled abruptly away and she almost screamed to him not to go away again â but he had crossed to the door and locked it. Then, as he came back to where she lay, his own clothing seemed to fall away from his body like morning mist from mountain peak, and she came up on one elbow to stare at him openly. She had never seen anything so beautiful, she thought.
âThe devil is beautiful also.' A tiny inner voice tried to warn her, but it was far away and so small that she could ignore it. Besides it was too late, far too late to listen to warnings now â for already he was coming over her.
She expected pain, but not the deep splitting incursion that racked her. Her head was flung back and her eyes flooded with the tears of it. Yet even in the stinging agony of it there was never a thought to reject this stretching, tearing invasion and she clung to him with both her arms about his neck. It seemed that he suffered with her, for except for that single swift deep stroke, he had not moved, trying to alleviate her agony by his utter stillness, his body was rigid as hers, she could feel the muscles taut to the point of tearing, and he cradled her in his arms.
Then suddenly she could breathe again, and she took in air with a great rushing sob, and immediately the pain began to change its shape, becoming something she could not describe to herself. It started as a spark of heat, deep within her, and flared slowly so she was forced to meet it with a slow voluptuous movement of her hips. She seemed to break free of earth and rise up through flames, that flickered redly through her clenched eyelids. There was only one reality â and that was the hard body that rocked and plunged above her. The heat seemed to fill her until she could not bear it any longer. Then at the last moment when she thought she might die of it, it burst within her and she felt herself falling, like a tumbling leaf, down, down, at last, to the hard narrow bunk in a half-dark cabin in a tall ship on a winddriven sea.
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hen next she could open her eyes his face was very close to hers. He was staring at her with a thoughtful, solemn expression. She tried to smile, it was a shaky unconvincing effort.
âPlease don't look at me like that.' Her voice was even deeper, more husky than it usually was.
âI don't think I ever saw you before,' he whispered and traced the line of her lips with his fingertip. âYou are so different.'
âDifferent from what?'
âDifferent from other women.' His reply gave her a pang.
He made the first movement of withdrawing from her, but she tightened her grip on him panic-stricken at the thought of losing him yet.
âWe will only have this one night,' she told him, and he did not reply. He lifted one eyebrow, and waited for her to speak again.
âYou don't dispute it,' she challenged. There was that mocking little smile beginning to curl his lip again, and it annoyed her.
âNo, I was wrong, you are like all other women,' he smiled. âYou have to talk, always you have to talk.'
She let him go, as punishment for those words. But as he slithered free of her she felt a terrible emptiness and she regretted his going fiercely, beginning to hate him for it.
âYou have no God,' she accused him.
âIsn't it strange,' he chided her gently, âthat most of the worst crimes in history have been committed by men with God's name upon their lips.'
The truth of it deflated her momentarily, and she struggled into a sitting position.
âYou are a slaver.'
âI don't really want to argue with you, you know.' But she would not accept that.
âYou buy and sell human beings.'
âWhat are you trying to prove to me?' He chuckled now, further angering her.
âI'm telling you that there is a void between us that can never be bridged.'
âWe have just done so, convincingly,' and she flushed bright scarlet down her neck on to her bosom.
âI have sworn to devote my life to destroy all you stand for,' she said fiercely, pushing her face close to his.
âWoman, you talk too much,' he told her lazily, and covered her mouth with his own, holding her like that while she struggled, gagging her with his lips so her protests were muffled and incomprehensible. Then when her struggles had subsided he pushed her easily backwards on to the bunk and came over her again.
In the morning when she woke, he was gone, but the bolster beside her was indented by his head. She pressed her face into it and the smell of his hair and of his skin still lingered, though the heat of his blood had dissipated and the linen was cool against her cheeks.
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he ship was in the grip of intense excitement. She could hear the voices from the deck above as she scurried down the empty passageway to her own cabin, dreading meeting a member of the crew, or more especially meeting her brother. What excuse could she have for being abroad in the dawn, with her cabin unslept in and her clothing torn and rumpled?