A Fine Dark Line (25 page)

“Just a little,” she said. “By the way. I got the time, but I forgot to see what’s showing.”

What was showing was
Frankenstein—1970,
starring one of my favorites, Boris Karloff. The main show was
Touch of Evil,
starring Charlton Heston and Orson Welles. Looking back, it was a strange mixture, but the Palace hadn’t quite gotten down the art of arranging double features.
Frankenstein—1970
would have been better served at the drive-in.

We used the free passes James gave us, and once inside, Callie immediately tried to spot James, but he was nowhere to be seen.

I could tell she was disappointed, but the idea of seeing a new movie for free was exciting enough to make her forget
about it. The air-conditioning was welcome. The day had already started to swelter.

We sat in our seats waiting for the lights to go down and the movie to come up. I said, “Did you really kill a blue jay?”

“I did,” Callie said. “I really didn’t think I would hit it. I wanted to try. I love baseball, and I wanted to see if I could throw. I don’t know why they don’t have girls’ baseball. Mom said during the war they had women’s baseball. She said she saw a game. Another thing, Drew said girls didn’t play baseball because it was hardball and girls could get hurt. That doesn’t make any sense. Boys get hurt.”

“Girls are weaker than boys,” I said.

“You’re weaker than me.”

She was right on this matter. I decided to be silent.

The lights went down. A newsreel was shown as part of the Saturday morning kid show. It was an old reel from the war, well dated. I have no idea why it was shown. All I remember about it was the announcer saying “. . . Japs come out of their holes on Iwo Jima . . .”

Next came cartoons. Road Runner and Coyote. We laughed our way through that one. Then came the kids’ show,
Frankenstein—1970.

Then came
Touch of Evil.
Unlike today, the price of one ticket took care of it all. You could sit through the kids’ show, the main feature, usually a double feature (not this time since
Touch of Evil
was lengthy), and when it played again, you could sit through that, watch whatever was shown until the show closed up. That way you could see the kids’ feature, a double feature, and another cartoon twice. It was a great way to spend a day and thirty-five cents.

When the movie was over, I stopped by the rest room. When I came out, there was James talking to Callie. James was grinning so wide his teeth looked like a piano row.

“Jim says he’ll show me how the projector works,” Callie said.

“We have one at home,” I said. “I can show you.”

“This one’s a little different,” James said. “It’ll only take a minute. Why don’t you go over to the concession, get whatever you want, tell them I said so. You want anything, hon?”

“No, I’m fine.”

Hon? That was quick. He was already talking to her like she was a steady date.

“Just be a minute,” Callie said.

“All right,” I said.

I went over to the concession, realized I wasn’t really in the mood for anything. I was still full and there was plenty of this stuff back at the drive-in. I stood near the wall next to the door and looked outside.

It was bright out there, and after the darkness of the theater, it was like a white-hot slap. I blinked until I could see again.

A light drizzle had come while we were watching the movie. It was long gone, but the streets steamed with condensation. Cars rode over it as if they were floating on cotton or clouds.

Bored of watching, I finally went over to the concession for something to do. I asked the girl working there if I could have a Coke. I told her James had sent me and that he said it was okay.

She went about drawing the Coke quickly, as if it was the foulest thing she had ever done. When she set it on the counter for me to take, I realized she was the girl who had been behind the counter before.

“He with your sister?” she said, smacking gum.

“He’s showing her how the projector works.”

She snorted. “That’s not all he’s showing her.”

“What does that mean?”

She snorted again. “You’re too young.”

I wasn’t as young as I was supposed to be. Not anymore. Not after this summer. I had a feeling go through me like red-hot needles. I left the Coke where it was and started walking to the door that led into the projection area.

The girl called, “You want this Coke, or not?”

I opened the door and found myself in a short dark hall with stairs in front of me. There was one little light there, and it was just enough you could see the stairs.

I went up the stairs. On the right was a wall, on the left a little runway and the booth. From the runway I could look down and see people in the balcony. Even in the shadows, I could see they were all colored people. I could see beyond the balcony and the front of the white customer rows. I could see the screen and I could hear the projector hum. Inside the projection room I could hear a muffled sound and something banging against the wall.

I stood there not knowing exactly what to do, but I finally made an executive decision. I went over to the booth and tried to open the door, but it was locked.

I said, “Callie.”

“Go away,” James said. “We’ll be out.”

His voice was barely audible, sounded as if it were muffled by pillows. The booth was near soundproof.

I kicked the door, kicked it hard.

“Get Daddy,” Callie said. “Get—” and then her voice was muffled.

I banged my shoulder against the door, and I started to yell Callie’s name.

I did this two or three times, then the door opened quickly, and James grabbed me and pulled me in and shut the door.

“Shut up. You’ll disturb everyone. I ought to knock the shit out of you.”

I looked and saw the projector clicking away, its little light glowing blue in there, and in the blueness of it I saw Callie against the wall. The front of her blouse had two buttons snapped off. I saw then that James had marks down his face. They ran from just below his eye to the bottom of his chin.

“What are you doing?” I said.

“You’re too young to know,” he said.

Callie hustled toward me. When she got to the door, she said to him, “Don’t ever come near me. You hear? My daddy finds this out. And he will. He’ll break every bone in your body.”

James moved closer, laughed a little. “It probably wouldn’t have been any good anyway. Some cross-the-tracks stuff. Drive-in trash. You little tramp. You’re nothing but a tease.”

Callie slapped him and stomped on his foot. He bent down and tried to say “bitch,” but it didn’t come out right.

Callie grabbed my arm and we went out and down and into the lobby, her holding the top of her blouse against her.

As we went by the concession, the girl there said, “Hey, girlie. He likes it rough, don’t he? And let me tell you something. He gets it once, he doesn’t want it twice. I know.”

The Coke was still on the counter. Callie picked it up, flung it in the girl’s face. “It doesn’t surprise me you know,” Callie said, and we went out into the sunshine.

We walked to the car, and when she was behind the steering wheel, she put her head on it and began to cry and shake.

“Did he hurt you, Callie?”

“He put his hand inside my blouse, the bastard. I scratched his face and I kicked him in his things. What hurts, Stan, is he thought I would let him. He always thought that, from the first time he saw me. I guess I did lead him on, teasing like that. But I didn’t tease about . . . Well, you know. I just flirted. I . . . Oh, Stan. I don’t know what I did.”

“Whatever it was,” I said, touching her arm, “he didn’t have cause to do that.”

She sat up and wiped her face with the back of her hand and drove home.

———

B
ACK AT THE HOUSE
, in the drive, Callie collected herself.

“Are you going to tell Daddy?” I said.

“I don’t think I should. I don’t want him to know I was—”

“You weren’t doing anything. He offered to show you how the projector worked.”

“I don’t care how a projector works. I wanted to be with him . . . Not that way . . . He’s older and cute, and I thought, well . . . I don’t know what I thought. Oh, Drew isn’t going to like this either. I like Drew. I shouldn’t have been playing around like that. I wanted to prove to you I could get the information you wanted. But I don’t know I really meant to do that. I was . . . I feel so . . . cheap.”

“You’re not cheap. You fought him, didn’t you?”

“I did.”

“Did it surprise him when you fought back?”

“Sure did. He tried to kiss me and I didn’t let him. Lots of guys try to kiss me, so that was nothing, and I wasn’t mean about it. I just said something like, ‘Uh uh.’ Then he put his hands on me and I slapped him. He didn’t like that. He slapped me and I clawed his face. He grabbed my shirt, tore the buttons, said he’d do what he wanted. But I kicked him, and he went to his knees. He just got up when you came. I was ready to fight some more, but I’m glad you came and I didn’t have to. It was near soundproof up there. That’s why he took me up there. That way if I yelled, wasn’t a thing anyone could do about it. They wouldn’t hear me unless they were standing
right outside the door. I’m glad you came, Stanley. I’m really glad.”

“Me too.”

Callie took a tissue from the glove box and worked on the makeup that had run from her eyes. She wiped her smudged lipstick off. She put on fresh makeup and pulled her blouse together where the buttons had come loose.

“I never knew things were like this,” she said.

“Me neither.”

“I look okay?”

“Except for the blouse . . . And you look a little hangdog. I was you, I’d go straight for my room.”

“That’s what I plan.”

———

I
NSIDE
, Rosy was on the couch reading a magazine. She stood up when we came in, realized she was caught not working. She smiled, then her smile went downhill. She studied Callie.

“What happened to you, Miss Callie?”

“Happened?” Callie said. “Oh, nothing. You mean my blouse? I caught it myself. With my hand. Stupid thing. I—”

“Miss Callie, you lyin’ to me.”

“Rosy. How dare you.”

“Some man done had his hands on you.”

“What are you talking about, Rosy? I can’t believe—”

“I know, ’cause I been there enough I can tell. I can tell jes’ the way you hold yo’self. You ain’t at yourself, and I can tell.”

“Rosy, you’re being foolish.”

Rosy stepped forward and lightly slapped Callie on the side of her face.

Callie looked up in astonishment, put her hand to her cheek.

“I don’t mean to do more of what’s already done, but I’m doin’ it for your own good. You don’t be keepin’ this to yo’self. Don’t do what I done. Man don’t need to be puttin’ his hands on you. You ask yo’ mama. Yo’ daddy don’t treat her that way. Was it that Drew?”

Callie suddenly burst into tears. “No,” she said.

“He hit you?” Rosy said, taking Callie in her arms.

“It wasn’t him,” I said. “It was James Stilwind.”

Rosy nodded, guided Callie to the couch. Daddy came into the room, looked at me standing by the door, Callie on the couch with Rosy. Rosy was holding Callie, rocking her, saying, “It gonna be all right, girl.”

“What in hell happened?” Daddy said.

No one answered.

Mom came into the room. “Why is Callie crying? Callie?”

Mom went over and sat on the couch so that Callie was between her and Rosy. Callie came loose of Rosy and hugged Mom.

Mom said, “Tell me, Callie.”

“Listen to your mother,” Daddy said. “Tell her . . . Who ripped your shirt? Callie?”

“Leave her alone, Mr. Stanley,” Rosy said. “She got to take her time.”

Daddy looked at me. “What happened, Stanley? You damn well better tell me. One of you better.”

“Mr. Stanley, you go on and leave the room,” Rosy said.

“What?” Daddy said. “Are you talkin’ to me?”

“I’m lookin’ at you, ain’t I?” Rosy said.

“Now, Rosy—”

“Now, you listen to me. I’m grateful for all you done for me. But am I part of this family, or ain’t I?”

Daddy groped for words, didn’t find any.

Callie said between tears, “You are, Rosy. You are.”

“She is,” Mom said.

“Well . . . yeah,” Daddy said.

“Then I got a say that matters, don’t I?” Rosy said.

“Sure,” Daddy said, “but—”

“No buts. You don’t need to be in this business yet. This is for the women. Then, we’ll tell you when you need to know.”

“If someone has hurt my little girl, I need to know,” Daddy said.

“You gonna find out soon enough,” Rosy said. “Now go on and leave.”

Daddy looked at me, said, “What about him?”

“He knows already,” Rosy said. “Now go on.”

Daddy, perplexed, turned and left the room. I heard him go outside on the veranda.

“Callie?” Mom said. “Can we have the story now? What could be the matter?”

Callie told her.

When she finished, Mom said, “If we tell your father, and we must, you know what’s going to happen.”

“He’ll beat James up,” Callie said.

“Kill him maybe,” Mom said. “That’s what worries me. You weren’t raped. But you were mistreated.”

“I flirted.”

“Women flirt,” Mom said. “That’s what we do. A young girl like you, that’s all you do. It comes with being sixteen, and it doesn’t stop there. It goes on until your charms are rusty.”

“Or they just run off and leave you,” Rosy said.

“I am so sorry,” Callie said.

“You ain’t done nothin’, honey,” Rosy said, and patted Callie on the back.

“No, you haven’t,” Mom said. “But your daddy might. I don’t know exactly how to handle this. Tell you what. Go
upstairs, clean up, and when you come down, I’ll have thought of something.”

“And I’ll fix you some cookies,” Rosy said.

In our family, food was always thought of as medicine.

Callie went upstairs. Mom said to Rosy: “I’m tempted to tell Stanley right now, and have him get that man.”

“You know Mr. Stanley kill that man, don’t you?”

“I said as much.”