A Great Unrecorded History: A New Life of E. M. Forster (57 page)

51
“I came towards the end”:
Forster,
Goldsworthy Lowes Dickinson
, 25.

51
“in a lecture”:
Forster, “My Books and I,” ms., KCC.

51
“He tells me that I might write”:
Ibid.

52
“What the public really loathes”:
Forster, “Author’s Note to
Maurice
,”
Maurice
, 220.

52
“I’m an unspeakable of the Oscar Wilde sort”:
Forster,
Maurice
, 134.

52
“Rubbish, rubbish!”:
Ibid.

53
“associated with action”:
Leonard Woolf,
Sowing
, 160. Here he is quoting Keynes.

53
“We were at an age when”:
Keynes,
My Early Beliefs
, 81.

53
“Are crocodiles the best of animals?”:
Beauman,
Morgan
, 85fn.

53
“Is self-abuse bad as an end?”:
Ibid., 85.

53
“suddenly lifted an obscure accumulation”:
Leonard Woolf,
Sowing
, 161.

53
“We should have been very angry”:
Keynes,
My Early Beliefs
, 86.

54
“nicknamed him the Taupe”:
Leonard Woolf,
Sowing
, 188.

54
“the elusive colt of a dark horse”:
Keynes,
My Early Beliefs
, 81.

54
“He was strange, elusive, evasive”:
Leonard Woolf,
Sowing
, 187.

54
“a streak of queer humour”:
Ibid.

54
“Strachey issued [an] edict”:
Keynes,
My Early Beliefs
, 84.

55
“jockeying to procure [the] election”:
Wilkinson,
A Century of King’s
, 51.

55
In Dickinson, Morgan:
Forster, “Author’s Preface” to
Goldsworthy Lowes Dickinson
, xxii.

55
“tended to inhabit the university”:
E. M. Forster,
Goldsworthy Lowes Dickinson
, 28.

55
“rope . . . people in to get ideas”:
Ibid., 83.

56
“a thin veil of melancholy”:
Forster, “Author’s Preface” to
Goldsworthy Lowes Dickinson
, xxi.

56
“My sister has a bone to pick”:
Forster,
Goldsworthy Lowes Dickinson
, 46.

56
“the only man who could”:
Furbank,
E. M. Forster
, I:79.

56
a “maieutic” gift:
Forster,
Goldsworthy Lowes Dickinson
, 89.

56
“teaching . . . could not be distinguished”:
Ibid., 85.

58
“Baedeker-bestarred Italy”:
EMF to Wedd, Dec. 1, 1901, KCC; quoted in editor’s introduction to Forster,
A Room with a View
, ix.

58
“Our life is where we sleep”:
EMF to GLD, March 25, 1902, KCC; quoted ibid.

58
“the hotels are comfortable”:
EMF to Dent, Oct. 22, 1901, KCC; Lago and Furbank, eds.,
Selected Letters
, I:46.

59
“Philip could never read”:
Forster,
Where Angels Fear to Tread
, 12.

59
“M is much quieter”:
ACF to Louisa Whichelo, May 19, 1902, KCC.

59
“took her to buy butter dishes”:
Karen Arrandale to author, May 6, 2008.

59
“never saw anybody so incapable”:
ACF to Louisa Whichelo, Nov. 3, 1901, KCC.

59
“Now I am older I understand”:
EMF, Diary, Jan. 22, 1953, KCC.

59
“I missed nothing”:
EMF, Diary, Oct. 10, 1901, KCC.

60
“[C]herish the body”:
EMF, “Museo Kichneriano,” ms., KCC.

60
Even the tourist venues:
EMF, Diary, Oct. 20, 1901, KCC.

60
“I’ve tried to invent realism”:
EMF to GLD, Dec. 15, 1901, KCC; Lago and Furbank, eds.,
Selected Letters
, I:51.

60
“Perugia would be nicer”:
Ibid.

60
“Traveling does not conduce”:
EMF to GLD, March 25, 1902, KCC.

60
“all females”:
EMF to Wedd, Dec. 1, 1901, KCC; quoted in editor’s introduction to Forster,
A Room with a View
, x.

61
“It is not what happens”:
Furbank,
E. M. Forster
, I:91.

61
“Where all is obscure and unrealised”:
Forster,
Maurice
, 12.

61
“I would bring some middle-class Britishers”:
Forster, “Three Countries,” in
The Hill of Devi
, 290.

61
“down on the theme”:
Forster, “Introduction to the 1947 edition of
Collected Short Stories
,” in
The Machine Stops
, xv.

62
“disquieting smile”:
Forster, “The Story of a Panic,” in
The Machine Stops
, 8, 11, 15.

62
“Then he showed Maynard”:
Forster, “My Books and I,” ms., KCC. Transcribed in
The Longest Journey
, 300–306.

63
“no thought of sex”:
Forster, “My Books and I,” ms., KCC.

63
“because he thinks”:
Ibid.

63
“I watch my own inaction”:
EMF to Dent, Jan. 25, 1902, KCC.

63
“Would you care”:
George Trevelyan to EMF, May 9, 1902, Trinity College, Cambridge. Quoted in Furbank,
E. M. Forster
, I:94.

64
between the two “monsters”:
Forster,
Maurice
, 193.

64
“I am afraid I enjoy”:
EMF to Dent, Oct. 30, 1902, KCC.

64
“rational enjoyment and hard work”:
Davies,
The Working Men’s College
, 30.

64
“demanded more practical subjects”:
Fieldhouse,
A History of Modern British Adult Education
, 31.

65
He remained a romantic: Week-Day Poems
was the title of Meredith’s collection, published in 1911. He based his poems on the experiences of the men he taught in the Working Men’s College, and on the streets of London. He wrote poems titled “The Motor-Bus,” “The Bank Holiday,” “Wages,” “In the Parks,” and “Seen in a Railway Station.” The Poem “Ages of Man” begins:

We children in our crowded home
Had little food to eat,
Our breeding was the right to roam
And scavenge in the street;
My brothers died, my sister died,
And I grew all accurst,
With pigeon breast, with surly pride,
With hunger and with thirst.

65
“a horror of people”:
HOM to Bertrand Russell, July 1903, quoted in Furbank,
E. M. Forster
, I:140.

66
“I’ve made my two discoveries”:
EMF, Diary, Dec. 31, 1904, KCC.

66
“I think I am dead”:
HOM to Maynard Keynes, April 1906, quoted in Furbank,
E. M. Forster
, I:141.

66
“something unimagined, indefinable”:
Forster, “The Road from Colonus,”
The Machine Stops
, 78.

66
“depressing thing to look”:
EMF to J. T. Sheppard, n.d., KCC; quoted in editor’s introduction to Forster,
A Room with a View
, x.

67
“to advocate sanity in”:
Forster,
Goldsworthy Lowes Dickinson
, 96.

67
“the woman of today”:
Forster, “Pessimism in Literature,” in Thomson, ed.,
Albergo Empedocle
, 135.

67
Lucy thinks she is safe:
EMF to Robert Trevelyan, Oct. 28, 1905, Lago and Furbank, eds.,
Selected Letters
, I:83.

68
“I do not resemble”:
EMF, Diary, Dec. 13, 1907, KCC.

69
“little bit of ivory”:
Deirdre Le Faye, ed.,
Jane Austen’s Letters
(New York: Oxford University Press, 1997), 323.

69
“question I am always discussing”:
EMF to George Barger, July 27, 1899, Lago and Furbank, eds.,
Selected Letters
, I:31.

70
“Each time I see those Greek things”:
EMF, Diary, March 13, 1904, KCC.

70
“I’d better eat my soul”:
EMF, Diary, March 21, 1904, KCC.

71
He was not interested in being a “case study”:
Grosskurth,
The Memoirs of John Addington Symonds
, 19.

71
“an idea for an entire novel”:
EMF, Diary, July 18, 1904, KCC.

72
“the heart of our island”:
Forster,
The Longest Journey
, 126.

72
“The fibres of England”:
Ibid.

72
“gray and wiry” grasses:
Ibid., 125.

72
As antiquities go:
Forster, “Author’s Introduction” to
The Longest Journey
(1960), lxvii;
The Longest Journey
, 125.

72
“the whole system”:
Forster, “My Books and I,” ms., KCC.

73
Morgan called this feeling:
Ibid.

73
“nothing—still one”:
Forster, “Author’s Introduction” to
The Longest Journey
(1960), lxvii.

73
“pull at a pipe”:
Ibid.

73
“caught fire up on the Rings”:
Ibid.

73
“In that junction of mind”:
Ibid., lxvi.

73
“that the English
can
be”:
EMF, Diary, Sept. 12, 1904, KCC.

74
“I created, I received, I restored”:
Forster, “Author’s Introduction” to
The Longest Journey
(1960), lxvii.

74
the Cambridge . . . “which I knew”:
Ibid., lxviii.

74
“Figsbury Rings became”:
Ibid., lxvii.

74
“I walked out
again
”:
EMF, Diary, Sept. 12, 1904, KCC.

74
“great wisdom”:
Ibid.

75
Twice more, on Monday:
Ibid.

75
“Charles Sayle wipes his glasses”:
Forster, “My Books and I,” ms., KCC.

75
With reluctance, years later:
Forster, “Author’s Introduction” to
The Longest Journey
(1960), lxvii–lxviii.

76
“because he would have been”:
Forster, “My Books and I,” ms., KCC.