A Kiss of Shadows (29 page)

Gran hugged me again. “But poison coming from your hands does prevent you from being a blooded royal guard, doesn't it?”

“Well . . . yeah. But as long as you avoid the blood royal, there are women who are willing.”

“In the Unseelie court I could believe it.”

I looked at her.

She had the grace to look embarrassed. “I'm sorry, Merry. That was quite uncalled for on my part. I apologize. I should know better than most that there isn't that much to choose from between the two courts.”

“I need to get to the hotel, Gran.”

She walked me to the door, arm around my waist. “You be careful tonight, child, very careful.”

“I will be.” We stood staring at each other for a second or two, but what could we say. What can you ever say? “I love you, Gran.”

“And I you, child.” There were tears in those lovely brown eyes. She kissed me with those thin lips that had always touched me with more gentleness and love than my mother's beautiful face or lily white hands. Her tears were hot against my cheek. Her hands clung to me as I began to walk down the stairs. We tore away from each other, fingertips trembling in a last touch.

I glanced back many times to watch that small brown figure at the top of the stairs. They say not to look back, but if you're not sure what lies ahead, what else is there but looking back?

Chapter 23

 

THE HOTEL HAD ALL THE CHARM OF A FRESHLY OPENED BOX OF KLEENEX
. Functional, somewhat decorative, but it was still a generic hotel with all the sameness that that implied.

We stepped through the lobby doors, Barinthus and Galen carrying my suitcases. I had the carry-on bag. I preferred to carry my own weapons, not that I thought I'd be able to get them out in time to use them if the gun and knife failed me, but it was good to have them close.

I'd been on the ground in St. Louis only for a few hours, and there'd already been an attempt on my life, and Galen's. It was not a comforting trend. The trend went downhill when I saw who was waiting in the lobby.

Barry Jenkins had beat us to the hotel. I'd made reservations in the name of Merry Gentry. It was not an alias I'd ever used in St. Louis. Which meant Jenkins knew it was me. Damn.

He'd make sure that the rest of the newshounds found me. And nothing I could say would help. If I asked him to keep it quiet, he'd just enjoy it more.

Galen touched my arm gently. He'd seen Jenkins, too. He led me to the desk as if afraid of what I'd do, because there was something in Jenkins's face as he rose from the comfortable lobby chair—something personal. He'd hurt me if he could. Oh, I don't mean he'd shoot me or stab me, but if something he could write could hurt me, he'd be happy to print it.

The woman behind the desk was smiling up at Barinthus. She had a good smile and had turned it up to about 100 watts, but Barinthus was all business. I'd never seen him be other than business. He never teased or tested the limits of the geas that the queen had placed upon him. He seemed simply to accept.

The woman's hand brushed mine as I took my key. I had a vivid glimpse of what she was thinking: Barinthus lying on white sheets, with all that multihued hair spread around his naked body like a bed of silk.

My fist clenched at not just the image but the strength of her lust. I could feel her body clenched tight as my fist. She watched Barinthus with hungry eyes, and I spoke without thinking, using words to acknowledge and break the connection with the girl.

I leaned in close, and said, “The picture you have in your mind of him nude.”

She started to protest, then let her words die, eyes large, licking her lower lip. She finally just nodded.

“You're not doing him justice.”

Her eyes got even bigger, and she stared at Barinthus as he stood by the elevators.

I was still picking up her emotions. It happened sometimes, like picking up random bits of television or radio signal. But my bandwidth was narrow: lust images, mostly. Random lust images, and only from humans—I'd never gotten a flash from any other fey. I never understood why. “Want me to ask him to take off his coat so you can see better?”

That made her blush, and the image she'd built up in her mind crumbled under her embarrassment. Her mind was just a series of jumbles now. I was freed from her thoughts, her emotions.

I'd been told by one of the old fertility gods at the Seelie Court that being able to see other people's lust images was a useful tool if you were seeking priests and priestesses for your temple. People with strong lust could be used in ceremonies, the sexual energy harnessed and magnified so that their lust could be imparted to others. It had once been assumed that lust equated fertility. Unfortunately, not.

If lust equaled reproduction, the fey would have populated the world by now, or so the old stories go. The desk clerk would be so disappointed to discover that Barinthus was celibate. If he'd been staying in the hotel, I might have warned him about her. She struck me as the type who just might surprise him in his room after hours. But Barinthus would be back at the mound by nightfall. No worries.

Jenkins was now standing by the elevators, leaning his back against the wall, smiling. He was trying to talk to Barinthus as Galen and I walked up to them. Barinthus was ignoring him as only a deity can: with a total disregard, as if Jenkins's voice was the buzzing of some unimportant insect. It was beyond disdain. It was as if, for Barinthus, the reporter truly did not exist.

This was an ability I lacked, and envied.

“Well, Meredith, fancy meeting you here.” Jenkins managed to make his voice both cheerful and cruel.

I tried ignoring him as Barinthus was, but knew that if the elevator didn't come soon, I'd lose.

“Merry Gentry, couldn't you do better than that? The gentry has been a euphemism for the fey for centuries.”

Maybe he was still guessing, but I didn't think so. I had an idea. I turned to him, smiling sweetly. “Do you really think I'd use such an obvious pseudonym if I cared a tinker's dam whether someone found out?”

Doubt crossed his face. He straightened, moving within touching distance of me. “You mean you don't care if I print your alias?”

“Barry, I don't care what you print, but I'd say you're less than two feet away from me.” I looked at the lobby. “In fact I don't think there's anywhere in this lobby that is more than fifty feet away from me.” I turned to Galen. “Can you please have the desk clerk call the police”—I looked at Jenkins—“and tell them I'm being harassed?”

“My pleasure,” Galen said. He walked back toward the desk.

Barinthus and I stood there with my luggage.

Jenkins looked from me to Galen. “They won't do anything to me.”

“We'll see, won't we?” I said.

Galen was speaking with the same desk clerk who had eyed Barinthus. Was she picturing Galen naked now? It was good to be across the lobby and out of accidental touching range. Maybe being able to sense people's lust at random intervals was useful for picking out priestesses for your temple, but since I didn't have a temple, it was just irritating.

Jenkins was staring at me. “I'm so glad you're home, Meredith, so very, very glad.” The words were mild, but the tone was pure venom. His hatred of me was an almost touchable thing.

He and I watched the desk clerk use the phone. Two young men, one with a badge that said “Asst. Manager,” the other with a badge that just said his name, walked very purposefully toward us.

“I think, Barry, that you're about to get your walking papers. Enjoy waiting for the police.”

“No court order is going to keep me away from you, Meredith. My hands itch when I'm near a story. The bigger the story, the more they itch. I'm just about to scratch my skin off every time I'm near you, Meredith. Something big is coming and it revolves around you.”

“Gee, Barry, when did you become a prophet?”

“One afternoon by a quiet country road,” he said. He leaned in so close I could smell his aftershave under the odor of cigarettes. “I had what you might call an epiphany, and I've had the gift ever since.”

The hotel men were almost upon us. Jenkins leaned in close enough that from a distance it must have looked like a kiss. He whispered, “Those that the gods would destroy they first make mad.”

The men grabbed his arms and pulled him away from me. Jenkins didn't struggle. He went quietly.

Galen said, “They'll hold him in the manager's office until the police come. They won't arrest him, Merry, you know that.”

“No, Missouri doesn't have stalker laws yet.” I had an amusing idea. If I could get Jenkins to follow me out to California, the laws are different. There are very strict stalker laws in L.A. county. If Jenkins made too big a pest of himself, maybe I'd see if he'd follow me somewhere where he could get jail time for what he'd just done. He'd forced a kiss on me in public—or so I could claim—in front of impartial witnesses. Under the right set of laws, that made him a very bad boy.

The elevator doors opened. Great, now that I didn't need the rescue. The elevator doors closed, leaving us alone in a mirrored box. We all watched our own reflections, but Galen spoke. “Jenkins never learns. You'd think after what you did to him, he'd be afraid of you.”

I watched my reflection show surprise, eyes widening. By the time I recovered, it was too late. “That was a guess,” I said.

“But a good one,” Galen said.

“What did you do to him, Meredith?” Barinthus said. “You know the rules.”

“I know the rules,” I said.

I started to step into the hallway, but Galen stopped me, a hand on my shoulder. “We're the bodyguards. Let one of us go first.”

“Sorry, I've gotten out of the habit,” I said.

Barinthus said, “Get back into the habit, quickly. I don't want you hurt because you didn't hide behind us. It's our job to take the risks and keep you safe.” He pressed the “hold door open” button.

“I know that, Barinthus.”

“And yet you would have stepped into the hall,” he said.

Galen very cautiously peeked out of the elevator, then stepped into the hallway. “Clear.” He swept a low bow. The small braid spilled over his shoulder to touch the floor. I remembered when his hair spilled like a green waterfall to pool onto the floor. There was a part of me that thought that was what a man's hair should look like. Long enough to drag the floor. Long enough to cover my body in a silken sheet when we made love. I'd mourned when he cut it, but it hadn't been any of my business.

“Get up, Galen.” I started walking down the hallway, key in hand.

He stood and half ran, half danced down the hallway to get ahead of me. “Oh, no, my lady. I must needs open the lock.”

“Stop it, Galen. I mean it.”

Barinthus just followed us quietly, suitcase in hand, like a father watching grown children misbehave. No, no, he was ignoring us the way he'd ignored Jenkins, almost. I glanced back at him and could read nothing on that pale face. He was self-contained, unreadable. There had been a time when he'd smiled more, laughed more, hadn't there? I remembered his arms lifting me from the water with a great shout of laughter, his hair floating around his body like a slow cloud. I'd swum in that cloud, wrapped it around tiny hands. We'd laughed together. The first time I swam in the Pacific Ocean I thought of Barinthus. I wanted to show him this vast new ocean. To my knowledge he'd never seen it.

Galen was waiting in front of the door. I stopped and waited for Barinthus to catch up with me. “You seem solemn today, Barinthus.”

He looked at me with those eyes, and the invisible eyelid flicked over them. Nervous. He was nervous. Was he afraid for me? He'd been pleased about the ring, displeased about the spell in the car. But not too displeased, not too distressed, as if it were all normal business. In a way it was. “What's wrong, Barinthus? What haven't you told me?”

“Trust me, Meredith.”

I took his free hand in mine, fingers sliding around his. My hand was lost in his. “I do trust you, Barinthus.”

He held my hand delicately as if afraid I would break. “Meredith, little Meredith.” His face softened as he spoke. “You were always a mixture of directness, coyness, and tenderness.”

“I'm not as tender as I used to be, Barinthus.”

He nodded. “The world does tend to beat such things out of you, unfortunately.” He brought my hand to his lips and laid a gentle kiss against my fingers. His lips brushed the ring and sent a tingling wave through both of us.

He looked solemn again, face closing down, as he dropped my hand.

“What, Barinthus? What?” I grabbed his arm.

He shook his head. “It has been a very long time since that ring has come to life in such a manner.”

“What does the ring have to do with anything?” I asked.

“It had become just another piece of metal, and now it lives again.”

“And?” I asked.

He looked past me to Galen. “Let's get her to the room. The queen does not like to be kept waiting.”

Galen took the key from me and unlocked the door. He checked the room for spells and hidden dangers while Barinthus and I waited in the hall.

“Tell me what it means that the ring reacts to you and Galen, but not my grandmother.”

He sighed. “The queen once used the ring to choose her consorts.”

I raised eyebrows at him. “Which means, what?”

“It reacts to men that the ring deems worthy of you.”

I stared up at him, searching that handsome, exotic face. “What does that mean, worthy of me?”

“The queen is the only one who knows the complete powers of the ring. I know only that it has been centuries since the ring has been alive on her hand. That it lives for you is both good and dangerous. The queen might be jealous that the ring is yours now.”

“She gave it to me—why would she be jealous?”

“Because she is the Queen of Air and Darkness.” He said it as if that explained it all. In a way it did, in a way did not. Like so much about our queen, it was a paradox.

Galen came to the door. “All clear.”

Barinthus walked past him, forcing Galen to step back out of the way of the big man and the suitcase. “What's his problem?” Galen asked.