A Lifetime to Find Love (11 page)

He backed her to the bed and gently guided her down.  Cade reluctantly broke the kiss and hovered over her, not able to  take his eyes off her.  She was so beautiful, so perfect.  He leaned in and kissed her mouth, tasted himself one more time on her lips.  It was like nothing he had ever experienced.

“Mmmmm, for right now you are.  I have plans for you,” he said with a wicked, sexy smile, his eyes lit up with hunger.  “You got to have your taste, now it’s my turn.”

This was playing out better than she had ever dreamed.  As Cade hovered over her body, her fingers traced the toned muscles of his stomach.  With each pass, his entire body hardened.  She hadn’t thought it possible for him to get any harder, but the evidence was there pressed against her thigh and it made her desire for him go through the roof.  With his eyes still locked on hers, he pressed his mouth to her lips again.  He slowly, thoroughly made his way from her mouth down to her neck.  She leaned her head back and arched her back.  He quickly took advantage of her offering to him.  His tongue slid down the valley between her breasts, leaving a trail of heat Tessa was sure would burn for days.  She let out a gasp as his mouth encompassed one breast while his fingers gently massaged the other, rolling her hardened nipple between his finger and thumb.  His mouth was wet and hot over her sensitive skin, as he sucked one breast then the next, alternating between them until she thought she would go out of her mind with need.  Her body cried out for his possession, as a burning tingle seared her insides.  As Cade suckled her, scrapping her nipple with his teeth, pulling with his mouth, she felt the burn in her belly.  Liquid heat pooled between her legs and she ached to have him buried deep inside her.  She couldn’t stop her body from moving and when she arched her hips, she felt him harden even more.    He was torturing her, denying her what she needed most, yet giving her everything she wanted and she loved every second of it.

“Cade, I need you inside me.  Now!”  Her voice broke as she pleaded with him.

When she looked at him through hooded dark lashes, she saw a glimmer of mischief in his eyes.  He slowly kissed his way from the valley between her breasts down to her stomach, lingering at her navel, swirling with his tongue.  She would never have guessed in a million years that that part of her body would be so erotic, would bring her such pleasure, but as his tongue did a sensual dance there, she felt the very core of her ignite and there would be only one way to put out this fire.  She was finding it hard to take in even the smallest of breaths.  Suddenly, the remaining air left in her lungs was pushed from her body as he invaded her sheath with a single finger. Never taking his eyes from her face, he moved deep within her, pulling back just to torture her. 

Cade loved watching the looks of torment and pleasure there, loved watching as her head thrashed back and forth, fighting for some semblance of control.  He felt her tight muscles clench around his finger as he moved in and out of her core, her moisture dripping, glistening on his finger as he pulled it out.  Keeping his eyes locked with hers, he brought his finger to her mouth, her tongue flicking out to taste herself.  When she sucked all of her juices from his finger, he gently slid back inside her.  The instant Tessa began to wildly ride his hand trying to complete her orgasm, he was pushed to the edge of his control.  Quickly, because he needed to be buried inside of her as soon as possible, he inserted a second finger to make sure she was ready for him.  As he pushed deep inside her, he lowered his head and licked at the hard nub that beckoned for his attention.  Just that small taste from her made him reckless with desire for her.  He needed to taste more of her.  He pulled his fingers from her body, and replaced them with his mouth.  He drove his tongue deep inside her wet, hot core. He had never tasted anything so exotic, so wonderful.  He couldn’t get enough. This surpassed all the good things that ever happened to him in his lifetime.  He licked and prodded with his tongue, rubbing her clit with the pad of his thumb, ruthlessly bringing her closer to the edge of ecstasy.

Fire shot through Tessa’s body. She felt as if she were on the edge of a cliff barely hanging on but ready to jump at any moment.  Her mind separated from her body as his tongue explored every inch of her sex.  She couldn’t think, could hardly catch her breath.  Her fingers bunched in his hair, searching for an anchor. Her hips rocked in rhythm with his tongue.  Her body trembled and heat shot through her. She was so close, trying to hold on to her sanity.  She faintly heard Cade whisper against her wet flesh.

“That’s it baby, come for me.  Let go, Tess.  Let me taste all of you.”

It was all she needed to hear. His sexy voice, so sensual. His breath hot against her aching pussy. His fingers moving once again inside her as his tongue licked and flicked her clit, and with those words she was thrown over the edge and plunged into an orgasm so strong she never even thought possible.  A tingling rose from her toes and hit the very core of her as her body fragmented, she cried out Cade’s name, her voice beyond recognition.  She withered beneath his hands as he held her hips down, his tongue still dancing sensually on her wet flesh.  A battle raged inside her between begging him to stop and demanding he continue.  The orgasm, so powerful, shook her to the very center of who she was. 

Cade lingered between her thighs, not wanting to miss one drop of her essence.  She tasted more exquisite than the finest meal offered within this world.  He couldn’t get enough of her. He didn’t want to move from between her thighs and when her body convulsed with the aftershock of her orgasm, he let his tongue trace along her slick folds, lapping up every last drop. She shivered as he gave one last flick of his tongue on her clit. 

Tessa felt wrung out, but she still ached to feel the hardness of Cade inside her.  She didn’t know if she would ever be sated where he was concerned.  She wanted more of him.  Feeling him shift his weight as he brought his head up to hers, she reached her hand behind his head pulling him down to her.  Cade sealed his mouth to Tessa’s, his tongue dueling with hers.

Whispering into her mouth, “Mmmm, you taste so good baby.  Taste yourself on my tongue.”

She licked his lips as he opened his mouth to her. Sucking at his tongue, she took her taste from his mouth.  It was so erotic, so mind numbing.  The taste of herself on his lips and tongue only made her body ache to have him deep inside her even more.  Her breasts ached for his touch.  As though he read her mind, he bent his head taking her breast into his mouth, suckling.  Tessa felt his teeth scrape across her nipple as he pulled her breast deeper into his mouth.  “Cade.”  He pulled his head back, flicked the harden nipple with his tongue and smiled at her.

“I have to have you now Tess.  I have to be buried so deep inside you. You won’t ever be able to forget how I feel.”  His confession came on a ragged breath.

She threw her head back with relief. “Yes, finally!”  She was ready to push him to his back and impale herself on him if he didn’t move this along soon.

When Cade adjusted himself so that he was positioned between her legs, he froze.  He suddenly realized he’d never put a condom back into his wallet.

Damn it!  Why of all times do I not have a condom with me?  Damn it!

He hovered over Tessa trying to figure out a way to tell her they were going to have to stop.  He was already teetering on the verge of insanity and she had just made it abundantly clear that she wanted him as much as he wanted her.  Looking down at her, her lips swollen from his kisses, her eyes glazed over with desire, he wasn’t sure if he was going to be able to stop.  For weeks he thought of this moment, thought of being with her this way, of sharing himself in the most intimate way with her and now because he was careless, he was going to have wait, yet again, to be with her.

“Cade,” Tessa said hesitantly. 

He wasn’t moving, just looking at her with a pained look on his face.  And it wasn’t a pained look of needing release, but one that said he had just made the biggest mistake of his life.  She knew she shouldn’t have allowed this tonight.  She should have stopped him at the door and ended the evening.  She felt like such an idiot for freely and completely giving herself to him when he obviously was having second thoughts about it.  She should have listened to reason when he showed up at the beach.  She’d already weighed the pros and cons of them being together and now he was going to crush her heart just as she envisioned would happen.  Why hadn’t she walked away from him when she had the chance, when she was the one in control? 

Cade leaned his forehead against Tessa’s and let out a long slow breath.  “I am such an idiot, Tess.  I’m so sorry -”

“Get off me Cade,” she said, pushing at his chest, tears welling in her eyes. 

She heard with her ears him saying he was an idiot, but what he was really saying was, that she was the idiot to think that he would want her this way, that he would want her at all. She felt her chest tighten at the thought.  Every self preserving instinct that she had came to the forefront as she continued to push at his chest.  Her hurt and anger grew when she couldn’t budge him.

Cade grabbed her wrists and pinned her arms above her head with one hand.  He didn’t understand her reaction to him until he saw tears threatening to spill from her eyes. With his free hand he gently turned her to face him.

“Tess, what’s wrong?”

“What’s wrong?  I don’t know, Cade. You tell me. Having second thoughts are you?”  She couldn’t seem to keep the hurt or the anger from her voice.

“Second thoughts?  Hell no. I’m not having second thoughts. Is that what you think?”

“Then why did you just call yourself an idiot and apologize?”

“Well, if you would have let me finish, I would have already told you, silly girl.”  He released her wrists, placed a kiss on the tip of her nose.  “What I was trying to say is that I never replaced the condom that Rowan found, so here we are all hot and bothered with no place to go.   I’m so sorry. I just didn’t think to put it back.”

Shit!  No condom?  So he really does want me.  But no condom means no Cade.  I cannot survive this night without him inside me.

Relieved that he still wanted her, she leaned up and began placing kisses on his chest. “Okay, so we’ll just be careful.  Just don’t come inside me.”

“No way. I am not taking the chance of getting you pregnant.”

“Damn it, Cade!  For once in your life can you not live by the rules?  You are killing me here.”

He needed a distraction from his good sense and she knew just the way.  Tessa gently bit one nipple, then the next. With her tongue, she gently flicked as she began sucking.  She knew she had him the moment he let out a muffled curse.

Without a second thought, Cade wrapped his hands around the backside of her thighs and pulled her to him. He pushed her thighs open as wide as he could, his knees nudging her,  opening her up to him.  She was so beautiful, so perfect for him.  And she was right.  He always lived by the rules, never took a chance.  Now, here was this beautiful creature laid out before him like a feast and he would be a fool to deny her or himself.  His hand skimmed from her stomach up to her throat as he whispered, “Are you ready?” He plunged his shaft into her wet, hot core, arching his back.  His head went back as he hissed through clenched teeth.

“God baby,” he breathed barely getting the words out. “You are so tight, so wet.  God, you feel so good, Tess.”

Cade could hardly contain his desire. His need to push deeper inside her was riding him like a tsunami.  “Tess.” That was all he could get out before she wrapped her legs around him, locking her ankles at the junction of his back that met his ass.  She matched the rhythm of his hips, meeting him thrust for thrust.  Reaching between their joined bodies, he circled her clit with his thumb while he pumped his cock inside her.

“I need you to take all of me, Tess.”

“I want it all, Cade.” 

She grabbed on to his shoulders, digging her nails into his flesh, lifting her hips off the bed as he wrapped an arm around her waist holding her tighter.  She had never desired to have someone so deep within her the way she did with Cade. Her body was reckless with a need for him. 

Cade’s thrusts became harder and deeper.  He felt so out of control.  He tried to be mindful not to hurt her, but the pleasure was too much to focus on anything other than burying himself as deep as he could possibly get inside her.  He had never felt such a connection with someone before.  It was more than two bodies coming together.  The deeper his thrusts became, the stronger he felt the pull on his heart.  Tessa was wrapping more than her legs around him. She was consuming his heart and soul. He buried himself so deep inside Tessa, he didn’t know where he began and she left off.