A Secret Affair (12 page)

“You must come to town more often,” Hannah said. “Though I do not suppose your vicar will be willing to spare you once you are married, odious man.”

“I probably will not want to spare
myself
once we are wed,” Barbara said. “I
so
look forward to being the vicar’s wife, Hannah, and to living at the vicarage again. I shall persuade Simon to bring me here once in a while, though, and we will see you then. And perhaps you will come—”

But she stopped abruptly and turned her head to look at Hannah in the semidarkness of the carriage interior. She smiled apologetically.

“But no, of course you will not,” she said. “Though I do wish you
would
. And it is perhaps time—”

“It is
time,”
Hannah said, “to go to the theater, Babs.”

The carriage was drawing to a halt outside the Drury Lane, and they could see crowds of people milling about, many of them no doubt waiting for other arrivals so that they could go inside. Constantine Huxtable was among them, looking both elegant and satanic in his long black evening cloak and hat.

“Oh, there he is,” Barbara said. “Hannah, are you perfectly
sure—
”

“I am, silly goose,” Hannah said. “We are lovers, Babs, and I am not nearly finished with him yet. I would wager
that
detail has not slipped into your letters to the vicar.”

“Nor to Mama and Papa,” her friend said. “They would be very distressed. They may not have seen you for eleven years or so, Hannah, but they are still enormously fond of you.”

Hannah patted her knee.

“He has seen us,” she said.

And indeed it was Constantine who opened the carriage door and set down the steps rather than Hannah’s coachman.

“Ladies, good evening,” he said. “We are fortunate that this afternoon’s rain has stopped, at least for a while. Miss Leavensworth?”

He offered his hand to Barbara, who took it and bade him a civil good evening. Barbara’s manners were always impeccable, of course.

Hannah drew a slow breath. It was the first time she had seen
him since last week. That night at his house seemed almost like a dream except for the physical aftereffects she had felt for a few days. And except for the alarming rush of sheer physical awareness that assailed her as soon as she set eyes on him again. And the
longing
for tonight.

Oh, goodness me, he really was quite, quite gorgeous.

Within minutes, of course, everyone who was at the theater this evening would know, or think they knew, that he was her newest lover. One in a long line of lovers. By this time tomorrow everyone who was
not
here tonight would know too.

Mr. Constantine Huxtable was the Duchess of Dunbarton’s newest paramour.

But this time, for the
first
time, they would be right.

Barbara was safely down on the pavement.

“Duchess?” He reached out his hand for hers and their eyes met.

She had never in her life seen such dark eyes. Or such compelling eyes. Or eyes that had such a weakening effect on her knees.

“I do hope,” she said, placing her hand in his, “someone has swept the pavement. I would not enjoy getting my hem wet.”

Someone obviously had. And someone had done some quick crowd control too. A path had opened up to allow them into the theater. Hannah half smiled about her as she stepped inside, her hand on Constantine’s right arm while Barbara’s was linked through his left.

The ducal box, which was on the lowest of three tiers surrounding the theater like a horseshoe, was close to the stage. Entering it was a little like stepping out onto the stage itself. It was doubtful that anyone in the house did
not
turn to watch them enter and greet the duchess’s other guests, all of whom had arrived earlier, and stand conversing with them for several minutes before taking their seats. Or to observe the fact that while the duchess’s friend eventually took a seat between Mrs. Park and her brother, the duchess herself sat beside Mr. Constantine Huxtable.

Her new favorite. Her first since the demise of the old duke and her return to town. Her new paramour.

It was not hard to interpret the slightly heightened buzz of conversation in the theater.

It was not hard either for Hannah to look around with leisurely unconcern, as she had done on dozens of other similar occasions when the duke was still alive. He had taught her to look about her like that instead of directing her gaze at her lap. The only difference this time was the absence of the slight amusement she had always felt to know how wrong the speculation about her male companion always was.

Tonight it was
not
wrong.

She was very glad of it.

She set one white-gloved hand on Constantine’s sleeve and leaned a little toward him.

“Have you seen
A School for Scandal
before?” she asked. “It is really quite an old play. I must have seen it a dozen times, but it is always amusing. You will not find it too dull or too long, I believe.”

“On the assumption,” he asked her, “that I am all impatience for it to be over so that we may proceed to the main business of the evening, Duchess?”

“Not at all,” she said. “But I thought you might have more of an interest in tragedy.”

“To suit my satanic looks?” he asked.

“Precisely,” she said. “Though you did, of course, explain to me how the dreadful tragedies of the opera are not really tragedies at all. I was reassured. I suppose next you will be telling me that the heroes of tragedy do not really die at the end of a play.”

“Reassuring, is it not?” he said. “You are looking dazzlingly lovely tonight in white. Indeed, you
sparkle.”

There was a gleam of something in his eyes—mockery, perhaps.

“With high spirits?” she said. “I
never
sparkle with high spirits. It would be vulgar. I daresay you mean my jewels.” She held up her left hand. “The diamond on my third finger was a wedding present. At
the time I did not believe it was real. I did not know they came so large. The one on my little finger was a gift for my twentieth birthday.” She held out both hands. “There was a ring for each of my birthdays after that, to fit different fingers, until I ran out of fingers and we had to start over again since I thought they would be uncomfortable on my toes. And there was a ring too for each wedding anniversary and for other assorted occasions.”

“And for Christmas?” he asked.

“It was always a necklace and earrings for Christmas,” she said, “and a bracelet for Valentine’s Day, which the duke
would
observe, foolish man. He was very generous.”

“As the whole world can see,” he said.

She lowered her hands to her lap and turned her head to look fully at him.

“Jewels are
meant
to be seen, Constantine,” she said. “So is beauty. I will never apologize for being either rich or beautiful.”

“Or vain?” he said.

“Is it vain,” she asked him, “to be truthful? I have been beautiful since childhood. I will probably retain some beauty even into old age, if I should live so long. I have been told that I have good bone structure. I claim no credit for my beauty just as a musician or actor can claim no credit for his talent. But we can all claim credit for using the gifts we brought with us into this life.”

“Beauty is a
gift?”
he asked.

“It is,” she said. “Beauty ought to be cultivated and admired. There is too much ugliness in life. Beauty can bring joy. Why do we decorate our homes with paintings and vases and tapestries? Why do we not hide them away in a dark cupboard so that they will not fade or become damaged?”

“I would hate it, Duchess,” he said, “if you hid yourself away in a dark cupboard. Unless, that is, I could hide in there with you.”

She almost laughed. But laughter was not a part of her public persona, and she did not doubt that many eyes were still upon her.

“The play is about to begin,” he said, and she turned her attention to the stage.

She had not explained that very well, had she? The duke had taught her not to curse her beauty or be wary of it or try to hide it. Or deny it. All of which she had been well on her way to doing when she married him. He had taught her to enhance it and to celebrate it.

And she
had
celebrated. For ten years she had been the light in his eyes, and somehow that had been enough.

Almost enough.

Now she asked herself how much joy her beauty had really given. To him, yes. But to anyone else? Did it matter if it had not? He had been her husband. It had been her duty and her joy to give
him
joy.

When had she last felt
real
joy? The sort that set one to twirling about in a meadow of hay and wildflowers, one’s arms outstretched, one’s face lifted to the sun? Or that sent one running along a sandy beach, the wind in one’s hair?

Was beauty
really
a gift, as musical talent was?

And wherever were these maudlin thoughts coming from when there was a
comedy
in progress on the stage? The audience laughed as one, and Hannah fanned her face.

She had found intense
enjoyment
in Constantine’s bedchamber last week. But joy?

She would find it there tonight. She might even stay
all
night. It must be a strange feeling actually to sleep with a man in bed. To wake up beside him. To—

“Duchess.” His breath was warm on her ear. His voice was almost a whisper. “Woolgathering?”

“Constantine,” she murmured in response without taking her eyes off the stage, “watching
me
rather than the play?”

He did not answer.

C
ONSTANTINE HAD HAD
a brief conversation with Monty in the box before going back down to the lobby to await the arrival of the duchess and Miss Leavensworth. Katherine had been speaking with the Parks and Mrs. Park’s brother, who were also of their party.

“Now let me guess, Con,” Monty had said. “Miss Leavensworth, is it? She is not a bad looker, but—Well, for shame. She is betrothed, I seem to recall. To a
clergyman.”

“Not Miss Leavensworth, Monty, as you are very well aware,” Constantine had said.

Monty had recoiled in mock amazement. “Never tell me it is the
duchess?”
he had said. “After your disclaimer in the park when she looked you over from toe to head but did
not
offer her hand to be kissed?”

“A man may be allowed to change his mind from time to time,” Constantine had said.

“So the
duchess
is to be your mistress for this year.” Monty had grinned and shaken his head. “Dangerous, Con. Dangerous.”

“I do believe,” Constantine had said, “I can handle all the danger she cares to throw my way, Monty.”

Monty had waggled his eyebrows.

“Ah,” he had said, “but can
she
handle everything you throw
her
way, Con? This will be an interesting spring.”

Yes, it would, Constantine thought at the end of the evening as his carriage followed the duchess’s to Hanover Square—she had insisted, as she ought, upon returning to Dunbarton House with her friend. She would transfer to his carriage once they arrived there.

Yes, it would be an interesting spring. A sensually satisfying one, anyway, he did not doubt. The wait from last week to tonight had seemed interminable, and he guessed that his sexual appetite for the Duchess of Dunbarton would be barely sated before it was time for them both to go to their separate homes for the summer.

Their affair would not resume next year, of course. Neither of them would want that.

But was he making a mistake even this year?

She was beautiful, desirable, and vain. She was rich and arrogant and shallow.

He had not thought himself capable of abandoning all other considerations just for lust. Lust was his only motive for taking the duchess as his mistress, though.

And perhaps a certain fascination too. One he shared with much of the male half of the
ton
, of course, and with a significant proportion of the female half, for different reasons.

But only he knew the one
very
interesting fact about her—that she had lived to the age of thirty without ever once having sex.

It was still hard to believe.

His carriage drew to a halt behind hers, and he watched the two ladies disappear into the house. The doors closed. Her carriage was driven away, and his drew up closer to the front steps.

The front door remained closed for eighteen minutes. Constantine slouched in his seat and wondered how long he would wait and how many persons were standing behind curtains at darkened windows about the square, preparing to make him the laughingstock tomorrow.

He felt more amusement than anger.

She was certainly not going to relinquish any control to him, was she?

He wondered if the old duke had found her a handful. But damn it all, she had never been unfaithful to him.

How long would he wait? he wondered again.

After eighteen minutes the doors of Dunbarton House opened again, and she emerged, dressed in last week’s white cloak, the wide hood over her head.