A Summer in Sonoma (4 page)

E
ven though Julie and Cassie were best friends, they belonged to a foursome of girlfriends who'd hung tight since junior high. Marty and Beth were their two other close girlfriends. They'd all been cheerleaders together in school and had been tight ever since. Beth was the only one who wasn't socially available that often; she was a brand-new doctor and her schedule was horrible.

The rest of them had remained relative neighbors since high school graduation, getting together regularly. They also had larger gatherings including still more friends from the past. The tradition started when Julie and Billy, as newlyweds, threw a small party, and it grew from there. Some years after high school Billy introduced Marty to one of his firefighter pals and they ended up getting married. Now the friends' parties—potlucks held four or five times a year—included some
firemen and their wives or girlfriends, plus whatever old high school chums were around.

The Fourth of July party this year was at Marty and Joe's house, in their rec room. It was a big room, complete with bar, pool table, a pinball machine, state-of-the-art stereo equipment, plenty of seating and standing room. They lived in a mansion by Julie's standards, and she looked around the rec room jealously. They had lots of toys—quads, a boat, Jet Skis, an RV. Joe made a little more money than Billy, since he was a few years senior at F.D., but their lifestyle was probably even more affordable because they hadn't married right out of high school, had only one child and Marty worked full-time. True, she was a hairdresser—not a high-ticket career field—but she had a full roster of regular clients and Julie certainly couldn't afford her cuts and colors.

Julie had managed a part-time job after Jeffy was born, while Billy worked and finished college before getting a job with the fire department. They went through years of tough schedules, school loans and scrimping by. With Billy barely on the F.D. payroll, which was modest to start, they had a lot of debt to clear. But then Clint came along and, a year later, Stephie. It ate up the toy money pretty quick. Hell, it ate up the
food
money.

Joe was an established firefighter who had his own house when he met Marty. They didn't get married right away; by the time they did, they were able to sell Joe's house and buy a bigger one. Their little boy was now three and while Joe complained he wanted more kids, Marty
said that was it for her. It seemed to Julie that when other people didn't plan on kids, they didn't have them. Julie and Billy didn't plan on them and had them, anyway.

It felt as though everyone had come a long way in twelve years, except Julie and Billy—voted couple of the year in high school. They had a decent little home they couldn't afford, drove somewhat reliable cars with tons of miles on them, had a house full of kids, big bills and no extras. No grown-up toys, no vacations. Also, no nice dinners out, weekend escapes for just the two of them, and they avoided hiring sitters—sitters were very expensive. If Julie's mom or Cassie couldn't watch the kids, they just didn't go out. Julie cut out coupons constantly, haunted the sales and even thrift shops, paid the minimum balance, put a sheet over the couch to keep the worn fabric from showing. When she was crowned homecoming queen, this was not how she envisioned her life. She'd had her fifteen minutes of fame when she was seventeen.

Tonight, to add to her overwhelming feeling that she was in a steady decline, another one of the old cheerleaders had shown up—Chelsea. She made an appearance every year or two, just to establish she'd hung on to her tight body, perky tits and effervescent smile. In fact, quite a few of her physical traits had greatly improved since high school. Julie suspected Chelsea's breasts were even perkier—high, full, prominent and aimed right at the eyeballs of men. Chelsea had been cute as a button before, and she was better put together every year, while Julie felt she was sliding too fast into
old age. But, if you'd asked her at seventeen which way she'd like to go—blossoming in her late twenties or having it all at seventeen—Julie would still have taken seventeen. Stupidly.

So she watched Chelsea from across the rec room, doing what she did best—flirting with Billy. It was amazing how long your nemesis could follow you without ever losing interest in your man. Julie had threatened Billy with unspeakably painful things if he ever touched Chelsea, if he even accidentally brushed up against her. Thus, Billy's arms were crossed protectively over his wide, hard chest, laughing at absolutely everything Chelsea said. Now and then she'd put a hand on his forearm and gaze up at him, chatting away, making him grin like a fool.

“Some things never change,” Cassie said, climbing up on the bar stool beside Julie.

They watched together as Joe joined Billy, passing him a beer. Then he leaned down a little and asked Chelsea something:
Can I get you a drink?
She just shook her head and laughed, drawing Joe into the conversation. Then a third man joined them. Hmm. Chelsea had three good-looking men cornered, holding them captive with her cleavage. Yet again she put her hand on Billy's forearm.

“If he laughs at her once more, I'm going to throw a dart at him,” Julie said. “Then I'll chop him up in little pieces.”

Cassie sipped her wine. “Maybe you should have a drink. Loosen up a little.”

“I'm the designated driver. And I'm going to desig
nate him right out of here in about ten minutes.” Then she said to Cassie, “I'm just not fun anymore, am I?”

“Well, you're not a lot of laughs right now. But there have been fun times….”

“Did I ever flirt like that?” Julie asked.

“I've known you to have a flirt or two, but usually with your own guy,” Cassie said. Then she glanced at Chelsea and said, “How does she make never getting married look so good and I just make it look so…fat?”

“Cassie, you're not fat. You're…”

Cassie gave her a second and then put a hand on her arm and said, “Don't. When you have to search for the right word for longer than three seconds, you're just going to come up with a synonym. And I'll hate you.”

“We used to do some really fun things. We stole a port-a-potty and put it in the football coach's front yard. That was fun. Wasn't it fun?”

“I think it spilled and violated us….”

“We laughed till we peed,” Julie pointed out.

“Yeah. We were idiots.” Cassie sipped her drink. “We went on that all-girl camping trip once,” Cassie said. “But there was a leak and it didn't stay all-girl too long. I lost my virginity for the third time that weekend.” She sipped some more. “Maybe we should do that again. An all-girl camping trip. And this time, keep it to ourselves.”

“Can't. If Billy ever finds out I'm willing to camp, my life is over. Sleeping on the ground is about the only vacation we can afford.” She sighed. “I'm not fun anymore,” Julie said. “I'm a drudge.” Billy came up behind
her and put a hand on her shoulder. Julie turned and looked up at him. “Did you touch her?”

“No, Jules. I've gotten really attached to my balls. But if she's going to keep rubbing those tits on my arm, I'm going to need a lot more to drink.”

“Funny,” she said. “How much longer do we have to stay?”

“Joe has some fireworks,” he said.

“There could be fireworks right in this room if I have to watch Chelsea gaze at you like a lovesick puppy for one more second….”

“Everyone else is having fun watching her flag her butt and preen. What's wrong with you?” he asked with a grin.

“I admit, it's been entertaining as hell, but I was thinking maybe there's a
Law and Order
rerun on TV. It's a tough choice, but I might have to go with the rerun.”

“Isn't this just a rerun?” Cassie asked, laughing.

Although it wasn't late—eleven or so—Julie and Billy said their goodbyes and left the party. They drove by Julie's mom's house, scooped up three sleeping kids and went home. While Julie made sure everyone was tucked in for the night, Billy turned on the TV. She washed her face and brushed her teeth and crawled into bed. Before she could fall asleep, he was shedding his clothes, leaving them in a pile on the floor and getting in beside her. She could feel him naked and primed against her thigh.

“Oh, Jesus,” she muttered.

“What? You wanted to come home early. You didn't turn on a rerun…”

“Billy…”

“Tell you what—just for fun, let's not fight. Let's just do it. That always puts you in a better mood.”

“Did Chelsea get you all spooled up?” she asked him.

“Chelsea?” he asked, laughing. “How many years are you going to ask me that, Jules? I don't want Chelsea.”

“I can't…. Come on…”

“Why? You on the rag or something? Cramps?”

“Late,” she said.

He rose up on an elbow and looked down at her. “It's not that late….”

“
I'm
late,” she said. “My period's late.”

Shock was etched into his handsome features. Then dawning. “Oh, so that's what's got a bug up your ass lately. We're caught again? We can't be.”

“If we are, I'm going to kill myself. Then you.”

He grinned at her. “We could use another girl to even things out.”

“What we could use is a vasectomy!”

“Yeah. I guess. After this one….”

“Billy!”

“What?”

“We can't have another baby!”

“Well, you act like this is my fault!”

“It wasn't the UPS guy!”

He grinned into her eyes and brushed a little hair away from her brow. “I bet I know when it was,” he said, his voice thick and husky. “We had dinner with your
folks and you liked me. I didn't fuck up all night, which is a miracle, huh? Then after the kids were in bed, you liked me a
lot
. Kind of took me by surprise, but I think I stepped up to the plate pretty good there.” He gave her a kiss on the nose, on the lips, on the chin. “I did such a good job, maybe you popped about ten eggs and one of 'em slipped right by that IUD….”

Her eyes welled with tears. “We can't afford another baby. We can't afford the ones we have.”

“We get by okay. It won't be a struggle forever.”

“It will if you keep knocking me up!”

He chuckled. “You're so damned knock-upable. I just can't help myself. And it's not like I planned it. I'm just so
potent
.”

“See, you think you're so manly right now. They'll swim through anything—through condoms, IUDs, diaphragms…. And you're goddamn
proud
of yourself!”

“Nah, that's not it,” he said. “But I have to admit— I love you pregnant…”

“You're just an idiot! I can't pay the bills! Don't you
get
that?”

“Except the part where you're in a bad mood all the time and throw up. But you're probably not crazy about that part, either.”

“Did you look around Marty and Joe's tonight? The big house, the nice furniture, all the stuff they have? You know why? They didn't get married when they were twelve, they have only one child and she works, that's why! While we're eating casserole made out of tuna or, on a big night, wings and thighs!”

“Yeah, it's really tight, but I don't think we should give any children away….”

“I'm not finding this funny at all! We'll never get out of debt!”

“Listen, you can't make assumptions about people, about their lives. Who knows what's going on in their private lives? For all we know, Marty and Joe have fifty-thousand-dollar credit-card bills and a second, third and fourth mortgage. And besides, I wouldn't trade one of our kids for a pinball machine or pool table.” Then he rolled his eyes upward. “Well, I'd probably trade Clint for a boat and an RV….”

“We haven't planned one single baby,” she whimpered.

“Apparently we don't have to.”

“Really, I'm very upset about this,” she said, pursing her lips, trying for control.

“Okay, I'm not going to let you get me all stirred up, because you're…well, you know what you are,” he said. “We try our best to keep from getting pregnant, but we've had a surprise or two and we take what we get. Not because we wanted another one right now, but because it's on the way, it's ours and we
can
.”

“Well, don't get all hooked on the idea. This would be an IUD pregnancy and there's no telling…”

“You take the home-test thing?” he asked.

She shook her head.

“Ah. You already threw up.”

She nodded pathetically. “You know, it might not make it….”

He leaned over her more closely, slipping his big
hands under her short nightie. “Jules, this is you and me—the baby factory. It'll make it. And we might not have a boat, but we've been so goddamn lucky. Look at those kids, huh? They're
smart!
Healthy. And damn good-looking.”

“Clint's hyperactive. I can't keep up with him. I'm at the end of my rope…”

“He'll settle down. Jeffy was kind of like that. Listen, I could get a few more hours a week…”

“You're never here as it is.”

“I'll work as hard as I have to, baby. I'll do whatever it takes. And I swear, I'll get that vasectomy before this one even gets here.”

“If one swims through that, I'll kill you in your sleep!”

He laughed and put his hands over her breasts. He jostled her a little, rubbing against her thigh. “One good thing—you don't have to worry about getting pregnant for a while.”

“That's not exactly an incentive,” she told him, sniffing back a tear.

“You can eat like a pig. Everything you want,” he said.

“I get postpartum depression,” she said.