A Year & a Day (15 page)

Lynx masked his own amusement. Her wit was unexpected and it secretly delighted him. He enjoyed sparring with her. It was infinitely preferable to the fear she had displayed at first.

Jane usually had a good appetite and the food placed before her looked and smelled delicious, but her throat felt tight and she knew she would not be able to swallow one bite with everyone's eyes upon her.

Lynx watched her toy with her food. It annoyed him. Why did women eat like birds, starving themselves for vanity's sake? His sister, Jory, was the only woman he knew who relished her

food and there were few men breathing who didn't find her attractive.

Welsh harpers strolled about the hall, providing music while everyone dined. When the meal was almost done, a balladeer stepped to the center of the hall and sang an epic love tale, set to music. Jane had never felt so uncomfortable in her life. Her cheeks flamed with fire, while her hands turned to ice. Her feet were extremely cold as well, for she had come down in her stocking feet. Her sturdy leather shoes had seemed inappropriate with the elegant tunic, and she posessed no slippers. From the tail of her eye she saw Lord de Warenne beckon Thomas, though she could not hear what he said.

"Christ, no more soulful love songs. Summon a piper and let's have something Scottish and lively."

Everyone in the castle seemed to be enjoying themselves except Jane. She felt as if every eye watched her with speculation as the hour grew later. She looked over at the long table where her family sat. Megotta was not there, but her brothers and sisters were having the time of their lives. Jane wished she was sitting with her brothers instead of here on the dais beside the sharp-eyed de Warenne.

Lynx followed her glance. "Your brothers seem to be enjoying themselves."

Does he disapprove of their behavior also? she wondered with pique. She lifted her chin. "They love to laugh; they are very witty. You don't seem to have much humor ... or wit. Perhaps you are witless?" Jane was aghast at her own daring.

His eyes narrowed. "You enjoy pricking me with your words. Soon it will be my turn to do the pricking."

Jane stiffened with fear and rose to flee. His hand shot out to grasp her wrist and he forced her to sit. "You will not rush from my side before my men. You haven't the faintest idea how a lady should act.

You will be gracious. Smile at me. At least have the courtesy to pretend you are happy to be handfasted to me."

"Pretense is exactly what it is." As the pressure on her wrist

increased, Jane smiled. But through her teeth she said, "I hate you, I hope I am barren!"

Lynx de Warenne was on his feet instantly. He swung her up into his arms and raised his voice.

"Stay where you are and enjoy yourselves. Our steward will keep the wine flowing." A great cheer went up when they saw the lord would carry his woman from the hall.

Taffy stepped close to Lynx de Warenne and murmured, "Your lady is very young, my lord."

Lynx was startled. Surely the young devil didn't fear for her? He ignored the remark and strode from the hall. His two squires followed him while the rest of his men took out their dice or challenged each other to wrestling matches. He felt Jane clutching his shoulder and glanced down at her. Her face was whiter than the hawthorn blossoms in her hair.

Lynx carried her up the steps to the first level of the Master Tower and opened her chamber door.

Incredulously, he heard Thomas's voice in his ear. "She is extremely innocent, my lord."

He slipped inside and set her feet to the carpet, then Lynx turned to confront his squires. "Christ, do the pair of you think to tutor me?" Then he firmly closed the door in their faces.

Now that Jane was alone with him, all her bravado fled. "My lord, I'm sorry, I didn't mean what I said. It was just a game to see who could make the crudest remark."

Lynx saw the fear in her eyes. Eyes that were the lovely softbrown of a doe. The last thing he wanted her to feel was trapped. His face softened as he looked down at her. "Do you think we can begin again? It was an ordeal for you tonight with every eye upon you. Let's both forget the things we said to each other."

"Yes, that would be best," she murmured.

Lynx stood awkwardly, wondering exactly how to go about the business of impregnating her. It was a unique situation, one that he had certainly never encountered before. If the female he was with had been a whore, she would know exactly how to go about the task, with encouragement from him. If the female he

was bent on seducing had been a lady, she would expect and welcome his advances the moment the chamber door closed.

His mind went back to his wedding night, seeking clues. That deflowering had gone easily enough, Lynx recalled. Lady Sylvia Bigod had clung to him avidly and the clinging had gone on for five years. He reminded himself that this situation was completely different and banished all thoughts of his late wife.

Lynx decided that at all costs he must remain polite; he could not allow things to degenerate into another battle of words. "Did you enjoy the music, my lady?" he inquired courteously.

Knowing how easily her tongue got carried away when she was nervous, Jane decided to speak as little as possible. She stood hesitantly, gazing across the chamber at the fire. "Yes, my lord."

Silence descended.

Lynx advanced into the chamber, spied a stringed lute on the wall, and again asked politely, "Do you play?"

Jane's lashes flew up. Was he asking her to play some sort of mating game? When she saw he was looking at a musical instrument she replied, "No, my lord."

Again there was silence.

Lynx took a few more steps into the room, noting that Jane remained just inside the door, exactly where he had deposited her. His glance fell on the games table with its carved pieces. "Do you play chess, my lady?" Was that a desperate note he detected in his own voice?

"No, my lord." She could have bitten off her tongue the moment she said it. If they played a board game, it would postpone the consummation.

He watched her gaze return longingly to the fire. "Are you cold?"

"No . . . yes . . . no, my lord."

Lynx laughed and immediately felt better. "Well, which is it?"

"My feet are cold," Jane blurted out.

Lynx laughed again. Cold feet was something they had in

common! He held out a hand. "Come and be warm." He watched her come forward slowly and pulled a cushioned chair closer to the fire. She sat down primly with folded hands and lowered lashes.

Lynx sank to his knees, folded back the hem of the velvet tunic, and saw that she wore no shoes.

He bit back a surprised comment as he realized she had no slippers. Instead, he took Jane's foot in his big hands and began to massage it. It was indeed icy to the touch, yet her cheeks flamed. He massaged the other foot, watching her breathing become agitated.

His hands were unbelievably strong and warm. As he rubbed her stockinged foot, she felt his heat begin to seep into her. It felt wonderful, but his closeness took away her breath. As her breasts rose and fell, she saw his eyes upon them. Her nipples peaked of their own volition and she feared he would soon have her naked.

"Are you afraid of me, my lady?" he inquired, still using the formal, polite tone.

"No . . . yes . . . no, my lord."

This time he forced himself not to laugh. "Well, which is it?"

"I don't know, my lord," she murmured, fingering the soft velvet of the tunic she wore.

Lynx knew he would have to breach the barrier of formality that existed between them. "Jane," he deliberately used her name, "let's try to be comfortable with each other. All of this formality is getting us nowhere." He rose to his feet and moved across the chamber to pour them wine. He saw immediately from its pale color that it was only watered wine, too diluted to warm the blood. Lynx headed for the stairs that led up to his own chambers. "I'll get us some wine."

While Lynx was upstairs he took the opportunity to divest himself of his clothes. He shrugged into his black velvet bedrobe to cover his nakedness and took up a flagon of wine. He hoped one would be enough. Lynx also hoped Jane would take the op-

portunity to undress and put on her own bedrobe, but when he came down the stairs, he found her exactly as he had left her.

As he poured them each a goblet of the red wine, he realized she wasn't going to make it easy for him. The onus rested squarely on him. Perhaps she wasn't simply innocent, perhaps she was woefully ignorant on top of everything else. He took the wine to the fire and handed her the goblet. He watched her covertly as she tentatively took a sip. It was obvious she had as little experience with wine as she had with men. It appeared he would have to teach her everything.

"Like this. Take a mouthful and roll it about your tongue to savor the taste." He swallowed and watched as she imitated him. She repeated the action, then quaffed deeply, half draining the cup. Her eyes became bright as an idea suddenly occurred to her. She must ask him to teach her how to play chess. She would keep filling his goblet until he passed out, as she had seen her brothers do upon festive occasions.

"Now I'm hot," she announced.

Lynx nodded. "The wine warms your blood from the inside, just as the fire warms you from the outside."

She rose and moved away from the fire. "Would you teach me how to play chess, my lord?"

He realized that she was avoiding the intimacy that must inevitably happen between them, and reluctantly decided to give her a little more time. "You cannot learn an intricate game like chess in one night, but we can begin the first lesson." Lynx de Warenne curbed the impatience that had started to build inside him. He wanted to give her a lesson all right, but it had nothing to do with chess.

They sat down facing each other with the small games table between them. The chess pieces were tall and beautifully carved from ivory. He picked one up and handed it to her. Their fingers touched and she drew away as if he had burned her. "That is the king, the most important piece on the board. He outranks everyone."

As she gazed down at the tall figure in her hand, she realized he could be speaking of his own position here at Dumfries.

"Each player has sixteen pieces to move; eight principal pieces consisting of a king, queen, two bishops, two knights, and two—"

"Castles," Jane said, reaching out a finger to trace the carved turrets.

"The castles are called rooks. The other eight pieces are pawns."

That is what I am, a pawn!Nervously, she rolled the king between her palms.

As Lynx watched her hands manipulate the king, he felt himself growing hard. He cleared his throat. "You win by, er, checkmating your opponent's king." He picked up his goblet and drained its contents.

"Let me get you more wine, my lord," Jane said breathlessly.

"Thank you." Lynx reached over and removed the tall king her fingers were playing with before he became further aroused. As he gazed across at her, the chess lesson forgotten, he knew he needed some answers before he proceeded, and the questions could not be formal and polite; they could only be blunt.

"Jane, do you know what happens between a male and a female?"

"Yes. I have seen the animals."

"Animals?" he echoed.

"I have seen the animals mate."

Splendor of God, was she talking about a rutting ram or a rampant stallion? There were times, he admitted, when the sex act was like that between a man and a woman, if you were lucky, but it certainly wasn't what he had in mind for tonight. He passed a hand over his eyes, needing a moment to collect his thoughts. "Go and put on your bedgown, then we'll talk."

Jane looked at his goblet and wished he would drain it again. How much wine would it take to make him fall asleep? He was

less formal and stiffly polite than he had been. Perhaps she had made a mistake. Perhaps the wine would induce him to carry out the consummation sooner rather than later. Already his attitude was far less proper. Needing to put some distance between them, Jane went into the bedchamber.

She looked at the white silk jupon lying across her pillow. This must be what he'd meant by bedgown, but she didn't know how she was ever going to let him see her in such a scandalous garment.

Jane tried to swallow her dismay. She had made her pledge to give herself to the lynx and if the silk garment was what she was expected to wear as his lady, then she had little choice. She ignored a tiny voice from within that told her she had never worn anything as fine as silk. Would it feel as beautiful as it looked?

She removed the wreath of flowers from her head, unfastened the heavy silver chain, and lifted off the purple velvet tunic. She quickly slipped the white silk jupon over her head to cover her naked breasts and pulled it down over her bare bottom. Timidly, she glanced into the mirror. The dark woolen stockings could be seen through the side slits in the jupon and they looked hideous!

Jane's hopes plummeted. She did not want to look hideous in the eyes of this arrogant, powerful lord; Jane desperately wanted to look attractive for some strange reason she could not fathom. She peeled the woolen stockings from her legs, folded them on top of the velvet tunic, and picked up the wreath. The hawthorn blossoms looked wilted, but Jane dutifully fitted it back onto the crown of her hair.

She stood for a moment, loathe to leave the privacy of the bedchamber, until her eyes fell on the high, wide bed. It represented such a threat to her, she knew she must put as much distance as she could between the bed and herself.

Lynx stared in disbelief as the small figure appeared in the archway. What in the name of God was the girl wearing? If he wasn't mistaken, it was one of his silk jupons. It was then that it