Authors: Simon Pare
He stopped halfway between the
douar
and the policeman's house. The scenery was magnificent and kindly; on one side was a eucalyptus wood hemmed in by two hills and, on the other, plots of land dotted with a delicate mix of daisies and poppies. The hedges of prickly pears indicated that there were native
douars
close by. As always, the spectator noticed, nature could not give a damn about clashes between humans; in less than twenty-four hours most of the bodies would have already been buried under the ground, the smell of sun-scorched grass would have replaced that of decaying carcasses, and a single rain shower would suffice to wash away the last spots of blood and brain. A wave of resentment rose up inside him: why couldn't these people have been decimated while he was on leave last month? Why did they think they were allowed to lodge themselves, uninvited, among his jumbled thoughts with their hideous faces craving explanations?
His heart was pounding away in his chest, his lungs felt more like crumpled waterskins, and his legs were threatening to give way.
(After all, he hadn't killed that
fell
's fucking brat, had he! Just⦠how should he put itâ¦)
“What a load of crap!” he swore in a voice that sounded ridiculously hoarse to him.
Nervously he scratched his testicles â and was shaken by the thought that someone might well have chopped them off. He imagined himself with no balls and decided without laughing that the grand visit to the brothel in Constantine he had promised himself wouldn't really be worth it anymoreâ¦
“If I carry on thinking like this, I'll end up handing in my notice,” he reckoned, without daring to pursue the thought. He leaned against the trunk of an olive tree and took an unfiltered cigarette out of his battledress. He had the impression as he put it to his lips that it too stank of decaying corpses. He crushed it between his fingers and scattered the scraps of paper and tobacco, forcing himself all the while to concentrate on the beautiful scenery. A gust of wind blew the terrible scent of death into his nostrils again; the soldier bent over and threw up.
The cheeky and strangely familiar voice called out harshly to him:
Hey Mathieu, you're not going to get rid of it that easily this time⦠Between you and me, if
this
is bothering you so much, maybe that's because you're partly to blame?
“You what, you fucking⦔
Insult at the ready, he span round with his fist raised to hit whoever had dared to fling such an accusation at him.
There was no one there.
No one at all.
Latifa came into the kitchen without knocking, as if she wanted to overhear their conversation. As she filled a glass from the tap, she gave the two men a suspicious look. Mathieu felt his heart stop beating; it seemed worn out, grown so old. A new wave of panic washed through him: no one would come out of this unscathed.
Overwhelmed by his own helplessness, he glanced at his watch. Less than a quarter of an hour had passed since he had decided to tell Aziz at least half the story. These few minutes might have proved awfully long to Shehera, exposed to the boundless imagination of the madman who was holding her.
Suddenly Mathieu was gripped by a familiar, intense longing for one never-ending swig of gin that would slide down his throat into his stomach before exploding in a merciful apocalypse at the centre of his brain, in the exact spot where love, hate, all those kind of things are born.
It had been so long since he had got absolutely blind drunk! The last time was at Tahar's funeral, he seemed to remember.
Running his fingers through his hair, he sighed and every molecule of air was a concentrate of bitterness and regret. No, the time had not yet come for the shroud of drunkenness; no, the Algerian war was not yet over and he had told Aziz nothing of note apart from that, one day, by chance, he had captured an exhausted maquisard called Tahar not far from the mixed community of Melouza, a large village on the High Plateaux on the border between Kabylie and Constantine.
“When you've finished your drink, Mathieu, come and join us in the living room. That monster hasn't phoned yet and Meriem isn't feeling too well.”
A shadow passed across Aziz's face and his fingers fidgeted nervously with the mobile phone lying in front of him.
Once Latifa had left the room, Aziz asked bitterly, making no attempt to conceal his annoyance: “So what happened to the rebel after that?”
“Just the normal routine in such situations, as you can imagine.”
“
The routine
? You mean you⦔
The words (“
tortured him?”
) were written all over the Algerian's stunned face, the words Mathieu feared and which Aziz, probably out of what little respect he still had for his father-in-law, was reluctant to pronounce.
Mathieu defended himself. “What are you suggesting? We threw him in a cell with a few regulation kicks up the backside, that's all!”
The old man avoided his son-in-law's suspicious gaze.
“But that's not the main thing, Aziz. My prisoner had nothing to do with what had just happened at Melouza.”
“And what really did happen at Melouza?” his son-in-law asked him, his sugary tone indicating that he wasn't fooled by this ploy.
“Some farmers were killed⦠Lots of them⦠A terrible settling of political scores with civilians paying the price⦔
“And you say Tahar played no part in it?”
“That's right⦠But someone else convinced themselves of the opposite⦔
“And that someone was Algerian?”
The routine
. That was the first of several misleading words, repellent as a turd, which he had used to describe to Aziz the treatment meted out to this strange prisoner â at first sight the worst kind of coward â who screamed and cried out in pain as much, if not more, than other men when they burnt his penis with electricity from the magneto, but not once begged for mercy â just to be killed.
To begin with, Mathieu, whom the DOP unit regarded as their âclassifications' specialist, had thought that this prisoner was a chicken who would pour out a torrent of confessions after just one âroasting'.
“Put your hand here,” he had said to his superior. “What can you feel?”
The officer had touched the man's chin as he lay naked on the work surface.
“Well, he's trembling, but that's normal, isn't it? They all tremble⦔
“No, this one's trembling all over. Look: his stomach, his legs and his butt-cheeks are all trembling â even his dick's trembling!” he exclaimed as his colleagues looked on, giving the prisoner's penis a pinch. “He's a right poofter, his skin's softer than a lamb's. He'll talk faster than I can piss, with all due respect, sir!”
However, the man hadn't talked. The colonel had flown into a rage (because his own superiors were growing impatientâ¦), accusing the members of the DOP unit in the harshest terms of bragging and of a lack of professionalism in dealing with these bleeding terrorists, repeating that every man, no matter how obstinate, had a breaking point and ordering them to find it as quickly as possible.
“But don't spoil any âvisible meat'!” he enjoined them. “I absolutely have to have a presentable witness to tell the whole story at the press conference. What we have here, gentleman, is a nice little massacre perpetrated by the enemy and I fully intend to use it to show that the French army is fighting not a resistance army but a pack of knife-wielding maniacs who deserve no respect! Don't fuck this job up, boys, or believe me you'll regret it!”
The more the DOP's group of specialists went to work on the prisoner, the more obvious it became that not only would he not yield any information, but also that he was determined to find any possible means of taking his own life. He had been subjected to water-boarding. The session had taken up a good part of the afternoon, the only result being to plunge the interrogators into a horrid mood. The team were used to this kind of delicate operation, which involved pulling their customer's head out of the water just before he drowned, taking care not to let the man pass out underwater because in that case he would lose all vital reflexes and be unable to struggle hard enough to survive. There was always one man nicknamed âthe nurse' who kept a close eye on this sort of thing if for some reason they didn't want to âwear out' the interrogation suspect too fast.
By the end of the afternoon, not only did Tahar no longer show any resistance when they re-immersed him in the dirty water, he had to be yanked out when they realised, a fraction of a second before he suffocated, that it was now he â and no longer they â who was intent on keeping his head in the putrid liquid. Mathieu had to ask a colleague to help him prise apart the fingers clutching the sides of the tub. The head of their unit â the man from Alsace who wept with emotion when, after his fifth or sixth Pils, he talked about the village on the Rhine where he was born âwas so afraid of the dressing-down they were certain to receive from their commanding officer at headquarters that he whipped the prisoner with his own belt, although he did avoid touching the future witness's face or arms. In his characteristic accent, he yelled, “You towel-headed Kraut, we're not impressed by your stupid bloody show of bravery. You want to commit suicide without chickening out, but we're not going to let you, you dirty little throat-slitter. You don't deserve a favour like that! Now it's personal between you and me, and boy, are you going to suffer, believe you me. You'll end up telling us who organised the massacre and where your mates from your unit are hiding! And don't bother imploring heaven for help. If God hadn't wanted men to be tortured, He wouldn't have put their balls on the outside!”
The prisoner was taken to a makeshift cell in the barracks. A nurse â a real one this time â gave him some medical care. To avoid any further risks (the Alsatian had realised a little late that he might have been a bit heavy-handed), a member of the DOP team was given the task of watching over the Arab while he was asleep and, if necessary, alerting the nurse if the man's health deteriorated dangerously or if he tried to escape them again by committing suicide. “We might get further if one of us mollycoddles him and plays the good cop surrounded by baddies. Hey Mathieu, would you like to have a go, since you're meant to know so much about Arab psychology?” his superior chortled without quite managing to hide his disquiet.
That night Mathieu resigned himself to his chore, even if he would not stop cursing that he was neither a priest taking confession from weirdo criminals nor a faggot into young lads, let alone young Muslim lads. Someone spluttered, “Ask the
fell
to give you a fellatio.
Fell
and fellatio â that rhymes backwards. He's trembling so much, you'd come in a flash!” and Mathieu snapped back that he'd prefer his colleague's sister's cunt or wife's mouth.
The two men, one handcuffed to his bed, the other slumped on an old chair, spent most of the night without exchanging a word. Apart from the prisoner's moans of pain as he searched for a better position, the only sound was the cicadas in the surrounding countryside rubbing their wings together with a frenetic energy unusual for the season. About four o'clock in the morning, Mathieu woke with a start from a restless sleep during which a soldier from the ALN, the National Liberation Army, who resembled his prisoner like two peas in a pod, suggested with friendly compassion that he check whether his crown jewels were still safely nestled between his legs. He heard himself roar in rage that he wouldn't talk to criminals, that he was a soldier and not a murderer of civilians. The muddled dream ended with his imaginary interlocutor flashing a broad, surprised grin.
Mathieu's first, ridiculous gesture was to put his hand to his testicles. Then, still thrown by his dream, he lit a cigarette and forced himself to think of a nice cold beer. The prisoner shifted on his makeshift bed, stifling a groan. Telling himself that professional conscientiousness required him to have at least one go at the famous good cop trick, Mathieu tapped him on the shoulder to pass him his cigarette. His eyes half shut, the man gave no reaction. Mathieu stuffed the cigarette firmly into his mouth, then lit himself one. The bound man coughed and then pushed the cigarette out with the tip of his tongue.
“Hey, don't waste tobacco.”
“I don't smoke,” the prisoner answered curtly.
“Scared the FLN'll cut your nose off, are you? Or of dying of lung disease?”
“That must be it.”
“You're right. Got to look after your health if you want to live nice and long, don't you? Life's beautiful and you've got to make the most of it. By the way, are you thirsty?”
“No.”
“That's normal,” Mathieu said mockingly. “Almost drank a whole bathtub by yourself.”
Silence fell again, heavier than before, because now the two men were sizing each other up. The Frenchman furiously stubbed out his half-smoked cigarette, exasperated by his own confusion.
Who did this fucking throat-slitter think he was? To hell with pretending to be the good copâ¦
“So what's it like being a child murderer?”
The man kept silent, his eyes riveted to the opposite wall. It looked as if he had sunk slightly further into himself.
“I'm talking to you, wank-stain!” Mathieu chided.
Faced with his detainee's immobility, the guard stood up, deliberately knocking his chair over.
“Answer when a French soldier speaks to you! Otherwise, what use does jabbering our language do you? I'll ask you again: what did it feel like in your guts to slit open so many of your little Arab brothers' throats? You Arabs will stop at nothing, eh?”
The man span round. With quivering nostrils, he stared at his guard through bloated eyelids. The general expression on his face still betrayed that disturbing mixture of intense, almost palpable fear that should have made him cave in long ago and even an greater stubbornness, drawn from some bottomless reservoir that allowed this shitty prisoner to hold his tongue.