Absolutely Unforgivable (9 page)

He leaned into me and grabbed my chin and forced me to look up at him. “I promise.
If
anything else did happen by the pool, nobody would have seen it.” My blush had returned in full force as he squeezed my hand tightly and then his fingers linked with my own.

“Please just watch the rest of the video. You are so adorable; we just wanted our fans to fall in love with you as much as we have.” I felt the hum of his words vibrate over my skin. “Trust me.” His voice was hypnotic.

I turned back to face the screen as the rest of the room cheered me on. They may have been enjoying it, but I wasn’t happy. This is not normal. What kind of jackass goes around recording people and posting those videos on the Internet?

The video cut to some scenes of me singing
Jessie’s Girl
with Billy on the stage that night at Rowdy’s and then ended with a shot from another part of that night that made my stomach fill with butterflies. It was the part of the night where Billy put his arm around my waist and pulled me into him tightly. I gently squeezed Billy’s hand as I remembered how that felt.

As mad as I wanted to be at Brick for creating this video of me, something else was keeping me calm. It was Billy. After the video was over he tilted my chin back so that he could look at me; I felt as if I could drown in the intensity of his gaze.

“Why?” I whispered to him, scarcely able to force the word from my lips.

He arched a brow, like he had just thought of something amusing. Then the corner of his mouth tilted up in a dangerously sexy grin. “You are my little superstar,” he rasped.

My mind flashed to my dream of Billy from the night before and I started to pull away from him; but he wouldn’t let me. The more I struggled to get free of his embrace, the more he pulled me in tighter to him, pressing his body against mine. I tried to relax but his body was mercilessly hard against me, provoking thoughts of lust and desire.

The frustration of the video mixed with a sweet ache that roared a little brighter with every brush of his body against mine was more than I could take. I struggled to regain control of my senses.

Luckily Mindy bounced back over to me handing me a drink. “Here, you look like you need this right about now.” She was right, I did and I quickly downed the entire glass and then took Billy’s drink out of his hand and drank it just as quickly.

She smiled and then pointed to the screen. “And look, you've already gotten over 80,000 views!” I turned away embarrassed.
How could this really be happening? Did Jeromy know about this? Oh God, what was he going to say when he sees this video?

Eventually Billy dragged me back over to near where he was sitting before. He nodded to all the liquor bottles sitting on the table; so I happily joined him on that side of the room. Billy sat back down on his bar stool and pulled me partially down on his lap. I leaned over and poured liquor into my glass. I was so mortified after watching that video that I needed something to help me relax.

Since everyone was there, Brick decided to share his vision for a new video he had been working on. He looked around at all the girls in the room and said “Listen, I know this is going to sound crazy, but just hear me out.”

Mindy’s head perked up as she looked his way while Darla and Starla gave him a sort of
fuck you
glare. They didn’t seem to like Brick but then again they tended to give that same glare to a lot of people.

“We take the girls and put them in front of the instruments like they were playing. We can put Mindy on the drums, Darla and Starla could play the guitars while Trista shakes the tambourine and that fine ass of hers to the side of the stage.” Brick then turned his head my way and said “Billy’s bitch will play the part of the lead singer.”

I looked around the room wondering which of the girls there he was talking about being Billy’s Bitch, when suddenly I noticed everyone in the room was looking back at me.

I jumped up and started to protest. “Oh hell no!” I wanted to say
first of all I’m not Billy’s bitch, nor would I ever be
. But I found myself unable to come up with a way to say it without offending him and I didn’t want to do that.

“Come on! Just hear me out. It’s going to be a really cool video,” Brick said, pleading with me and perhaps the other girls as well, to consider doing it.

Billy pulled me back to him and I leaned up against him to hear what else Brick had to say. “In the first part of the video the chicks are all dressed up in really nice clothes. Then it flashes to them playing the same instruments but they are in lingerie.”

I rolled my eyes but relaxed as Billy started running his fingers mindlessly up and down the side of my thigh. It felt good. It was mind numbingly intoxicating.

Just then Trista looked at Billy and then to me. She noticed where his hand was and then gave me an evil glare. Something tells me Trista isn’t exactly fond of me, yet I have no idea why. I truly had no idea what I did to offend her so much but at that moment I didn’t really care. The liquor had started to kick in and I was feeling great.

“Let’s just give it a try”, Billy whispered into my ear. I turned my body around to face him and he lifted one eyebrow as if to say please without actually saying it. My heart melted.
How could I possibly say no to that?

I placed my lips to his ear. He squirmed against my body and that gave me a charge. "For you, I will," I whispered to him seductively, drawing all of his attention to me. He began to breathe heavier but I did my best to maintain my composure even though my heart threatened to beat its way out of my chest.

He shifted uncomfortably in his seat as I looked over at Mindy and then to the other girls in the room. They were all dressed up in amazing looking outfits. I was really the only female in the room who was dressed so casually. I looked down at my baggy t-shirt and cut off jean shorts and then back to Billy. “I’ll be right back,” I said quietly and then darted upstairs to my bedroom to find something more appropriate to put on.

I searched through my closest, frantically trying to find the perfect dress. Then I saw it, it was a simple white dress that had a bit of a shimmer to the fabric when you moved. It was beautiful in its simplicity. It was sleeveless and short, probably to short. It was not a dress that you would want to bend over a lot in. I matched the dress with a pair of large white bangle bracelets and some white strappy heels I had picked up the other day while shopping with Jeromy. I touched up my hair and makeup and then headed back downstairs to the studio where they were setting up the video shoot.

“Hey that’s not fair, you can’t see me back here,” Mindy pouted from behind the drums.

I glanced over at Darla and Starla and laughed to myself as images of the Robert Palmer
Addicted to Love
video flashed through my mind. The girls had the exact same look of nothingness on their faces as they swayed back and forth holding the guitars awkwardly.

Billy came up behind me and wrapped his strong arms around my waist. He leaned into me and softly sang in my ear the chorus of that very song. I giggled as he sang the words to the song I had just been thinking of. It seems we were both of the same mindset. Then he led me over to the microphone stand and lowered it so that I could reach the top.

Brick looked toward Darla who was rolling her eyes at him; then he looked over to Mindy and said, “Okay girls, act like you are playing. Act like you know what you are doing.”

I let go of the microphone stand put my hands down to my side, turned to Brick and said “This isn’t going to work. We need some sort of music to pretend to play to.”

Travis shouted out, “Fuck yeah. That’s hot. Make them bitches work for it.”

“Like karaoke,” I said while rolling my eyes at Travis for the bitches remark.

Billy walked over to the sound guy Patrick and messed around for a moment with some equipment by the large soundboards and then they put on
I Hate Myself for Loving You
by Joan Jett.
Well that works
, I thought to myself.

I grabbed the microphone and started to sing the words, even though I knew the equipment wasn’t really on so no sound would come out. Perhaps knowing that is what gave me such confidence; or perhaps it was all the drinks I had earlier.

When I got to the slow part of the song, I grabbed the microphone and then ran my hands down the stand seductively as I danced around it, working my way down and then back up the microphone stand. Billy’s eyes widened and his mouth fell open. I glared into his eyes as I mouthed the chorus of the song.

Trista stopped playing. “Okay that’s enough of that,” she said while glaring at Billy whose eyes were locked on me. “Let’s move on to the next part already,” she whined.

“I just had a great fucking idea. Seriously. This is my best idea ever,” Brick proclaimed.

Brick said something to the boys I couldn’t really hear and then the actual members of the band moved into position and took their instruments from the girls. Brick moved the other girls over to the side and gave them their instructions, except for Trista who decided she wasn’t going to be a part of our little video shoot anymore.

“Okay superstar, you ready?” Brick asked as he turned to me. I nodded that I was, but really I was secretly terrified. I’m really not a superstar. This is not something I really had ever seen myself doing, at least not in front of people. This time we were all going to perform the band’s rendition of Joan Jett’s
Bad Reputation
.

Billy stood next to me and then we leaned into the microphone as the beat started and we both sang the first line of the song. Billy took over and sang the next line by himself. Then Brick pointed to me. It was my turn to sing, alone. Only this time the microphone was actually on and people were really going to hear me. I took a deep breath and then sang the best I could. Then together Billy and I sang the next line.

When we came to the chorus everyone leaned into the microphones in front of them and sang the words, including the girls. They swayed seductively the rest of the time, waiting for their singing parts to come up.

Next it was Billy’s turn to sing. He grabbed the microphone from me forcefully with both hands and leaned into it. It was so sexy when he did that. He made my entire body feel all warm and tingly.

When it came time again to sing the chorus again I leaned in to Billy and shared the microphone with him. It wasn’t easy to do since he was so much taller than me. Even in my six-inch spiked heels I still had to stand on my tippy toes to try and reach him.

I had so much fun. I couldn’t believe I did it. I really had forgotten the video camera was running and I just relaxed and enjoyed myself. I had never sung before in front of people like that. Actually that’s not true. I guess I had done karaoke a few times in the past, but it was nothing like this.

Luckily this new version of the video left out the part where we were all playing in our panties. I was so happy not to have to do that part.

My voice wasn’t exactly that great so I knew the boys would have to do some auto-tuning when it came to actually getting the video ready for release but I didn’t mind. I truly didn’t have any delusions of grandeur about being a rock star. They may have teasingly called me their little superstar but I knew I was far from it. I was just having fun.

Brick examined the footage he had and then repositioned everyone randomly to get some different shots here and there to fill out the rest of the video. And by then, we all had several more drinks in us and things were getting a little more complicated. You could tell Brick was getting frustrated with us, but I didn’t care, I really was having a great time.

Time had gotten away from me and before I knew it, Jeromy was home. I ran to greet him at the front door and jumped into his arms. He lifted me off of the ground as we locked in a passionate embrace. I wrapped my legs around his waist and then put my arms over his head. I held on to him firmly and he carried me up the stairs, all the while continuing to kiss each other. He was big and strong and had no problem carrying my tiny body all that way.

When we got in the bedroom he shut the door behind him and sat his briefcase on the floor and then gently laid me back onto the bed. He positioned his body on top of me and began to grind his hips into mine as we kissed. I gasped and arched against him

“I can’t believe how much I missed you today,” he said gingerly. I didn’t respond, I just kept kissing his luscious lips, stopping only briefly to look into his eyes. He was irresistibly handsome.

His breath heavy, he brought his lips to my ear. “I need to be inside of you, as deep as I can go.”

I moaned shamelessly, feeling absolutely uninhibited and excited by pure lust. My body ached for him. I needed to have him inside of me too and Jeromy was eager to give me what I wanted most.

After, we laid in bed facing each other. I'd happily spend the rest of eternity wrapped in his arms. Just knowing we have an infinite number of days to spend side by side provides me more happiness than I think can bear.

He propped himself up on one elbow and began looking around the room. “What’s wrong?” I asked.

“I’m looking for ...” he started to say and then found it. He pulled a small box out of his briefcase and handed it to me as I sat up on the bed next to him.