Always - A short tale of erotic discovery (2 page)

Sometime during the night I must’ve come
around as it was dark and quiet. I was in so much pain all over my
body. I could hardly move. I managed to drag myself through the
kitchen over to my purse on the floor. Luckily my cell was still
there with some charge left. Whatever money I had was gone as Davy
was too. I managed with my shaking fingers to call Baylee telling
her I needed help. I hadn’t finished my sentence and she was on her
way.

He’d beaten me real bad. I ended up spending
a week in hospital with my injuries: multiple bruises, broken ribs
and a broken arm. While I recovered, I had asked that I have no
visitors except BayIee. The police were called. They wanted me to
press charges but I was too afraid what would happen next. I can’t
remember if Davy tried to see me but I was so sedated, I didn’t
care. I thought one day I was hearing a commotion at the nurse’s
station not knowing if it was him or my father trying to see me.
They did tell me my sisters came but again, I was sedated, dreaming
no doubt and in my own world in a deep haze. My hospital stay
lasted about 3 weeks.

As soon as I was better, I swore off men from
that moment on. I had plenty of time to ponder that while I healed.
My plan was to close my heart off with a wall of steel. Not wanting
to ever feel anything for anyone again. Just going to be only me
for the rest of my life I decided. Since it would be safer for me
that way. Much safer. I could work on dropping my fear leaving me
to work on my self-confidence. The men I had trusted in my life had
let me down and I never wanted to feel that way again.

I left Davy and had a restraining order
against him which he broke in record time and ended up doing jail
time for. I really didn’t care and was just too happy not to have
him in my life anymore. It took me a long while to stop looking
over my shoulder should he ever jump me but eventually I began to
feel better, stronger and safer somewhat. Last I heard is when he
got out, he quickly moved out of state and thankfully
disappeared.

Davy had put me off ever wanting another man.
But time passed. Lots of time. I guess time does heal after all. It
wasn’t for want of trying though. Many guys had tried over the
years and kept trying but I would have none of it. Men were always
asking me out but I always turned them down. Politely but firmly.
Working in a café, lots of men noticed me but I never ever gave
them a chance to know or hurt me. After a few years I felt maybe I
was ready to finally have someone in my life once again. I decided
I didn’t want to end my life as a lonely bitter old woman who lived
in a house full of cats. My past was behind me but not forgotten. I
needed to look to the future and be happy again. I needed to
finally move on. I didn’t want to be alone any longer. This time
round though I was going to be very cautious. It was going to take
a great man to break down the steel walls I’d built around my
shattered heart this time.

I wasn’t like the other girls in town who
were looking for a man with money along with all the accessories or
toys that came with it. No! I was just happy looking for a real
man. One who would love me? I didn’t care if he had nothing. So
long as we had love. True love was the key to all this I thought.
We would be so happy together in my dreams anyway. That would be
enough for me. Were there any real men still available on the
planet? Why do we fall in love so easily? It makes it so hard when
things go horribly wrong as your whole world shatters around
you?

I moved back in with Baylee who by that time
had lost her precious Mark to a checkout girl who worked at the
Foodmart. We were going to heal our wounds together.

One night, a month after moving back
together, Baylee and I decided to go to the Club Fairplay in the
next town of Defiance. Since there weren’t many entertainment
possibilities in our small town of Grassville, we had to expand our
options. We just felt that we needed a girls’ night out and this
was the night we were doing that. Baylee was working long hours at
an out of town lumber yard and me, well still at the café; we
worked hard and wanted to play harder.

Little did I know, that night would be one
that would change my life forever?

We were having a great night, enjoying
ourselves, and drinking shots. Many shots. Even guys bought us some
but that’s all we would accept. There were a quick pass here and
there but it was all good yet creepy. Dancing all over the dance
area and checking out all the cute guys wondering which would be a
good match and which we should avoid. Being polite dancing with
them when asked but none of the guys I had danced with did anything
for me. Either I wasn’t interested due to their personality or
especially if they were the groper type which put me off straight
away. I couldn’t get away from them fast enough. I hated people
touching me at the best of times, let alone someone I didn’t know.
Sins of the father.

Around midnight, he came in taking my breath
away.

He was around six feet tall, blonde hair down
to his shoulders. Along with abit of scruff on his chin, which I
especially love on a guy, he was wearing tight jeans, a Metallica
t-shirt, with a blue shirt with the buttons undone over the top of
his t-shirt. When he got closer he had the deepest chocolate brown
eyes making me melt and sigh.

Poking Baylee quickly in the ribs with
my elbow, “I so want him.”
Why I said that
I don’t know perhaps I had a feeling about him.

“Oooh yes, he is really cute! If you get sick
of him, give him to me, I’ll have him” she told me.

Causing me to groan inwardly. She always got
the guys she was so flirty, confident, and outgoing where I was
shy, self-conscious, with no confidence with guys in part due to my
past and fear. Until now. When he walked in. Sighing! I didn’t
think I would ever feel like this over anyone again.

“I don’t think I’ll ever get sick of him. I’m
in love already I think.” I countered back.

My eyes followed him while he casually walked
over to the bar. He ordered a bourbon on ice as he rested his large
arms and big strong hands on the bar. While he waited for his
drink, I saw his eyes wandering around the bar. Too late, I soon
realized they’d settled on me staring unashamedly at him. Blushing,
I quickly looked away so embarrassed that I had been caught staring
at him. Next thing I knew he was at my side.

“Hello little lady, what’s your name?” he
asked.

“Humph! I am not a little lady,”
I mean I know I’m short, but there’s no need for
people to rub it in.

“Well, feisty aren’t you? I like that in my
women. I’m Billy Ray, you gonna tell me your name?

Just then his drink arrived, lifting his
eyebrows at me, picking his drink up “Cheers.”

Raising my glass, which I was nursing, up,
clinking it on his glass, “Cheers Billy Ray, I’m Belle.”

Taking a sip of his drink, saying to me
“Pretty name for a pretty lady.”

Blushing I replied back “Thank you, I
bet you say that to all the girls though” I
didn’t
normally take compliments easily. Along with my father and an ass
of a boyfriend along the way, I only knew put downs and
threats.

“Would the pretty Belle like to dance” he
asked as he raised his eyebrow in hope at me.

Smiling back at his cheeky face, which I
couldn’t resist for some reason, “I’d love to thanks Billy
Ray.”

Dancing right in the middle of the crowded
dance floor. I was surprised to see he was a good dancer, even
better than me if the truth be known. Soon he grabbed me pulling me
close. Dancing close with my cheek resting on his nice warm hard
chest making me feel comfortable, safe, at home with him. While he
rested his cheek on the top of my head, he whispered in my ear, “I
like you Belle, do you think you would like to see me again?”

Gasping, I pulled away to stare up at him.
That was fast. Maybe way too fast. If I agreed, was I doing the
right thing here? I wasn’t about to make another big mistake if I
said yes to him? I’d been so hurt so many times in the past. Well
it seemed so right for some reason. Something about him made this
feel right. I had nothing to lose also he was twenty five only a
couple of years older than me so he was perfect. Well not only
that, it was great start but I was still a little leery.

“Sure I’d love to, if you’re sure.” I was
hoping I wasn’t sounding too keen here. Unable to believe that
someone would be interested in me and want to see me again and yes,
wondering if I had lost my senses, this gorgeous man wanted to see
me again. Me, damaged goods and full of doubt. He only saw me as me
and nothing else after only a few hours, wow!

“
Yes I’m sure, my pretty Belle,” he
smiled down at me.

When we had finished one more dance, he
turned to me saying, “Sorry Belle, I‘m going to have to go now. I
was just popping in for a quick drink. I have to get up early in
the morning. I’m a farmhand on my daddy’s farm. I won’t be getting
much sleep now as it is. Give me your number, then I can call you
later to arrange a date for tomorrow night.”

“Sure I understand, thanks, for a great
night, Billy Ray” I said sadly. “I’d definitely love to see you
again” as we put each other’s cell numbers on our cells.

Bending down, he gave me a quick hard kiss on
the lips. He bid me goodbye and left. I was in shock, numb and
stunned, not believing what had just happened. It felt like it was
all a dream. I put my fingers on my tingling lips where he had just
kissed me. I could feel his lips there still. I still couldn’t
believe what had just happened. It all felt like a little unreal.
It was still hard to believe that I would soon be seeing him again.
Me. Baylee saw all of this take place and she was happy for me but
I could tell she was a little envious.

I was so excited when the next night
came. I got dressed in my best red dress, however; I was left there
sitting and waiting impatiently for what seemed like hours but was
merely minutes. I was finally ready for him to come pick me up.
More than ready. I checked twice then three then four times making
certain my hair and makeup were still holding up. He finally
arrived looking so handsome in a pair of jeans, blue shirt with the
top few buttons undone. He had a sneaky tuft of chest curl peeking
out the top making me want to swoon. He simply looked delicious.
And he was picking
me
up for
a date. And Baylee was green with envy.

When I heard the doorbell ring, I rushed
almost tripping into the front door. Billy Ray made me giggle when
he wolf whistled at me as I opened the door to him. After some
small talk. We went to the local steak restaurant nearby. We had a
great night chatting and laughing. Everything was perfect: the
meal, the service and the atmosphere. He sure knew lots of people
as he was saying his fair share of “hellos” to fellow diners. But
his main focus was me. And that made me feel special. He managed to
awaken a wildfire in me in the special way he looked at me. When he
spoke the tone of his voice made my toes curl. His intense direct
look as he spoke to me. He was so attentive towards me. I can’t say
it enough.

As the evening wore on I could feel the spark
that had been lost forever was being reignited by him. I thought I
would never feel this happy again. I could soon feel the cold steel
imprisoning my heart loosening. The same cold steel, that had over
the years been protecting me, slowly began to melt away. We were
spending more time together along with having fun, laughing every
often and being happy enjoying ourselves as a new couple. Soon my
fears were dissipating allowing me to start feeling happiness once
again. Loving can hurt sometimes. Sometimes that hurt can last a
long time. This much I had learnt over the years. But it was all I
knew. Billy Ray was starting to change that for me, he relaxed me
making me feel so at ease, so much so that I could truly enjoy his
company. And how…

We had been going out for a few months,
tonight was just a date night like every other. Billy Ray picked me
up in his red Ford pickup, ever the gentleman always rushing ahead
to open the door for me to get in. We decided to go to the movies
followed by dinner. We didn’t know what we felt like so we decided
to wait until after the movie. Arriving at the theatre we decided
on a romantic comedy. Sitting in the back row holding hands in the
darkened theatre, it felt so right being here with Billy Ray. Every
now and again he’d make me smile when he’d bring up my right hand
to his mouth gently kissing the back of my hand. I felt so
comfortable, ready to turn a corner. I smiled laying my head on his
shoulder. He looked down at me grinning then wrapping his arm
around me. Making me feel safe and secure in his arms.

I’m really beginning to fall for Billy Ray,
big time. Every day he managed to prove his love for me even more.
He would send me cute messages on my cell. He’d leave notes on the
kitchen table as he left early in the morning. We could talked on
the phone every evening we weren’t together. He began surprising me
every so often with little unexpected gifts. Flowers, chocolates or
some other little mementoes. I was beginning to feel he was the
one. I felt safe enough to commit to him should he ever ask.

All too soon our movie finished. When the
lights came on blinding us after the darkness of the theatre it had
all but swallowed us. He bent down kissing me on the top of my
head. “Come on baby time to go. I’ve been thinking how about we
grab some takeout to take back to my place? Have a romantic dinner
in front of the fire?”