An Embarrassment of Riches (12 page)

“Since the herb-garden is my idea, I most certainly will. I have broken my fast, and my hunger is minor,” she assured him, and motioned Pasc away with a wave of her hand. “Go join your men, Pasc. You will have your refreshments with them.”

Pasc inclined his head. “As you wish,” he told her before he made for the entry hall and the door beyond.

“There. I am now ready to view your herb-garden. If you will be kind enough to show me the way? Comes?” Again she offered her sideways smile as she held out her hand to lay on his proffered arm.

“There is a door in the corridor to the kitchen that has access to the herb-garden. We need not go into the kitchen itself,” Rakoczy said. At the entrance to the corridor, he moved slightly ahead of her, indicating the large cabinet built into the wall. “This is most useful. We have stored many things in it.”

“Better than a pantry, I’d wager; you don’t have to have a slave sleep in it if you keep it locked.” Her laughter trilled again. Then she asked, “You don’t keep slaves, do you?”

“No,” he said, stopping at a door set in the wall at the end of the cabinet.

“Whyever not?”

“Slaves can be dangerous for exiles,” he said ambiguously, his memories stirring.

“Slaves are slaves. How dangerous can they be?” She moved back as he pulled the door open. “You can certainly afford to own many.”

“In terms of wealth, yes, I can; but politically, I cannot; a stranger in a place is at the mercy of his household.” While this was true, it was not the reason for his decision—made long ago—not to keep slaves. His experiences with Srau, a millennium in the past, had convinced him that it was unwise and unethical to do so. He stood aside so that she could go out into the herb-garden; he went after her, closing the door behind him, ensuring them a degree of privacy they would not have otherwise. There was a stone bench next to a bed of lavender; he led her to it. “I think you can see all the garden from here.”

She took her seat, leaving space enough beside her for him; from here she surveyed the ordered beds. “Lavender, rosemary, thyme, marjoram, savory, basil, tarragon, sorrel, anise, parsley, juniper, hawthorn”—she stopped and pointed to a cluster of unfamiliar flowers—“I don’t know that one.”

“Saffron,” he answered. “Oregano, catnip, mint, nettles, angelica, milk thistle, feverfew, ginger. I would like to plant a willow for its bark, but there is insufficient room for it and all the rest of them.”

“Too much shadow, you mean?” She saw him nod. “Perhaps.” She patted the empty space beside her. “Come sit with me.”

“That might be unwise, my Lady. There are those who would make more of our nearness than either of us would like.” He took a step closer to her, asking her with a cordiality that was more form than substance, “What is it you want to say to me?”

“Say to you?” she echoed.

“I supposed that you wanted a private word with me.”

“You mean you don’t believe all I want is to see your herb-garden?” She laughed again, amused at her suggestion. “You’re right, of course. I have a second purpose.”

“May I know what it is?” He saw her smile broaden. “Rozsa?”

“In time, Comes, in time.” She took a deep breath, deliberately turning away from him. “If I lived here, I would probably spend all day in this garden. The smell is as heady as new wine. I want to bask for a little while, and then I’ll explain to you.” She put her hands behind her and straightened her arms, leaning back a little so that she could look up into the depths of the endless summer sky. After a long moment, she frowned and gazed toward the city walls. “Oh. I wish those kites and crows would go elsewhere.”

Rakoczy squinted at the expanse overhead, making note of the assorted carrion birds that flew above the city gates. “They are attracted to the nine highwaymen hanged yesterday.” He felt a rush of pity for the men, for, brutal as they were, their execution had been ferocious and cruel: arms and legs pulled from their sockets, teeth wrenched from their jaws, then hanged in chains where they would rot until their corpses fell apart.

“Of course they are,” she said. “But there’s dead meat out there.” She pointed at the woods a little less than a league beyond the walls. “They should go there for their meals. It is distracting to have them making such a fuss. And they stink almost as badly as the corpses do.”

“You mean you want the birds to fly to the forest?” he inquired.

“Yes; why not? They have wings,” she said with determination.

“Why should they, when the hanged men are so … convenient?” Rakoczy pointed down the hill to the city walls. “If the Guards do not kill them, what do you expect them to do? They are not foolish creatures. They roost all around the city, and will do for as long as they find ready food here. They kill the rats and many other vermin inside the walls when they haven’t easier pickings at the gates.” He made no attempt to hide his disgust.

“How fastidious you are. Yet it appears you’ve seen this before,” Rozsa observed, her green eyes on his dark ones.

“Yes; I have,” he said as his memories expanded back over the centuries: Spain, Aachen, Cyprus, Constantinople, the Cyclades, the Silk Road, Roma, Persia, Roma again, Gaul, Egypt … the images flickered through his thoughts like shadows in a high wind.

“As an exile, I suppose you might, traveling the world as they say you have done,” she said, reaching out and taking his hand. “And in your situation, I also imagine you might be inclined to accept the favors of those who wish you well? Would you not?”

“It would depend upon the favor,” he said, his voice utterly neutral.

“Nothing unpleasant, I assure you,” she said, and her tongue flicked over her lower lip.

He concealed the sudden wash of anxiety that swept through him, responding coolly, “If I was certain that the good-will was just that, and not a disguise for advancing a cause, or a clever ruse concocted for some form of maleficence.”

“So cautious. But I guess that’s to be expected. I know I would be, were I in your … situation.”

“Then I ask you to be forthright with me, Lady.” He spoke softly in Magyar. “Tell me your intentions and your reasons and I will give you my answer.”

Rozsa sighed. “No one does anything for pure charity but saints, and there are few of them in the Konige’s Court.” Her laugh this time was cynical.

“Will you tell me your purpose when you explicate your request?”

“Very likely,” she said, getting up from the bench and walking a few paces away from him. “Ever since this gossip about you and me began, I have been thinking: what if there were good cause for the rumors?” She glanced back over her shoulder, mocking excitement strong in her face.

“But there is no cause for the talk,” he said.

“There might be; there could be,” she said. “I have pondered the matter, and I’m sure we have denied all those allegations so often that most of the Court has grown weary of their fruitless speculations and all the Konige’s Court is now searching for something else to be titillated by since you and I have provided so little fuel for their fires. Very soon, no one will pay any attention to what you and I may do, and we may do anything we like—anything.” She stopped to pluck the end of a hawthorn twig, then resumed walking among the raised beds, dallying near the wall where roses climbed. “Consider how readily we might turn this to our advantage.” Her fine, angled brows lifted, encouraging and taunting him at the same time.

Rakoczy scrutinized her without appearing to do so. “Is this some manner of test? Have you been told to discover whether I will capitulate when offered such bounty as you possess?”

“Do you think that’s what this is?” She all but spat the question.

“Is it not?” he countered.

“Of course not,” she said with heat. “I’m not so foolish as to propose something I am not prepared to do. Think of my position as a lady-in-waiting: my husband is gone on campaign, and when he is with me, he is no better than a rutting boar. He beats me before he demands my submission, as so many men do to their wives because the priests encourage it.” She fixed him with her green stare. “There is something about you that makes me believe that you might be more accomplished than he is. I don’t think you would beat me, or not very much. You would give me what I seek.” Desire and another, less obvious emotion simmered in her face. “Do you tell me I am wrong?”

“It would depend upon what you feel you lack,” he replied, speaking with great precision.

“The satiation of the flesh,” she said at once. “A man with your grace and courtesy must know something of the nature of women’s bodies—something more than my husband does.”

“Your husband could demand my life if—”

“If he learned of it?” she challenged, coming toward him.

“Or if the Konig did,” he amended.

Rozsa tossed her head and one end of her veil came loose. “Who is to tell him? You?”

“If there were nothing to tell, neither you nor I would have cause to fear either your husband or the Konig,” he said as gently as he could.

“Are you denying me?” She stopped a stride away from him, anger turning hot within her. “You would refuse what I ask? You disdain what I offer?” Her voice was loud; she spoke again in a near-whisper. “Do you dare?”

“For your safety as well as my own, I am certain I must; you may rely on me to hold your offer in confidence so that nothing ill may come of anything you have said,” he answered quietly; adulterous wives were often condemned to the stake for apostasy and betrayal. “I would not want your burning on my soul.” He met her eyes and held them.

“Or your own? That could be your fate as well as mine.” She pointed at him, wicked amusement in her eyes. “I’ve thought this over, you see, and my Confession would say you seduced me with diabolical powers. I might be immured in a convent, but you would be given to the flames. I implore you not to force me to such a desperate act. Say you will be my lover and we may be happy together.”

He calmed his turbulent thoughts, and said with equable determination, “I am flattered beyond all reckoning that you would seek me out in this way, and, as I have assured you, I pledge never to repeat what you have said. But I could not bear to think you might be burned for betraying your husband—”

“You mean you fear what he would demand of
you
for his honor to be restored, don’t you?”

“No, Lady, I do not.” He waited for her rejoinder; when she remained silent, he added, “You are a beautiful woman, and if you want to take a lover, I am sure there must be many men within the Konige’s Court who would be overjoyed to—”

“I don’t want any of them: I want you!” She closed the distance between them, trying not to touch him quite yet. “What use have I for the men at Court? They are the same as my husband. You—you are different. You listen to me: you don’t swill wine and stagger into bed, making demands no woman would want. You don’t … You treat me the way the heroes in the troubadours’ songs treat their women.” She took his hands in hers. “They may be only tales, but, oh, Comes, I want that sweetness for myself.”

“Which you believe I can provide?” Ruthfully he drew his hand from her grasp.

“Which I
know
you can provide.” She stared into his face. “When you have sung for the Konige, you have given such pathos to the songs you offered that I know there is mercy in you. You cannot deny it. I have yearned for such affection as you must have, and there are few men in the Konige’s Court who can provide me what I want.”

“The kind of passion you seek cannot be demanded or contrived, it must answer the longing—”

“All right; I long for you. Everything within me cries out for what you can offer. Is that enough, or must I abase myself still further?” Her voice was still low, but emotion turned it rough. “What do I have to do? Tell me.”

“You have to do nothing,” he said, compassion making his tone tender.

“You don’t want me?” Disbelief and outrage soared through her. “Can you say that to my face?”

“If I cared nothing for your safety, or my own, yes, I would want you,” he told her softly, knowing that when he had first met her, before he became aware of the intricate jealousies of the Konige’s Court, he had wondered if she might be inclined to accept a discreet arrangement. After two weeks, he had known that it would be foolish and desperate to form such an alliance, and he had contented himself with visiting women in their sleep to satisfy his esurience. “But there is too much danger for us both if we should decide on such a course. I would rather you suffer only pangs of disappointment than spend your days in a cell, isolated from everything and everyone you know.” This was not an unlikely possibility, and both of them knew it.

“I am willing to take the chance,” she said, reaching for his hand again and pressing it to her breast. “Tell me this doesn’t move you. Tell me your flesh isn’t stirred.”

“Rozsa, I am not a stone,” he responded, dropping his hand. “Your welcome-tray should be waiting.”

“I waited for it, let it wait for me,” she said severely. “We are not done yet.”

“I think we must be,” Rakoczy said sympathetically.

“You will not love me?” There was more anger than yearning in her question.

“Not as you wish,” he said with an apologetic bow; he started toward the door.

Rozsa remained where she was. “What if I were to say you raped me?” she asked in a remote voice. “What if I Confessed that you forced yourself on me? What do you think would happen to you then?”