Alice pushed open the door against a rush of cold air. She whispered a soft thank-you and she was gone.
Louis waited until she had climbed in her car and he saw the headlights go on before he even backed out. He followed Alice down the narrow drive and through the gate. She turned east, toward Ardmore. He sat for a moment, watching her taillights grow smaller.
His mind was already working on Charlie and Rebecca and the plastic flowers. And he was hearing Charlie’s strange, childlike voice as they stood by the single white shoe in the woods.
I got them from the cemetery.
What were you doing in the cemetery, Charlie?
I walk there every night.
Louis turned west, easing down Highway 50, trying to find the tiny road that led to the cemetery. He knew why he was going, but the thought was so absurd he almost couldn’t let it linger long in his mind: He wanted to see if he could hear the graves cry.
In the black cloak of darkness, he almost missed the road. But soon he saw the towering sentry pines that marked the entrance and he eased the car to a stop. He got out and went to the trunk, hoping Phillip had a flashlight. He didn’t, but it didn’t matter. He didn’t need light. Maybe it was better if he approached this in darkness.
A wisp of a moon scampered between the high icy clouds, giving him just enough light to see. He could make out the dark hulk of the backhoe in the far corner. He didn’t see a security guard. Maybe he was out helping the cops, or more likely sleeping inside the backhoe. He was about to let it go when it occurred to him the guard could wake up, and in a panic, think Louis the killer and shoot him. So he walked to the backhoe, climbed up on the side, and peered inside. No one.
Maybe the guard had quit, afraid to sit in a cemetery with a killer running loose. Shit, maybe the damn
guard
was the killer.
Louis walked across the frozen dead grass, shaking his head. He would check it out with Dalum on Monday. But for the moment, he was glad the guard wasn’t there. There was something about all this that required solitude.
Louis stopped in the center of the cemetery and looked around. For a moment, the wind died and a silence, as thick and heavy as the night, enveloped the cemetery. He closed his eyes, trying to focus.
On what?
On some part of himself that he had never used before? On something deep inside his brain that he wasn’t even sure existed? On something that could allow him to see or hear or feel what Charlie Oberon did?
But there was nothing. Nothing but the steady pulse of his blood in his ears. Louis opened his eyes.
He walked away from the backhoe, his steps slow and quiet. He couldn’t see the flat concrete markers, but sometimes he could feel them under his feet and he had the urge to step away from them, like walking on them was disrespectful. But he couldn’t avoid them. The rows that had been so visible in the daylight now seemed distorted and he had no sense of the layout.
He stopped.
That silence again. No wind. Not even a sound of a car on the highway. Not the rustle of a branch.
He closed his eyes, drew in a breath, and held it.
What did you hear, Charlie?
The call of an owl in a tree?
The cry of a wounded animal?
The creak of a loose fence post?
The murmur of the pines?
The wind picked up suddenly, cold on the back of his neck, but he stood still, listening. And he guessed a minute went by. Then another. There was nothing. The silent nothing of the six thousand dead.
He pulled up the collar of his coat and walked back to the car.
CHAPTER 11
The snow started just before dawn. Louis had been lying awake in the guest room, the window cracked against the blast of heat coming up through the floor vent beneath the sofa bed. The sound of the snow kissing the eaves drew him to the window. It was beautiful, peaceful, the white specks swirling in the streetlights.
By six, he had gone down to the kitchen to make coffee, creeping past Phillip asleep on the sofa. Frances came down soon after, and by the time Louis finished the eggs she had made for him, Phillip had retreated to the shower. By noon, the snow had turned back to sleet, imprisoning the three of them in the house.
The smells were almost suffocating. Ginger, cloves, sage, roasting turkey, and those cloying cinnamon candles that Frances always lit on holidays. The living room was dark and too warm. Louis was having trouble keeping his eyes open.
“This is ridiculous.”
Louis opened his eyes. “I’m sorry, did you say something, Phil?”
“They can’t even get across the fifty-yard line.”
Louis’s eyes drifted to the television. The Lions were punting again. “What’s the score?” he asked. He didn’t really care, but if they talked about the game they didn’t have to talk about anything else.
“Fourteen-zip, Vikes,” Phillip said.
“Same old same old,” Louis said.
“You got that right.”
They fell into silence again. Louis watched the Vikings’ running back plow through the Lions’ line for another first down.
“We need a decent running back, someone like Anderson,” Phillip said. “We need to get that Sanders kid out of Oklahoma State.”
Louis gave a grunt to feign interest. His mind was miles away. He knew he had to tell Phillip about going to Hidden Lake yesterday, but he couldn’t do it with Frances around. And the sleet had been so bad, Phillip hadn’t even ventured out for a smoke.
The game had gone into halftime. Phillip was just sitting there, staring at the screen.
Frances appeared from the kitchen. She looked at Louis. “Why are you sitting here in the dark?” She switched on the table lamp near his chair.
Phillip looked up at her, blinking. She held his eyes for a second, then looked away. “Would you two like anything? There’s some cheese and—”
“I’d like a beer, please,” Phillip said.
Frances paused just a beat. “It’s a little early for a beer, don’t you think?”
Louis jumped in. “I’d like one, too, Frances.”
Her eyes were still on Phillip but then she gave a short nod and went back to the kitchen. Louis leaned in toward Phillip.
“Phillip, we have to talk.”
He let out a long breath. “I know.”
Frances came back out carrying a wicker tray. She set it down on the table between them. “The turkey is about ready,” she said. “When will the game be over?”
Louis tried a smile. “It was over a long time ago, I think.”
She was looking at him oddly, and for a second, Louis thought he saw her eyes tear. Then she reached out and touched his hair. “It’s chilly in here,” she said quickly. “I’ll get you something to pull over yourself.”
She was gone before he could tell her the house was too warm. He listened to her footsteps going up the stairs, then reached to the tray. A bottle of Heineken for him, a can of Strohs for Phillip. With a plate of crackers, Win Schuler’s cheese, and those god-awful little pickles.
Louis picked up one of the pickles. “Why does she keep giving these to us? We never eat them.”
Phillips lips tipped up slightly. “I made the mistake of eating one once a long time ago and she’s been bringing them out ever since.”
Louis tossed the pickle back onto the plate. He leaned forward on his elbows. “Phil, I need to tell you what happened at the hospital yesterday.”
“Did you find out where she is?”
“Not exactly. But I’m hoping I can find out more Monday.”
“You’re going back there?”
Louis nodded. “To look at her medical records.”
Phillip picked up his beer and took a small drink. “So there’s nothing else?”
Louis thought for a second of telling him about E Building and about Rebecca Gruber’s murder. But Phillip needed something positive right now, even if it was only the hope of seeing Claudia’s name on a piece of paper. At least that would be something real, something tangible, evidence that she had existed somewhere other than just in his memories.
He hadn’t heard Frances come back down the stairs, but suddenly she was in the room. She stopped right in front of Phillip’s chair. The light from the single lamp washed her face to an ashen stone color and gave a hard glitter to her eyes. She held two papers in her hand.
“Who’s Claudia DeFoe?” she asked.
Phillip rose quickly. Louis did, too, his eyes jumping from Frances to Phillip. Phillip looked stricken, almost panicked.
Frances held the papers out. “You bought a casket for her. You bought a cemetery plot. And you’re paying someone to bring her here to Plymouth from the Irish Hills?”
Phillip’s shoulders drew tight. “You went through my wallet, Fran?”
Frances’s eyes were moist, but Louis didn’t think she’d cry. Not yet.
“Is this the army buddy you’ve been visiting for the last sixteen years, Phillip?”
Louis knew from the edge to her voice that Frances thought Claudia had been alive and that Phillip’s visits had been romantic rendezvous, and his heart gave for her.
“I deserve an answer, Phillip,” she said. “An honest one.”
Phillip was staring at Frances. There was a stiffness to his jaw, but something had changed in his eyes. There was a faint fear there that came from the realization that he had let things go too far, kept his secrets too long.
“I’ll leave you two alone,” Louis said.
Frances looked at Louis. “Sure, go ahead and try to slink off like you’ve nothing to do with this. You should be ashamed of yourself.”
Phillip finally reached out and touched her arm. Frances pulled away, her eyes filling with tears. Phillip motioned to a chair, tried to urge her down in it gently. Finally, she sat down, keeping hold of the papers, her eyes never leaving Phillip.
“I’ll take care of this,” he said, turning to Louis.
Louis started away, then glanced back at Frances. He wanted to apologize for the last few days, for keeping this from her, for not making Phillip tell her. But now wasn’t the time.
Louis wandered into the kitchen. The turkey was still in the oven. A pan of dressing sat on the stove, and two pumpkin pies were on the countertop, near a glass of eggnog and a plate of sliced cranberries. He looked up at the clock. Almost three.
He sat down at the table, spreading the newspaper, but he couldn’t find anything he wanted to read. He could hear their voices, low and insistent, out in the living room.
He already felt different. Like something solid and unshakable had been snatched from under him. And he wondered if this was what kids felt like when they were first told their parents were getting a divorce. Growing up in foster homes, he had learned very early that nothing was forever. Especially good things. But then he had landed here in Plymouth, where things were not only good, they were unchanging, and no matter how long he waited for that bad something to happen, it never had. He had come to believe that forever was possible for some people.
The small kitchen was hot from the oven and finally, he went out the back door, standing under the overhang for a moment until the sleet drove him back in. The next half hour crept by like that, with him moving between the kitchen, the icy outside, and back again, taking bites of the stuffing as he passed.
He was remembering a night about a month ago. Joe had driven over from Miami for a short weekend. They had stayed up until midnight, drinking and talking, and later, after making love, she had snuggled up against him and they had lain there, listening to the brush of the palm fronds in the rain.
I wish this weekend was going to last longer, Louis.
He had answered her before he thought about it.
I wish it would last forever.
Maybe it was just a comment, an expected reply in an intimate moment. But still, he had said it, and maybe he had said it because at that moment he believed there could be a forever for him and Joe.
The kitchen had grown stifling, a hint of burnt meat now in the air. Still, no movement from the living room. Just muted voices. Louis switched off the oven, opened it, and took the turkey out. The skin was dry and cracked, most of the juices dried up.
He waited awhile longer, then sliced off some breast meat, and made himself a plate of turkey, cranberries, potatoes, and a biscuit. He sat at the small table, eating in silence.
Around five, he heard footsteps go up the stairs and the slam of a door. A few seconds later, Phillip came into the kitchen. He looked tired, his eyes red. He didn’t speak, just went directly to the refrigerator and pulled out a beer. He left again.
A couple of seconds later, Louis heard the TV come on and saw the blue light filling the dark living room.