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Authors: Nicholas Sparks

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Lexie gamely pretended to be far less miserable at the festival than she actually was, offering to stay as long as Jeremy wanted. Observing her flushed cheeks, Jeremy shook his head and told her that he’d seen enough and suggested they spend the rest of the weekend away from the crowds. After packing an overnight bag, they went to the cottage in Buxton. While it wasn’t noticeably cooler, the steady breeze off the ocean and the temperature of the water offered a refreshing break. By the time they returned to Boone Creek, they learned that Rodney and Rachel were engaged. Somehow they’d been able to work through their problems, and two days later, Rachel asked Lexie to be her matron of honor.
Even the house was coming along; the major renovations were completed, the kitchen and bathrooms were as good as new, and all that was still required were the finishing touches that would turn the place from a work in progress to a home. They were scheduled to move in at the end of the month. Perfect timing, as it turned out, since they had just received an offer on the bungalow from a nice retired couple from Virginia who wanted to take possession as soon as possible.
Aside from the continuing writer’s block, life was good for Jeremy. Though he sometimes reflected on the trials he and Lexie had gone through before marriage, he knew they’d emerged from them stronger as a couple. When he looked at Lexie now, he knew he had never cared for anyone as deeply. What he didn’t know, what he couldn’t know, was that the hardest days were yet to come.
At First Sight
Sixteen
We still haven’t decided on a name for the baby,” Lexie said.
It was an early evening in the second week of August; Lexie and Jeremy were sitting on the porch of their new home. Though they hadn’t moved in yet, the workers had left for the day, and they were watching the water. Without a breeze, the water was flat and still, so mirrorlike that the whitewashed cypress trees on the far bank looked as if they were growing in opposite directions.
“I’ve decided to leave that up to you,” Jeremy said. He was fanning himself with a copy of Sports Illustrated that he’d intended to read before realizing it had a better purpose on a hot summer night.
“You can’t just leave it up to me. It’s our baby. I want to hear what you think.”
“I’ve told you what I think,” Jeremy said. “You just didn’t like it.”
“I am not going to name our daughter Misty.”
“Misty Marsh? How can you not like that?”
He’d suggested the name the week before as a joke. Lexie was so dismissive that he’d been pressing it ever since, if only to tease her.
“Well, I don’t.” Wearing shorts and a baggy T-shirt, she was flushed from the heat. Because her feet had begun to swell, Jeremy had dragged over an old bucket so she could prop them up.
“You don’t think it has a nice ring to it?”
“No more than other plays on your last name. You might as well want to name her Smelly Marsh or Creepy Marsh.”
“I was saving those for her brothers.”
She laughed. “I’m sure they’d be forever grateful. But seriously, you don’t have any ideas?”
“No. Like I told you, whatever you decide is fine.”
“That’s the problem. I haven’t decided.”
“You know what the problem is, right? You bought every baby name book out there. You gave yourself too many choices.”
“I just want something that fits who she is.”
“But that’s the thing. No matter what we choose, it won’t fit right away. No baby looks like Cindy or Jennifer; all babies look like Elmer Fudd.”
“No, they don’t. Babies are cute.”
“But they look the same.”
“No, they don’t. And I’ll warn you right up front that I’m going to be extremely disappointed in you if you can’t pick our daughter out in the nursery.”
“No reason to worry. They have name cards.”
“Ha, ha,” she said. “You’re going to know what she looks like.”
“Of course I will. She’ll be the most beautiful baby in the history of North Carolina, with photographers from around the world snapping pictures and saying things like ‘She’s so lucky that she got her father’s ears.’”
She laughed again. “And dimple.”
“Right. Don’t let me forget that.”
She reached for his hand. “What about tomorrow? Are you excited?”
“I can’t wait. I mean, the first sonogram was exciting, but this one . . . well, now we’ll really get to see her.”
“I’m glad you’re going.”
“Are you kidding? I wouldn’t miss it. Sonograms are the best part about all this. I hope they print me a picture so I can show it off while bragging to my buddies.”
“What buddies?”
“Didn’t I tell you? Jed? Man, he just won’t leave me alone, calling all the time, talking my ear off, going on and on.”
“I think the heat’s getting to you. Last I heard, Jed still hasn’t said a word to you.”
“Oh, that’s right. But it doesn’t matter. I still want a picture for me, so I can see how beautiful she is.”
She raised an eyebrow. “So you’re sure it’s a girl now, too?”
“I think you’ve convinced me.”
“What does that say about Doris?”
“It says that in a fifty-fifty proposition, she picked correctly. As would fifty percent of the population.”
“Still a nonbeliever, huh?”
“I prefer the word skeptic.”
“My dream man.”
“That’s right.” Jeremy nodded. “Just keep telling yourself that, so I don’t have to prove it.”
Lexie shifted in the chair, suddenly uncomfortable. She winced before settling back into place. “What do you think about Rodney and Rachel getting married?”
“I’m in favor of marriage. I think it’s a fine institution.”
“You know what I mean. Do you think they’re rushing into it?”
“Who are we to ask that question? I proposed after a few weeks; he’s known her since he was a little kid. I’d say they should be asking that about us, not the other way around.”
“I’m sure they still are, but that’s not the point. . . .”
“Wait,” Jeremy said, “you think they’re talking about us?”
“I’m sure they are. Lots of people talk about us.”
“Really?”
“Duh,” Lexie said, as if the answer were obvious. “It’s a small town. That’s what we do here. We sit around and talk about other people. We find out what’s going on in their lives, share what we think, debate whether other folks are right or wrong, and solve their problems if we have to in the privacy of our own home. Of course, no one would ever admit to it, but we all do it. It’s pretty much a way of life.”
Jeremy considered what she was saying. “Do you think people are talking about us right now?”
“Absolutely.” She shrugged. “Some are probably saying we got married because I was pregnant, others are saying you’ll never last in this town, still others wonder how we could afford the house and surmise that we’re probably in debt up to our eyeballs, unlike their frugal selves. Oh, they’re talking all right and probably having a grand old time, too.”
“This doesn’t bother you?”
“Of course not,” she said. “Why should I care? They wouldn’t think of telling us they did, and they’ll be nice as punch the next time we see them, so we’ll never know. And besides, we’re doing it, too. Which brings me back to Rodney and Rachel. Don’t you think they’re rushing it just a bit?”
In bed that night, Jeremy and Lexie were both reading. Jeremy had finally gotten to Sports Illustrated and was in the middle of a story on female volleyball players when Lexie set aside her book.
“Do you ever think about the future?” she asked.
“Sure,” Jeremy answered, lowering the magazine. “Doesn’t everyone?”
“What do you think it’s going to be like?”
“For us? Or for the world?”
“I’m serious.”
“So am I,” Jeremy answered. “It’s a different question entirely, one that opens up all sorts of different subjects. We could talk about global warming, or the lack thereof, in regard to the fate of mankind. Or whether or not God truly exists, and how people are judged when it comes to being admitted to heaven, which renders life on earth somewhat meaningless. You could be referring to the economy and how it will affect our own future, or even politics and how the next president might be the one who leads us to doom or prosperity. Or-”
She put her hand on his arm, cutting him off. “Are you always going to be like this?”
“Like what?”
“This. What you’re doing. Being Mr. Precise. Or Mr. Literal. I wasn’t asking so we could get into a deep philosophical discussion. I was just asking.”
“I think we’ll be happy,” he ventured. “I couldn’t imagine living the rest of my life without you.”
She squeezed his arm, as if satisfied. “I think that, too,” she said. “But sometimes . . .”
Jeremy looked at her. “What?”
“I just wonder how we’re going to do as parents. I worry about that sometimes.”
“We’ll be great,” he said. “You’ll be great.”
“You say that, but how do we know? What if she ends up being one of those angry teenagers who dresses in black and does drugs and sleeps around?”
“She won’t.”
“You can’t say that.”
“I can,” Jeremy said. “She’s going to be a wonderful girl. How can she not, with you as her mother?”
“You think it’s simple, but it’s not. Kids are people, too, and once they start getting older, they make their own decisions. There’s only so much you can do.”
“It all goes back to the upbringing. . . .”
“Yes, but sometimes it doesn’t matter what you do. We can put her in piano lessons and soccer, we can bring her to church every Sunday, we can send her to cotillion to learn her manners, and we can shower her with lots of love. But once she becomes a teenager . . . well, sometimes there’s nothing you can do. With or without you, in the end, children grow up to become the people they were meant to be.”
Jeremy thought about what she’d said, then pulled her closer. “Are you really worried about this?”
“No. But I think about it. Don’t you?”
“Actually, I don’t. Kids are supposed to become who they were meant to be. All parents can do is to do their best to lead them in the right direction.”
“But what if that isn’t enough? Doesn’t that worry you?”
“No,” he said. “She’s going to be fine.”
“How can you be so sure?”
“Because she will,” Jeremy said. “I know you and believe in you, and you’re going to be a fantastic mother. And don’t forget, I have written articles about the subject of nature and nurture. Both are important, but in the vast majority of cases, environment is a greater indicator of future behavior than anything genetic.”
“But-”
“We’ll do the best we can. And I’m sure she’ll turn out okay.”
Lexie thought about what he said. “You really wrote articles on the subject?”
“Not only that, I did in-depth research beforehand. I know what I’m talking about.”
She smiled. “You’re pretty smart,” she said.
“Well . . .”
“Not about your conclusions, but what you just said. I don’t care whether it’s true or not, but it was exactly what I wanted to hear.”
“That’s the baby’s heart, right there,” the doctor said the next day, pointing at the fuzzy image on the computer monitor. “And those are the lungs and the spine.”
Jeremy reached over and squeezed Lexie’s hand on the examination table. They were at the OB-GYN’s office in Washington, which Jeremy had to admit wasn’t his favorite place. Granted, he was looking forward to seeing the baby again-the first grainy pictures from the sonogram were still hanging on the refrigerator-but the earlier sight of Lexie on the table with her legs in stirrups . . . well, it made him feel as if he were interrupting something better done in private.
Of course, Dr. Andrew Sommers-tall and trim, with wavy dark hair-did his best to make both Lexie and Jeremy feel as if he were doing nothing more extraordinary than taking her pulse, and Lexie seemed more than content to play along. While Dr. Sommers was checking and poking, they talked about the recent spate of hot weather, a story on the news concerning forest fires in Wyoming, and the fact that the doctor still wanted to drive out to Boone Creek to eat at Herbs, a place that more than one of his patients had raved about. Every now and then he would work more typical questions into the conversation, inquiring about her Braxton-Hicks contractions, for example, or whether she ever felt dizzy or light-headed. Lexie responded as easily as if they were discussing these issues over lunch.
To Jeremy, who was sitting near Lexie’s head, the scene seemed surreal. Yes, the man was a doctor, and Jeremy had no doubt the doctor saw dozens of patients a day, but still, when the doctor tried to engage him in conversation, he did his best to meet the doctor’s eyes as he answered, while ignoring what was being done to his wife. He supposed Lexie had grown used to all this, but it was the sort of thing that made him glad to be male.
After the doctor left, Jeremy and Lexie were left alone for a few minutes while they waited for the sonogram technician; when she entered, she asked Lexie to pull up her shirt. Gel was squirted on the expanding drum of her belly, drawing a quick gasp from Lexie.
“Sorry, I should have warned you it was cold. But let’s see how your baby’s doing, okay?”
The technician led Jeremy and Lexie through the sonogram, moving the hand piece, pressing harder and softer on her belly as she pointed out what she was seeing.
“And you’re sure it’s a girl?” Jeremy said. Though he’d been assured the last time he was here, he’d had trouble making sense of the image but had been too embarrassed to say anything.
“I’m sure,” she said, moving the hand piece again. Pausing, she pointed at the screen. “Oh, here’s a good shot . . . look for yourself.”
Jeremy squinted. “I’m not sure what I’m seeing.”
“This is the butt,” she clarified, pointing to the screen, “and these are the legs here. Like she’s sitting on the camera. . . .”

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