Backstage: Street Chronicles (32 page)

Everyone wants to be backstage but most people don’t fully understand what being there really means. I can only give you the perspective of a young black kid who never had anything but a dream that ultimately landed me a spot backstage amongst the stars who are now my peers. What I didn’t know then was that that dream would be both a blessing and a curse.

It’s a blessing and a curse to have a one hundred, five hundred, ten, twenty, fifty or hundreds of thousands of people chanting your name, showing crazy respect, love, and hate all at the same time. Family and friends asking for tickets to your concerts because they want to see you shine and do your thang because they were there when you were struggling with nothing but a dream, and other family members and so-called friends that just want to be associated with the glitz and the glamour, the fame and fortune, but were nowhere to be found when you were broke and hungry.

I never get comfortable with being backstage because I know that every time I step to the front of that stage and do my thang it could be my last time there—if I don’t give a stellar performance, or if the crowd doesn’t like me, I may no longer be relevant. I could leave a show and get hit by a car, struck by lightning, or shot. You
may ask what’s the odds of a nigga getting struck by lightning? With all due respect the odds are probably better than you ripping a performance for over fifty thousand people at the same spot you grew up watching your favorite football team play on Sunday afternoons (Giants Stadium for me), or the same place Jordan scored a double nickel against the Knicks (Madison Square Garden). I don’t know much about mind-altering drugs, but I do know that experiences like those have been said to be the greatest high in the world. I can’t imagine anything that could compare to the lights, the screams, the love, the music, and the admiration of a packed venue with fans chanting your name in unison.

Backstage is where it all begins and the faces back there are forever changing. The last time I was backstage I didn’t see the faces that were there just a few years prior—they weren’t even in the building. When you’re backstage you may not have everything you think you deserve for the work you put out, but you know there are at least a million other people who wish they were in your position because you are living a dream, your dream. Everybody back there is happy to be there. But if you allow yourself a few extra seconds to take a deep breath and really pay attention to what’s going on around you then you will quickly see the snakes, the rats, the knifers, and the sharks of the business. You realize that some of the people who you thought were happy for you really don’t give a shit about you. They’re just happy that a backstage exists. Backstage can be a mutha fucka.

So the next time you dream about being backstage, think about what that really means. You have to take the backstage seriously in every aspect of life. You gotta be backstage before you can get to the front of the stage. You feel me? Every dream or goal in life begins backstage. So don’t be afraid to dream, but don’t forget that every dream ain’t peaceful.

Peace!
—Styles P

Krista Johns

With God, all things are possible. Thank you, Nikki Turner, for opening up the door for me. Thank you, Ron Slay, for the motivation and the positivity you bring in my life. Thank you, my brothers: Elton, One, and Tank for everything. My kids: Here’s to us! Tawuainya (RIP), Tisa, G, and Yummie … look at me!

Harold L. Turley II

First, I want to thank God for blessing me with the gift of expression through written word. Through Him, all my blessings are possible. I want to thank Nikki Turner for the opportunity to grace the pages of her blazing hot project. You are a true diva and a valued friend! And finally, I give thanks to my kids, Harold, RaShawn, Malik, and Yhanae. I work so hard now so you won’t have to in the future. And to the woman who I will one day call my wife, Tyreasa Sharp. You are my backbone and the beat within my heart. Thanks for standing by my side and supporting me in all that I do. Your love makes my life complete.

Allah Adams

I would first like to thank God for blessing me with a gift, a gift that I want to give to the world! I want to thank Nikki Turner for giving me the opportunity to share my gift with the world. I want to thank my team: Chareice “Cheese” Simpson and Amos Pierre for sticking with me through the bad, knowing that one day things will be good. To all the independent entrepreneurs that I affiliate with, Real Knot Ent., Prolyfic Ent., Street Heat Potent TV. Let’s all get together and form a Conglomerate! And last but not least I want to thank all the readers who ever supported me.

Lana Ave

God is good all the time. My aunt Judy and uncle Jon are my examples. My late parents Joe and Irene are my drive. My husband Bryant is my blessing, and my sister Jonay is my inspiration. I love you Cassie, Mariesa, Wade, Deidra, Raven, Rhen, Tiff, and Tam and all uncles, aunts, nieces, nephews, and friends. Thank you to Nikki Turner for the guidance, opportunity, and friendship.

K
RISTA
J
OHNS
is the author of
I’m Good
and she is currently putting the final touches on
Impressions
. She lives in Cali while raising her two children.

A
LLAH
A
DAMS
is a new and upcoming author that currently calls the Big Apple home.
Banana Pudding
and
The Legend of Cagney
are his two self-published novels.

L
ANA
A
VE
was born and raised in Brooklyn, New York. She is driven by her passion to write the stories she envisions. She is currently working on her first full-length novel.

H
AROLD
L. T
URLEY II
is an author and performance poet who thrilled readers with his critically acclaimed novels,
Love’s Game, Confessions of a Lonely Soul
, and
Born Dying
. He lives with his wife and children in Brandywine, Maryland. Visit the author at
www.myspace.com/haroldlturley2
.

N
IKKI
T
URNER
is a gutsy, gifted, courageous voice taking the urban literary community by storm. Having ascended from the “Princess” of Hip-Hop Lit to “Queen,” she is the bestselling author of the novels
Ghetto Superstar, Black Widow, Forever a Hustler’s Wife, Riding Dirty on I-95, The Glamorous Life, A Project Chick, and A Hustler’s Wife
, and is the editor of and a contributing author in her Street Chronicles series. She is also the editor of the Nikki Turner Presents line, featuring novels from fresh voices in the urban literary scene. Visit her website at
nikkiturner.com
or write her at P.O. Box 28694, Richmond, VA 23228.

Backstage
is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are the products of the authors’ imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events, locales, or persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.

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Copyright © 2009 by Nikki Turner

Street Chronicles
copyright © 2007 by Nikki Turner
Introduction (“The Day I Signed …”) copyright © 2009 by Dana Dane
“I’m Good” copyright © 2009 by Krista Johns
“Chasing the Ring” copyright © 2009 by Harold L. Turley II
“Stolen Legacy” copyright © 2009 by Allah Adams
“Lose to Win” copyright © 2009 by Lana Ave
“Gun Music” copyright © 2009 by Nikki Turner
“Outro” copyright © 2009 by Styles P

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