Beach Trip (14 page)

She had not thought of him in some time but now, under the spell of the novel, she did, lying back in the big cool bed with one arm over her eyes. It was amazing that after all these years, he still had a hold on her. She was thirty-five years old, too practical to be caught up in the tragic remembrance of a college love affair. And yet, once she had begun thinking of him, she couldn’t stop. She had not found him remarkable at first. He was not handsome, at least not in the conventional sense. He was small and wiry with a receding hairline that left too much of his wide forehead exposed. Yet he was witty and clever, and had the air about him of a man who was accustomed to having his way with women, an air that had proved irresistible to her.

Through the opened balcony doors she could hear her husband and sons returning from the store on their bicycles. The boys were giggling and calling to their father, and he was yelling in a clownish voice, “Wait for me, wait for me.”

She moved her arm and opened her eyes. Above her the ceiling fan spun endlessly, its golden chain swinging in a wide arc. The front door banged
open and then closed again. The boys were coming up the stairs. She could hear them calling to her. Mitchell followed behind them roaring like a lion.

“Mommy, Mommy, he’s coming!”

“Daddy’s a monster!”

No, he wasn’t. That was the problem. It would have been easier if he had been. It would have lessened her guilt somewhat.

When Mel got back to the parking lot, Sara and Annie were dozing on the golf cart but Lola was nowhere in sight.

“Where’s Lola?”

Sara sat upright, blinking in the light. She wiped a thin trail of saliva from her lower lip. “We thought she was with you. She kind of wandered into the club after you did.”

“Shit.” Mel tossed the keys to Sara and sat down in the back. Annie woke up, her cheeks pink from the heat. “Pull up to the front door of the club and I’ll go in,” Mel said. “Keep the motor running.”

“Now you’re making me nervous,” Sara said.

Mel found Lola sitting at the real estate table watching, entranced, as an eager young associate, not realizing that she already owned one of the largest properties on the island, made the sales pitch of his life. Mel pulled Lola away. She smiled at the salesman and said “Sorry,” and allowed Mel to hurry her down the wide corridors. “Where are we going?” Lola said breathlessly. “Did I do something wrong?”

They hurried through the front doors and down the steps, flinging themselves on to the back of the golf cart.

“Step on it,” Mel commanded, and they pulled away from the curb, tires squealing, and headed for the open road.

A long ribbon of asphalt road stretched before them, and to their right, beyond the wide expanse of beach, the sea glistened. They passed a cart of merry teenagers who shrieked and waved. Lola laughed and waved back. “So what happened back there?” Sara said over her shoulder to Mel. “You’ve got that look on your face that you used to get whenever you were getting ready to go up against some male authority figure. Whenever you were getting ready to disobey your father.”

Mel told them what she’d done with A. Lincoln’s business cards. “Let’s see how he likes telling a mob of hungry women and their hyperactive offspring that it’s all been a big mistake,” she said, grinning.

“You know, you really are devious,” Sara said.

“Twenty years of writing detective novels have taught me to think like a criminal.”

“Well, you do it very well.”

“Thank you.”

The endless blue sea stretched beside them. Seagulls swooped and dived above the beach that was slowly disappearing beneath high tide. Far off in the distance storm clouds rode the horizon.

“So where are we going to eat tonight?”

Lola was staring out at the sea but after a minute she realized they were waiting for her to speak and she said, “I told April to take the night off She and Mike are taking the boat over to Wilmington.”

“I think I may have sand in my swimsuit,” Annie said.

“I hear the Beach Club has pretty good food.”

“I don’t know about y’all but I refuse to eat in a place that refuses membership to women. If they won’t take me, they can’t have my money either,” Mel said. “Besides, it’s Casino Night. They’re booked. Overbooked,” she added, grinning.

“I’m chafing pretty bad,” Annie said.

“That’s really not something we want to hear about,” Mel said.

Sara glanced at Mel over her shoulder. “Of course you realize we’re now banned from The Whale Head Island Beach Club. If we show up again, one of the surly mothers is sure to recognize you as the woman passing out bogus meal tickets.”

Mel shrugged. “So what? I didn’t like that place anyway. Too stuffy. Why do we need a fucking kiddie pool when we’ve got the whole Atlantic Ocean
—capisce
?”

“Sure,” Sara said. “I
capisce.”

“There’s the Oyster Bar down on the docks,” Lola said hesitantly, still trying to figure out where they could eat dinner.

“That sounds good.”

The breeze blowing off the ocean was fierce. Far off in the distance the shrimp boats passed, their nets raised like wings.

“Did you see his nametag? That stuck-up manager’s? It read
A Lincoln”

“Do you think the As for Abraham?”

“Most likely Adolf,” Mel said.

hen the women arrived at the beach house Captain Mike and April were loading up the extra golf cart, getting ready to head down to the marina. Dressed in a blue striped polo shirt and a pair of faded blue jeans and flip-flops, Captain Mike had cleaned up nicely. He was not classically handsome, but he was tall and well built, and his voice was pleasantly deep. Mel had no doubt that other women found him attractive.

“So what’s in Wilmington?” she asked casually, stepping off the golf cart.

“The best beer on the east coast,” he said. April stood beside him, methodically punching the buttons of her cell phone, looking young and bored and very pretty. “There’s a microbrewery down on the waterfront that brews some of the best-tasting, coldest beer around.”

“Oh, yeah? Well, thanks for asking us to go.”

He grinned and looked at Lola. “Sorry,” he said. “Where are my manners? It goes without saying that you ladies are invited to join us if you like.”

“No,” Lola said, waving her hand for them to go on. “We’re having a girls’ night.”

They stood in the driveway and watched as the golf cart drove off, weaving in and out of sight along the winding beach road. “What’s his story?” Mel asked Lola. “He’s got ex-military written all over him.”

Lola hesitated and then said vaguely, “I think he might have been in the marines. Or Special Forces. Something like that.”

“I thought so. Divorced?”

“Widowed.” Lola pushed her hair out of her face. She watched as the cart disappeared over a distant rise. “His wife died in a car crash. A few years ago.”

They were all quiet for a few minutes, absorbing this.

“Poor guy,” Annie said.

“He seems so young,” Sara said.

“Are he and April serious or just fuck buddies?” Mel said.

Lola laughed and leaned to pick up her beach bag. “Why don’t you ask him?” she said.

“Fuck buddies,” Sara said. “Very nice.”

“You know what I mean.”

“You mean you’d like a chance with him yourself.”

“He’s not my type.”

“Keep your hands off the captain. This is a girls’ trip, remember?”

“Even if he
was
my type,” Mel said, “I’m the only single girl on this trip so if I choose to hook up with the help, that’s my prerogative.”

“As long as it doesn’t interfere with your bartending duties,” Lola said.

“Don’t worry,” Mel said. “Nothing interferes with that.”

It wasn’t that Mel had bad luck with men. In fact, if anything her luck was too good. There were always too many men, too many distractions that interfered with whatever relationship she found herself in at that particular moment. She didn’t understand women who complained that there weren’t any eligible men in Manhattan for women over thirty-five. There were plenty of eligible men if you knew where to look. If you kept your expectations realistic and didn’t fall into the same trap she saw so many women in their mid-thirties to mid-forties fall into—the cult of the knight in shining armor, the savior, the pressure of that old maternal clock ticking relentlessly down to destruction. She saw them everywhere, these world-weary women who wore their desperation on their faces:
I want a
husband! I want a child! I want them now! A
man could spot them blocks away. They exuded hopelessness like a bad smell.

Mel didn’t like children, and she had never looked for a knight in shining armor. She couldn’t have cared less if men found her attractive and so, for the most part, they did. It was an old trick, not caring, and one she’d perfected not long after first arriving in New York, a fresh-faced Southern girl come to seek her fame and fortune in the Big Apple.

In those days in the early eighties, the city was dark and dangerous. John Lennon had been shot dead in front of the Dakota in 1980, and a pall still hung over the city. Mel took a nasty little walk-up apartment off West Fifteenth and found a job as a writer for a company that published corporate magazines geared to everything from the travel industry to the thriving real-estate market. She was shuttled back and forth between twenty or so different quarterlies and found herself writing an article on wahoo fishing in Aruba one week and the next an article on buying distressed property in the Poconos. It was tame, predictable work but it paid the bills.

New York was not what she had expected. It was not the exuberant, intellectual world of the Algonquin Round Table, of Robert Benchley Dorothy Parker, and Robert Sherwood that she had so often imagined. People were brusque and impatient. They didn’t like to wait the length of time it took her to speak in her slow Southern drawl and would roll their eyes or snap their gum irritably when she ordered takeout or asked for directions. She missed the South. She missed the slow, unhurried pace of life. And even though at times it had driven her crazy, she missed talking to strangers in line at the grocery store, the Laundromat, the gas station, the dry cleaners, or while waiting for a table at a restaurant. New Yorkers didn’t talk to strangers unless it was necessary. They weren’t cold but they were wary. Mel missed Lola, married now to Briggs and living in Birmingham, and she missed Annie, married to her childhood sweetheart and living in Nashville. Sara lived and worked in Charlotte, and Mel still talked to her from time to time.

Mel missed the South, she missed her girlhood friends, but mostly she missed J.T.

Their breakup, of course, had been inevitable. Still, there were times, lying in her bed and listening to the rain drum against the windows or waking from a dream with his name on her lips, when she regretted their parting. Then she would rise and go about her business and she would
think all day of calling him. Even a year after she first moved to the city when she had grown accustomed to thinking of herself as a New Yorker and was living with Phil, an editor she worked with, she still thought from time to time of calling J.T.

And then one day, she did.

It was a sunny day in early September when the air was cool and pungent, and the trees in Madison Square Park were glorious with the red and yellow foliage of fall. She had been out walking in the park with Phil and they had come in, their faces red from the cold and the exercise, and he had made them a couple of Irish coffees. He lived in the Flatiron District in a large comfortable apartment not far from the park. They snuggled for a while on the sofa, reading, and then Phil remembered some work back at the office and he rose reluctantly and left. Mel made herself another Irish coffee and sat in an overstuffed chair in front of the long windows, sipping her drink. Below her the city moved at its usual hurried pace. Gray metallic buildings glittered in the bright sunlight, silhouetted against an azure sky. Around the distant skyscrapers hazy clouds drifted like smoke. There was something in the chilly air, some quality of light slanting in through the windows and pooling along the hardwood floors, that reminded her of North Carolina. It was on days like this that she and J.T. might throw their gear into a couple of backpacks and hike the Appalachian Trail down into the Nantahala Forest around Tusquitee Bald. Or maybe the Rim Trail from Huskins Branch to Big Stamp, depending on how much time they had to spend.