Beautiful Creatures (44 page)

“When you’re sixteen? How are you supposed to know who you are and who you want to be for the rest of your life by then?”

“Yeah, well, those are the lucky ones. I don’t even get a choice.”

I almost couldn’t bring myself to ask the next question. “So what will happen to you?”

“Reece says you just change. It happens in a second, like a heartbeat. You feel this energy, this power moving through your
body, almost like you’re coming to life for the first time.” She looked wistful. “At least, that’s what Reece said.”

“That’s doesn’t sound so bad.”

“Reece described it as an overwhelming warmth. She said it felt like the sun was shining on her, and no one else. And at that
moment, she said you just know which path has been chosen for you.” It sounded too easy, too painless, like she was leaving
something out. Like the part about what it felt like when a Caster went Dark. But I didn’t want to put it out there, even
if I knew we were both thinking about it.

Just like that?

Just like that. It doesn’t hurt or anything, if that’s what you’re worried about.

That was one of the things I was worried about, but it wasn’t the only thing.

I’m not worried.

Me neither.

And this time, we made a point of staying away from what we were thinking, even to ourselves.

The sun crept across the braided rug on Lena’s floor, the orange light turning all the colors of the braid into a hundred
different kinds of gold. For a moment, Lena’s face, her eyes, her hair, everything the light touched turned to gold. She was
beautiful, a hundred years and a hundred miles away, and just like the faces in the Book, somehow not quite human.

“Sundown. Uncle Macon will be up, any minute. We have to put the Book away.” She closed it, zipping it back into my bag. “You
take it. If my uncle finds it, he’ll just try to keep it from me, like everything else.”

“I just can’t figure out what he and Amma are hiding. If all this stuff is going to happen and there’s nothing anyone can
do to stop it, why not tell us everything?”

She wouldn’t look at me. I pulled her into my arms, and she lay her head against my chest. She didn’t say a word, but between
two layers of sweatshirts and sweaters, I could still feel her heart beating against mine.

She looked over at the viola until the music died out, dimming like the sun in the window.

The next day at school, it was clear we were the only people thinking about anything that had to do with any kind of book.
No hands were raised in any classes, unless someone needed the hall pass for the bathroom. Not a single pen touched a scrap
of paper, unless it was to write a note about who had been asked, who didn’t have a prayer of being asked, and who had already
been shot down.

December only meant one thing at Jackson High: the winter formal. We were in the cafeteria when Lena brought the subject up
for the first time.

“Did you ask anyone to go to the dance?” Lena wasn’t familiar with Link’s not-so-secret strategy of going to all the dances
stag so he could flirt with Coach Cross, the girls’ track coach. Link had been in love with Maggie Cross, who had graduated
five years ago and came back after college to become Coach Cross, since we were in fifth grade.

“No, I like to fly solo.” Link grinned, his mouth full of fries.

“Coach Cross chaperones, so Link always goes by himself so he can loiter around her all night,” I explained.

“Don’t wanna disappoint the ladies. They’ll be fightin’ over me once somebody spikes the punch.”

“I’ve never been to a school dance before.” Lena looked down at her tray and picked at her sandwich. She looked almost disappointed.

I hadn’t asked her to the dance. It hadn’t occurred to me that she’d want to go. So much was going on between us, and every
part of it was so much bigger than a school dance.

Link shot me a look. He had warned me this would happen. “Every girl wants to be asked to the dance, man. I have no idea why,
but even I know that much.” Who knew Link might actually be right, considering his Coach Cross Master Plan had never panned
out?

Link drained the rest of his Coke. “A pretty girl like you? You could be the Snow Queen.”

Lena tried to smile, but it wasn’t even close. “So what’s with the whole Snow Queen thing? Don’t you just have a Homecoming
Queen like everywhere else?”

“No. This is the winter formal, so it’s an Ice Queen, but Savannah’s cousin, Suzanne, won every year until she graduated and
Savannah won last year, so everyone just calls it the Snow Queen.” Link reached over and grabbed a slice of pizza from my
plate.

It was pretty obvious Lena wanted to be asked. Another mysterious thing about girls—they want to be asked to stuff even if
they don’t want to go. But I had a feeling that wasn’t the case with Lena. It was almost like she had a list of all the things
she imagined a regular girl was supposed to do in high school, and she was determined to do them. It was crazy. The formal
was the last place I wanted to go right now. We weren’t the most popular people at Jackson lately. I didn’t mind that everyone
stared when we walked down the hall, even if we weren’t holding hands. I didn’t mind that people were probably saying things
right now, cruel things, while the three of us sat alone at the only empty table in the crowded lunchroom, or that a whole
club full of Jackson Angels was patrolling the halls just waiting for us to screw up.

But the thing is, before Lena, I would’ve cared. I was just starting to wonder, I mean, if maybe I was under some kind of
spell myself.

I don’t do that.

I didn’t say you did.

You just did.

I didn’t say you had Cast a spell. I just said, maybe I was under one.

You think I’m Ridley?

I think… forget it.

Lena searched my face even more intently, like she was trying to read it. Maybe she could do that, too, now, for all I knew.

What?

The thing you said the morning after Halloween, in your room. Did you mean it, L?

What thing?

The writing on the wall.

What wall?

The wall in your bedroom. Don’t act like you don’t know what I’m talking about. You said you were feeling the same way I was.

She started fidgeting with her necklace.

I don’t know what you’re talking about.

Falling.

Falling?

Falling… you know.

What?

Never mind.

Say it, Ethan.

I just did.

Look at me.

I’m looking right at you.

I looked down into my chocolate milk.

“Get it? Savannah Snow? Ice Queen?” Link dumped vanilla ice cream on top of his French fries.

Lena caught my eye, blushing. She reached her hand under the table. I took it in mine, then almost yanked my hand away, the
shock of her touch was so strong. It really was like sticking my hand in a wall socket. The way she looked at me, even if
I couldn’t hear what she was thinking, I would’ve known.

If you have something to say, Ethan, just say it.

Yeah. That.

Say it.

But we didn’t need to say it. We were all by ourselves, in the middle of the crowded lunchroom, in the middle of a conversation
with Link. Between the two of us, we had no idea what Link was even talking about, anymore. “Get it? It’s only funny because
it’s true. You know, Ice Queen, Savannah is one.”

Lena let go of my hand and threw a carrot at Link. She couldn’t stop smiling. He thought she was smiling at him. “Okay. I
get it, Ice Queen. It’s still stupid.” Link stuck a fork into the gloppy mess on his tray.

“It makes no sense. It doesn’t even snow here.”

Link smiled at me over his ice cream fries. “She’s jealous. You better watch out. Lena just wants to be elected Ice Queen
so she can dance with me when they make me Ice King.”

Lena laughed in spite of herself. “You? I thought you were saving yourself for the track coach.”

“I am, and this is gonna be the year she falls for me.”

“Link spends the whole night trying to come up with witty things to say when she walks by.”

“She thinks I’m funny.”

“Funny looking.”

“This is my year. I can feel it. I’m gonna get Snow King this year, and Coach Cross is finally gonna see me up there on the
stage with Savannah Snow.”

“I can’t really see how it plays out from there.” Lena began to peel a blood orange.

“Oh, you know, she’ll be struck by my good looks and charm and musical talent, especially if you write me a song. Then she’ll
give in and dance with me and follow me up to New York after graduation, to be my groupie.”

“What is that, like an after-school special?” The orange peel came off in one long spiral.

“Your girlfriend thinks I’m special, dude.” Fries were falling out of his mouth.

Lena looked at me. Girlfriend. We both heard him say it.

Is that what I am?

Is that what you want to be?

Are you asking me something?

It wasn’t the first time I’d thought about it. Lena had felt like my girlfriend for a while now. When you considered everything
we’d been through together, it was sort of a given. So I don’t know why I had never said it, and I don’t know why it was hard
to say it now. But there was something about saying the words that made it more real.

I guess I am.

You don’t sound so sure.

I grabbed her other hand under the table and found her green eyes.

I’m sure, L.

Then I guess I’m your girlfriend.

Link was still talking. “You’ll think I’m special when Coach Cross is hangin’ all over me at the dance.” Link got up and tossed
his tray.

“Just don’t be thinking my girlfriend’s saving you a dance.” I tossed mine.

Lena’s eyes lit up. I was right; she not only wanted to be asked, she wanted to go. In that moment, I knew I didn’t care what
was on her regular-high-school-girl to-do list. I was going to make sure she got to do everything on it.

“Are you guys goin’?”

I looked at her expectantly and she squeezed my hand.

“Yeah, I guess.”

This time she smiled for real. “And Link, how about I save you two dances? My boyfriend won’t mind. He would never tell me
who I can and can’t dance with.” I rolled my eyes.

Link put his fist up and I tapped my knuckles against his. “Yeah, I bet.”

The bell rang and lunch was over. Just like that, I not only had a date to the winter formal, I had a girlfriend. And not
just a girlfriend, for the first time in my whole life, I had almost used the L word. In the middle of the cafeteria, in front
of Link.

Talk about hot lunch.

12.13

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don’t see why she can’t meet you here. I was hopin’ to see Melchizedek’s niece all dolled up in her fancy dress.” I was standing
in front of Amma so she could tie my bow tie. Amma was so short, she had to stand three stairs up from me to reach my collar.
When I was a kid, she used to comb my hair and tie my necktie before we went to church on Sundays. She had always looked like
she was so proud, and that’s how she was looking at me now.