Because You're Mine (25 page)

“No,” she gasped as he reached that sensitive area, and she twisted away with a shudder. She had never imagined that he would do such a thing. “No—”

But Logan caught her and pinned her in place, his grip tight on her wrists. “Don't ever say that word to me again,” he said, his voice steely. “Not in bed, or out of it.”

The statement shocked her. She understood that she had hurt him, and that this was the form of his revenge, to inflict his will on her. “You mustn't,” she managed to say, her wrists straining in his grasp. “I don't want that.”

Logan laughed, the sound mocking her as he bent his head once more. Madeline's eyes pricked with tears of fury and shame, and she felt his mouth on her, there where she had never imagined it, never thought it possible. Although she tried to close her thighs, her traitorous body disobeyed, spreading wide to receive him. His lips were hot, burning her, his tongue a sleek invasion that made her groan and cry out in mortifying pleasure. She ceased to be herself, reduced to a wanton creature who clung and arched with frantic need until a great rolling wave of climax came over her, leaving her limp and weak in its aftermath.

Before the glow of sensation had faded, Logan moved his body over hers. She felt him enter her, and she tried to protest the massive intrusion, pushing feebly at his chest. He forced himself inside her swollen depths until she groaned in surrender and opened to him. The rhythm began, a slow, steady thrusting that sent her beleaguered senses whirling out of control once again.

Madeline turned her face into the hard curve of his neck and shoulder, feeling somehow that this act had made her his in a way that their other time had not. Then, Logan had been a partner, a teacher, a beloved friend. This time he was her master, dominating her body and soul.

The pleasure overtook her once again, like fire dissolving inside her, and she gasped against his taut throat. Logan drove inside her one final time, burying himself deeply, his large body shuddering in release. The perspiration from his skin sealed them together, arms and legs wrapped in a tight embrace. Somehow it reassured Madeline to feel Logan tremble slightly, to feel his breath strike her skin and his heart pound in his chest. No matter how he tried, he wasn't able to stay indifferent to her. He relaxed over her, and she welcomed his heavy weight until he rolled away with a sigh.

She wished that he would kiss her, caress her, even hold her hand for a moment, but he refrained from touching her. Abruptly the room was chilly again. Madeline reached for the sheet and covers, pulling them up to her shoulders. Perplexed, she wondered if he wanted her to leave.

“Shall I go now?” she asked.

Logan took a long time to answer. “No. I may have need of you again tonight.”

Her mouth compressed at the arrogant command, but she rested back against the pillows.
Be patient with him
, Julia had advised…well, it was certainly worth the effort. She would try to atone for the past—she owed that to him. She turned on her side to watch his profile in the firelight. Logan's eyes were closed, but she sensed that it took a long time for him to fall asleep, and she could only guess at the thoughts that occupied him.

In the decade since Logan had started the Capital Theatre, lovingly reconstructing and refurbishing the old set of buildings; assembled a company of actors, musicians, painters, carpenters, costumiers, sceneshifters, property men, stage managers, and the like; and trained the lot of them to his satisfaction…he had never been late to rehearsal. Until this morning.

He usually awoke easily, but this morning he had been drowsy and dream-fogged…and when he had seen Madeline sleeping beside him, he hadn't been able to stop himself from reaching for her. He had made love to her while she had yawned and purred like a sleepy kitten. Only afterward had he realized how late it was.

Cursing and scowling, Logan had dressed with lightning speed and raced in his carriage to reach the theater as quickly as possible. However, he arrived a full forty-five minutes after the designated hour, and he winced as he strode through the back entrance and headed to the greenroom. The company would doubtless mutter and grumble about his lateness. They were entitled to complain. He had never hesitated to fine any of them for the same offense.

The greenroom was empty save for Jeff, the shopboy. “Mr. Scott!” he exclaimed. “We all wondered if you were coming today—”

“Where is everyone?” Logan interrupted, a scowl pulling at his face.

“Onstage, sir. The duchess took it on herself to rehearse 'em, seeing as how you weren't here.”

Logan nodded shortly and went through the door leading to the backstage area. He was aware of a ripple of hasty mutters, and a bit of scuffling as he approached the stage. Squaring his shoulders, he came out of the wing—and stopped short as he saw the entire company waiting in a semicircle with glasses and cups in their hands. There was the sound of corks popping, and the crew grinned like idiots as they confronted him. “Congratulations!” someone shouted, while at the same time another voice laughingly accused, “You're late!”

The scene erupted into a chorus of laughter and cheers, and glasses clinked busily as frothy champagne was poured. A cup of champagne was pressed into Logan's hand, and he felt his mouth pulling into a crooked smile. “Are we celebrating my tardiness or my wedding?” he asked.

Julia came forward as she replied, her lovely face wreathed in amusement. “Let's say that both have been a long time in coming. Take care, Mr. Scott—or we all might begin to think that you're human.”

“I believe we can all agree on that point,” Logan replied. “And I want it understood that I intend to fine myself for being late.”

“Oh, that's all right,” Arlyss Barry said cheekily, “we used the cashbox in your office to pay for the champagne.”

The crew laughed gustily, and Logan shook his head, the smile remaining on his lips.

“To the Capital Theatre Company!” one of them cried merrily. “A bunch of thieving drunkards.”

Amid the general round of amusement, Logan raised his own glass. “To Mrs. Scott,” he said, and they all drank and agreed vociferously.

“Hear! Hear!”

“God bless Mrs. Scott!”

“Lord take pity on her!” someone added, and the revelers chuckled into their champagne.

Perhaps it
had been the champagne, or the will generated by news of his wedding, or merely Logan's own grudging good mood, but the atmosphere at the Capital Theatre was a hundred times improved. Logan couldn't recall when a rehearsal had gone so well. The actors were alert and responsive, and the crew performed their jobs with energy and close attention to detail. As for himself…it was as if some vital essence had been restored.

The knowledge that Madeline was waiting at home, that he was free to touch her, see her, make love to her whenever he wished, filled him with a satisfaction that he was hard-pressed to conceal. Not that he was prepared to admit any hint of love or forgiveness…he wasn't nearly ready for that. But he was fully aware that her presence in his life was necessary to his very existence. Last night, and today, had been proof of that. In the space of twenty-four hours he had returned to his old self, able once more to take the reins at the Capital with ease.

“Excellent,” Julia had said to him during rehearsal—she, who never praised his abilities because she claimed there was no need to inflate his self-opinion any further. They were rehearsing a new piece entitled
The Rose
, the story of an old man reliving the memories of his tumultuous life. “You nearly brought tears to my eyes during your monologue about remembering how it feels to be young,” she told him.

“It's a well-written part,” Logan replied, walking backstage with her as they headed to their respective offices.

“And you play it brilliantly,” Julia said, her turquoise eyes filled with speculation. She smiled slightly. “It seems you've recaptured whatever it was that's been missing. It's because of Maddy, isn't it?”

Although Logan was annoyed by her perceptiveness, he couldn't argue. He responded with a surly grunt.

Julia continued with obvious enjoyment. “You must resent Madeline for proving that you're not invulnerable.”

“I never claimed I was invulnerable,” he returned evenly. “And if I harbor any resentment toward my wife, it's for a very different reason.”

“Really.” Julia's gaze mocked him. She entered her office, poking her blond head outside the door to add, “I shall enjoy watching you during the next few months, Logan. It will be interesting to see which part of you will win the battle—the half that wants to be happy, or the half that wants to flee from anyone who might dare to love you.”

“Your talents are wasted as an actress, Your Grace,” Logan informed her over his shoulder, continuing on his way. “With your imagination, you should have been a writer.”

The sound of her laughter trailed down the hall after him. As soon as Logan reached his office, he saw a familiar dark head above the back of his chair. Andrew, Lord Drake, was enjoying a drink at his desk.

“Jimmy!” he cried, grinning broadly. “What a fine newlywed you look, scowling that way.”

“What do you want?” Logan asked, shaking his hand in a firm grip.

Andrew smiled and indicated a crate beside the desk. It contained a dozen brandy bottles, each tied with a jaunty bow. “I brought you a gift, Jimmy. I'll admit, my feelings were wounded that you didn't ask me to stand up for you at the ceremony—but in the face of our long-standing friendship, I decided to let it pass.”

Logan took one of the bottles and inspected it admiringly. The vintage was an exquisite thirty-year-old French brandy. “Thank you, Andrew.”

“I decided to sample a bottle while I waited for you,” Andrew said. “Like nectar of the gods. Care for a glass?”

“I'll get one from the greenroom.”

“Don't bother—I brought one for you. Can't drink brandy like this from anything but a proper snifter.”

“I should have invited you to the ceremony,” Logan said gruffly, sitting on the edge of the desk as Andrew poured. “But it was all done rather quickly.”

“So I heard.” Andrew slanted him a wicked grin, his blue eyes sparkling. “Word has it that your new wife is carrying a bag pudding.” He looked at Logan with mock horror. “Can it be true? Will the Scott household soon be blessed with a little Logan?”

Logan accepted the snifter of brandy and nodded grimly, waiting for further mockery.

“Well done, then,” Andrew said abruptly, surprising him. “She's a likely wench, not to mention easy on the eye…and you could hardly do better than the daughter of a viscount.”

“No remarks about my being ‘caught’?” Logan asked. “I was certain you'd have something to say about that.” He sipped his brandy slowly, rolling the fine flavor on his tongue.

Andrew smiled. “You weren't caught, Jimmy. I've known you for too long. You wouldn't have married her unless you wanted her.”

Andrew was right…the only reason he had married Madeline was because he wanted her, needed her. The pregnancy had been a convenient excuse. Strange, that Andrew could have seen that so easily.

“We have no secrets from each other, do we?” Logan asked, staring at the man next to him and realizing that they were indeed brothers. Now he knew why they had remained friends for so long. They had each unknowingly felt the pull of their shared blood for years.

“Not one,” Andrew agreed cheerfully.

The urge to tell him…
Andrew, I'm your brother
…was so strong that Logan bit the insides of his lips to keep from speaking. He drank deeply of the brandy. There was no predicting for certain what Andrew's reaction would be to the revelation. Perhaps he might take a fleeting pleasure in the news, but Logan doubted it. More likely, Andrew would be suspicious, skeptical, bitter. He would turn against his father, and Logan as well, and cut himself loose from any kind of steadying influence. Logan had no wish to see his half brother embark on a gambling or drinking spree that could result in ruin.

“Why are you looking at me like that?” Andrew asked, quirking his dark brows. “Just as my father does…like a scientist about to dissect a specimen.”

“Sorry.” Logan relaxed his features. “I was just thinking that you seem a bit fashed, Andrew. Been spending too much time at the hazard tables of late?”

“One night too many,” Andrew admitted with a forced laugh. “But my confessions will keep 'til later. I only came by to offer my congratulations.”

“If you're in trouble—”

“I'm always in trouble.” Andrew rested his boots on the desk, heedless of the books and papers beneath his muddy heels. “But at least life is never boring. Tell me, Jimmy…how does it feel to be a married man?”

“I've only been wed for a day,” Logan said dryly. “It's too soon to come to any conclusion.”

Andrew made a face. “I can't say I'd fancy being served the same supper every night for the rest of my life. But, of course, a man can slip out now and then for a little variety, as long as he's discreet.”

“I suppose,” Logan murmured, contemplating his brandy absently. Madeline was hardly in a position to object were he to take a mistress. But he had no desire to insult her that way…and though he might belie it, the truth was that no woman had ever appealed to him as she did.

Andrew seemed to read his thoughts, reacting with a spurt of incredulous laughter. “Good God—don't tell me you're in love with her?”

“No,” Logan said swiftly, his eyes turning hard.

“That's a relief. Love is poison, Jimmy. Just remember what happened the last time you succumbed to it.”

“How could I forget?” Logan said, his voice tainted with sudden malice, and he stared at Andrew until the latter murmured uncomfortably and finished his brandy.

“I must be off, Jimmy. Good luck to you, and all that. By the by, I heard a rumor that you'll soon be giving a ball for her at your estate. If that's true, I'll be expecting an invitation.” Breezily he waved good-bye and left the office, his booted feet echoing in the hallway.

“There's no reason for Logan to host such a grand affair…not for my sake.” Madeline stared in distress at samples of hand-painted invitations, trying to envision the prospect of six hundred guests pouring through Logan's elegant London mansion.

“It's not all for your sake, dear,” Julia replied dryly, sitting nearby as she worked on the guest list. “It's partly to assuage Logan's all-important pride. Rather than handle the circumstances of your marriage with discretion, he wants to make a show of it, to demonstrate that he couldn't be more pleased with the situation. No doubt such a spectacle will dull the point of many a gossip's arrow—especially the ones who want to receive invitations.” Frowning slightly, Julia crossed out a few names and inserted others, striving to achieve the perfect blend.

“But why have it here?” Madeline asked. “Logan will hate having hundreds of people wandering through his home, staring at his art collection and investigating every surface and corner—”

“Of course he will. However, he knows that hosting the ball at his mysterious mansion will drive people into a frenzy. Everyone of significance is already begging for an invitation, and those who suspect they won't get one are already making plans to leave London the night of the ball.”

“He'll lose all his privacy,” Madeline said, unable to share Julia's enthusiasm.

“I'm certain Logan knew when he married you that he had to sacrifice most of his privacy. He certainly wouldn't expect a girl of your age to enjoy his reclusive lifestyle. You'll want to dance and attend the opera, travel, join clubs and social groups—” Julia stopped and peered at the list in her lap more closely. “Hmm. I should add a few more international names…”

While the duchess labored over the list, Madeline subsided in her chair with a quiet moan. She was beginning to understand what Logan wanted of her, and it would require the performance of her life. Not only was she to hold her head high as people tried to observe if she was showing or not…she was also to move among the crowd with confidence and poise—things they would expect of Logan Scott's wife. If she failed, it would reflect badly on Logan as well as herself. Why would he put her to such a test, and so soon after their marriage?

“I don't know if I can do it,” she said aloud, her fingers twining tightly in her lap.

Julia's turquoise eyes flickered with friendly sympathy. “Maddy…all he expects is that you try.”

Madeline nodded. She would do whatever Logan asked, because she loved him. He must never regret having married her. No matter how long it took, she would make him admit someday that he had chosen the right woman to share his life with. “I'll do more than try,” she said. “I'm going to succeed.”

“Good for you,” Julia said with an admiring laugh. “You're made of resilient stuff, aren't you?”

“I hope so.”

As the two women worked and talked, a tray of tea and delicate sandwiches was brought in, but Madeline couldn't bring herself to eat anything. Nausea was still a persistent problem. Logan had clearly been annoyed by her lack of appetite and had threatened to send for the doctor if she didn't improve soon.

“I wouldn't worry,” Julia reassured her. “Your appetite will return soon enough. You'll regain the weight you've lost, and a great deal more.”

Madeline rested a hand on her own flat stomach. “I'm actually looking forward to it. Right now it doesn't seem as if there is a baby at all.”

“Wait until it starts moving and kicking,” Julia said, smiling. “Then you'll have no doubt.”

The afternoon grew late, and Julia departed with the promise that she would return on the morrow to take Madeline calling with her. There were a few young married women whom Madeline must meet. “Not all of my friends are in the theater, you know,” Julia said impishly. “Marrying the duke has forced me to associate with respectable people from time to time.”

The duchess was being extraordinarily kind, Madeline reflected after she had left. It spoke of Julia's high regard for Logan, that she would go out of her way to be so gracious to his wife. Relaxing in a plush corner of the parlor settee, Madeline occupied herself with reading and needlework until Logan arrived home. He came into the parlor carrying the wintry scent from outside, his dark hair disordered and his cheeks slightly reddened from the cold. “Maddy,” he said, coming to stand by the settee.

Madeline tilted her head back to look at him, feeling as if she would drown in his fathomless blue eyes.

“Have you eaten?” Logan asked.

Madeline shook her head. “I was waiting for you.”

He extended a hand and helped her from the settee, his grasp warm and hard. “How was the afternoon with Julia?”

“We made some headway, I think. It's quite an undertaking, planning an event this large.”

He shrugged indifferently. “It's only a matter of hiring the right people.”

As they walked to the circular dining hall, Madeline wanted to slip her hand companionably over his arm, but thought better of it. So far Logan hadn't encouraged any overtures from her, and she thought it likely that he would rebuff her if she tried.

In the few days since their wedding, their relationship had been polite and somewhat strained. They discussed neutral subjects and chose their words carefully. There were no intimate glances, no casual kisses or caresses. It was only at night that the constraints melted away, when Logan would come to her bed and wordlessly remove her gown, and make love to her until she ached with the pleasure of it. Each morning he left for the theater before she awoke.

“Did rehearsal go well?” Madeline asked as he seated her at the table.

Logan amused her with an account of Arlyss Barry's latest feud with another actress who had upstaged her, and the dissatisfaction of a few actors regarding an agreement he had made with a rival theater. “The Daly has recently lost a pair of its major performers, so I've decided to lend them a few of my actors for their run of
As You Like It
. In return, we'll use two or three of their players for supporting roles in
The Rose
. Unfortunately, my actors are protesting the transfer. They consider themselves too good to perform at the Daly.”

“I don't blame them,” Madeline commented, watching from the corner of her eye as a pair of footmen brought in silver dishes and trays. “If I were an actor, I would much rather appear at the Capital.”

“Nevertheless, they'll do as I tell them.”