Belladonna (36 page)

"Did you learn nothing in the past few days?" she asked, making her voice as sharp and as hard as stone. "You have seen what happens to the world when you become careless.
You have seen,
Caitlin Marie. You no longer have the excuse of ignorance for what you do or the harm you cause."

The girl took a step back, shocked by the deliberately aimed emotional blow.

"I didn't do anything," Caitlin said, now looking sick and scared.

"You're a Landscaper," Glorianna snapped. "You can't lie with words when your heart knows the truth.
Feel
the difference.

This place has changed."
For the better,
she added silently, but she still had one more of them to deal with before she acknowledged
that.

"It wasn't just me," Caitlin cried. "It
wasn't.
Why aren't you yelling at her?" She flung out an arm to point dramatically at Merrill. "She started it by saying I don't belong here. She —"

"— is right."

Silence. Shock and pain. And in that silence, when the hearts of those women had no defenses, Glorianna, as Landscaper and Guide, heard all their secrets. Especially the ones they had kept hidden from themselves.

Now she could gentle her own heart. Because now she understood the tangles between herself and Caitlin.

"You don't belong here, Caitlin Marie," Glorianna said quietly. "You never did. If you had come when you had first learned of Lighthaven, if you had been welcomed when the dream of it was still a fluid dream I think you could have walked here in harmony with this Place of Light. But always as a visitor. Now you resent the place and feel bitterness toward the people who live here. Now you are a dissonance. You are not the bedrock of Lighthaven." She turned to look at Merrill. "I am.

Merrill's eyes widened. She clamped a hand over her mouth to stifle a cry. Then her hand slowly lowered as she stared at Glorianna in wonder. "I know. I feel you in the Light in a way I couldn't before."

"I am the bedrock. And you are the anchor." She looked at Brighid. "Just as you were once the anchor." She saw wariness in Brighid's eyes. It must have been hard for the woman to hide her true nature, even from the people she loved.

She took a step toward Brighid, then tipped her head toward Merrill and Shaela. But her eyes stayed locked with Brighid's.

"They are Sisters of the Light, but you are a Guardian. A true Guardian, descended from the first ones who were shaped by Ephemera in response to a cry from the human heart. What we came from was not human, and even now, generations later, we are not completely human. But it's time to stop hiding, Brighid. The Eater of the World is loose in the world again, and people need to know they do not stand alone."

Brighid studied her, hope now battling wariness. "My family line has been a secret kept for generations. A secret only entrusted to the daughters destined for Lighthaven. Even Maureen didn't know because she wasn't... like me. You're not a Guardian.

How do you know about these things? Why do you talk as if we're the same? We're not. I know we're not."

"Two branches from the same tree," Glorianna replied. "You came from a line of Guardians, the ones who remained apart from the world in order to nurture the Light. I came from the line who walked in the world in order to know the human heart. I'm a Guide."

Four women sucked in their breaths as they understood the significance of that word.

"You're a Heart Seer?" Brighid asked.

Glorianna nodded.

"But I'm not," Caitlin said, looking heart-bruised.

"No, you're not," Glorianna replied gently. "But you are a very strong Landscapes Caitlin, and it's time for you to knowingly take care of your pieces of the world."

"I don't know how."

"My mother and I can teach you."

Caitlin looked at her with eyes drenched in unshed tears. "I don't know where I belong."

Glorianna stepped close enough to brush her fingers over the girl's short hair. "That's all right," she said, smiling. "I do."

Then she looked past Caitlin and saw the men coming back to the gate. Michael's face was pale as ice, and Lee's ... She had never seen her brother look so grim — or so scared.

She looked at Brighid, then at Merrill. "I think the rest of this conversation should be more private."

"And
I
think this conversation would be best held in a well-stocked pub," Michael said. "But we're not likely to be finding one here, so ..." He raked his fingers through his hair.

"We do have some brandy," Shaela said. "For medicinal purposes."

Lee brushed a foot from side to side to creates narrow path that was clear of the pebbles and fist-sized stones made from Glorianna's anger. He worked his way up to the gate and past the gate. Once he was inside the walls that surrounded Lighthaven, he turned and looked at all of them. "Then I suggest we all have a large glass of medicine before we talk about this. We're going to need it."

* * *

Michael cradled the glass of brandy and stared at the dark liquid, waiting for someone else to ask the question, voice a concern, do something. But Lee and Glorianna, who were the only ones in the room who might have the answers, seemed content to drink brandy, stare at nothing, and brood.

"All right," he said. "What happened out there?"

Glorianna and Lee looked at him. Then Lee said, "In response to some powerful heart wishes, the White Isle shattered into two landscapes, separating Lighthaven from the rest of the island. Right now, that's all we know." He turned to his sister.

"Isn't it?"

Glorianna nodded. "And we know Lighthaven is one of my landscapes, and I'm almost certain the rest of the White Isle is one landscape that is in Caitlin Marie's keeping."

He waited, but they didn't say anything more. "What happened to the horse and driver when things ... changed?"

"That mist-covered lake might not look so big from the other shore," Lee replied. "Not likely to be a puddle-jump, but —"

"Did a man die when this happened?" Michael's voice sharpened. "Is that what the two of you are trying not to say? That because people had an argument and some harsh words were said, the world changed and a man died because of it?"

Shocked gasps. One of the women — maybe Caitlin — whimpered.

"We don't know," Glorianna said, giving him the courtesy of looking him in the eyes. "I don't think a chunk of the road suddenly disappeared out from under the carriage, dropping man and horse to the bottom of the lake. I think it's more likely the landscapes altered, and Ephemera created a moat, of sorts, around Lighthaven."

Suddenly Michael realized what she wasn't quite saying: The lake was that unnatural dark patch in the sea, the place where Glorianna had fainted in his arms. Somehow, Ephemera had plopped Lighthaven in the middle of
that dark patch, which Lee and Glorianna were now calling a lake. And since that made no sense to him, he focused on something he hoped wasn't quite so slippery to grasp.

"So the driver might be standing in the same spot, wondering why the road is suddenly leading right into a lake?"

"He could be." Glorianna took a healthy swallow of brandy. "Or he could have stared at it for a minute or two and then driven hack to Atwater as fast as he could."

"To tell them what?" Brighid asked.

Michael studied his aunt. She looked pale, and she had to be hurting still from the injuries caused in the fire. It would have eased his own nerves a bit if she'd gone off to rest. But he hadn't known, and she had never said, that she had been more than a Lady of Light, that she had been their leader.

She belonged here. He could see it. Even in pain, even in distress over the things that had happened there was an ease in the way she held herself, as if the land itself nourished something inside her — something that had starved during the years she had lived in Raven's Hill.

He'd had no idea what she had given up in order to answer the plea of a young boy who had been desperate to avoid being put in the orphans home and just as desperate not to lose his little sister, the only family he had left.

Brighid caught him looking — and returned the look.

Power in her eyes. The kind of power that had been kept hidden all the years she had lived outside these walls. Maybe — he glanced at Merrill, making a quick judgment of the way
she
was watching Brighid — had been kept hidden all the years she had lived here as well.

"We won't know that — or what's on the other side of the boundary — until one of us is standing in the other landscape and looking at the lake from that side," Glorianna said in response to Brighid's question.

"The problem is, we don't know
if
the rest of the White Isle
is
the landscape on the other side of the lake. And Caitlin hasn't had the training to know how to take the step between here and there to reach one of her landscapes or her garden, so — "

"She's not going back to Raven's Hill," Michael said fiercely. "Especially not alone."

"Her garden isn't rooted in Raven's Hill," Glorianna said. "It never was. Our immediate problem is how to get across a lake of undetermined size with neither boat nor oars — and no idea of what now resides in that lake since it's still a dark landscape."

Michael shuddered. The weed's that floated just beneath the surface
had
looked similar to the seaweed that had marked that patch of dark water, but Lee had felt reasonably certain the water was fresh, not salt. Different... and
yet
the same. So Michael took a long swallow of brandy and wished there wasn't a reason to wonder ... and worry ... about what might be waiting for any fool who tried to cross that lake.

Lee dug in his jacket pocket. "I've got a solution to that particular problem. Kenneday gave me this." He held out a compass and grinned at his sister.

Glorianna looked at the compass and started hooting with laughter while everyone else just looked puzzled

"I asked him for something small that I could carry and use if I needed a way back to the ship. So he gave me this."

Glorianna almost got herself under control — and then got the hiccups.

"One shot —
hic
— bridge?" she asked.

Lee nodded. "It should put me on the deck of the ship. If I leave now, I shouldn't be too far behind the driver and whatever story he'll be telling. Might even get there ahead of him. I'll reassure Kenneday that we're all in one piece, then have him help me get a wagon and maybe a rowboat. We couldn't see the other shore because of the fog, but a person should be able to cross that distance."

"Depends on the heart, doesn't it?" Glorianna said cryptically. She set her glass aside and scrubbed her hands over her face.

"All right. If you're feeling up to it, it would be better to get ahead of the wildest stories. We'll figure out what should be connected and how once we know what we're looking at."

"Done." Lee stood up and headed out of the room

"If I'm not here when you get back, don't worry," Glorianna said as he opened the door.

He shut the door with a control that was worse than a slam. "And where will you be, Glorianna Belladonna?" Lee asked, turning back to face her.

She narrowed her eyes at him. He just stared back. Michael admired the backbone it took for a man to do that.

Glorianna looked at Merrill. "Do you have riding horses here?"

"Y-yes," Merrill stammered. "They're not fancy, but we have some."

She turned those eyes back on her brother. "The Magician and I are going to ride the perimeter of this landscape and find out what it has and what it lacks."

He was so surprised by her plans for him that he inhaled the fumes of the last swallow of brandy and coughed until he thought his eyeballs would bounce tight out of his head. Of course, then he got a double whack on the back, which helped neither cough nor eyeballs.

"If you're done with killing me, then get me some water," he wheezed. He heard someone scrambling. Not either of the two who had been whacking him, but someone with a kinder heart.

Then Caitlin was kneeling in front of him holding a glass of water.

"Drink it down now. There's a lad," she said.

I'm not seven,
he thought, feeling surly enough to think it but still having enough sense not to say it. He took the water and drank it down — and got his breath back. "It's settled then," Glorianna said.

"Now that you've settled things to your satisfaction, kindly satisfy the curiosity of the rest of us," Brighid said.

Michael, hearing her voice edge toward the cold side of discipline, winced. Glorianna, however, just watched his aunt, as it looking for something no one else could see.

"I won't know precisely until I ride the perimeter, which, I suspect, will take no more than a day," Glorianna said. "I'm guessing Lighthaven is now an island within an island. The connection between this Place of Light and the rest of the island was already fragile." She nodded at Merrill. "That, I think, was your doing. Your heart tears the world beyond these walls. You wanted Lighthaven to be unreachable, untouchable."

"And you wonder why?" Merrill asked. She waved a hand toward Brighid and Shaela. "Look what the outside world does."

"I didn't say you were wrong, Merrill," Glorianna replied. "I'm simply explaining." She waited, then she closed her eyes, as if she needed to shut them all out in order to make a decision. When she opened them, she looked at Brighid. Only Brighid. "The White Isle has been split into two separate landscapes. Maybe more. Until a Bridge comes in and establishes bridges that can connect those landscapes to other places, they stand apart from the rest of the world and each other. In Ephemera's attempt to balance the heart wishes that altered the White Isle, the Dark currents that had been cast out of Lighthaven have now formed a lake that keeps the Light from being touched by the outside world."