Bible of the Dead (12 page)

‘How?’

‘
Brutally
. If someone hurts you, he becomes an enemy, a
soek
, and you must take revenge,
sangsoek.
But the principle of
kum
means you must hurt him ten times over, in return. If someone rapes your sister, you must kill his sister and his brother
and
kill his father
and
his mother. Kill everyone.’

Jake sensed the proximity of personal grief. He was quiet. Then she continued, her noble Khmer profile framed by the green troubling jungle and the blue painful sky:

‘The legend is that the Khmers adopted Buddhism, the most peaceful of religions, because it put a restraint on
kum
. And that,’ she leaned out of the boat, and trailed delicate fingers in the water, ‘that is why communism was so particularly vicious in Cambodia.’

‘Explain?’

‘The Khmer Rouge took away the constraints of Buddhism. They burned down the temples, tortured and slaughtered the monks. They tried to murder God. And the result . . .’ She shrugged, and winced. ‘Was the killing fields. Because if you take away the Khmers’ religion we are just left with
kum
– plus the terrors of tyranny.’

Chemda withdrew her hands from the river abruptly, as if she feared it might be bitten, ‘And then again, sometimes I think: maybe we are still a cursed people. Ah. Maybe we are
still
the Black Khmer. Steeped in blood.’

The boat was slowing, Jake turned: they were approaching a larger village, with a pier and stores and one or two fishing skiffs, a place where village children played in clothes, rather than shrieking and naked.

‘Pak Beng. We can stop for water, briefly, it is surely safe here. No one comes here. Then we have another few hours and we can get to Thailand. I hope.’

They tethered the boat. Jake stepped ashore and grabbed a warm cola from a man running a stall in the village. He had one eye and one arm and one leg, and a full set of grinning white teeth.

Jake returned to the boat. He didn’t feel refreshed, he felt utterly exhausted and still very hunted. The sun was so ferociously, predatingly hot; even the cooling river breeze did not help, as they motored slowly upstream. The silence of the river and the memory of the smoke baby, hanging from the door, weighed on him, like oppressive humidity before a storm. He wanted to talk. He didn’t know what to say. Chemda spoke.

‘Why do you feel guilt, about your family?’

It was one of her direct, even piercing questions.

He shied.

‘What do you mean by that?’

‘When we were on the Plain. You said,’ she softened her voice, as if she knew her words might hurt him. ‘You said that you felt guilt, about surviving your family, or your mother and sister. Why?’

Again, something in Chemda seemed to invite the truth from him, and again he yearned to tell her everything; maybe because she had darkness in her past, too.

‘When my sister was run over, I was . . . holding her hand. I was looking after her, but I was only seven, and she was five. Stupidly young. But I was still in charge, you know? And still I let go and, and, and she ran into the road.’ He half-swallowed the rest of the story, eyes fixed on the walls of jungle imprisoning the river. ‘It was after that my mother fell apart, and then she walked out. Broken heart. I don’t know. But in my mind it was all my fault. If I hadn’t let go of Becky none of it would have happened. None of it. Kids blame themselves, don’t they? That’s what I did, and sometimes still do.’

The motor puttered as they curved another, tighter corner. Pang was staring rigidly ahead to where smooth rocks protruded from the brown and silver water.

Chemda put her hand briefly on his, offering that tender electric shock. Then she sat back.

He said:

‘Tell me about you.’

‘Yes?’

‘Well, twenty-eight. Unmarried. Boyfriend?’

She smiled, faintly. ‘I am a virgin . . .’

He stared.

She added: ‘In Cambodia.’

Her faint smile unfolded into a real smile. For a second.

‘It sounds absurd to talk about all this, now.’

He said, ‘Tell me. What else can we talk about.’

‘OK. Yes. How to put it. I was not quite so chaste in LA. There were lots of boys. The wrong kind of boys.’ Her eyes met his. ‘The insecurity was appealing. I was always drawn to boys who wandered away, adventurers, boys who couldn’t be tied down. Probably because I didn’t want to be tied down. You have to remember Khmer culture is quite con servative, girls are expected to marry young. My parents have
seriously
started to worry about me. Especially now I am over twenty-five.’

The riverbirds were swooping again, silver and blue, maybe some kind of kingfisher. They talked some more, but then silence fell, and with it the fear returned, and then the oppressive heat drove them to separ ate corners of the boat.

Jake gargled horribly warm water from the dirty water-bottle, then dipped a tee shirt in the river and draped its wetness over his broiling face.

The motor engine chirred. Wearied by his own anxiety, and the sadistic heat, Jake lay back against the horribly uncomfortable planks of the pirogue, and almost immediately felt the mermaids of sleep dragging him under. Soft female arms pulling him down. And down. Into the darkness of sleep, with the murmuring bones.

When he woke, his watch showed three hours had gone by. Now Chemda was asleep. The sun was filtered by the riverside palm fronds. Twilight. Pang the boatman was gazing at him.

Pang said, ‘We are soon there. You and Chemda very tired, I think.’

This was startling. It had not occurred to Jake that Pang spoke English. All this time he had presumed the man’s silence was due to his not understanding their conversation. Jake hadn’t even offered the boatman a proper word of hello.

‘Please, Pang. I didn’t realize you spoke English . . . you know. I’m so sorry.’

‘No problem. I understand, much danger. Do not worry.’ The old man nodded, distractedly. He was steering them carefully around floating logs and sudden rocks.

The river had become notably narrower, the current faster, the shorelines steeper, almost cliffs. Impenetrable jungle adorned the clifftops on either side. A younger Mekong.

‘I take tourist up here, many years, for Madame Agnes. I know her family long time.’

The boatman hesitated. ‘One time I know Chemda’s family, too, they friend with Agnes.’

‘Who did you know?’

‘Her grandmother. Madame Sovirom. She live in Luang after the war.’

Jake paused, and pondered. Surely not. The grandmother was killed by the Khmer Rouge. But surely it had to be. The Hmong knew her, or knew of her, why not someone in Luang?

Pang revved the engine, steering for the opposite shore. Chemda was still fast asleep, her delicate head resting on a folded sarong; her bare dark legs smeared with mud.

The boatman’s Manchester United shirt was stained with salt and river and oil; the grime of honest hard work. He said:

‘I not like tell Chemda. Sad story. Maybe she not know?’

‘What story?’

‘I tell you. But secret. Everyone pretend they know nothing. Madame Agnes, everyone. The famous lady from Phnom Penh, royal lady. She lived at the Gauguin after the war, for a few year. She sit every day by the river, in the garden, and every man with a boat know who she was. She just sit looking at the river, every day for three year, maybe four. Some men call her bad name, Khmer name –
vierunii
–’

‘It means?’

‘Lao Lao. Whisky. But also it mean stupid woman, made bad by drink. Because she sit there like she drunk, much spit on her face, from mouth.’

‘She just sat doing nothing? Drooling. Was she ill?’

Pang shrugged, his frown was deep and troubled.

‘Not ill. Own fault. She say give me.’

‘What?’

‘They cut her up but they say she want this.’ Pang sighed. ‘I do not know, maybe I say nothing.’

‘But I want to know.’

A pause. They were just a few metres from the shore. Jake spotted a modest mudbank, and a rough track leading up the steep rivercliff into the bush. He realized this must be Thailand, this shoreline: beyond the cliff was Thailand and roads and proper airports and 7-Elevens and safety:
they were close to safety:
but before he alighted he wanted more information, as much as possible.

‘Pang, are you saying that Chemda’s grandmother, volunteered to be experimented on?’

‘Vol . . . an . . .?’

‘Volunteer. It means, it means – it means – are you saying she asked them to do it to her. To cut her head open?’

‘Yes. Yes!
Doi!
That is it. She
ask
them to do this, to cut her open, to make her brave like lion like brave animal, but it go wrong and then she like . . . dead woman. Sitting there. For many year. Staring at the river. Sad story so sad.’ Pang nudged the boat onto the mud, darkly frowning, almost despairing. ‘I always ask. Always. Why? Why anyone want that? Why anyone ask to be cut open? To be cut into pieces?’

Chapter 12

‘Hell of a story,’ said Tyrone. ‘
Hell
of a story.’

‘I guess.’

‘I’m serious.’ Tyrone lifted his beer-bottle. ‘Dude, you’re on your way. Nail this one, and you could make your name.’

They were drinking on the top floor of the Foreign Correspondents Club: the FCC in Phnom Penh. The top floor extended to a terrace which stared out over the Tonle Sap river, sluggishly reflecting a fat and queasy moon. Beneath them the clattering lamplit riverside boulevard was full of motos and cyclos and taxis; and jingling snail-sellers and wandering tourists and unemployed tuk-tuk drivers arguing over rancid glasses of palm wine.

Jake had been back in the chaos of the city just three hours, it was only twenty-four hours since they had crossed the border into Thailand. From there they had walked for two hours into a village, then got a cycle shaw to a taxi, caught a taxi to Chiang Rai. Then jumped on a plane to Phnom Penh.

He stared around: the FCC was its normal, comfortable, languid, semi-colonial self, with its yellow shutters and overhead fans and wicker chairs. Journalists were talking with UN workers, photographers were boozing with bohemian locals.

But it had changed; or Jake had changed. By rights he knew he should be exhausted, but he wasn’t. Why? Maybe he was pumped with adrenaline, and maybe he was still energized by the fear, and the unforgettable horror. The dead baby swinging from the rafters, with the little milky eyes. It was impossible to forget
that.

He was being tapped. Tyrone was rapping him on the knee, with the butt of his bottle.

‘Dreamboy. You OK?’

He snapped out of his reverie.

‘I think so. It’s just – you know. It was pretty unnerving. And the mystery goes on. It’s freaking me out.’

‘Uh-huh.’

‘You’ve been through all this, Ty. Bosnia. Darfur. Chechnya, you’ve been in danger. It resonates for a while, right?’

‘It does. Dude, you have to let yourself down. Or you could drink it away. Or do some number four.’

‘I’m done with drugs, I want
answers
.’

‘Shame. It worked for me, till it fucked me up. China white heroin, like Himalayan snow. Ahh.’ Tyrone slugged the last of his Angkor: ‘
Ou sont les neiges d’antan?
’

Jake had heard this spiel before, Ty romancing the powders; he diverted their dialogue onto more useful territory. He urgently wanted
explanations:

‘So, please, what do you think of it all. The jars, everything?’

‘Obviously the Lao government was very keen to get this research – Chemda’s project – aborted.’

‘Agreed.’

‘The commie Lao, the Pathet Lao, they are
still
in power up there. And if they did anything dodgy in Laos back in the 70s, they’ll wanna keep it under wraps, even now.’

‘Again, agreed.’

Tyrone sat back, his empty beer bottle in hand.

‘So that’s your answer. The government put the frighteners on the two professors. Scared them, menaced their families. Yet these poor historians were also getting pressure from the Cambodian government, and the UN, and KR victims, to do the right thing.’ Tyrone accepted another Angkor lager from the waiter, and continued. ‘No wonder they folded, pressure from all sides. Sounds like your ass-over-tit guy got so shit scared he killed himself, no other way out, especially when he found out the jars had been rediscovered. But, like you say, he did it in a way that sent you a message, the draining blood stuff, a Tuol Sleng torture. He was telling you that it was the communists that were pressuring him. A final despairing signal.’

‘Yes, my thoughts completely, that has to be it. But . . . Chemda isn’t quite so sure it’s suicide.’

‘Well I think you’re right. But what happened up there back in ‘76, anyway? Madness. And the dead fucking baby hanging on the coatrack? What’s that about?! What kind of fucking hotel
is
this? Maybe they do that to all the guests, as a welcome gesture. Like a chocolate on the pillow –’

Tyrone was laughing at his own black humour. Jake was not laughing; he was wholly unnerved.

‘But Ty, why didn’t they just deport us, why did they let us go in Ponsavanh –’

Black mosquitoes buzzed between them. Tyrone flicked the air with an irritated hand, and speculated:

‘Say they
were
planning to kick you out, but you went straight to the jars. Possible. And of course the Lao cops were well aware who Chemda was, by then. A Sovirom. Not a family to mess with easily. If it had just been you – they would probably have taken you down to the basement and got all Torquemada on your ass.’

Jake sat back. It was true. He had been saved, paradoxically, by Chemda. She had led him into danger and then saved him. And the thought of Chemda stirred his anxieties further. He had told her, on the plane, Pang’s backstory of her grandmother: she had reacted quite calmly, or just wearily. But with flickers of sadness and puzzlement.

And he knew that she was right now confronting her family, down the road, in their large villa, beyond the vast ugly concrete pagodas of the Cambodiana Hotel: telling them everything. Did they already know? What would they say? Jake checked his watch again. He thought of calling her. But maybe he should wait for her to call him.

Tyrone had guessed his thoughts.

‘Ahhh . . . Missing her already? Bless.’ The American smiled. ‘Jake and Chemda, sitting in a tree.’

Jake attempted a dismissive and nonchalant laugh, and failed. He couldn’t fake it. He knew there was truth in Tyrone’s implication: he was deeply drawn to Chemda, already. And their lives were now entangled by what they had been through.

Tyrone leaned forward, cynical yet smiling, like a conspiring cardinal:

‘You want some advice?’

‘No.’

‘Just
be careful
. Be careful with this girl. That is one
powerful
fucking family. You get involved with Chemda, and you’re involved with the entire clan, Teks and Soviroms. Especially her grandfather.’

‘Sovirom Sen. You’ve met him?’

Tyrone affirmed. ‘Just once or twice, embassy parties. Y’know. He is tough, very smart, and has that old school charm. Same as the Khmer Rouge leaders.’

‘Come again? The Khmer Rouge . . .
charming
?’

‘It’s true.’

‘Not a word I’d associate with mass murderers –’

Tyrone lifted a hand.

‘Remember.
I have interviewed some of these men
. KR leaders. It’s actually a pretty unsettling experience. Because, like it or not, they do have this wit, this intellectual wit, and very good manners.’ He tilted his beer bottle, and drank, and elaborated. ‘Guess it’s the background, the old world culture. Pol Pot was a dullard, a mediocrity, a functionary like Himmler with, I dunno, a weird gift for management, and killing. But lots of them went to the
best
schools here and the
best
universities in Paris. So they can quote Baudelaire and Rimbaud and Byron, they tell intellectual jokes and they know about Schubert. It’s
most
fucking unnerving ’cause you’re sitting there, thinking, Jesus, this bastard helped run maybe the most evil government in history, his government used to crucify people
and burn them at the same time
. Yet he is making me smile, he is interesting.’

‘And grandfather Sen is like this?’

‘A touch. Upper middle class, Chinese Cambodian. His wife was true royalty I think . . .’ Tyrone paused. ‘And then there’s his daughter, Madame Tek. Oh wow. Let’s not forget your potential mother in law.’ Tyrone was chortling. ‘She may be three inches high, she could probably run under a weasel, but
man
. These little Khmer women, they
wai
and scrape and make your noodles, but you cross them, just once . . .?’ He did a scissoring gesture. ‘Snip.’

Jake winced. Tyrone snatched up a menu.

‘Hey, I’m hungry. Aren’t you? Must be. You probably been eating bees for a few days, no? In Laos? You gotta love that
variety
.’ Tyrone turned to the attendant waiter, ‘Burger please. Rare. Properly rare.
Aw kohn
!’

‘I’ll have the . . . the
pad thai
. Whatever. Thanks.
Aw kohn
.’ Jake handed the menu to the waiter, who executed a
wai
, then returned to the kitchen.

Tyrone was quiet for a moment, then he turned:

‘There’s one other thing that worries me. Your story.’

‘Yes?’

‘One bit, you skipped over.’

‘What?’

Tyrone spoke quietly. The moon was sickly yellow in the sky behind him.

‘Jake. You say those police cars coming after you – one of them hit a bomb or a mine.’

‘Yes.’

‘And possibly some cops were thrown, maybe injured – even killed?’

‘I’m not sure. I saw one of them stumble out. Jesus. Jesus Christ . . .
of course
–’

The ugly reality dawned on Jake, like he’d woken to a nasty breakfast.
The police car that exploded.
Now he dwelled on it, conceptually, for a moment – it was obvious. Trouble. Serious trouble. They wouldn’t just let this go. Would they?

Tyrone summed it up:

‘Maybe a cop died, maybe he didn’t, but that’s serious. Add it to the doctor’s death – murder or suicide – and you have a very serious incident. Perhaps the Lao government will forget about the problem, rather than publicize it.’ He squinted at Jake. ‘That is possible. But maybe they
won’t
just forget it. They could go through the Cambodian authorities, ask them to arrest you. Or someone might just quietly tell someone . . . who hires someone. Maybe you should watch your back, on Monivong Boulevard.
’

The scorpion of fear scuttled down Jake’s collar, under his shirt, and down his spine. He shivered at the sensation. Red haired, war-chewed old Tyrone Gallagher was surely right.
Watch your back on Monivong.

Jake stood.

He felt ill-at-ease again, very ill-at-ease.

‘I need a leak.’

Turning on a heel he crossed the bar to the toilets. He unzipped and sighed, and gazed anxiously out of the toilet windows at the river. On both riverbanks, the people were out walking. Poor families were frying eggs in braziers on patches of scruffy grass. Bonfires burned. The squid sellers hawked their racks of dried translucent squid. Dried and swaying, like the
kun krak
.

Jake felt the scorpion move, under his shirt. The fear. This city: it always got to him. He found Phnom Penh addictive in its anarchy and energy and exoticism, but it was also a truly harrowing city. Menacing by day and haunted at all times. A city spooked by an unknown future – and a tragic and appalling past.

Down there on those crowded boulevards, on Monivong and Sisowath and National Highway 5, the Khmer Rouge had marched two million townspeople, out of the city, in two sunburned days in April 1975: they had cleared the whole capital as soon as they had won the civil war. People were tipped from hospital beds and forced to walk. The elderly who stumbled were left to dehydrate in the gutter. Children were lost in the chaos and never found again. The capital city was emptied, society was deconstructed, all was dissolved. Two days.

They even blew up the central bank, destroying all the money in the country; sending banknotes and government bonds flying into the shattered streets. The banknotes hung for weeks from the wilting jacaranda trees, like old confetti. Money was officially useless. And then the Khmer Rouge sent the nation into slavery, and they worked and starved a quarter of the population to death, and bludgeoned half a million more. Killing their own parents their own sons their own brothers their own families. Devouring themselves in an orgy of self harm. The nation that hated itself.
The nation that killed itself.

His phone was ringing.

It was Chemda.

Her voice was an urgent whisper.

‘I got a call from Agnes, in Luang.’

‘And?’

‘A maid confessed, Jake. She confessed. She put the things in our rooms.’

‘But why –’

‘She was told to do it. The smoke babies were ordered, by the
kra
, the
Neang Kmav
of Skuon.’

‘The who? Who is that?’

The line hissed and deadened for a moment. ‘Sorry Jake. I –’ The voice was gone, then it returned. ‘My mother is crying. The whole family is in chaos – have to go – maybe I can call you back –’

The call blacked. Jake waited for a moment, and another moment, and nothing happened. He put the phone in his pocket and returned to his bar stool. His plate of
pad thai
was sitting on the table. Tyrone was already assaulting his burger. Jake picked up his knife and fork, but he didn’t feel remotely hungry any more. His stomach was full of fluttering nerves. He had already dined, too much, on fear and angst.

He told Tyrone what Chemda had told him. Tyrone stopped eating.

‘The
Neang Kmav
of Skoun?’

‘What? What is the Kmav? What is Skuon?’

Tyrone looked atypically rattled. ‘Skuon is a small town near here. They eat spiders there. Tarantulas.’

‘What?’

‘And the Neang Kmav is the Black Lady, a notorious fortune teller who lives there.’ Tyrone was shaking his head. ‘It sounds like a stupid cartoon but that . . . that is
bad news
.’

‘But –’

‘She’s an extremely powerful sorceress, one of those Khmer witch doctors that gets hired by Thai generals, Malay sultans, Chinese billionaires. Jake, this is the Spider Witch of Skoun we’re talking about. The
Spider Witch of Skuon.’
He gazed at Jake’s frightened face.
‘Hey.
Chillax. At least if she turns you into a frog it will make a good headline.’