Big Silence (3 page)

He saw humans abuse and steal from each other. He had seen them kill each other. They were the breed that ruled all space and time and were definitely to be avoided. On the two occasions when he couldn’t avoid them, when they had trapped him for sport or possibly to eat him, the dog without a name had attacked. He had badly injured a man with foul-smelling clothes, had bitten his face and neck. The man had run bleeding and screaming. The dog had never gone back to that place again. His other encounter with a human had been more dangerous. This creature trapped him in a dead-end alley and held something in his hand and that had made a cracking sound and had spit something small, hard, and fast at the dog. The dog did not know how to cower. He had attacked the surprised man, leaped on him, knocked him down, and bitten at the hand and the spitting thing it held.

The man screamed. Others were coming. The dog stopped his attack on the bloody mass that had been the man’s hand. The man punched and tried to crawl away. The dog ran.

People, the animals that ruled without sense or understanding, were to be avoided and hidden from during the day. That was the dog’s rule, and it had helped keep him alive. And now, in darkness, a chill October wind ruffling his fur, he wandered.

It was nearly midnight when Rita Bliss, whose real name was Rita Blitzstein, cruised up and down Lunt in East Rogers Park just off Sheridan Road. She was tired. She was irritable, and someone had parked in the space for which she paid forty dollars a month. Parking in the neighborhood of six- and ten-story apartment buildings and older courtyard buildings three or four stories high was never good. At night it was nearly impossible. Rita had once spent an hour cruising for a space and finally parked in the gas station two blocks away and left a note on her windshield saying she’d be back early in the morning and pay for having parked there. The gas station proprietor, a Croatian immigrant, had charged her twenty dollars. He had a family to bring over, he explained, and he had been cheated on the price of the gas station, a price that would take him three years instead of two to pay back with the advance he had borrowed from a fellow Croatian loan shark.

Rita was forty-one, a dark, thin, well-groomed woman with very short hair and a reputation among others she worked with and for as a television producer at Channel 5 as a no-nonsense, unflappable career woman. It was agreed that it was only a matter of time before she was grabbed by the NBC network or another network to produce a national talk or investigation show.

Meanwhile, she lived alone in a comfortable apartment in what had once been class and was now on the fringe of respectability. She had a reasonable grip on herself when she left the station after calmly doing take after endless take with Cliff Swenson, the director of
Investigative Eye,
the show she produced and which had taken off well and had been picked up by twenty-seven stations. The problem was the star, Betina Young, who was neither young nor named Betina. Her real name was Alice Birdsell. She was older than Rita, but still a beauty with or without the makeup. However, time to be discovered nationally had run out on Betina Young. The clamor for beautiful black anchors and talk show hosts had passed. This made Betina less than a bundle of fun to work with. Betina kept demanding retakes, different dialogue. One of Rita’s primary jobs was to keep Betina calm and happy. Happy wasn’t possible. Calm wasn’t either, but the semblance of calm was.

Tonight had been one of the worst. And after driving around for more than half an hour looking for a space, Rita decided she had enough of staying in this apartment and waiting for her call from the network. She would get an appreciably more expensive, if smaller, apartment in Lincoln Park nearer the studio. Life would be easier.

The space wasn’t a miracle. It wasn’t legal, too small and too close to a fire hydrant a block from her apartment. A small car pulled out of the illegal space. Rita took it. It took her five or six moves forward and back to make it in, and she wasn’t sure the red car behind her could get out, but she was in. Maybe she’d be out in the morning before she got a ticket. Even if she got a ticket, it would, at this point, be worth it.

She got out, locked the car, put her keys away, picked up her leather briefcase, and headed across the street trying to decide which of the “investigative” reports to feature for next week’s show, probably the one about the landlord on Diversey who was extracting sexual favors from his welfare mother tenants in addition to rent.

There was almost no traffic on the street. Every two or three minutes another late lost soul like Rita would roll slowly down the street praying some driver would pull out and let him park and get home to bed.

She was walking almost in the middle of the street when she heard the sound. Metal against …? Metal? Concrete? It was ahead of her in the shadows between two cars. There were streetlights, but there was more than enough darkness for the neighborhood muggers. Rita hurried and was about to cross between two parked cars half a block from her apartment building when the monster appeared.

He was suddenly there, hovering over her, arms extended over his head, something big and catching spots of light in his hands. Rita froze. She should have run. She could have done other things. She was a woman with a strong head on her shoulders, a woman who remained calm in a crisis and was the rock of her crew. But not now.

She recognized him, had seen him in the neighborhood. He had approached others. Once she had even glimpsed such an encounter, but this was the first time he had approached her and it was night and the street was empty.

Rita wanted to say, with the authority she had learned, “What do you want?” But she didn’t speak. The man holding a metal garbage can over his head took another step toward her. He was close enough now that he could, by reaching out, have brought it down on her head.

“Son of a bitch,” the huge black man said. “Whore. Dirty piece of ass. Shit. Fuck. Cock.”

He was growing more angry. Rita looked around for help, anything. She would have flung herself on the hood of any passing car, but there were none and most of the windows in the nearby apartments were dark. She should have screamed, but she couldn’t.

The huge man suddenly spun around, garbage can over his head. He looked down the street. He looked at parked cars. He looked at darkened windows and he looked at Rita Blitzstein. And then he turned and threw the garbage can down the street toward Sheridan Road, which it would never reach though it was rolling quickly and noisily, clattering and scraping. He had thrown the can at least three car lengths.

“Shit,” he shouted, turning back to her.

Rita tried not to but she backed up. She was determined not to shake or cry but she couldn’t stop doing both. In the light of a nearby streetlamp she could see the man’s black shining face, his eyes madly open, his knit sweater with a ragged hole about the size of a cassette in the chest.

“You know whose street this is?” he shouted, looking around at the windows.

She wasn’t even sure he was talking to her, that he wanted an answer.

“Nobody’s,” he said, looking down the street at the garbage can that was just coming to a halt against a Toyota’s fender. “I do what I want. See what I want. I live on the cats, dogs, and rats and the water from the fountain in the park. These are dangerous streets. You’d best be careful.”

His face was inches from hers now and she tried to do something … answer, run, scream, hit him, though she feared hitting him would do little good. Finally, as he stood over her, his head suddenly cocked to one side like a curious bird looking at an unfamiliar object, she ran. Rita ran expecting two huge hands to grab her, lift her in the air, and throw her down the street.

She wasn’t sure if she heard footsteps behind her. Her low wooden heels clacked against the cracked sidewalk. She made it to her lobby door. She had rumbled for her keys as she ran and found them. She went into the lobby and glanced back. Was that a bush? Was it him? She pushed all the bells and panted to the inner door. No one opened. She forced herself to insert the key quickly, turn it, and go inside, closing the door behind her. But what was such a door to a monster like that? It was glass and thin wood from another era. He could burst through it with a lunge.

Rita went up the stairs two at a time till she was so exhausted she had to pull herself up by the wooden railing. She heard nothing behind her, but she would not feel safe till she was behind her apartment door. She was on the third floor. She got inside, closed the door behind her and locked it, throwing the bolt. There was a light on her desk, one of those cheap table lamps with the green glass that you see in all the movies. She left it on all the time, day and night.

Rita took her briefcase and moved to her bedroom, where she switched on the light and sat panting and then she did something she hadn’t done in almost ten years. She called her parents because she needed them. She needed them badly.

L
IEBERMAN DIDN’T HEAR ABOUT
his partner’s troubles until Abe reported in to the Clark Street station about five hours after the event.

Detective Abraham Lieberman was tired. No one could tell, of course, because Abe always looked tired though once in a while he could simply manage to look weary. Lieberman was a little over sixty and looked more than seventy. On a good day, he weighed about 145 pounds. He told everyone that he was five seven as it said in his personnel record, but every day he felt as if he were growing imperceptibly shorter. Today the face in the mirror looked like that of a basset hound with curly white hair and a little white mustache. Abe had learned to live with that face and marvel at the clear evidence that his wife, Bess, who was nearly his age, looked about two decades younger. She thought her husband looked distinguished and wise.

This morning Abe felt neither distinguished nor wise. The night before had been a series of family confrontations, though it had started peacefully enough.

Lieberman’s grandchildren were now pretty much at home in the house on Jarvis in West Rogers Park. Barry was twelve, into baseball and the Cubs almost to the degree of his grandfather, who still snuck away to home games during the season and remembered fondly the long slow swing of Hank Sauer, the peppy blasts and lightning moves of Ernie Banks, and even the lanky lunges at shortstop of Roy Smalley who would have been right up there with the best of them if he only had been able to hit. Barry’s Cubs memory went only as far back as Rick Sutcliffe and Andre Dawson.

There was a tape of a last-season Cubs-Atlanta game on the night before. Neither Abe nor Barry remembered who had won though they had their suspicions that it wasn’t their team. Even Abe’s eight-year-old granddaughter Melisa had curled up in his lap in her pajamas clutching her stuffed bear and trying to understand the game.

Peace should have prevailed. Around the fifth inning, the moment should have arrived when Bess came in and said it was time for the children to go to bed. The dialogue was always the same and strangely comforting to Lieberman, who savored a reliable routine when it managed to exert itself on the chaos of his life. Bess would say there was school the next day. Barry would plead for one more inning, claiming he was older than his sister. Lieberman, if necessary, would agree with his wife and kiss the kids as they slouched off toward the stairs to the room where their mother had once slept.

That was the way it should have gone with Lieberman in his socks and favorite chair in the dark until Bess turned a light on repeating for the thousandth time that you should watch television with lights on.

“Not the Cubs,” Lieberman would say. “You watch the Cubs in Wrigley during the day or at night on TV in the dark. It’s the rules.”

Bess turned the lights on.

The batter was Mark Grace. He hit a single to right.

“Grace always hits a single to right,” said Barry, sitting with feet crossed on the floor.

“It could be worse,” Lieberman said.

“It could be better,” said Barry, who looked exactly like his father and nothing like Bess or Abe.

“Next season we win the division,” Lieberman had said decisively. “Your grandfather proclaims it. Sammy will hit sixty-five home runs.”

“You shouldn’t ask God for things like that,” Melisa said dreamily.

“Why not?” asked Lieberman, kissing the top of her head. “If he doesn’t want to do it, who’s there to make him? Maybe he needs a little easy work, a rest from Russia, Bosnia, Africa. It’s not that much to ask.”

“It’s blasphemy,” said Barry. “Rabbi Wass said.”

“You asked him about the Cubs?” Lieberman asked, as someone he had never heard of popped up to end the inning and Bess returned to end the conversation.

“Bed,” she said.

No argument. Melisa climbed out of Abe’s lap, leaving it warm and slightly damp. Barry got up from the floor.

“Baseball’s not about important things,” Barry said. “You learn that when you prepare for your Bar Mitzvah.”

“To me the Cubs are important. Not as important as you and your sister and your grandmother and your Bar Mitzvah, but important. I’ve spent half a century waiting for the Cubs to get to the World Series. I’m not even asking for that, just the division title. Good night.”

“They’re losing twelve to one,” Melisa said with a yawn.

“It’s just an experimental game,” Lieberman said. “Playing some new kids, resting the veterans.”

“Aren’t the Braves doing the same thing?” Barry asked.

“We’re better at losing than they are,” Lieberman said. “Enough philosophy. Go to bed.”

They went. Lieberman heard Bess putting them to bed. Abe considered changing the station, watching an old movie if he could find one. Maybe Bess would join him. They’d eat popcorn and she would observe inaccuracies of human nature from time to time. Bess was a realist. Like it or not, in spite of the horrors he had seen, Abe had remained a romantic. If his unshaken love of the Cubs was not evidence of this, what was?

And then the knock at the door came.

Lieberman checked his watch. It was nine, still reasonably early. He hit the mute button, got up slowly, pausing to scratch the bottom of his right foot through his wool sock, and headed across the living room to the door, wondering why the visitor hadn’t rung the bell.