Black As Night (Quentin Black Mystery #2) (21 page)

I wanted to die. I was sure this would kill me.

I almost wanted it to kill me by then.

What seemed like an endless time later, he came.

That hurt too.

It felt like too much forced into too small a space.

His pleasure almost blinded me, so overwhelming I whimpered against his neck, and his sounds grew helpless, even vulnerable. Tears ran down his cheeks as he raised his head, still thrusting against me. I saw his face go childlike in those few seconds as he slammed into me harder. He spoke in some other language. I didn’t understand him, but the feelings off him were affectionate by the end...almost loving.

I was numb. I didn’t know where I was anymore.

I didn’t know who I was.

When he finally finished, he hugged me, wrapping his arms around my back without pulling out. I felt that sharper part of him retract but he remained inside me, still mostly hard as he pressed up into me with another flood of that heat. I felt warmth and affection plume off him in another dense cloud as he held me tighter, panting against my chest.

“You’re mine,” he murmured, clenching my hair in his hands. “You’re mine.” He kissed my face, then my throat, speaking to me in Russian, then in that other language, the one I’d heard Black speak once, while he read strange writing off the walls inside the Legion of Honor.

“You’re mine,” he said, softer, caressing my cheek with his.

I didn’t move. I stared up at the darkness of the ceiling and wondered how I hadn’t died.

Nine

SOLONIK

HE DID THAT four or five more times before he left for the first time.

I didn’t exactly count.

A few of those times blurred together... all I know is, by the end of the last time I begged him to stop and he finally listened. He’d taken the gag off by then. He claimed no one could hear me if I screamed––no matter how loud I screamed or for how long––and by then I was so lost between his mind and my own, it didn’t occur to me to question him. I was exhausted, in more pain than I think I’d ever been in my life, even that time I’d been shot in Afghanistan, which had been the last time I’d been pretty certain I was going to die.

He said his name was Solonik.

He didn’t tell me much about himself.
 

I asked a few things, to distract him if nothing else. Maybe some part of me held out a faint hope that I might be able to influence him, even just a little, if I could get inside his head. But even with how much he ripped apart my own mind to get inside me, I didn’t get much insight into his. Maybe some of that was the race stuff, the differences Black alluded to but still hadn’t fully explained. Maybe some of it was that there wasn’t much there to understand.

Maybe he was more animal than person.

Some of it might have been a reluctance on my part to get any closer to him or his mind than I was already. Maybe I was also afraid of pissing him off, given that so far he hadn’t specifically tried to hurt me...not in his own mind, at least.

For the hour or so he was gone, I worked frantically, trying to get free of the ropes tying my wrists to the wall. I tried my teeth. I tried to move the bed closer to the table, where I thought I might break the lamp with a kick to the table and use the glass shards on the rope.

I never got closer than a laughable five yards or so away.

Apart from making my wrists bleed an alarming amount, splattering red droplets all over the sheets on the cot-like bed, I didn’t get anywhere. There wasn’t enough play in the ropes to use the blood to slide my way out of my binds, either.

I tried to reach Black that whole time, but I had about as much luck with that as I did with everything else––in that I had no luck at all.

Solonik gagged me again before he left, so I also spent some time trying to get the gag off, even trying to chew through it with my teeth. I couldn’t get my jaw closed enough to get very far, and the sounds I made as a result weren’t loud enough to test his claim about no one being able to hear me.

This obviously wasn’t this guy’s first rodeo with holding hostages and rape.

When he came back through the door at the end of all that and saw the blood all over the sheets, he tsk’d tsk’d a few times then examined my wrists. I felt him decide they were okay. I felt everything he thought actually, at least everything he let me feel––I couldn’t escape his mind at all once he sat so close to me on the bed.

Then he told me he wanted to rape me again and I started crying.

Like before, he didn’t care.

After that, he brought over one of the bags he’d brought in with him and put down food in front of me. Dinner, I assumed. It smelled and looked like Phad Thai.

He took the gag off me, kissing me on the cheek as he worked the knot.
 

That time, I didn’t wait. I ignored what he’d said to me about no one being able to hear me and screamed my bloody head off.

I did that until he either hit me or knocked me out in some other way.

When I woke up next, I was still naked, but he was curled up next to me.

I looked down at him, wondered if I could kill him by ripping out his throat with my teeth. I’d scarcely had the thought when he opened his eyes. Looking up at me, he chuckled, which infuriated me past reason, to the point where I honestly don’t think I’d ever wanted to kill anyone as badly as I did him in those few seconds.

I didn’t say anything though. I just watched him sit up. He blinked a little in the candlelight, rubbing his face with one hand. I saw a detailed tattoo of a dragon-like fish undulate over the muscles of his arm. The room’s only lighting now came from a half-dozen white candles he’d lit on the altar’s bench.
 

He put the gag back on me despite my struggling then curled back around me and went back to sleep, his arms wrapped around me, his presence suffocating mine.

He felt utterly content.

The next time I woke up, it was to the smell of coffee.

He stood over me when I opened my eyes, smiling faintly, wearing a white dress shirt and blue jeans. He held out a cup of what looked like real coffee, studying my face.

“I’ll take it off,” he said, his voice warning as he motioned at the gag. “But no screaming. Yes?”

Hesitating only a beat, I nodded, fighting back my fury.

He smiled though, and I could tell from his expression that he felt it.

Worse, I could feel that he found it cute.

Sitting next to me on the cot, he clicked his fingers for me to turn my head, then began untying the knot with his fingers once I had.

Spitting out the last of the gag as he removed it, I glared at him.

“I thought you said no one can hear me if I scream?” I said.

“I
can hear,” he said, lifting an eyebrow as he emphasized the first word. “It is too early for that kind of bullshit,
ilya.
You can’t get away. It’s a fucking turn-on that you keep trying, but trust me when I tell you I will not be careless with such a prize. My cock thinks you are chocolate now...” He smiled at me when I grimaced, looking away.
 

I felt him studying my face. He watched me take a sip of the coffee. “You will come with me,
ilya.
When I finish my work here.”

I let out a low snort, biting my tongue until I tasted blood.

“Plan on throwing me in baggage claim?” I said coldly.

He didn’t even blink. “Private charter. I would rather if Mr. Lucky did not know you are still alive, not dead like I tell him, so I will use my own people.” He continued to watch me drink the coffee, although I refused to return his gaze. Heat plumed off him again.
“Gaos,
you make me want to fuck just by how angry you are at me.”

“Angry?” I turned, glaring at him. “You think I’m ‘angry’ with you? That we’re just having a little spat while you rape me and tie me to your furniture, Solonik?”

He shrugged, his mouth quirking down in an indifferent kind of frown. “I think you are seer, beautiful one, and you can only pretend to dislike sex for so long...no matter how stubborn you are.” His voice grew shrewd. “As much as I am liking this battle of wills between us, I am anxious to hear that sound from you when my
hirik
hits you just right. I am thinking if I drug you a little maybe, maybe just enough to make you relax, you will stop complaining a lot faster...you will feel my
hirik
where you are supposed to feel it and you will want it more...”

I stiffened, staring at him.

Then I looked at the coffee in my hand.

Fury washed over me, so intensely I didn’t think about the consequences. I hurled the coffee at him as hard as I could. I did it fast, but he was fast too. He rose to his feet in a heartbeat so the cup hit him squarely in the chest, not in the face where I’d been aiming. Even so, he let out a pained, “ahhhhh,” sound as the lid exploded off the cup, dousing him in scalding liquid.

“Fuck!” he snarled. He pulled the shirt off in a flash, using the dry part to wipe his chest, where a red mark had already risen from a burn. “Goddamned bitch...”

He tossed the shirt on the floor, and before I could move back, he lunged at me. He had me pinned to the mattress almost before I knew what had happened. I cried out when he sat up, astride me as he reached back, pulling some kind of zippered black kit out of his back pocket, muttering under his breath in Russian.

He switched to English even as he opened the kit, laying it on my stomach. I looked down as he pulled the syringe out from behind the elastic bands holding it in place.

“It wasn’t in the fucking coffee,
ilya,”
he growled. “The coffee was for you. I felt you missing it...I brought it for you.”

I let out a disbelieving laugh. That time he glared at me, looking angry for the first time.

“Why is it you are such a child about this?”

“A child?” I said, barely controlling my fury. “I’m being a...a child?”

“Yes...a child,” he growled, making a sweeping gesture with the hand holding the syringe. “We all do our time with this. It is part of being a seer.”

“Being raped?”

“Belonging to someone sexually. Being owned,” he said. Using his teeth to uncap the syringe, he continued to hold me down with his other hand, his violet eyes cold. “It is how we learn. It is how we become adults. Ask your precious Black,” he said, his voice a lower taunt. “I hear he practically came into the world sucking off humans. Why do you think he comes down here, trying to free the little children?” Derision colored Solonik’s voice as he met my gaze. “Only a pup would be so naive. It is just the way of the world. It is just business. It is why they send me here. To educate him...”

Gripping my hair in his hand, he yanked my head sideways, exposing my neck.
 

I fought him and he yanked my hair harder, making me cry out.

“No,” he snarled. “The needle will cut your throat if you jerk. Do not risk dying over this,
ilya...”

“Fuck you!” I snarled back, still struggling. “Fuck you! I
want
to die! Anything would be better than being here with you...”

Eventually I felt him give up in annoyance, and then his presence swam over me, thick, cloying, smoothing out the fury in my mind, unraveling the part of me that wanted to smash out at him with my fists. I yelled out at first, even more furious when I realized what he was doing, but after a few seconds more, I couldn’t fight him, he was too far inside me. I felt myself starting to go blank, complacent. As soon as I went more or less still, he deftly inserted the needle into my vein, pressing in the syringe’s stopper.