Black Dawn (4 page)

“Damn it, Parker,” Jared growled, staring at the screen with the footage of the team failing to outmaneuver the UAV that Parker had only managed to slow down. “What’s the problem?”

The guys had next to no cover, and even though their vehicle was armored, they couldn’t withstand a direct hit from above. Jared cursed from across the room. Time was slipping away, along with the possibility of success.

A new code sequence ran across his screen. He read it, fed off it, and manipulated the lines to further attack their enemy. His fingers flew on the keyboard, their coding seamlessly integrated on an offensive attack. Screen after screen showed that partnering with Silver had given him the needed speed and data. The anticipation of their impending accomplishment gave him a burst of energy, like Red Bull for the soul. There was no doubt they’d found the right sequence.

“There! That’ll do it.” Parker froze over the keyboard, and his head lifted to watch the screen. The live feed showed their men as hunted prey. Nothing changed. “Dive, fucker, dive.”

He glared at the UAV. His eyes dropped to the screen, confirming that they had done what was needed to take out the drone. The pressure in the room intensified. Whoever was on the other side of the remote’s navigation system was top-notch, but he was better—partnered with Silver, he couldn’t be stopped. So what was the problem? It should be game over.

Come… the fuck… on…

“Gimme an update.” Jared paced.

“Wait a second.” Because Parker couldn’t doubt what was on screen. Black and white intel. Straight fact. They’d disarmed and disorganized the drone. Time would send it to its death.

“Parker…” Boss Man crossed his arms as though he needed to restrain himself. If the guy could rip the drone out of the sky and crush it in his fist, he would. “End this. Now.”

Parker knew that, but he didn’t have time to tell Jared all the hows and whys it would work, because then he’d also have to go into the reasons it might not, and no one wanted a risk analysis of the team’s survival likelihood. His chest cranked tight. If the men in that vehicle—Winters, Roman, and Cash—died, Parker might as well join them. Titan for life. He gnawed his bottom lip, holding an uncertain breath.

Another second clocked by.

The UAV suddenly nosedived, exploding behind their vehicle. Jared punched his arms into the air. Parker’s head dropped down, and he let out a ragged gasp. Even if he’d known it would happen, waiting was still the worst.

Pacing again, Jared looked on the upswing of that adrenaline rush as he dialed the satellite phone. “You fuckers stay on course next time.” Then he threw it onto the motel room bed. “Too fuckin’ close.”

“Agreed,” Parker mumbled, aware that his nervous system was coming down from his own adrenaline high. He loved the rush. Every time. Whoever said computer shit was boring certainly hadn’t seen what Titan could do with a few laptops and a piss-poor foreign internet connection in some pay-by-the-hour motel room.

Boss Man rubbed the back of his neck. “If I smoked, I’d fucking need a light. Shit.”

Parker leaned back in the chair, wanting to shut down the operation, inventory their loss from the explosion earlier, and get back to the States. A flash on one screen caught his attention, and he swiveled his head.

Silver:
Almost got your ass burned on that one, buddy.

No kidding, asshole. He smiled, but before he could agree, another message popped up.

Silver:
But I needed the distraction. Shitty day.

Black:
Almost just had one of those.

Shitty was relative. Laying buddies in the ground, almost losing a team to a rogue UAV, that was what defined a shitty day. Either way, he now owed SilverChaos in their ongoing back and forth.

Parker wondered if Silver knew his broker, Shadow, had asked Parker to scout and check out all of the interested buyers for the guy’s Monarch deal. This was business, and not their norm. If he and Silver kept track of who’d helped out who more over the years, whose favor would it come out on top for? Probably a draw. Either way, Silver was as good as Parker was, and today, he’d been a great resource to have. Ooh rah to that.

CHAPTER THREE

God, that was such a rush. Chills still skated up and down her spine. Lexi never asked questions when she worked with BlackDawn. The objectives always blew her mind, as if they were playing high-stakes games that were real life. But, damn, tonight had made her feel alive, as though she wasn’t hiding in her own home.

Forget the fact that she was sure they’d just saved the occupants of that vehicle. Given the coordinates of that UAV, she’d helped with something bigger, something patriotic. Protecting soldiers overseas? Maybe so. Hacks like that one gave her purpose, unlike developing things like Monarch. That just earned her money, even if she donated a solid portion.

Lexi shifted in the chair in the corner of her bedroom. She was ducked under a blanket with her screen’s brightness turned down to two percent so as not to disturb Matt. Bacon was curled up and snoring on her feet. She thought about staying put—maybe she and her pup could go to sleep right there on the floor. Hopefully Matt was still asleep—or passed out. He’d barely mumbled when her cell phone chirped that BlackDawn was looking for her.

She wondered if Black was already scouting her auction buyers. Over the years, he’d impressed her so much that she’d even thought about breaking hacker protocol and digging into who he really was. Her fingers twitched over the keyboard. It would be so easy to dig and find out more about him—well, maybe not, since he was so much like her. It’d be almost impossible to learn details that she didn’t want shared. But it’d be fun to try—

“Would you get your stupid ass off the computer already?” Matt’s drunken, sleep-scored voice broke her thoughts.

Her blanket-covered head dropped, her curious smile washing away. Still, she didn’t pull the blanket off. She set her laptop to the side and scooped Bacon’s deadweight up to her chest. “I thought you were asleep. Sorry.”

Her fiancé grumbled, thrashing the pillows and sheets noisily. “How am I supposed to sleep when you’re over there clacking on that damn thing? Shit.”

Slowly, she peeled the blanket from her head and squeezed Bacon, who licked her neck. “It was important.”

“Stupid computer games in the middle of the night are not important.”

“It wasn’t a game. It was work.”

Matt rolled over in bed and propped himself up. “Baby, no one’s working you tonight. I’m the only one who gets that privilege, so unless you want to
work
right now, turn the computer off so I can either get some sleep or a blow job. Your choice.”

Asshole.
How in the world was this where she was in life? “Don’t talk to me like that. You’re drunk.”

“You blowing me or what?”

Tears pricked her eyes, and even though her sight had adjusted to the dark room, everything went blurry. But she wouldn’t let him see that. “You’re being a dick.”

“Peaches, dick’s the name of the game. If you keep running your mouth, dick’s what you’re about to choke on.”

“You’re disgusting when you’re like this. I’ll sleep on the couch.”

“Oh, come on, Lex. I’m playing.”

She shook her head. “I’m going to go watch TV.”

“I wish you wouldn’t make me so mad. Why do you do that to me?” he grumbled. “Why do you push me? It’s like you want to be all alone in the world with no one to love you like I do.”

Those words… always her fault. She didn’t believe it. But she couldn’t help her lonely reaction. “Matt, stop.”

“How’s a pretty little nerd girl like you going to find—”

“Stop.” She dropped her head to Bacon’s and wished she could walk away. She could. She would. It would happen. Soon. She just needed to… not be scared.

“Come on, peaches. You know I’m just playing. Get in bed.”

Against her better judgment, she moved to the far corner of the bed, put Bacon at the foot of the bed, then perched on the edge before finally lying down.

His grabby hands ran over her back, pulling at her hips. “Come here.”

“No.”

“Baby, you know I just say those things to make you pay attention to what you want.”

What a high opinion he had of himself.
She wanted him? She needed him?
But hell, she hadn’t left him, so who was she to call him wrong? She squeezed her eyes shut as she lay straight as a stick on the edge of the bed. “I’m sleepy. Tomorrow. I promise.”

Matt leaned over and cackled in her ear. “Stupid computer cunt. If you didn’t have me, you’d be all alone. No one to love my girl. Just remember that. You belong to me, peaches. We’re meant to be together.”

His slurred speech apparently over, he turned over and plopped against his pillow with a drunken snore. She listened for his breathing to signify that he had passed back out. Finally he did, and she stared at the black ceiling. How did she live these two lives? How was she so confident and successful in one arena, but when it came to real life, she became weaker?

If she could get him to stop drinking, everything would be normal again. She could do that. Then she’d have the security that she craved, and he’d stop with his tirades, punches, and pushes. Just sober him up. Or she could leave…

In the middle of the night, it all felt hopeless. Instead of replaying the constant battle of leave-versus-one-day-it-will-be-better, Lexi focused on their weekend plans. They were meeting up with a few of his friends, so even if he did drink, he wouldn’t be a complete jerk to her. At least while they were in public. Plus there was a good chance that Parker Black, the crush that she’d never admit to, would be there too.

Her heart picked up its pace. She was excited to get out, but really, she was ecstatic to see him. She quickly turned her head to see if Matt would somehow react to her thoughts.

No. Nothing but a drunken snore.

Lexi pinched her eyes closed in the dark, trying to ignore her thoughts of Parker, and focused on the weekend. Matt had plans to go to the range with the same group of guys, who he behaved in a semi-decent manner around. Those guys weren’t impressed with day drinking. They didn’t laugh and joke about dickhead bosses when Matt lost yet another job.

Maybe this weekend could be the start of turning everything around with Matt. Except she wasn’t in love with him. There had been too much damage done. Her insides were broken, and she felt no happiness for him when she smiled. Each night she prayed that morning would come, that dawn would break and a fresh day would show a different life.

Her fingers twirled the engagement ring in the dark. Matt wouldn’t allow her to just walk away. Their lives were so entwined that she didn’t see how it was possible to extract herself. Her GSX-R was at Meredith’s after he had banished it from their home, and Matt never let go of his truck keys. Her friends avoided their place due to Matt’s snide remarks and comments. Not even Meredith came over. Whenever Lexi wanted to go out, he always had a reason why she shouldn’t. Couple that with working from home, and Lexi was alone in a way she couldn’t escape.

But the weekend was coming fast, and soon she’d be face to face with Parker, who never said a misspoken word but somehow always looked as though he believed she could do anything. Like she could walk away from Matt. Her stomach soared again, and she wasn’t sure if it was because of Parker or the idea of leaving. Maybe both.

God. Her reaction to Parker was dangerous. She turned quickly, burying her head in her pillow. Parker wasn’t always around. He often traveled for work. Matt and Parker had grown up together, and that was the only thing she saw as tying the two men together. Except maybe their jobs and military-camaraderie stuff. Parker did something similar to Matt—well, when Matt could keep a job. Which wasn’t often anymore. Parker worked in security, maybe? He never talked about it, but wow, he was built for it.

Shit.

She cringed harder into her pillow and tried in vain to ignore the pop of excitement she felt about Parker being there. First, because that’d be horrible for her to think. She was engaged. To an asshole, but engaged nonetheless. Second, Parker was such a nice guy. Not super quiet, always with a few ball-busting lines, but he seemed extraordinarily intelligent. She didn’t know why she thought that. Maybe his word choices? Maybe how others in their circle deferred to him on questions?

The guy was into numbers, which she totally got. When they talked sports, Parker talked statistics. When they talked news, his answers were based on risk and analysis. All of which magnified his smoldering blue eyes and tousled near-black hair. Intelligence made a man crazy attractive. His broad chest and sculpted butt were pretty amazing too.

Holy shit. Her cheeks heated, her core clenched, and she tugged the covers over her face, smiling like a girl crushing on a daydream. If Matt
ever
thought she’d even checked Parker out… sadness bloomed in her chest. Thinking about Parker proved that she wasn’t broken. She wasn’t incapable of feeling something intense for a man. She might not have had a spark for Matt, but it was possible for it to happen. Maybe that made her even more broken than she thought. Oh, hell.

Under the covers and in the cloak of the night, Lexi slipped off the ring and wiggled it around. The weight that fell off her without that little diamond on her finger was scary. She had to leave.