Blamed (2 page)

Chapter One

One Week Earlier

The problem with dating, Beth Faraday decided, was that it involved socializing with people other than oneself. And people were the worst.

“I can’t remember the last time I was so scared. I mean, the
mayor
at the chef’s table! I was convinced I would dump the soup course all over him.”

Mark was a sous chef at a posh Chicago restaurant, which was why Beth had agreed to go out with him—she was a hungry single woman, after all, and her cooking abilities started and stopped with microwave instructions. Dating a man who could whip up a meal? He didn’t even have to be good in bed.

He was required to not bore her senseless, however.

Mark kept talking as she unlocked the gate, trudging wearily up the steps to the front door of the historical Lincoln Park three-flat in which she lived.

“But the mayor, he was so nice, Beth. He talked to everyone, and did I tell you that Oprah was with him? Like, for real,
Oprah.
”

Rahm Emanuel and Oprah Winfrey terrified this man. Beth couldn’t decide if she wanted to laugh or roll her eyes. Mark had no idea what real terror was like. No. Idea.

He fell silent when she jiggled her keys in one hand, and she glanced at his face. It was a nice enough face, with a sharp chin and brown eyes that watched her expectantly, obviously hoping she would invite him in.

She sighed. There’d been no spark, no chemistry—only pleasant smiles and shared appreciation of tapas and triple-shot espresso. “Thanks for a great time tonight, Mark.” She offered him a small smile. Just because she didn’t especially like people didn’t mean she couldn’t play the game. She was a Faraday, after all, and Faradays were born with bullshit in their veins.

Mark’s gaze warmed as he sidled closer to her on the stoop. “The night doesn’t have to end now. We could go inside. I could throw some dessert together.”

Uh-oh. “I don’t have anyth—”

“Trust me, whatever you have in your kitchen, I can make it work.” His grin was the same charming one that had convinced her to say yes to this date in the first place, when she had stopped by his restaurant to deliver an oil painting on loan from the Art Institute. That grin, combined with the fact that Beth had never once turned down dessert, tempted her for the briefest of moments.

But then she looked past him and up, homing in on the third floor of the large house across the street. The darkness behind the prominent bay window indicated clearly enough that no one was home. She felt a pang in her chest.

Smiling at Mark again, a little tighter, a little colder, she waited for him to notice the flashing
No Vacancy
sign she’d just stamped across her forehead. “Thanks again, Mark.” The first rule of letting someone down, according to her fussy lawyer brother, was saying his name in a firm, apologetic manner. Done and done. “Have a good night.” She slid the key into the lock and opened her building’s front door.

His grin slipped, but he nodded. “G’night, Beth.” He left the small square of her front yard with a wave and a wry smile, thankfully not pushing her for more.

As soon as the door closed behind her, she leaned heavily back against it.
Idiot.
Mark had been sweet—boring, but sweet—interested in her, and friendly. A chef, for God’s sake. He could have fed her yummy food for the rest of her life, made even more delicious because she wouldn’t have had to make it herself. She, who burned Lean Cuisines nine times out of ten.

When Mark had asked her to dinner, she’d told herself he was exactly the sort of guy she should want, yet she had just sent him away after only a couple of hours in his company. How could she make any real decision about who he was or how they’d suit after little more than two hours? Sure, his idea of extreme stress was serving soup to a publicly elected official, while hers...

She thought of the house across the street, of its dark windows and the man who lived behind them.

Yes, her idea of stress, extreme or otherwise, was a world apart from Mark’s. The sous chef would never slink his way into her heart and latch his claws onto the thumping organ until she bled. Since she still appeared to be oozing blood a year after the last set of claws released her, she couldn’t in good conscience open herself up to more emotion.

With more energy than she felt, Beth sprinted up two sets of stairs until she reached the welcoming white door of her top-floor apartment. Her alarm system beeped at her as she entered, and she quickly typed in the disarm code before locking the door behind her, sliding home both the deadbolt and chain. She didn’t bother turning on the lights.

The high heels of her boots clicked succinctly against the reclaimed wood floors as she moved into the kitchen. Tossing her clutch purse and black peacoat on the counter, she boosted herself up onto its granite surface, the coolness of which seeped through the seat of her dark jeans. Routine. It was all about the routine.

Knowing she was tone deaf didn’t stop her from singing about the applause Lady Gaga lived for as she slowly, carefully lifted one leg straight up into the air, the muscles along the back of her thigh groaning in protest at the stretch. The snowy slush of Chicago’s streets in winter made running a pain in the ass, which meant Beth, whose new motto in life was to avoid pain—physical, emotional, whatever—at any cost, hadn’t tied on her Nikes since Christmas, and it was now February.

Unzipping her boot, she set it silently on the counter next to her, then repeated the process with the other. “
I
live for the applause
,
applause
,
applause.
Live for the applause-plause
,
live for the applause-plause.
” Feet covered in thin black socks, she dropped soundlessly to the floor and began her search. Falling into her pattern was easy as she padded over to the sideboard next to her unused dining set and hit Play on her sound system. The strong belt of Lady Gaga filled the front room, picking up where Beth’s screeching had left off.

The layer of baby powder dusted over the windowsills behind the sideboard remained undisturbed. Following the line of the wall, Beth moved along to the floor-to-ceiling bookshelves flanking her pristine, white-painted brick fireplace. No sign that her books and knickknacks had been bothered, but she checked the backs of picture frames and stuck her fingers behind the uneven rows of paperback novels and hardcover biographies, anyway.

Unable to resist compulsion, she lifted the heavy mirror she’d found at a flea market last September over the mantel and continued her rounds across the room. The large, three-pane front window, the down pillows on her sofa, floor lamps and seat cushions and the shadows behind her mismatched furniture. All the while, the music muffled her footsteps, keeping her location within the apartment an auditory mystery to anyone who might or might not be listening in.

Routine.
The kitchen was next, with the drawers and cabinets gliding smoothly open and closed. Her cooking utensils remained ironically unused, and Beth smiled wistfully, remembering how her mother had fluttered and lamented over her younger daughter’s lack of culinary talent, even as she’d overstocked Beth’s new kitchen a year ago.

She hadn’t seen Sofia Faraday since she had placed the final spatula in the ceramic holder next to the stovetop. Beth missed her mother so fiercely her heart clenched in her chest.

Thinking of the family she’d left behind when she gave up the business and moved to Chicago was a distraction Beth couldn’t afford, not until she completed her routine. The powder room was next, followed by the empty, never-used guest room, before she eased into her subtly feminine bedroom, with its pale blue walls and gauzy curtains, at which poor, dull Mark would never get a peek.

Her movements were quick, swift, her particular neuroses a honed blade as she checked the vanity and its matching tufted stool, the overstuffed bed pillows, the cherry wood headboard and bedside tables...the lush California king she’d never broken in, not in the way a soft, pretty bed ought to be.

And if that wasn’t deserving of a thwarted sigh, Beth didn’t know what was, even as she ruthlessly shoved aside thoughts of men who lived behind darkened windows, stirring her dormant curiosity more than they ought to.

The clear fishing line strung between the handles of the French doors to her balcony was unbroken, and the walk-in closet and luxurious master bath were subjected to the same thorough scrutiny. She was aware that she’d unconsciously silenced her breathing and slowed her heartbeat, tricks she’d learned at her father’s knee, but finally, the routine was complete. No one had been inside her safe haven in the two hours and thirty-seven minutes she’d been gone on her date.

Being a retired assassin sure had its trials.

She flopped backward on the bed with a gusty groan. Dating was
hard.
Normalcy was
hard.
Why had she ever thought she could get a good thing going with an Average Joe—er, Mark? Average Marks didn’t fall for a woman whose paranoia went beyond federal background checks and straight into bugging her potential boyfriends’ apartments—all before the first date.

Not that she’d done that with Mark, or any other guy, for that matter. But she had considered planting a listening device in his Logan Square apartment for a hot second, and that alone was enough to piss her off.

Suddenly uncomfortable, she twisted an arm beneath her body, writhing until...
there.
The small pistol she carried in the belted holster riding the center of her spine slipped into her hand. The weight of the Beretta, warmed from her skin, felt so comforting against her palm.

That sad fact said more about her stupid attempt at leading a normal life than anything else had thus far.

Beth suddenly, painfully wished for a pet—something to come home to. She wouldn’t even care if it messed up her security measures, forcing her to spend double the amount of time combing her home each night to make sure it remained the perfect sanctuary. A dog, maybe?

No, not a dog, because dogs needed yards bigger than the postage stamp of grass in front of her building. Not to mention Beth wasn’t home during the day, and didn’t dogs need to be let out to do their business regularly? No chance in hell she’d ever allow a stranger into her apartment—a stranger much less
aware
than she—to walk and relieve her puppy.

An awkwardly floppy, wheat-colored puppy with oversized paws she would name...Waffles.

Beth grinned up at the ceiling. “Waffles,” she whispered.

With Waffles the Imaginary Canine in her mind, she rolled from the bed to unwind the fishing line from the balcony doors, unlatching them to step out onto her meticulously shoveled and swept deck. Escape routes must always be accessible, no matter the season, after all.

The cold night air snatched the oxygen right out of her lungs as she leaned against the wood rail to stare down at the fenced-in patio and alleyway at the rear of her building. Nope. No way could she keep Waffles three stories up on an eight-by-twelve-foot balcony.

“Damn it.” She had gotten rather fond of Waffles in the past thirty seconds.

An angry shrill from inside the apartment—the annoying landline phone her oldest brother had insisted she install—had her tucking the gun into the back waistband of her jeans. But as she turned, something about the building next door’s snow-covered third-floor deck caught her eye, erasing all thoughts of Waffles.

In that typical way of Chicago’s older neighborhoods, the houses were situated close together, often with only a few scant feet separating one brick wall from another. Though Beth had maintained a fairly hermit-like existence since moving in, she knew her nearest neighbors, and the owners of that specific deck, Bob and Keith, were wintering in Tucson and had been since November, not to return until April.

So why were there footprints pressed into the six inches of un-shoveled snow covering their deck? Fresh, human-sized footprints.

The back of her neck prickled when she stepped into her apartment again, locking the balcony doors behind her as she hurried to pick up the cordless phone from its cradle on the wall next to the fridge. “Hello?”

“What the hell is that noise?”

Beth realized the music was still blaring, though Lady Gaga had been replaced by—”Katy Perry,” she informed her oldest brother, Casey, unable to help the smile that curved her lips even as her mind lingered on the snowy footprints. “Don’t you listen to the radio?”

“Yeah,
no.
Turn it off, will you?”

Moving to mute the heavy pop beats thumping from her speakers, she reached behind her to idly stroke the gun at the small of her back. She wouldn’t give in to the urge to grip it, check the chamber and flip off the safety. She was stronger than her paranoia, so she
would not
do what her instincts screamed at her to do. “Let me guess—there’s no radio where you are. I can’t think of any other reasonable explanation for you not to know Katy Perry.”

“There’s radio in Belfast,” Casey Faraday grumbled, his trademark military-man gruffness shaping every syllable. “I just have more respect for my eardrums than you do.”

Tucking the phone between her ear and shoulder, she went to rummage through the purse she’d abandoned on the counter, needing to do something with her hands other than caress her firearm. “You’re in Belfast.” Not that she believed him for a second—Casey was the man who’d taught her the routine she performed tonight and every night. No way would he give away his real location across the landline, when anyone could be tapping in and listening to their conversation. “Shoot.”

“What?”

Turning the clutch upside down, she stared down at her cell phone, ID, credit card and cash. “I can’t find my Chapstick.”

There was a pause on the other end of the line. “It’s nice to hear you complain about something so...inconsequential.”

“Cracked lips are not inconsequential, Casey,” she muttered as she dug into the pockets of her jeans.

“So, should I ask how your date with Mark went?”

Now it was her turn to pause. “I never told you I had a date.” Or who with.