Bloods Gem (42 page)

“
Well, I guess you are doing me a
favor then. I wouldn’t want a heartless demon impregnating me.” I
saw the pain in his eyes when I said that.

“
You're right. I am a demon and I'm
sorry.”

“
Well, what are you waiting for? Hurry
up. I don’t want to look at you any longer before I hurt you
myself.”

“
You’ve done a lot of that already.
Worse then any physical pain could ever do.”

“
Funny. And you are the
victim?”

“
Not by any means. I'm not saying I
didn’t deserve every bit. I just want you to have the satisfaction
of knowing, your words. They hurt. To the core. Even if some things
you say are true, looking at myself in the way you describe makes
me hate myself that much more.”

I wanted to slap him in the face again.
Everything word he spoke, killed me inside. How could he be so
heartless? So cruel to me?

“
I mean every word I said Daniel. If
you do this. I promise, if I ever remember. I wont forgive you. You
will never feel my lips on yours again. Feel my warm breath in your
ear. Feel my arms wrapped around you or hear me whisper how much I
love you.”

He held his stomach, tears filling his eyes.
“I know. This is the hardest thing I'll ever have to do. Letting
you--” He couldn’t talk anymore.

I cried with him. “Please. Don’t… leave me,”
I begged.

“
I have no choice. This isn’t the life
for you Faith. I can’t be selfish anymore. I can’t have
you.”

“
I want this! I want you! I want this
life. I don’t care about anything else. We don’t have to have a
child, I promise, just don’t go!”

“
You will someday. Really want it. And
I wont. I will never ever make love to you again and I know that
alone is going to hurt you. Everything I can't do for you, hurts
you and in turn hurts me. I want to die inside. I die every time I
hurt you, or can't give you what you need. I want you to have a
fulfilling life, full or love, romance, passion and children. I
can't give these things to you and I'm sorry.”

He stood up wiping his tears away. “This is
extremely painful saying goodbye Love. I wish. I was dead right now
and didn’t have to suffer this torment I'll have to endure for
three-hundred years. But I must, for you. I love you Faith, always
will. We will be together again in our afterlife. I will count the
days till I can feel you against me again. This wont be goodbye,
just good bye for now.” Tears rolled down our faces. He held me
close, as though he didn't want to let go. I clinched onto him,
sobbing, knowing what was next. The pain was unbearable, and I
wanted to die with him in that moment, so we could be together
forever.

The End

Gloria Conway lives and writes in NW
Arkansas with her son, husband and various reptiles.