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She'd come around enough to look confused by then, a definite improvement over the blankness I'd seen before. She was still
pretty vague, though, and still naked, which even in New Orleans could be a problem.

"Take your clothes off," I told Heslep.

We must have been quite the sight walking up Felicity to where I'd left the car, this white guy in underwear shirt and Jockey
shorts, black socks and shoes, bleeding all over himself, spaced-out young woman holding up downsize pants with both hands
as alternately she bounced off walls and staggered off the curb into the street, big buck nigger in black suit bringing up
the rear.

I didn't want to diink about what would happen if a police car cruised by. Mostly, unless there was a specific call, they
stayed out of this part of town.

"And that was Marconi's daughter?" Verne said. "Anyone want more?"

I accepted the platter of ham and sweet potatoes as Mother said "No thank you, dear."

'Yeah. I didn't know it then, or for a longtime, really. Figured she was just another messed-up kid. Lots of them around those
days. I called Frankie DeNoux to meet me downtown, dropped Heslep off at his new rent-free accommodations, then asked the
girl if she had someplace, a home, a friend's place, where she could go. She looked up at me with these strange, hollow eyes.

"Sure," she said, and started away. I watched her turn the corner.

Moments later, she was back. "I don't," she said. "Not really."

"Wait, let me guess. You took her home."

I nodded.

"Lew picks up strays," Verne said to my mother. "Can't seem to help himself."

"It was just for a few days. Once I got her settled in, she was out like a light. I didn't do much better myself, woke up
fully dressed with my head on the kitchen table. I put her in touch with a friend of Don's who ran a halfway house. Went to
see her a couple of times while she was there. Mosdy we'd sit and watch TV together. Then after she got out she started coming
by my apartment once or twice a week. Never said much about what she was doing, where she was living."

"And you didn't ask, of course."

People want to tell me something, I listen. What they don't want to tell me is their business, I figurethey have reasons.

"What she did talk about a lot then was stuff she was reading, all these thoughts clambering about in her head.

One week she'd show up having just read Hesse, or
The
Seven-Storey Mountain,
and that's where everything would begin and end, that was the whole world. Maybe life wasn't about possessions, about personal
gain or power, she'd tell me, maybe what was important was this struggle, trying to understand yourself and others even when
you knew you never could. Or she might talk about communities, what they were, how important it was to become part of one,
to turn away from what she called the lure of your own reflection in the mirror."

"I can't remember being that young anymore, Lew. I know I was, all those grand thoughts running through me, but I can't remember
it, can you?"

"Some days, a few good days, I'm
still
that young."

Verne nodded. "Let me get coffee started."

She came back with the sugar bowl and a quart carton of Schwegmann milk. "Ready in a minute."

"Her name was Mary Catherine, but she went by Cathy. Didn't take me long to catch on to how smart she was, and I asked if
she'd thought about college.
''You
didn't go to college,' she said, "and you know everything.' What I knew, I told her, I'd managed to learn the hard way, assbackwards
and stubborn like I did most things, reading books the way ore companies strip-mine mountains, taking what I could of the
best stuff and leaving the rest in ruin, and I wasn't about to recommend that for anyone else.

" 'It can get expensive,' I told her, 'but there are all kinds of scholarships and loans available.'

"I remember her looking up at me and saying, 'Oh, that wouldn't be a problem.'

"Month or so later she tells me she's been accepted up at LSU. She'll come visit on holidays, she says, and she does, the
first couple, but then she stops. Not that I was surprised. Never expected anything else."

Verne went to the kitchen, returning with coffeepot and hotpad. Cups were already set out on the table. She poured.

"You still didn't know who she was?"

"Not a clue. I must have changed living quarters a couple of times in the next few months, I was doing that a lot then—"

"At least you
had
a place," Mother said.

LaVerne's eyes met mine. She shook her head gendy.

"Then one day I'm coming home, around the big house and through unruly hedges—I was supposed to cut them, as part of my rent,
but never got around to it—to the little one where I live out behind, and someone's waiting by my door, looks like he might
juggle tractors to stay in shape.

" 'Do something for you?' I ask.

" 'Nope.'

"I have the keys in my fist, sticking out between fingers.

" 'You Griffin?'

"Yeah.

" 'Jimmie Marconi says he appreciates what you did for his kid.'

"I don't know this Marconi
or
his kid, I tell the guy.

" 'Sure you do. Mary Catherine.' His eyes remind me of Cathy's back when I first saw her. Flat, blank, affectless.

" 'She's okay, then?'

"He shrugs. 'How okay's someone like that ever get? You askin' me if she's straight, yeah, she's straight. For now.'

" 'Look, it's hot out here. You want a beer?'

" 'Mr. Marconi told me I should find you and tell you this, so I did. Now you got his message. No way I'm goin' in your house,
sit down with you.'

" 'Okay,' I said after a moment.

" 'Mr. Marconi says you ever need a favor, anything he can do for you, come see him.'

" 'Thank him for me. But what I did had nothing to do with him.'

" 'In Mr. Marconi's world,
everything
has to do with him.' And tipping one finger to his hat, he waded away into the hedges, merry mystery to all and to all a good
night."

I was sipping brandy by this time. Mother peered pointedly at my snifter each time I swirled or lifted it.

"Sounds like you sure got to know yourself some fine folk here in the city," she said. "I know who I have to know."

Verne touched her wrist softly. "Lew's good at what he does, Mildred." Pressure remained a moment. Then to me: "What's next?"

"What else? I hit the streets."

"Carrying as cargo your photo of the mystery lady, hoping some sailor, in some port somewhere, may have seen and remember
her."

"Doesn't sound like much to go on, does it, once you strip it down like that."

"Maybe you could lay off some of the bet, Lew. You know someone who's all
over
this city every day, uptown, downtown, sideways and in between. Finding out what the regulars are up to, finding out who's
new in town, where they came from, why they're here."

"Doo-Wop."

Verne nodded. "More coffee, Mildred?"

"No thank you, dear. Dinner wasfine as always, but I think I'll be off to bed now. You-all here in the city eat considerable
later than I'm accustomed to. And try as I might, I can't make much sense out of this getting to bed at one or two in the
morning some days, sleeping your whole way through others."

"Rest well, Mildred."

Verne freshened my brandy and poured one for herself. We sat for a while in silence. She got up and kicked offher shoes, put
on
CosiFan Tutti,
reached under her shirt to pull off her bra (which she hung on a doorknob) and stretched out beside me on the couch. We listened
to the sounds of traffic, to the call-and-response of people walking by outside. Mozart's music broke over us like water in
a brook.

"I can help too, Lew. I'm out there every night. Lot of us are. Your woman's still in town, chances are good that sooner or
later one of us, one way or another, could come across her."

"I ever tell you how wonderful you are?"

"I'm not sure. I'll check my notes tomorrow. Right now I don't want to move."

"Not working tonight, then?"

"I called a while back. Victoria says she'll cover for me.

"Your regulars won't mind?"

"They all like Vick. Everybody does."

"Want another brandy? Coffee?"

She shook her head. Moments went by. Body warm and still beside me. Music washing over us.

"I like this, Verne. I like what my life's become with you in it. I like what
I've
become."

She raised herself on elbows so that we were face-to-face. "You should, Mr. Griffin," she said. 'Tou most definitely should."

6

M
y thoughts kept circling back to a couple of things those days. Vietnam was scarcely over, all that ungodly mess in Central
and South America just ID beginning to surface.

the firstwas a passagefrom (I think)
Man's Fate,
describing how someone has withdrawn fromthe world; how still, as he reaches for his book, for his pipe and tobacco tin, his
arm enters—moves through—that world around him.

Second was something Bob Dylan said about peace, that periodically everybody had to stop to reload and while they were reloading,
those few moments,
that
was peace.

Ten o'clock the next evening as I walked into Soft Machine deep in the Quarter, those notions were stomping through my mind
in heavy boots again. Soft Machine was the only bar in town back then devoted to new jazz. A dozen patrons comprised a rush
and two or three was the usual run, while up the street, at Preservation Hall, people stood in line for hours to sit on folding
chairs as at a graveside and hear the millionth wooden reprise of "When the Saints Go Marchin' In." I'm all for tradition,
God knows, but tradition doesn't just
stop
at some arbitrary signpost; it's not some fossil, a scorpion in amber; it's ongoing. That's the whole point.

"There he is, ladies and gendemen," Bo said. "How's it going, Lew? Been a while."

His first year in high school, Bo'd been principal trombonist, won afistful of blue ribbons playing stuff like "Flight of
the Bumblebee" and "Carnival of Venice."Then his band director, a Canadian named Robert Cinq-Mars who played mean clarinet
and wrote his own music, introduced him to jazz. Next thing you know, Bo's looking up old players, hanging out with them whenever
he can at jazz funerals, house parties, recording sessions, bars. He'd had a band himself awhile, a damned good one. Then
he heard Dolphy and Parker and his life changed again. He knew he couldn't play like that, no way, and he put his trombone
down for good, but he couldn't leave the music alone.

"What can I say, Bo? Don't get out much anymore."

"I had someone like LaVerne at home, I wouldn't get out at all. Speaking of which." He shoved a napkin across the bar, number
scrawled on it. "She says call her."

"How long ago?"

"I don't know. Hour maybe."

"You seen Doo-Wop?"

"Not for a day or so. Couple of conventions downtown, Ifigure he's staying busy."

The skinniest young black man I'd ever seen—he looked like an ambulatory twig—climbed onstage.
Stage
was definitely a euphemism for this inch-high flatof rough lumber we'd have used back home to stack feed bags. He plucked
a soprano sax out from behind a chair. Held it vertical in his lap as he disengaged the reed from the mouthpiece and put it
in his mouth to soak. Another musician took his seat behind the piano. He hit several chords, ran scales and arpeggios off
higher intervals of them, pawed at a few jagged, Monklike phrases, then sat with hands in lap waiting.

"Stick around. These guys are unbelievable. I don't know
where
it all comesfrom," Bo said. "Drink?"

"When'd you last make coffee?"

"What's today?" He poured a cup and pushed it towards me on the bar. "Just kidding. Hey, you're still in New Orleans. I don't
keep good coffee, they take away my license, deport me to Algiers, Chalmette. Rip the towel off my shoulder." He angled one
longfinger towards the napkin. "Phone's still where it was, you get ready."

I turned around on the stool, turned back.

"Seems to be in use."

"Nah. That's just Crazy Jane. Comes in here every night, has a few drinks, spends the next hour or so having imaginary conversations
with old lovers."

Grasping the receiver in a death grip at least a foot from her head and shouting into it, Crazy Jane gave way without comment
when I tapped on the booth. She replaced the receiver as though setting down an eggshell. I dialed the number on the napkin.
The phone rang twice.

"LaVerne there?" Never knew who might be at the other end of one of LaVerne's numbers.

"Who's this?"

"This is the guy who's calling for LaVerne."

"Yeah? Sounds like just another turkey to me."

'Tou took your head out of your ass, you might hear better."

"You got a definite point there."

He backed the phone off a few inches and shouted: "Hey, CNeil! Walsh up there? Well, he's for damn sure around here
somewhere.
Yeah you do that." Moments passed. "Griffin's on the line, boss." A staccato exchange of words. "Who else's it gonna be, mouth
like that? Hey, always a pleasure talking to you, Griffin." He handed the phone over.

"Lew."

"I got a messagefrom LaVerne to call her at this number. She okay?"

"She's fine. Took her statement myself and sent her home in a black and white almost an hour ago. I asked her to call you."

Crazy Jane stood outside the booth patiendy waiting. When I smiled, she smiled back, then ducked her head shyly like a schoolgirl.

"Verne said she was trying to help youfindthis Esmay woman, from the shooting. So she talked it up on the street—'just like
setting out trot lines back home,' she said. Got her firstbite around dinnertime, second one not long after. Hell of a lot
better than we ever did, or were gonna do. 'Lew says you always hang back,' she told me, 'see what the traffic looks like,
give the landscape a chance to become familiar.' She had a couple of coffees at the cafe on the corner and kept her eyes open,
came up here and walked into this."

T
HIS
WAS THE
messy anteroom of an apartment in a cul-de-sac off Jane Street.

Built in 1890 as a private home, the building persisted as such, various families moving in and out like hermit crabs, until
1954, at which time it came onto its first abandonment. The Sixties saw its irregular stories and multiple courtyards reincarnated
as luxury apartments; late in the decade, following extensive consultations with lawyers, the building's new owners gave it
over to use as an orphanage. Shortly thereafter began its second long decline.

These days, though a successful temp agency occupied its bottom floor, the rest remained an urban ghost town. Periodically
movies were shot in those rambling uppers: crews would sweep in with brooms, paint and props, drape and hammer and arrange
it all to look how they needed it, then disappear, leaving behind new habitats for the wild cats who lived there.

Don showed up to ransom mefrom the twenty-year-old pillar-of-salt sentinel stationed street level, frontdoor. We climbed narrow,
listing stairs gone to rot and splinters, ducked through a sagging walkway.

Dana Esmay lay slumped just inside the entrance to apartment 3-B. A divider wall opened at either end into living room and
kitchen areas. Green flocked wallpaper had been mostly torn away; what remained looked like healthy patches of mold. A dozen
or so hats and caps hung from nails pounded into the wall.

"Wefigureshe was squatting here," Don said.

"Someone was."

"Evidence of the same in a couple of other apartments on the floor below. Power came from an extension cord, one of those
heavy-duty orange ones. It's plugged into an external oudet on the patio downstairs."

I lifted a hat off one of the nails, checked its size, held it close above what was left of her head.

"Look like afitto you?"

Don nodded. "I see your point."

Dana lay with arms and legs askew. Her throat looked like something from a butcher's block. An electric carving knife was
on thefloor by one hand.

"We think LaVerne pushing the door open's what pulled the plug. She, the Esmay woman, was lying against the door. LaVerne
remembers hearing a buzzing sound. Had no idea what it was at the time, of course."

The wound in the woman's throat gapped open, oddly intimate. Some secret small thing had squeezed through this portal from
elsewhere, leaving our own world forever changed. Beside the wound, to the left, were several long cuts. I leaned down to
look closer.

"Hesitation marks," Don said.

"Or signs that she was struggling, turning, trying to get away."

Blood pooled beneath one turned-down wrist. Maybe she'd had a go at that, botched it, before moving higher. Or maybe instinctively
she'd thrown that arm up in self-defense.

"Here's the rest." Don turned her head. The back of it, from the crown well into the neck, was cut away.
Scalloped
came to mind. I couldn't remember when I'd last seen this much blood.

"ME says his best guess is she plugged the thing in, took a couple of trial swipes, then pulled it across. Both carotids are
gone and she's dead at this point, but there's still ten to twelve seconds' worth of oxygen left in her brain. She's on automatic:
her arm and hand keep going. Then the hand hits empty space and jerks around to the back. Two or three last whacks before
she's down You okay, Lew?"

I nodded.

"It's her, right?"

"Yeah. It's her."

She turns and holds her arms out. Ducking to fitmore
comfortably, I step into them, hugging her. A low-rider
pumps by beside us, bass speakers pounding. Faint strains of
Buster's guitar and singing, "Goin' Back to Florida, "from
inside. Shadows of banana trees move huge on the wall. The
moon is full. Then I sense something new. I look up, to the
rooftop opposite. The bullet comes to me as I throw my arms
wide.

S
OMEDAY, I SWEAR
, I'm going to put together an anthology,
The Nose Book.
It'll have Gogol's classic story, the nose job from Pynchon's
V,
Damon Knight's "God's Nose" (the universe was created when God sneezed),
Pinocchio,
Steve Martin's tour-de-force nose jokes from
Roxanne,
clips from Woody Allen's
Sleeper.
Maybe I'll put a photo of Mel Gold on the cover.

Leaving the scene on Jane Street, Don and I had gone out for a drink. One drink became two, then four, and I'd finished up,
two in the morning, back at the house alone with a half-bottle of plum brandy someone had brought to a dinner party weeks
before and had sense enough to leave behind. Vaguely I remembered Verne coming home and trying to talk to me. Not long after,
I staggered into the bathroom to throw up. I was lying beached on the front room couch, no idea what time it was, heart pounding,
flashes going off behind closed eyes, when the doorbell rang.

I may have opened a closet or two before I found my way to the right door.

"Hi there. Good to see you. Go away," I said, and shut the door.

"Look," I said, opening it again when the bell resumed. I'd meant to say something, had something firmlyin mind, but lost
it. I may have shut the door again, I'm not sure. Things blur for a while then. Next clear picture I have, we're sitting in
the kitchen over toast with melted cheese and mayonnaise and he's telling me how he's just moved here with his familyfrom
the Bronx. "That's in New York."

I told him yeah, I thought I'd heard something about that.

"I'm an accountant for J. Walters, an electronics company, been with the firm almost thirty years. No one came right out and
said it, but the message was clear. Either I took the transfer, or I'd better start getting my resume in order. I'mfifty-three,
Mr. Griffin—"

"Lew."

"I never did anything else, or lived anywhere else, and I'm fifty-three. What am I supposed to do? It wasn't just me, though.
Six other families transferred down with us. We couldn't believe our luck when we found houses all together. Took a while
before it sank in there might be a reason for that.

" 'Remember how the real estate agent wouldn't look any of us in the eye?' my wife said when troubles started. Says she knew
then that something wasn't right. But I was so determined the move was going to work out, I ignored anything to the contrary.

"It started out slowly enough. Gates left open to let pets out, dirt thrown over walls at clothes drying on lines, newspapers
undelivered, trash cans upended in our driveways. Then a couple of us had bricks tossed through windows, what looked like
blood poured on our porches. Once again, the message was clear."