Boxed Set: The Billionaire’s Desire Complete Collection (Books 1-3 and Bonus Books 1 and 2) (Submitting to the Billionaire) (23 page)

My breaths were coming in faster pants now and it was getting harder to speak.  “Yes.” 

He stroked me softly and then applied a little bit more pressure before slipping a finger inside my tender opening.  He let go of my wrists and I grabbed his shoulders to steady myself as he slipped a second finger inside and manipulated my aching core.  I let out a soft moan as my body experienced incredible pleasure and my hands combed through his hair as I held him close.

He stopped what he was doing and gave me a smoldering look.  “Lie on the bed for me Sarah.”  The words almost caught in his throat as he told me what to do. 

I went over to the bed and lay down on my back and Joshua leaned down and pulled my panties off of me. 

“Put your knees up.”

I did as I was told.

“Now close your eyes.”

Again, I did as I was told.  I heard him open his bag to get something and then I felt the bed give under his weight.  He wrapped a blindfold around my eyes and he handcuffed my hands to the headboard.  “Are you okay with this?”  His voice was soft as he whispered in my ear.

“Yes.”  That was all I could manage to get out because I was so aroused I could barely think straight.  My other senses were heightened because my sense of sight and touch were temporarily blocked.

“Put your knees up.”

I did as I was told and I felt Joshua slide his hands underneath my buttocks and lift my hips into the air a bit.

“Open you legs for me.”

I let my knees fall to the sides and then I felt his tongue lick inside my thigh toward my sensitive opening.  His tongue made its way up my inner thigh and I could feel how wet I was from his touches and kisses.  I began to moan and writhe around on the bed, my hands twisting against the handcuffs, as I felt his tongue lightly explore my tender folds, and then he flicked my sensitive bud.  His tongue slid over it back and forth, applying more pressure each time as his hands kneaded my ass.  His tongue was stiff as it moved back and forth over my clit and I could not stay still as I began to moan and writhe around uncontrollably.  He made his tongue into a point and darted in and out of my sensitive opening, and then flattened his tongue and rubbed it back and forth over my hardened nub.  My orgasm was teetering on the edge and that was what pushed me over as it shot to the surface.  My body tensed up as I let out a loud cry and rode the waves pleasure and shuddered uncontrollably as I writhed around and finally collapsed onto the bed.  I was breathing heavily as I tried to catch my breath and Joshua removed the blindfold and I saw my beautiful husband standing over me, lust and hunger in his eyes, as he removed his clothes himself. 

I was still handcuffed to the bed and it seemed that Joshua wanted it that way.  He knelt above my face and I instinctively opened my mouth to take in all of his thick, hard member.  Since I couldn’t use my hands, I had to rely on my lips and tongue to do all the work.  I wrapped my lips around his hardness and my tongue teased the sensitive ridge where the tip met the shaft.  I heard his breath catch in his throat and it felt good knowing that it was me causing him to react in that way.  He dipped a little further into my mouth, showing me that he controlled how much of him I would take in.  I sucked in as he would pull out, my mouth creating a vacuum of pleasure for him.  He started to move in and out of my mouth faster and faster and I bobbed my head around sucking and licking his hard cock.  I felt his dick get harder and his body started to tense up, so he quickly pulled out and sank into my waiting, throbbing core.

He grabbed onto my hips, lifting me slightly off the bed and I put my legs over his shoulders so he could pound into me deeper.  He grabbed onto my legs as he hammered me into the mattress.

“Tell me you are mine Sarah!”  His voice was throaty and breathless.

“I am yours Joshua!”  The pounding felt so good as my juices allowed him to easily slide in and out of me.

“No one else will ever have you!”

“No one else will ever have me!”  I could barely get the words out as my mind clouded over with pleasure.

“We will be together always and forever, say it!”

“We will be together always and forever!”  My inner walls gripped him as I lifted my hips up to take him in even deeper.

Joshua grimaced, I felt his body tense up and he let out a loud grunt as his body shuddered and he came deep inside me.  He collapsed next to me onto the bed and took a minute to catch his breath before unlocking the handcuffs.

We both lay there, breathing heavily, basking in the afterglow of our wedding night lovemaking.  Joshua turned on his side and looked at me and then smoothed my hair out of my eyes and ran his finger along my cheek.  He always did that and his touch was always so gentle as he brushed my hair away.  His dark, gorgeous eyes smoldered as they caught and then stayed with mine.  He lightly traced my lips with his finger and gave me a soft smile.

“Mrs. Hunter.  I like the sound of that.”

“So do I Mr. Hunter, I like being your wife.  There is no other place I would ever want to be.”  I smiled at him and his face turned serious.

“I meant what I said earlier, Sarah.  We will be together always and forever, I never want to know what life is like without you.  I love you more than you’ll ever know.”

“I love you too, sweetheart.”

He knew just how to say the perfect things to me.  His was in this for the long haul and so was I.

I snapped out of my walk down memory lane and looked around my office. 
Is all of this going to be over for me?
  I started to feel sad again but then I remembered what he said to me on our wedding night in that hotel suite. 
Always and forever.  We were going to be together always and forever.
  All of a sudden something in me clicked and I wasn’t ready to give up on our marriage.  I wanted to talk things out with Joshua so that we could work it out.  I wasn’t going to let that witch come between us. 

I got up and was ready to march down the hall to his office when I remembered that he was out of the office most of the day, so I sent him a text message letting him know that I wanted to talk to him when we got home.  His reply was very cold.

            ‘
I want to talk to you also.  I have made a decision.
’

Suddenly, I felt sick to my stomach.  Joshua was never this cold with me.  That work day was completely unproductive for me and I don’t think that I was able to get one thing done. It was the first time in my life that I was not able to bury myself in work to avoid what was really going on in my life.  Joshua didn’t stop by my office at all when he returned that afternoon so I did not see him until I got home.

We had dinner with the twins and they had no idea that there was tension between us because we acted like everything was okay in front of them. After dinner, we played with them for a while and then we put them to bed and went to our room to talk.

We walked into our room and Joshua closed the door behind us, and then turned and just stared at me with his arms folded across his chest.  I sat down and looked up at him and my throat was dry and my heart felt like it was going to leap out of my chest, I was so nervous.  He stood there looking at me for probably a full two minutes, not saying a word, and I sure wasn’t going to be the first one to say anything, at least not with that look on his face.  I felt so uneasy under his stare and I started to squirm a bit in my chair as he continued to stare at me.

He had zero emotion in his eyes when he finally spoke to me and that probably scared me more than anything because when Joshua Hunter was done with you, he was completely done with you.

“Did you buy your dress for the event in the Hamptons this weekend?”

I perked up a bit because maybe he just wanted things to go back to the way they were, but I had already decided that I was not going to go to the event.  It would be entirely too awkward with the way things were between us right now so I figured it was probably best if I just stayed home and Joshua went.

“No, I didn’t think it was such a good idea if I went to the event, you know with the way things are, so I thought I should probably just stay home.”

Joshua gave me an extremely disapproving look as he furrowed his brow.  “You are going Sarah. I want you have your personal shopper buy several dresses for you to choose from tomorrow, and then I want you to put on that dress this weekend for the event in the Hamptons and walk around and network with people.  I told you that this was the most important networking event of the year and I am not going to allow what is going on between us to affect that.  You are going to put on a pretty smile and act like there is nothing wrong between us.  So, like I said, you
are
going Sarah, period.  Do I make myself clear?”  His tone was low but firm and I knew he was serious so I just agreed with him.

“Yes.  I’ll call Lorraine tomorrow and have her send over the dresses.”  I wanted to ask him what he meant earlier when he texted me that he had made a decision but I was too afraid to ask, so I just sat there looking at my hands waiting for him to say something again.

“Sarah, look at me.”  His voice was stern with a hint of annoyance, but I raised my eyes to meet his.  He still had that same look of disgust on his face that he had the night he told me he was sleeping in the guest room.

“I texted you earlier that I wanted to talk to you because I have made a decision.  After the Hamptons event this weekend I am going to stay in one of the corporate apartments for a while.  I will be here every night for dinner with the girls and to put them to sleep, but after that I will be sleeping in the apartment.  I don’t want the girls to know that anything is wrong unless, or until, we get to the point where we have to tell them.”

I looked at him in disbelief and his eyes iced over as he held my gaze.  I felt like I had been punched in the stomach. 
No, no, no, no no, no!

“No!”  I stopped myself from saying more because I couldn’t believe I had said that out loud.

His eyes were angry as they pierced right through me.  “No?!  You accuse me of something disgusting and you expect for me to stay here?  I told you nothing happened and you did not believe me!  Trust is a huge part of this relationship and without it we have
nothing
.  It is more than obvious to me that you do not trust me and I have no desire to be with someone who feels that way about me!  I think time apart will be good for us because maybe we have been naïve to think that this could last forever.  I have a lot to offer someone and I still have a lot of life to live, so maybe I should be with someone who trusts me and wants to be with me.  Clearly Sarah, that person does not seem to be you.”

I wanted to die on the spot and I could not believe he was saying these things to me.  I literally pinched my arm because I thought for sure that I had to be dreaming, but when I felt the tinge of pain I realize that this was all too real.

How did this happen? How did we get to this point?

I pleaded with him, short of begging.  “Joshua, you can't just leave, we have to talk about this!  Married people are supposed to communicate, so please let's communicate.”

"I tried to tell you Sarah, I tried to communicate with you, but you did not want to listen to me.  You know that trust is the most important thing in a relationship to me and I see that you do not trust me.  So now I think it's best that we take some time apart and see where things go.  Maybe I was never the right man for you and maybe you were never the right woman for me.  But hear me clearly on something.  Our girls are not to know that there is anything wrong between us.  The same thing goes for this weekend at the Hamptons.  We are going to stay at our Hamptons house together, we are going to attend the event together and we are going to appear as a happy married couple.  Understood?”

I wanted to scream and yell and throw things at him but that wouldn’t do anything but make him more upset with me.  I started to realize that I had been wrong about this whole thing. 
Joshua would not react this way if he were guilty.
  I suddenly realized that he would not get that upset unless he had been telling me the truth. 
Oh my gosh, he really didn’t do anything wrong!
   I felt like a big idiot because I did not believe him at first, but I wanted to tell him that I was wrong.  I wanted him to know that I believed him.  But it seemed to be too late and now I would have to do damage control.  I would do whatever I had to to fix things between us.  I was not going to let him get away, I would play along and do what he wanted this weekend and by the time the weekend was over, he would change his mind about moving out.  It had to work, it just
had
to.

“I said,
understood
?”  He was visibly annoyed with me.

“Yes, Joshua.”

“Good.  Tomorrow night after we have put the girls to bed I want you to model each dress for me so that I can choose what you are going to wear in the Hamptons.  The car will pick us up at 10:00 Saturday morning so be sure that you are ready by then and waiting for me near the front door.”

Joshua stood there and looked at me for a full minute and I was trying to figure out what he was thinking.  I couldn’t see even a glimmer of the man I had married behind those eyes of stone. 
How can you be this cold to me?

“I’ll be out of the office tomorrow in meetings most of the day so I will just see you back here for dinner with the twins.”  With that, he left me sitting on our bed and closed the door behind him without so much as a goodnight.

I sat there dazed and confused. 
He wants to move out
,
I can’t believe this.
 
What am I going to do? 
My world felt like it was crashing down around me and as I sat there, the tears flowed down my cheeks once again. 
I can’t lose my husband, I can’t lose this incredible life and incredible family that we have. 
The life we had built together was so perfect and I didn’t want to just let that go, I knew I had to do something to fix it. 

I sat staring at the floor and thought of my little girls and what it would do to them if we split up and I cried even harder.  I curled up in a ball and thought about the day I told Joshua that we were pregnant. 

We had been married for nearly three years and we lived in a townhouse on the Upper East Side and were just coming home from dinner, when I went to my closet to get the baby booties I had bought earlier that day after my doctor’s appointment.  I balled them up in my hand so that Joshua would not see them.  He had just taken off his shoes and was getting ready to change into pajamas when I grabbed his hand and pulled him to me for a big hug.

“Do you love me?”  I looked up at him and smiled.

He looked down at me and kissed the tip of my nose.  “More than anything, my love.”

“I have a present for you.”  I opened my hand so that he could see the booties and at first he looked confused and then a huge smile spread across his face.

“We’re pregnant?”  He was grinning from ear to ear.

My smile was just as big as his as I nodded frantically.  “We are!”

Joshua picked me up and twirled me around and then he quickly stopped.  “Oh I better not do that! I don’t want to do anything to hurt our baby.”  He put his hand on my stomach and had so much concern in his eyes.  “Are you okay?”

I smiled at him with tears in my eyes.  “I am perfect.”

I sat up on the bed and wiped away my tears. 
I’ve really screwed things up
. 
Why didn’t I just believe my husband when he told me that nothing happened?
 
Because they looked so guilty.
  I sat there going over the scenario of me walking in on Joshua and Natalia in my head for the millionth time and I remembered his hands on her arms. 
Oh my gosh, he wasn’t pulling her toward him, he was pushing her away!
 
I have really screwed everything up.
 I decided not to dwell on it and just focus on doing what I could to apologize. 
I’ll show him this weekend, he’ll know how sorry I am.