Breaking Bedlam (Beautiful Bedlam Book 2) (31 page)

“You do?” Rose asked confoundedly.

“Well not personally but there’s bound to be a homosexual priest out there somewhere.” Beth retorted airily as she continued jabbing her thumbs on to the screen of her cellphone it was a miracle it didn’t break. ‘
Bethany Simmons everybody
,’ Sienna thought dryly. 

3.

“She’s right. I’ll be off to Northwestern next year hopefully if I get in. Noah will no doubt get in to NYU,” Rose said with her fingers crossed.

“I’m taking a gap year to travel Europe.” Bethany interjected.
Lucky bitch
.

“I’m thinking of Philadelphia University.” Trent said surprising Sienna. She couldn’t picture him at college. Actually she could, he’d make the perfect frat boy.

“And you two will of course be our president and first lady one day after you graduate from Harvard.” Rose teased.

“Yeah about that, my dad pulled a couple of strings. We’ve got an interview first week of November. Don’t worry you’ve got one too.” Logan said to Sienna suddenly remembering.

“Logan, I thought we talked about this. I mean Harvard is great. It’s amazing but I can’t get in to Harvard. You know that right?” she asked guardedly.

“Oh come on, you underestimate yourself.”

“No, I don’t. I’m smart but not that smart. I can’t get in to Harvard but I think I might just be able to squeeze my way in to Stanford if I work really hard.”

“But that’s in California. We’ll be miles away.”

“Ah well, at least there’s always Skype and Snapchat.” Bethany chortled clearly enjoying the trouble in paradise.

“We’ve talked about this.” Sienna said in a lower voice wishing they could take this private conversation elsewhere.

“But that was last year. That was before everything happened with your dad, our parents, Annie, Amber.” Logan said to her fervently as if she needed reminding.

“Who’s Amber?” Candice asked as she sat down next to them.

“Hey Cousin Red, Cherry and Bruce Wayne over here are fighting.” Trent informed her way too readily and happily.

“How come he gets a cool nickname and I don’t?” Sienna asked touchily.

“Because he can kick my ass.” Trent hollered jovially.

“You know it.” Logan retorted and the two bumped fists. Sienna shook her head unfavorably thinking she’d never understand male bonding.

“Cherry is better than Jabba the Slut over there” he said nodding his head over to the direction of Gabby, a dark-haired severely overweight notoriously promiscuous girl who was known since freshman year to have slept with half if not most of all the upperclassmen by cornering them in parties and plying them with alcoholic, stuff of nightmares but true nonetheless.  Nowhere else in the world would you find children so mean yet so oddly gifted at aiding the most precisely apt monikers for each other than in high school.

“You’re seriously not even going to apply to Harvard?” he asked and rubbed his jaw. Something he did when he was angry and was struggling to conceal and control it.

“I will.” She said quickly.

“You’re just saying that ‘cos you feel guilty now.”

“No, it’s not that.”

“Besides what does Stanford have that Harvard doesn’t have other than me of course?” he asked touchily and stood up grabbing his backpack in one hand.

“You’re acting like you’re already in.” she retorted a little angrily annoyed by his arrogance. The truth was they all knew he was a shoo in, he had stellar grades, he was athletic, charismatic, could charm the pants off any interviewer and of course it didn’t hurt that his father was a united states senator and his grandfather was a long time alumni board member.

“Whatever. I’m going to football practice. I’ll see if this leg of mine is as fast as it used to be.” he said referring to his right leg, the one he broke nine months ago after part of his body grazed and hit the side of a moving freight train when he jumped and pushed Sienna on to the platform and out of harm’s way when she tried to attempt suicide.

“You’re just going to leave me here?” she asked in disbelief.

“I love you.” He sighed and kissed her cheek before she could protest any further. Trent went along with him clearly ecstatic that they were fighting. He even grinned and gave her a thumbs up before running after his best bud leaving a very disgruntled and miffed Sienna Rivers.

“Yeah, we should get going too.” Noah said as he and Rose stood up and left quietly sensing the tension and quite rightly wanting to get away from it all. That was the thing about Sienna and Logan, they were like fire, when they burned they burned bright drawing all the moths to the flame, everybody was magnetized to them, somehow intrigued and somewhat drawn to them because the love they had for each other and the giddy emotions of happiness was infectious. But sometimes some fires burn a little too bright, and the candle has to be snuffed out, and when it is all those little moths fly away back to the darkness in search of something anew.

That just left Bethany, Candice and Sienna at the table.

“Have you been taking your medication?” Candice asked worriedly.

“Yes, I wish everybody would stop asking me that!” Sienna growled then remembered it was actually time for her next dose. She sighed and took out her bottle of Thorazine and swallowed two round orange colored pills with a gulp of water. She almost instantly felt a little lightheaded and covered her eyes with her hand. Her vision was always blurred at first.

“I don’t understand. What did he do that was so wrong? Most girls would be thrilled that their boyfriend is trying to get them in to Harvard! I mean its Harvard for god’s sake! Who cares if his dad’s a senator and pulled a few strings to get you an early interview?” Candice asked conscientiously oblivious to the symptoms Sienna was experiencing. The entire cafeteria was nothing more than a bunch of shapes and colors all merged in to one. She blinked again and the fog cleared a little so she could see the look of disdain on her cousin’s face.

“Its not that.” She mumbled and hid her pills from no doubt prying curious eyes.

“Well what is it? God, Sienna, could you be more selfish or ungrateful?” Candice asked scornfully.

“Its not that! Of course I know what he’s doing is sweet and kind but we all have to get real I don’t have the brains for Harvard. Hell, I don’t think I’ll make it to any college let alone an Ivy League college. So please can we just drop this topic?”

“What? Would you please stop looking at me and sighing?” Sienna then added irritably. Candice rolled her eyes shaking her head condescendingly and stood up.

“I just think he deserves so much better, that’s all.” She sighed before leaving.

“Oh well good for you!” Sienna shouted after her not caring at all when everybody turned to look at the freak show that was Sienna Rivers.

“Word of advice?” Bethany Simmons suggested as she scooted over to her.

“No, thank you.” She replied briskly wishing she could hibernate in the library but knew she couldn’t leave until she regained all of her sight back. 

“How long do you think it’s going to be until he grows tired of holding your hand and kissing your lips? I mean you’ve been dating for months and you haven’t had sex, that’s a bad sign in anybody’s book.” She smirked patronizingly.

“Not everybody is like you throwing yourself away for sex like pennies to a wishing fountain. No matter how many times you throw yourself at him, he’s not going to suddenly accept you and make all your dreams and wishes come true.” Sienna retorted.

“Oh yeah, don’t think I don’t see the way you look at him?” she added bluntly and rubbed her eyes relieved that her sight was almost back to its usual twenty twenty vision. Bethany’s mouth fell open in to a round ‘o’ but she quickly regained her usual bitchy composure.

“Good. I want you to see. I want you to watch as I take him away from you because the difference between you and I is-“
“Relatively sixty IQ points?” Sienna quipped swiftly.

“That unlike you, I always get what I want. I
always
win. And I want you to keep those freaky green eyes open and watch as you lose Logan to me due of your illness just like you lost your mommy to alcohol and your daddy to suicide and just like you’re going to lose your scholarship and valedictorian spot to Lee Young and miss out on college because you’re nothing more than a worthless bottom feeder.” She sneered. Her perfect glossy mouth then opened in to a wide smile revealing those seamless pearl white teeth Sienna so badly wanted to smash in but knew she couldn’t.

“Wow, you must really hate me. You like him a lot more than you let on…are you in love with Logan?” Sienna asked flabbergasted by what she had just discovered especially from the way Bethany suddenly blushed and looked uncomfortable.

“Love is for children.” She rolled her eyes not exactly answering the question, which in itself gave Sienna the answer she knew to be true.

“You know what? You can hate me secretly all you want and continue putting up this fake bitchy I’m your friend now Sienna but it won’t change anything. He won’t suddenly leap from me to you. You don’t know what we’ve been through. He loves me.” Sienna said confidently, now it was her turn to smirk because she knew it to be true.

“Trust me when I say this I know Logan Jackson more than you might realize. I know guys like him and sure he loves you, he’d have to be mad to put up with a schitzo girlfriend if he didn’t love her but at the end of the day a guy like Logan wants more and if you don’t give it to him, he’ll go out and get it.”

“From you presumably?” Sienna scoffed knowing he’d never touch her with a barge pole. He might have done before but that was history. Logan was a changed person. She was sure of it.

“Well let’s face it honey, you don’t kick a guy like him out of bed, now do you? Oh wait you wouldn’t understand. You take antipsychotic pills don’t you for schizophrenia?”

Bethany knew she did so Sienna didn’t bother affronting her with a response.