Breaking Glass

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GLASS

L I S A    A M O W I T Z

Copyright © 2013 by Lisa Amowitz

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Spencer Hill Press

This book is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are products of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events, locales, or persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.

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First Edition: July 2013.

Lisa Amowitz
Breaking Glass: a novel / by Lisa Amowitz – 1st ed.
p. cm.

Summary:
When the girl he loves disappears, a seventeen-year-old tries to call her back from beyond the grave to solve her own murder.

The author acknowledges the copyrighted or trademarked status and trademark owners of the following wordmarks mentioned in this fiction: Absolut, Advanced Placement, Advil, Arizona Iced Tea, Bluetooth, BMW, C-3PO, C-Leg, Discovery Channel, Dorothy, Dracula, Facebook, Frankenstein, Hair Club for Men, History Channel, Hulk, iPhone, Ivy League, Jeep, Jockey, Ken, Lego, Little League, Lone Ranger, Magic 8 Ball, Manolo Blahnik, Matchbox, Mob Wives, Monday Night Football, Netflix, Old Farmer’s Almanac, Oldsmobile, Otto Bock, Paralympics, Parker Brothers, Phantom of the Opera, Photoshop, Post-it, PowerBar, Ralph Lauren, Rhode Island School of Design, SATs, Sears, ShopRite, Six Flags, Sleeping Beauty, Sports Authority, Star Wars, Superman, Tin Man, Tonto, Vicodin, Volkswagen Jetta, West Side Story, Wii, Wite-Out, Wizard, Yankees, YouTube

Cover design by Lisa Amowitz
Interior layout by K. Kaynak

ISBN 978-1-937053-38-3 (paperback)
ISBN 978-1-937053-39-0 (e-book)

Printed in the United States of America

For my parents, Gene and Sherry, who nurtured the spark. For my children, Benjamin and Rebecca, to whom I pass it along, with love.

C H A P T E R
o n e

Now (November 17th)

Outside the dinner theater lobby, the glow of street lamps barely penetrates the thick mist that shrouds the parking lot. It’s the kind of night that Jack the Ripper might have prowled the cobblestoned streets of London searching for victims.

In the lobby, fresh from the standing ovation he’s received as Tony in our production of
West Side Story
, my best friend Ryan Morgan is surrounded by a crush of people. For two weeks running, his performance has been drawing crowds from all over Westchester County.

I glance around furtively, but no one notices the lighting guy. Truth is, my heart’s not in theater. I’m only working weekends to pad my college applications, and my wallet. So, I take a minute to study the latest text from Susannah Durban, Ryan’s girlfriend of three years. Heat creeps into my cheeks.

For the past year, Susannah’s been inexplicably texting me with YouTube links to her haunting stop-action animations. I watch her body drift across the screen draped with filmy gauze, her dark bronze hair and golden skin amid floating leaves, graveyards, ballet dancers, Indian goddesses, and scattered words in Hebrew and English, most of which make no sense.

But other than telling me the link is private and to keep it our little secret, Susannah never mentions them when I see her. Neither do I.

Yet if I could dive into my iPhone and swim beside her, an exotic fish in her private world, I would do it and never look back.

And Ryan would kill me. Best friends don’t want to
do
their best friend’s girlfriend. I think that’s written somewhere. So is not cheating on your girlfriend. And so is not ratting him out.

I glance behind me. Ryan is intertwined with Claudia Herman, the community college girl who plays Maria. Claudia’s hot. And she’s slept with our whole track team. I think of Susannah, mercifully out of town on a college visit.

My phone vibrates. Susannah again. This time it’s an actual text.

I clench my jaw and look away from Ryan and his latest fling, sworn to silence by the Guy Code of Honor.

Jeremy! guess what. i’m here! got n earlier flight

I peer out into night, then glance at Ryan again. Shit.

Claudia has one leg coiled around Ryan’s tall frame, like a boa constrictor. I fumble with my phone. Texting under pressure has never been my strong suit.

Heart pounding, I gulp in air and think of my water bottle, nestled in the glove compartment of my car. I can feel my lips pressed to its cool rim, imagining the warmth of its contents sliding down the back of my throat.

But no. I have to stay sharp. I’m sensible, I tell myself.
Sensible Jeremy Glass
.

Besides, there’s no time. Susannah emerges from the parking lot mist carrying a single red rose. A circuit flips on inside me; a familiar volt of current sizzles through my core like heat lightning. I stuff the phone in my pocket and try to position myself to block Ryan from view. My palms are slick. At first, I identify the heaviness behind my eyeballs as guilt. Only as Susannah pushes through the glass doors, droplets beaded on her hair like diamond chips, do I recognize the cold hollow thing that claws up into my throat for what it really is.

Shame.

Panic cramps my insides. The water bottle beckons.

“Jeremy!” Susannah hugs me, smelling of rain and vanilla. She flashes a smile, her clear eyes bright, but at the temples her deep golden skin is almost transparent, stretched just a bit too tight. And her raincoat hangs loose. “I thought I should be here for the big night, so I booked an earlier flight,” she says. “Surprised?”

“A little. I know Ryan certainly will be.” I’m buzzing like I’ve just downed a fifth of Absolut, the damp ache inside me incinerated to ash. The idiotic smile still frozen on my face, I notice a scarlet string around her wrist. Buying time, I ask, “What’s that?”

Susannah shrugs her bronze curls behind her shoulders. She takes a step closer and tilts her head toward me in a way that causes a shudder to run up my legs.

“It’s a souvenir from the Kabbalah fair I stumbled onto this weekend. Can you believe it?” She gazes at me as if this bit of information should hold some significance. We are both part Jewish, at least in lineage, though Susannah has always been more into the occult. I keep the Magic 8 Ball she gave me for my fifteenth birthday in a place of honor with the first track medal I won. For me, her fascination with the spiritual realm has always added to her mystique and made me want her all the more. “Oh, the trendy spiritual stuff,” I say, stalling for time. “Isn’t Madonna into that?”

Susannah narrows her eyes. My heart stutters. The way she looks at me sometimes, I wonder if she sees through the placid mask I’ve worn all these years. With my hands-on experience, I figure I’m probably a more accomplished actor than Ryan is by now, so I should be able to hide how I really feel.

But Susannah smiles, roots around in her giant handbag, and hands me a pen with a clear top and a little floating carousel horse inside. “Since you made such a stink about Rhode Island having the oldest carousel still in use in America.”

“The Flying Horse Carousel. Wow. Thanks, Suze.” I pocket the pen and wipe the dampness from my palms. “I love it.” I don’t mention that I will probably rearrange my shelves to find a special place for it among the historic relics, personal and otherwise, I collect the way birds gather twigs. My shelves are crammed with artifacts people bring me from their travels: old baseballs, gravestone rubbings, arrowheads, even chunks of brick from buildings where significant events took place.

You don’t have to worry about what’s going to happen with history.

Because it already happened.

Then it dawns on me. I’d been so wrapped up in the details I’d missed the main point. “What happened with your portfolio review at Rhode Island School of Design, Suze? Isn’t that why you went in the first place?”

Susannah looks away. “I can’t afford that place.”

“Can you say
scholarship
? Your art is amazing,” I offer, avoiding mention of her strange but genius animations.

“With my grades?” She smiles and meets my gaze, emotions I can’t read flickering in her green eyes. Her smile falls away. “Besides. I’d never fit in there.”

I reach for her hand. “I thought you said your filthy rich half-brother was going to pay. Suze, you can’t just—” I start to say. Until I remember what’s happening right now, about twenty feet behind us. I’m afraid to look.

“I never went to the interview,” she mutters, sniffing the rose.

“Are you kidding?”

Susannah scans the crowd for Ryan. For the past two years, RISD was all Susannah talked about. She’d trudge every weekend to that portfolio class in the city, just to get ready for it.

“So was he awesome?” she asks brightly.

I swallow hard and try to answer, but my mouth is dry as pavement. Even though it’s ripping my insides apart, I’m still covering for Ryan.

“Bet you were great on the lights, Jeremy,” Susannah adds quickly. She cranes her neck, trying to spot Ryan in the crowd. “So where is he?”

Heart pounding, my mind hiccups through its storehouse of facts. I reposition myself to block her view. There’s no time to try texting Ryan a warning.

I could tell Susannah. Tell her how Ryan has been sneaking around behind her back for over a year, even hooking up with two college juniors in a motel room during one of our out-of-town meets. But defying the Morgan machine by pointing this out would take too much energy. Instead I blurt, “Did you know the Flying Horse Carousel in Watch Hill was once part of a traveling carnival?”

She laughs and shakes her head. “What? Jeremy, sometimes you can be such a—”

But her voice trails off as her gaze wanders past mine, her smile crumpling like a paper bag. I follow her line of sight and I know this is it. The crowd has thinned around Ryan, enough for her to see him with his mouth smashed against Claudia’s.

“Oh, man,” I gasp. I turn to comfort Susannah, but she is already gone.

I stand, dithering, wanting to run after her and apologize for letting her walk into this ambush.

But, no. This is something Ryan needs to take care of. I might have signed on to sweep his mess under the rug, but I’ll be damned if I’m going to clean up after him. I push through the crowd to get to him.

“What? She
what
? Did you know she was coming back early?”

I feel my face heat. “No.”

Ryan pushes a pouting Claudia off him, his stage makeup still glistening and thick, traces of Claudia’s lipstick smeared on his lips. “Good job, Jeremy. You could have at least texted me.”

My hand curls into a fist. I stuff it in my jacket pocket. “She ran out,” I say. “Maybe you can catch her.”

Ryan shrugs, and without a coat, stalks out of the theater into the night. I wait a few minutes, then follow. Susannah’s car is gone, and so is Ryan’s. I try to call Susannah, but she doesn’t pick up.

I get in my car and focus on resisting the water bottle’s siren call, panicked glimpses of my waking nightmare crashing through the floodgates, the terrifying memories swept through with it. The rain and the torrents of water sweeping past, draining into the Gorge, forcing me to remember. To relive it. No. Not
now
. I need to stay clear.