Bride of Death (Marla Mason) (34 page)

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By the time you read this I’ll be gone. Squat and I are hitting the road. Yeah, I brought him over to my side. First I just told him some of this shit you’ve done – the deaths you’ve caused, your ruthless political moves, how you snapped the neck of your last lover, how you caused the death of some of your closest friends, how even your old friend Dr. Husch wanted to murder you – I just told him what an asshole you are, basically.

I hardly even had to lie! Of course I did lie, also, because, why not? Once I had Squat basically on my side I got him to sneak around and spy a bit and, whaddya know, he found your stupid little journal. He was really worried about getting caught, so he read just far enough to find out I was right about you being a goddess, and about your month-on, month-off arrangement. (I wish I’d had time to read the whole thing. I bet it’s full of laughs.)

But Squat also read some of that shit about you trying to be a better person, blah blah blah, and I had to explain the concept of an “unreliable narrator” to him, to convince him you were really a total shit. He was resistant, though, leaning toward thinking you were maybe sort of okay, so then I told Squat something great: I explained how, because you’re a goddess, you could
totally
cure him of his curse if you wanted to, but that you preferred to use him for his muscle, and because it’s handy to have immortal cannon fodder around. (Was that even a lie? I mean, you are a goddess. People pray to goddesses for intercession and the healing of wounds. I know you’re a death goddess, not one of the traditional caring professions, but shit, power is power, right?) He hates you
so much
right now. Before you just kind of scared him, especially after the shit he saw you do in Moros, but now it’s pure hate. Funny, huh? A guy who’s cursed so no one can stand to be around him can’t stand to be around
you
.

Then I told Squat that, as a one-time disciple of the witch who cursed him, maybe
I
could cure him, if he helped me get my power back. And shut up, I
did
work with Elsie Jarrow for a while there, she taught me a lot – we bonded. The fact that she cut off my head doesn’t mean she didn’t
like
me. She was a chaos witch – we do crazy shit sometimes. I told Squat that if he got me out of here, preferably while you were off on your little field trip, I’d devote my energies to making him an ordinary human again.

I could probably do it, too, but fuck that – he’s immortal and as strong as a dump truck full of orangutans! I bet I can string him along for years.

He stole me a few charms from your bag, little things, stuff you’d hardly miss – and I ate them. I can’t eat
food
, and to sate the thing I have in place of hunger I need disorder and disaster, but I
can
absorb magic. Having no hands means I can’t do every spell I used to, and enchanting is a bit beyond me, but there are plenty of incantations I can still manage. I’ve been pretending to be a lot more helpless than I am. (Of course, you’re so self-absorbed, I probably didn’t need to bother with pretense.)

I bet you’re wondering what I’m going to do, with this month of free play I’ve got while you’re in the depths. There are so many possibilities, especially with Squat by my side. Maybe I’ll reunite the Marla Mason Revenge Squad – you left one or two of them alive, yeah? Or maybe I’ll find a way to destroy something you love. Or maybe I’ll do some serious research into how you kill gods – there’s gotta be a way, right?

You never respected me as an adversary. You probably think, now that you’re a goddess, you’re even
more
out of my league. But you’ll see. If you think being a deity makes you hot shit, you’re only half right, and it’s not the “hot” part.

Now, I know what you’re thinking. You’re thinking, “Dumb ol’ Nicolette, she’s missed the obvious thing – I gave her life, and I can take it away.”

And sure. You
could
just withdraw my immortality, and maybe you’ll do that – but maybe you should take a look at what I did during your month underground, first. I’ve got some plans that might make you hesitate to get rid of me. A month is a lot of time – time enough to make the consequences of you killing me even more awful than the legitimately super-awful consequences of keeping me around.

But you’ve never been sensible, and maybe you’ll kill me anyway, even if I do arrange it so my death will wreak all kinds of havoc. I’ll just have to live with the uncertainty. Hey, hurray! Uncertainty just makes me stronger. Worst case, I get a month to sow horror and discord to make your precious vacation from being a
goddess
into a total shit-pit of misery. A little welcome-home present for you.

Either way, Marla, it’s been fun. I’ll miss smelling your farts while I’m stuck on the back of your ugly-ass motorcycle. Until next we meet, screw you and the pale horse you rode in on.

See you next month, your goddessness.

Thugs and pisses,

Nicolette

ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

I have a lot of people to thank for this one. My wife Heather Shaw, of course, is first, for her tremendous support in helping me find the time (between parenting and a full-time job) to write this book. Thanks to Lindsey Look for painting the stunning cover, to Zack Stella for drawing the kickass interiors, and to Jenn Reese of Tiger Bright Studios for the cover design. John Teehan of Merry Blacksmith Press has agreed, once again, to produce the trade paperback print version. My gratitude to Elektra Hammond for her excellent copyediting, and to Besha Grey for catching assorted errors in the text. Many of my friends and longtime readers spread the word about this novel, for which I’m eternally grateful.

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Table of Contents

Title Page

Dear Me

The Context Problem

The Cult of the Bride of Death