Burning Desires (Blue Bandits MC Book 4) (36 page)

Red Devils Series

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Book 2: Tiny and Racheal’s story

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Catching Trick

Book 3: Trick and Katie’s story

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Tank’s Redemption

Book 4: Tank and Annie’s story

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Finding Charity

Book 5: Tick and Charity’s story

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Saving Mia

Book 6: Ratchet and Mia’s story

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Becoming Raven’s Man

Book 7: Travis and Raven’s story

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Security Seals series

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Book 1: Craig and Laney’s story

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Uncovering Her Secrets

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Protecting Her Heart

Book 3: Luke and Evie’s story

Coming Late April 2016

Works by C. Shivers and Stacy L. Mantlo

Gunner

              Chapter One

Indie

Driving through the small town of High Springs, Florida, I instantly adore all the quaint shops and the smiling people strolling down the sidewalks.  I’m already beginning to relax, relieved with my decision to get away from my old life and find a new beginning. Just like any fresh start, it’s bittersweet; I’m already missing the three people in my life I love most, but I had to do what was right for me.

Just thinking about my decision to uproot my life and start it over in a new place kicks the drama back on replay in my mind.  Even six months later, I’m still in disbelief that Quintin was cheating the whole dang three years we were together.  And he was with Dixie, my so- called friend to boot. To find out on my wedding day was totally humiliating and devastating.  Being told would have been cruel enough, but to walk in on it, to see it happening with my own eyes was like having it branded onto my brain. Yeah, I was so blind, such a trusting moron. I mean, how could I have been so clueless? I thought I’d surprise Quintin as I waltzed in the door, assuming I’d be finding an anxious, excited groom. Well, the surprise was on me when instead I found him with his pants down around his ankles, pounding into Dixie, who was bent over the chair, barking like a bitch in heat.  Yes, barking.

I guess it was bridal jitters that kept from noticing she wasn’t in the room with me while I was getting ready. I wonder when she slipped out? But once I found them, all I could do was stand there, anchored to the spot and unable to speak. I was too shocked to make myself turn and run like I wanted to do.  It was that precise moment that all the lies came rushing in like a tsunami, all the stories that he told that didn’t quite fit or make perfect sense flashed before me like a highlight reel. I knew in that moment that the last three years of my life were nothing more than a lie. I’m still so angry at myself for being so gullible, so trusting. Quintin Johnson is nothing but a big damn asshole, cheating fraud who shattered my heart and soul.

Then just a few months after my discovery of finding out what a douche bag of an ex I have.  I lose two important people in my life and only two days apart, both my grandparents. First my Grandfather then my Grandmother. They were so good to me. I wish now that I had bit the financial bullet and went to see them one last time. It was just such an expensive trip going all the way to Alaska; but I sure regret it now. I remember my dad would send them videos of me when I was in school plays and other actives growing up. They loved it. Gosh,  I miss our weekly chats.  My dad is the best.  He tried so hard to stand in for them. I know he was trying to ease my pain of losing them. My dad should win an award for best dad. I—Stop!

I shake my head against the torrent of memories.

I have my head above the water instead of allowing myself to be drowned. I’ve been through agony and shock and was settling down into a paralyzed state of emotional numbness. I might have stayed there, shut down and incapable, if the bastard had not turned around a week later and married Dixie at the court house. I mean, what the hell is that about? Stupid girl—if she believes he won’t do to her what he did to me, she has another thing coming. But that’s what got me moving. You know, maybe they both have that revolting fetish.  Honestly, I’m relieved to be rid of him because of it. He would get furious every single time I refused him. He was my first lover and I wanted to make him happy so bad, but there’s a difference between wanting to please your man and feeling like a damn fool.

At least I don’t have to deal with him constantly begging me to do that during sex anymore, not that we had sex very often. I giggle at the thought of when I told Whitney about Quintin’s little, um…preference.  It took her ten minutes to stop laughing. Then, she informed me that it is most definitely not normal behavior and to run for my freaking life.  I should have listened. Thank goodness she told me that, because I was  beginning to worry there was something wrong with me. Of course, now I realize that’s exactly what that scum bucket wanted me to believe. I was an inexperienced virgin, totally blinded by love, and Quintin took complete advantage of my ignorance. Well, I don’t plan to let any other man trash the little bit of heart and soul that I have left. It’s mine and I plan to keep it that way. Plus, I hope his microscopic dick falls off. I chuckle to myself at that thought.

Thankfully, I can find a little smidge of humor in the situation now.  Whitney and Alayna both marched into the room, took stock of what was going on, and then acted on it. Basically, I remained paralyzed, in my beautiful white wedding gown, weeping while  I watched my two best friends beat Quintin and Dixie’s cheating asses.

Alayna lunged at Quintin, snatching him back off Dixie. Whitney kicked him in the balls so hard even I  flinched. Whitney clutched Dixie by the hair and used her face as a punching bag. If I recall, some of the wedding party had to aid Dixie out of the church. I didn’t care--I was totally humiliated, but what Alayna and Whitney did let me know that I still had two of the best friends a girl could ever ask for.

So, after my non-wedding gave my hometown the Story of the Century, I packed up all my belongings, and six months later, here I am in High Springs about to turn down the driveway of my new home. Well, it’s not my house yet. I’m renting it for a while, although Beth, my real estate agent, said the owner, Mr. Stokes or something like that, would be agreeable to sale if the bid was right. He is supposed to stop by in a few days to meet me in person, and Beth said he’s a really nice guy. I’m glad he left the key under the potted plant by the door for me. I already know I want to buy this house. I fell in love at the first picture.  For some  reason, when I spotted this house I had a deja vu moment, and it felt as if this house was built for me.  Crazy as it may seem, just the pictures of the house bathed me and soothed my heart, so naturally I had to have it.

As I drive down the dirt drive, I see it’s lined with huge mossy oak trees on each side, the tops of the trees forming a canopy. Gosh, it’s similar to something out of
Gone with the Wind
, and even nicer than the pictures that Beth showed me.  Once I reach the end of the drive I gasp as the yard opens up to an old white farm house trimmed in black with massive oaks and pecan trees surrounding it. I’m so going to make pecan pie.  I love old dwellings and granddaddy oak trees—I’m in heaven here.
Even if it requires some work, hopefully I can do it myself, once the sale goes through.  How hard can it be? I’ve got my good buddy Google.  Hopefully anything I can’t do, I’ll be able to make an arrangement with the owner, one where he can fix it or have it fixed and maybe add it into the sale of the house, or something in that order.  Hmmm…this could work.

Have mercy, this place is pure charm! Exactly what I’ve always wanted. There is a massive claw foot tub in the master bath. After working all day on my feet, that tub will be beckoning me. The kitchen has only been minimally updated and I was told everything still works impeccably. Someone really loved this house to have taken such excellent care of it. For the first time since the morning of my non-wedding, I’m practically fizzing with excitement.

As I continue to unload my car, I say a silent thank you to the good Lord above that my eight-hour trip went smoothly and the movers beat me here and placed all my furniture inside.   Once I get settled in, I’ve allowed myself a few months’ time to find a job. I’ve always been a saver, and since my dad threatened to tear Quintin into little bitty pieces if he didn’t give me back every single penny of the honeymoon I’d already paid for, I have a nice financial cushion to tide me over.  My shoulders  finally start relaxing for the first time in I don’t even remember when and it’s fab-u-lous. 

Unloaded and grimy, I sit down on the porch steps and call Dad so he knows I made it here safely. I can tell by his voice that he’s all gloomy that I’ve left. Bless his heart. He’s raised me single-handedly since the day I was born, even when my mom was around. Mom couldn’t be bothered by anything other than booze. I recall back when I was seven: Mom had thrown up in her bedroom and all over the bathroom floor. Dad was still at work, which is when she needed her “medicine” the most.. I can still hear her slurring words,
“If I didn’t have you, then I wouldn’t need this medicine. You make me sick, Indie. Now go clean that mess up. It’s your fault, so you have to clean it up. Make yourself useful, you little brat.”
Dad came home earlier that day to find me scrubbing vomit out of the carpet while Mom was drunk off her butt, cursing and yelling at me from her bed.  They had a huge fight, and the next day when I woke up, she was gone. From that moment on, I was Dad’s life. He never, not one time in twenty - six years brought home a woman for me to meet. He would tell me that being my daddy was all he needed, but I understood he was lonely for a woman’s companionship. I love him so much—he’s still my hero. Sometimes, I wonder if he still loves my mom and that’s the reason why he truly never moved on, which makes me hate her even more.

My stomach growls, luring me from my thoughts, so I decide to head out to the grocery.  I’ve no desire to go anywhere after being trapped in the car for so long, but a woman has to eat and I do love to eat.  I even have the Buddha belly to prove it.  It’s times like these I wish I could just say, “Honey, will you run to the store for me?” There’s no chance of that happening. It’s not like Quintin would’ve ever done me any favors anyway. If it wasn’t something he could order online, then he couldn’t be bothered. At least I don’t have to buy as much since it’s just little ole me. Sometimes I wonder—besides my dad, are there even any good men out there? Probably not. I’d rather go get my own groceries than bark for some cheating sicko. That thought makes me grin.

Arriving at the store, I begin gathering enough groceries to last a few days at best. I plan on coming back later when I’ve compiled a big ole list of it all. Plus, I would like a few coupons to go with my long list!  As I turn the corner heading to the cashier, I’m tallying everything in my cart, not paying attention when bam! I crash into someone else’s buggy.  Crap!

Picking up my purse off the floor, I gasp and reach out toward whoever I hit. “Oh my goodness, I’m sorry! This is totally my fault. I wasn’t paying attention to where I was going. Did I hurt you? Are you okay?”

My eyes were on the stranger’s feet, shod in big brown cowboy boots.  My eyes follow the line up his body, I notice how solid and well defined it is.  It appears he works out daily. He has on nice tight old worn out jeans and a red tight t-shirt that hugs his muscled chest and arms.  Have mercy, he looks a lot like Channing Tatum. Except hotter. Which is hotter than freaking hot.

I may have given up men, but I imagine I would sit up in my grave and take notice if this man walked by. This man would make a nun say Hail Mary’s for the rest of her freakin’ life at the naughty thoughts of what this man and his hotter – than - sin body, not to mention his big strong hands, could do to a woman. You know what they say about a man’s hands? - For crying out loud, Indie, get your mind out of the gutter! I internally chastise myself.

When my head tips completely back, I’m lost in the greenest eyes I’ve ever seen. Lordy, I was right--he could be Channing Tatum’s better looking twin.  Of course, now my chatty apology is gone and I’m a speechless idiot. This gorgeous man tips his worn out cowboy hat and gives me a panty-dropping smile with a wink. Have mercy, I can’t breathe.

“No need to apologize. - Angel, are you okay there? You appear a little faint.” He steps toward me as if he is ready to catch me if I fall back. There’s a small voice in my head that says fall or faint, you dim-wit! Do something!  Make this man hold you! If I had my senses about me, I would have laughed at my own thoughts, but clearly, my senses have left the building and been replaced with nothing but naughty thoughts.

Dizziness engulfs me as I notice sweat build across my forehead and the back of my legs.  I glance up and nod my head,  but all I can manage is to whisper, “Uhhhh, umm, yes I’m fine, umm just need to eat, I’ve had a busy day.”  I give a little giggle while swiping back some hair that has come loose from my messy ponytail. He tilts his head to the side like he’s trying to figure me out. Well, good luck with that, buddy. I can’t figure out what’s going on with me right now either.