Read Burning for Revenge Online
Authors: John Marsden
Houghton Mifflin Company
Boston
Many thanks to Charlotte and Rick Lindsay, Rachel
Angus, Mary Edmonston ("Miss Ed"), Paul Kenny,
Catherine Proctor, and Helen Kent.
Copyright © 1997 by John Marsden
First published in 1997 by Pan Macmillan Australia Pty Limited,
St Martins Tower, 31 Market Street, Sydney
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The text of this book is set in 12-point Transitional 521 BT.
Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data
Marsden, John.
Burning for revenge / John Marsden.
p. cm.
Sequel to: Darkness, be my friend.
Summary: Having been separated from the New Zealand rescue troops
they were guiding, five Australian teenagers continue their resistance
against the unknown enemy invading their homeland.
ISBN 0-395-96054-1
[1. SurvivalâFiction. 2. WarâFiction. 3. AustraliaâFiction.]
I. Title.
PZ7.M53147Bu 2000
[Fic]âdc21 98-51986 CIP AC
Printed in the United States of America
RRD 10 9 8 7 6 5
An Aussie GlossaryTo my sister Louise Marsden, with much love
abattoir:
slaughterhouse
Aga:
wood stove
(on the) backfoot:
in a defensive position
batts:
insulation material
biro:
ballpoint pen
bitumen:
asphalt, tar
blowie:
blowfly
bugger:
something difficult or unpleasant
bush:
uncleared Australian countryside
CBD:
Central Business District
cactus:
doomed
Cazaly:
an Australian footballer famous for his high leaps
chewy:
gum
chipping burrs:
cutting out prickly weeds
chook:
chicken
cockies:
farmers
crack onto:
to make a sexual advance toward someone
crash hot:
pretty good
dags:
wool around a sheep's anus
daks:
trousers
dogleg:
a bend in the shape of a dog's leg
dubbin:
leather preservative
dunny:
toilet
echidna:
small Australian mammal
Esky:
insulated container, cooler
Fergie:
brand of tractor
fibro:
type of building material
footy:
Australian rules football
fortnight:
two-week period
gantry:
crane
goss:
conversation
graziers:
farmers who have sheep or cattle
(on our) hammer:
close behind
hectare:
an area equaling 100 acres
hessian:
coarse material
Humphreys:
dolls named after Australian TV character
jemmy-shaped:
curved at each end
jumper:
sweater
k:
kilometre
Kiwis:
New Zealanders
(rate of) knots:
going very fast
milkbar:
small corner store, mini-mart
mortein:
fly spray
one-tonner:
small tray-top truck
Panadol:
brand of pain reliever
pile driver:
machine that rams posts into the ground
possies:
positions
pull-throughs:
cords for cleaning rifles
queue:
line
rabbiting:
gabbing
rack (off):
"go away" (said with anger)
rapt:
delighted
removalist:
mover
rissoles:
meat patties
rocket:
greens used in salad
scroggin:
nuts and cereal mixture, gorp
shires:
counties
slab:
case of beer
slag:
spit
sledgie:
sledgehammer
synchromesh:
system which facilitates gear-changing in vehicles
Tassie:
Tasmanian
tip:
dump
torch:
flashlight
uni:
university
ute:
utility vehicle
wasted:
not appreciated
whingeing:
whining
willy-willy:
dust storm
wombat:
small Australian mammal
wrigglers:
mosquitoes at their larval stage
yabbying:
fishing for crayfish
The summer storms are the wildest. Maybe that's because they're so unexpected. But they can really rip a place apart. It's like the sky saves it all up, then lets it go in one huge blast. The air shakes. There's nothing soft or gentle about the rain: it pours down, a huge heavy torrent that wets you to the skin in half a minute. The thunder's so close and loud you feel it all around you, like a landslide or an avalanche. And sometimes there's hail.
Before the war, I found summer storms exciting. I enjoyed the noise and the violence and the out-of-control wildness, even though I knew there'd be problems afterwards. Trees blown down or struck by lightning, fresh-shorn sheep getting dangerously cold, creeks flooding.
Occasionally the problems came during the storms. One time I had to go out in massive rain to move a small mob of ewes, because a falling tree brought down their fence and the rams were getting horny. I started moving the mob but Millie, the dog, got a bit excited and when one sheep went the wrong way she chased it straight into the creek. The creek was running at a million k's an hour, about to break its banks. The water was just beginning to lap over on both sides. The ewe and the dog, both paddling like mad, got swept away. I ran along the bank, trying to find a spot where I could jump in and pull them out. To be honest, I didn't think they had much hope. But a kilometre down the paddock they were washed up on a gravel spit. The ewe staggered out, half-drowned. Millie staggered out, half-drowned too. She didn't hesitate. She went straight after that sheep again, chasing it back to the mob.
Poor sheep. There are times when I feel quite sorry for sheep.
Another time we were out at the Mackenzies' when a big storm hit. We got home to find a sheet of galvanised iron had come loose on the shearing shed. It was flapping in the wind with a sound I've never forgotten. Like it wanted to beat itself to deathâa frantic, desperate, wild noise. When I got up on the ladder, I could see the iron tearing centimetre by centimetre: solid indestructible metal being ripped apart by the wind. It was quite scary trying to hammer down this crazed, thrashing thing in the dark.
Here, in this place I've learned to call home, a summer storm is dramatic. In the Bible it says Hell is a place of heat and fire. This is officially called Hellâthat's the name on the mapsâand it does get hot in summer. But when a storm drops on top of us, it's hypothermia country and the temperature can fall fifteen degrees in half an hour.
Of course if life had gone the way it was meant I wouldn't be sitting in a little tent in Hell, watching the fabric stretch and pull, watching the rain chuck a tantrum against the fly, listening to the screech of another branch ripping and falling, and trying to keep writing this record of our lives.
I would have been sitting in our snug cabin in New Zealand, eating pizza and reading
Pride and Prejudice
or
The Horse's Mouth
for the fourth time. Better still, I would have been back at my real home, checking the water troughs in the paddocks or yabbying in a dam or cutting the poor breeders out of a mob of cattle, to send to market.
Well none of those things would happen for a while yet. They might never happen again. I just had to accept that, but it didn't stop me playing the old useless game of "if only."
If only our country hadn't been invaded.
If only we could have carried on the way we used to, watching other people's wars on television.
If only we'd been better prepared, and thought more about this stuff.
Then later, when we'd got ourselves out of the battle zone, if only we hadn't agreed to come back and continue the fight, to help the Kiwi soldiers in their failed attempt at the airbase.
Well, we didn't really have much choice about coming backâColonel Finley put so much pressure on us.
And we put pressure on ourselves.
That was another "if only." I suppose we would have felt guilty if we hadn't come back. Besides, we had such high hopes of meeting up with our parents again. If only we could have all been as lucky as Fi. She at least got to see her parents for half an hour.
I was still burning about Colonel Finley. The helicopter he was meant to send. The helicopter he'd promised us. The way he more or less abandoned us after his Kiwi troops went missing. The way that when we called up and asked for the chopper, suddenly they were too busy. For a dozen crack New Zealand troops we knew there'd have been no problem. But for us, there was a major problem.
The joke was that we'd achieved more with our rough-and-ready tactics, our homemade bombs and make-it-up-as-you-go approach than just about any professional soldiers could have done. We thought so anyway, and when we were in New Zealand enough people were ready to tell us that. Only now that we were back here, trapped in lonely wild Hell, they seemed happy to forget us.
If only the chopper had turned up and whisked us back to safety. I wanted it to be like a taxi: just dial the number. Where are you going? How many passengers? What name? We'll have it there in no time, love, no worries.
It was hard not to be bitter. We felt like Colonel Finley had dumped us. We talked about it nonstop for a week, till we got sick of it as a topic for conversation, and agreed not to talk about it any more. That was the only way we could stop it poisoning us.
After we'd finished our week or so of sulking we started getting restless. Lee was the worst. Since he found out about the death of his parents he was burning for action. When I say action I don't necessarily mean revenge, although he sure was keen on that. But I think he could have been distracted from thoughts of revenge if there'd been other things to think about, other things to do.
There was nothing. We'd built a few odds and ends in Hellâthe chook shed mainlyâbut we couldn't build anything else because it was too dangerous. There was such a risk of being seen from the air or even from the top of Tailor's Stitch, the ridge that wound far above us, the west wall of our hideout. Lee didn't seem interested in reading the few books we'd brought, he didn't have his precious music with him and he wasn't in the mood for talking. All he had were his thoughts. He sat alone for hours every day and wouldn't even tell me what he was thinking.
Homer and Kevin weren't any better. One afternoon they spent four hours trying to hit a tree trunk with pebbles. They sat on the bank of the creek and chucked stones at the tree until they ran out of ammo, then they went over and picked up the pebbles and started again. By the end of the afternoon Homer had hit it six times and Kevin three. Fair enough, it was fifty metres away, but I thought they could have done better. I thought I could have done better. That wasn't what bothered me though. It was their mood. They seemed so flat, so uninterested. I nearly suggested going out and attacking the enemy again, just to get them motivated.
As it happened I didn't need to suggest that. Almost at the same moment as I thought itâwell, less than half an hour laterâLee suddenly turned to me and said: "I'm leaving here, going to Wirrawee or somewhere. Cobbler's Bay maybe. Stratton even. I'm not going to spend the rest of the war sitting around waiting to be rescued. I want to do as much damage as I can."
My breath went. I knew I couldn't stop him. In some ways I didn't want to stop him. In other ways I did. I was deeply in like with Lee. Maybe even love. I wasn't sure about that. Sometimes it definitely felt like love. Other times I didn't want anything to do with him. When it came to Lee, I felt the full range of emotions, from wild passion to revulsion. On the average I think I was in like with him.
But it wasn't just Lee that I wasn't sure about; it was everything. Maybe it's just a teenage thing, not being sure about stuff. I wasn't sure if there was a God, if there was life after death. I wasn't sure if I'd ever see my parents again, if Lee and I should have made love, if we'd been acting the right way since the invasion, if the sun would rise in the morning or set at night. I wasn't sure if I liked eggs hard-boiled or soft.
So Lee saying calmly and strongly that he was going out to continue the fightâhow could I tell him he was doing the wrong thing? I was less sure about that than I was about the sun rising.
We were sitting quite a way up the track, on the last flat bit, at the point where it started to climb to Wombegonoo. For a long time neither of us spoke. I knew what a big statement he'd made. I knew we were approaching the end of our short rest. We both knew we might be approaching the end of our short lives. Death might be sneaking up on both of us right now. Because I knew, of course, that I couldn't let Lee go out there on his own.
I think we both felt that none of us, none of our group of five, would let Lee go alone. In a way I should have resented him putting us under this kind of pressure, not giving me or the others a real choice. He'd done it to us before and I hadn't liked it. I didn't like anyone putting me under pressure, telling me what to do, making decisions for me. I remember going off my head when Homer announced we were coming back from New Zealand in the first place. If it was different this time, perhaps it was because I knew things were getting too desperate; the war was at such a critical stage and our help was needed like never before. We simply couldn't lounge around having long rests between gigs.