Campbell's Reaper: Soul Reapers #2 (22 page)

“
Fuck,
”
she screamed.
“
I
fucking hate this!
”

“
You . . . you fucking hate
this,
”
I yelled back, pointing
from me to her.
“
Then fucking leave!
”

“
I don
’
t
want to leave,
”
she
cried.
“
Can
’
t
you see that?
”

“
I can
’
t
fucking see anything anymore. It
’
s
fucking darkness and hate and anger all the fucking time.
”
I staggered as I started to
walk out of the bathroom. I turned to look at her one last time, because even
in my drunken stupor I knew what I was about to say would chase her from my
room, my life forever.
“
You were my light but now .
. . I can
’
t even see that anymore.
”
Her wails followed me into
the room as I nosedived right into the bed. After a moment or two of her
sobbing, I prayed for the darkness to claim me. And for once God listened!

CHAPTER
NINETEEN

Campbell

“
Shhhhh, it
’
s
going to be okay,
”
Logan whispered. Another wail tore from my
lips. My whole body shook as I felt my heart crumbling into a million pieces.
My chest heaved as I sobbed.
“
Cam, honey, please calm
down.
”
Logan rubbed circles on my
back.

“
I
’
m
going to fucking kill him.
”
I could hear Colt pacing back and forth at
the foot of the bed. I had run straight from Tank
’
s
room into Logan
’
s arms. She brought me to
Colt
’
s
room where he eventually found us. The anger rolled off him like waves as he
roamed the room like a caged beast.
“
How
could he fucking do this? God damn it.
”

“
Cam, tell me what happened.
”

“
I don
’
t
want to talk about it.
”
I hiccupped air between each word.
“
I
just want to forget about all of it,
”
I cried. I sat up to look
at Logan.
“
I need to get away from here.
”

“
Cam. Don
’
t
run away. It won
’
t solve . . .
”
I cut her off. 
“
It
’
s
not running Logan. It
’
s moving on. Tank doesn
’
t
want me. He made it quite clear tonight between Tricia and what he said in the
room.
”

“
We can
’
t
just leave,
”
replied
Cam.

“
Shit, you aren
’
t
going anywhere.
”
Colt stood at the foot of the bed with his
arms crossed, looking like he could take on the entire Hellhounds MC.
“
So
don
’
t
even start talking like you are.
”

“
Colt, can you please get
Cam a glass of water from the kitchen?
”
My sister asked too
sweetly.

“
Hell no,
”
responded Colt.
“
You
two are not cooking up anything while I am gone.
”

“
I would never take her away
from you Colt.
”
My
words hung in the air as I looked from Colt to Logan. They continued to stare
at each other having a conversation without words. With a nod, Colt turned and
left the room.

“
So you are just going to
leave me?
”
Logan
was staring intently at me. I stood, the anxiousness making me feel like the
beast in a cage.

“
I can
’
t
stay . . . here . . . with him. My head is all over the place. I listened to my
gut and it was wrong . . . dead wrong.  I just need some time and a little
space to reset everything.
”

“
Where are you going to go?
”

“
With Baxter.
”

“
What? I don
’
t
even know if that is possible.
”

“
It has to be. Colt can make
him disappear and I could disappear with him. I could do it because I know you
would be safe here with Colt. The Hellhounds will never find us and once Baxter
is on his feet we could go our separate ways.
”

“
Cam, do you hear yourself?
You can
’
t
even stand da . . . Baxter. I was your buffer. How do you think this will work?
And do you really think Baxter will stay away from the life he leads? It is
just a matter of time.
”

“
I will be long gone by
then. Just a month or so to make sure he is okay.
”
My eyes bore into hers.
“
I
can
’
t
stay here Logan.
”
Her eyes filled with tears as she stared
back.
“
One
thing I did learn from Baxter was how to stay off the radar. I will do that
until you tell me this has blown over or up. Whichever happens first.
”
I laughed but it held no
humor.

“
Are you sure?
”

“
Never been more sure in my
life.
”

“
I hate that you are running
away from this. If you stay and talk to Tank, maybe he will . . .
”
I held up my hand.

“
Please stop,
”
I begged.
“
I
have been trying since the day I met him and every time he lets me in for a
split second he pushes me away. Each push is getting harder and harder to the
point where I don
’
t think I want back in. I
can
’
t
keep doing this to myself. I see what you and Colt have and I want that.
Something easy and open, but Tank obviously doesn
’
t.
He doesn
’
t
want anyone too close.
”

“
But Colt says you are
closer than anyone has ever gotten to Tank.
”

“
It
’
s
not enough for me anymore. I kept telling myself that once I was 18, everything
would be different, and it was for about an hour that we made love and then he
pushed me away again. Only this time it was out the door and I don
’
t
think I want to try to get back in.
”

“
But . . .
”

“
Please Logan. I
’
m
done.
”

“
I don
’
t
want you to leave. I
’
m being selfish I know, but
I don
’
t
remember a time I was ever without you. What am I going to do?
”
Logan looked lost as she
explained what she was feeling.

“
You have Colt now. Put all
the effort you did into raising me into him and you two will never be alone again.
He loves you Logan.
”

“
And Tank loves you Cam.
”

“
I thought so too but after
today, I don
’
t know. I think he loves the idea of someone
being there but doesn
’
t like what it takes to
keep the person there. Or at least this person there by his side.
”

“
I
’
m sorry
Cam.
”

“
Don
’
t
be sorry. My first heartbreak. Something for the record books right?
”
I gave Logan a small smile.

“
You are a lot stronger than
you look little sis.
”
Logan hugged me tight then led me towards
the door.
“
Come on. Let
’
s
see what Colt thinks of the plan we cooked up.
”

Tank

“
Wake up.
”
What the hell? My mouth
tasted like ass. Pain pierced through my skull as I rolled over. I cracked my
eye lids; the little bit of light from the pulled curtain was blinding.

Someone yelled again.
“
TANK.
WAKE THE FUCK UP!
”

“
Go away,
”
I called out. The ruckus
needed to stop.

“
Fuck no. Open this damn
door before I kick it in.
”

“
Go away,
”
with a little more force
this time.

“
Brother. It
’
s
Cam.
”

I jumped out of bed and raced to the
door, throwing it open so fast the hinges squealed in protest.
“
What
about Sunshine?
”

Wham. I flinched just enough that
Colton
’
s
fist caught me in the side of the head instead of square on the nose.
“
What
the fuck Colton?
”
I pushed him away from me and into the wall
as I held him at bay. My movements were sluggish and uncoordinated, but enough
to get him pinned to the wall.

“
You piece of shit. How
could you do this?
”
Colton threw at me as he stared me down with
pure rage in his eyes.

“
What the fuck are you
talking about?

“
You and Cam. How could you?
”

“
Jesus Christ. Tell me
already.
”
I released him and stepped
back just enough that he could not get another swing in.

“
Cam and Logan are gone.
Trigger said Cam took all her shit with her.
”

“
What? No way. Her shit is
all . . . over . . .
”
I stopped talking as I looked around my room
and saw that not a thing was out of place. Since Sunshine moved into my room,
it was a constant mess of clothes, shoes, and whatever else Cam used at any
given time. But now it was spotless. Not a trace of Cam was in this room.
“
No,
”
I said under my breath as I
raked my hands through my hair.
“
No.
”
Louder this time. I
stumbled into my room and sat on my bed with my head in my hands.

“
Trigger said that Cam and
Logan were looking for Pop but found Whistler and he took them to Baxter. I had
no fucking idea. I went to get Cam some water and give Logan and her privacy to
talk. She was so fucking upset. The minute I was downstairs, everything
happened so fast. Someone called in a Hellhounds sighting right on the
outskirts of town and I left with Ax and Gunner. We did not find anything, and
by the time I got back the girls were gone. Logan texted me but I didn
’
t
have my fucking phone.
”

Just breathe motherfucker. Just
breathe.

This was what I wanted I told myself.
This was what I had planned to do since the motel.

“
We need to go NOW,
”
Colton stressed. I looked
up to find him staring at me from the doorway.
“
You
need to stop this fucking woe-is-me bullshit. None of that was your fault,
”
Colton assured me.
“
Your
mom and sister, everything that happened that night.
”