Authors: Sherryl Woods
“Don't you? I mean, what else could you think? I carried on about not going with you today and here I am. Doesn't that tell you anything about the courage of my convictions? I've never taken a risk in my life.”
“What about leaving your home and starting over in California?”
“That wasn't so much. It was just something I had to do.”
Blake shook his head impatiently. “Then let me tell you what I see. I see a woman who had the guts to tell off the president of the company she works for when she thought he was in the wrong. I see a woman who overcame her fear of ballooning and stuck with me. That's two mighty big risks in just the past couple of hours.”
She waved the praise aside with a dismissive gesture. “I gave in, though. That's the bottom line. When I refused to go, I should have stuck to it. I should have been more assertive.”
“Lady, if you'd been any more assertive, I'd have been out of this balloon headfirst. You were assertive enough. I just didn't want to take no for an answer.” He noticed that his comment brought one of those wonderful smiles to her lips, but it faded almost instantly and it never quite reached her eyes. There were still shadows of uncertainty lurking in the violet depths.
This time he almost gave in when temptation called. He stepped toward her, wanting to soothe her, to make her his. His arms were desperate to hold her and a white-hot heat spread through him. Then, abruptly and regretfully, he reminded himself of the need for caution, and stopped. It took every bit of his strength.
“I would like very much to kiss you, Audrey Nelson,” he said softly. His gaze measured her reaction, searched her eyes for the unspoken truth he knew she couldn't hide.
“But I won't if you don't want me to,” he promised. “Your choice.”
He stood and waited, his heart thundering in his chest, his pulse racing, and wondered what the hell he'd do, if she said no.
T
he word
no
formed on her lips, but Audrey couldn't quite get it out.
“You don't seem to be concentrating very hard on the race,” she said instead. “Didn't I just see Larry Hammond's balloon go past overhead?”
“I didn't notice,” he murmured, looking right straight into her eyes.
She swallowed nervously. Well, of course, he didn't. He very definitely had other things on his mind. For example, in addition to that disconcerting, unrelenting gaze that was turning her blood into molten honey, he was moving determinedly and provocatively toward her. Her breath caught in her throat and she began to understand what animals felt like when they were being stalked by deadly hunters. The urge to run swept over her again, followed by the panicky realization that there was no place to go.
She held out a resisting hand, but he slipped past it and drew her tightly against him, sighing at the contact. Their thighs were pressed together, his fingers a barely proper hairbreadth below her breast. Her pulse took off like a well-trained thoroughbred heading into the homestretch.
Blake might still be giving her a choice, but he clearly had no intention of making it easy for her to keep either physical or emotional distance between them.
I ought to be flattered, she thought. The man could have any woman he wanted and, for the moment anyway, he seemed to want her. But instead of feeling good that a man with Blake's limitless choices saw something special in her, she felt...overwhelmed. Again. It made her nervous.
If her own breathless reaction to their closeness was any indication, it was no wonder the race hadn't crossed his mind in quite a while. He hadn't even glanced away when she'd mentioned it. With that smoldering blue-eyed gaze of his fixed on her, she'd barely caught sight of the competing balloon. She'd discovered that looking up was far less terrifying than looking down and much less dangerous than meeting Blake's heated glances. Once Blake did notice it, though, he was probably going to be very upset. It was her duty, she decided, to get his attention away from her and back where it belonged.
She tried to wriggle loose.
“Where are you going?” he murmured, his embrace enfolding her more tightly.
“I don't want to distract you.”
“You'll distract me no matter where you are.”
Under almost any other circumstances that might have been nice to hear. Up here at two thousand feet above solid ground with a man who made her head spin, it was simply heart-stopping. She didn't want him distracted, not by her, not by anything. She wanted him to guide this blasted balloon wherever it was he wanted it to go, put it down and then take her out for a very large drink. She thought she deserved it for not killing him when she'd learned the truth about this trumped-up case of mistaken identity.
To be perfectly truthful, she also didn't want him kissing her. Or maybe she wanted it too much. She thought about it and sighed. The real problem was that she'd discovered she
wanted
to feel those gentle, persuasive lips of his on hers again. Anything that tempting couldn't possibly be good for her. It was bad enough that she was addicted to chocolate.
“Why don't you want me to kiss you?” he said, as if he'd been reading her mind, instead of listening to the perfectly logical things she'd been saying aloud. She gulped.
“Who says I don't want you to kiss me?”
“You haven't said yes.”
There was definitely a trap here. No wonder the man was probably going to be a multimillionaire in no time flat. He had the sharp instincts of a predator.
“Exactly,” she said. “But I haven't said no either.”
“Can't make up your mind?” There was a teasing glint in his eyes that irritated the dickens out of her. That challenging question infuriated her, just as he'd known it would.
“Of course, I can make up my mind,” she snapped.
“Well? Yes or no.” He was standing perfectly still, his body heat firing the blood in her veins, encouraging a favorable response.
Audrey took the dare. She drew in a ragged breath and murmured, “Yes.”
Before he could take advantage of her reluctant agreement, she wrenched herself free of his embrace. She smiled boldly up into startled eyes. “Later.”
Blake groaned in frustration and muttered something about women who wanted to have their cake and eat it, too. Audrey was rather proud of her quick thinking, but a tiny part of her was labeling her a coward. It was probably nicer than any of the names Blake was calling her under his breath.
With his back straight and shoulders tense, he retreated to the controls of the balloon. He surveyed their situation compared to the competition, then made several adjustments, pointedly ignoring her. The flames roared to life and the balloon shot up again.
Audrey knew she ought to be grateful that his attention seemed momentarily diverted by the race, but with the contrariness of a two-year-old, she began to feel neglected. Sitting here, surrounded by stony silence, gave her too much time to thinkâabout herself, and about Blake. If she'd been on the ground, she could have gone for a nice long walk, maybe played a hard set of tennis. Even a game of solitaire would have been better than this thickening tension and this ridiculous, unwarranted feeling of nagging guilt.
Worse, now that Blake was tight-lipped and apparently determined to stay that way, she was already beginning to miss their sparring matches. She realized she had started enjoying his pursuit, the mild flirting that suggested more serious advances were in the offing.
For more than a year now, she'd been immune to romance and essentially numb to life. Derek's abrupt departure, amid cruel taunts about her flaws, had left her with emotional scars, deep wounds that had made her question the type of woman she was. She was still asking those questions and, while she'd seen signs of improvementâup until yesterday, anywayâshe still wasn't very happy with the answers.
It was something of an irony that all of the generosity and understanding she had bestowed on Derek had been the very things he had turned against her. When he wanted space, she'd com plied. When he needed support, she had been there for him. When he strayed, she'd listened to his explanations, fought for understanding and forgiven him. She'd anticipated the man's every need, welcomed his demands because they'd given her a sense of direction. She'd felt genuine joy in the giving.
In the end, he'd hated her for it. When he left, he'd told her he wanted someone with more gumption, more self-respect. She'd thought she'd been giving him love. He had twisted it into weakness. She'd hardened her heart and sworn it would never happen again.
A gentle caress of her cheek suddenly brought her back to the present. “Hey, sweetheart, where did you go?” Blake asked, concern shadowing his eyes to a darker, even more alluring shade of blue. His anger seemed to have dissipated while her thoughts whirled back in time.
“Just a little time travel,” Audrey said.
“Past or future?”
“Past.”
“That's never good. Stick with the future. That's where all the promise is.”
“Nice philosophy, but haven't you heard that if you ignore the past, you're destined to make the same mistakes over and over again?”
“And what mistakes have you made that were so terrible that the prospect of repeating them makes you so glum?”
“What is this? True confessions?” She tried for a light tone and a brilliant smile, but her effort didn't banish his serious expression.
“I'm no priest, but I told you before, I am a good listener. No judgments. No advice, unless you ask for it. And I give bargain basement rates.”
“Isn't there an old saying about getting what you pay for?”
This time he returned her grin with a wicked gleam in his eye. “In that case, we could negotiate terms.”
“Hmmm.” Audrey pursed her lips thoughtfully. “I didn't bring along a lot of cash. Do you take credit cards?”
“Oh, I think we could work out better terms than that, say a kiss an hour.” At her immediate frown, he added, “To be collected at the end of treatment, of course, and only if you're satisfied with the service.”
Audrey sighed. The easy bantering was drawing her in again, reawakening senses that had been hibernating far too long. Blake's fingers had lingered on her cheek and his thumb brushed across her lips. The callused roughness set off a sharp tingling that was both exciting and oddly comforting. It was surprisingly good to feel alive again. She'd begun to dread the feeling, even as she'd wondered if it would ever happen again. She'd prayed her heart would never tumble crazily in her chest, that she would never experience the breathless anticipation or the heart-wrenching lows of an emotional roller-coaster ride.
Then she'd prayed she would.
Her eyes met his, caught and lingered as heat rose in her. She felt alive all right. Dangerously alive.
She blinked and asked in a husky whisper, “How are we doing in the race?”
His thumb brushed across her lips, silencing her. “Forget the race and don't try to change the subject. I want to get to know you. I can't if you keep cutting me off every time I start to get close.”
“Why does it matter?” She tried to maintain an air of disinterest, but it was rougher going than she'd imagined. “After today, you'll go back to being a jet-setting playboy and I'll go back to writing copy and dreaming up PR gim micks. Maybe we'll bump into each other in the halls.”
He winked at her. “That raises some interesting possibilities.”
She shook her head. “Forget it, Blake. We lead very different life-styles. Nothing's changed.”
“I don't think so. After today, I think everything will be different,” he said with surprising gentleness. He smiled tenderly. “For both of us.”
Audrey captured the words in her heart and held them there. Even as she clung to the warm feelings they aroused, she shook her head adamantly. “That can't be.”
“Why not?”
“I've already explained. I'm not the sort of woman for you.”
“I think you're exactly the sort of woman for me. You don't play games. You're honest and witty and intelligent. Do you have any idea how rare that is?”
How she wished that were true. Even if it was, there were other, less attractive traits he seemed to be ignoring. It was time he faced up to them. “I'm a wimp, remember? You'll walk all over me,” she blurted miserably.
He stared at her in astonishment. “Why on earth would I want to do that?”
“It's not a case of your wanting to, it's just what happens when a strong person and a weak one get together. Can't you see that?”
“No, dammit.” He looked as though he wanted to shake her. “I can't see it and I don't understand where you got such a crazy idea about being weak. Who put it into your head? That man you were talking about before? He must have been a real louse.”
“He was right.”
“I don't believe it,” he said impatiently. “I haven't seen one shred of evidence to support it. Convince me.”