Chasing Imperfection (Chasing Series 2) (35 page)

     He nodded
hesitantly
. “
Isn’t that a little too extreme when you were doing hundred times worse that I did? That was the only time I slept with him. Couldn’t you find it in you to forgive me?”

     “I don’t know how to do that or where to even begin forgiving you. Ever since that night in your apartment, I haven’t touched another woman except you. Because I knew that nothing will ever compare to you
again
.
But you left and fucked him a day after I had you. Do you know how I felt then? I wanted to kill you.”

     “It was just so chaotic. My thoughts were so jumbled with you and Camilla out that night. When Kyle showed up—
I
took the easy way out. That night he couldn’t take his hands off me but retreated. But the next day, it became nostalgic and familiar—it just happened.”

     He grunted and held me tighter. “I don’t want to hear any
more sordid details. That’s enough.”

     “So, what do we do now? The only solution I
can
think of is to walk away from each other and leave it at that.”

     “Do you love Kyle?”

     “I do. I love him—but I
love you more
….
I’m in love with you, Blake.”

     “That should be enough reason for you to stay then?”

    
I shook my head
.
“
N
o, i
t isn’t.
”
I want it all and it seems like he isn’t capable of it. Well, not anymore.

     “
Then we’ll compromise
—stay with me and we’ll work this out together. It might be a slow progress but I promise to try building my trust in you again.”

     Hope flourished….

  
I smiled
.
“
Y
ou promise?”

     He kissed me
.
“
Y
es, I promise.” Cupping my cheek, he stared into me. “I love you,
Sienna….
so much
.”
His voice was so thick with emotion, I became undone.

    
My heart soared.
God, finally!
Progress.

     “I love you Blake.”
Taking his lips and kissing him until I almost died with happiness.

     We made love twice until we were too exhausted to move. When it was time for him to get up for work, he left my bed and went back to his room
to shower and change
.

     He stopped by again and gently woke
me
. “I have to go to work for a few hours. There’s a meeting that I can’t reschedule, unfortunately.”
H
e kissed my neck and I moaned. Loved what he’s doing to me, loved how much he’s changed since our little talk.
 

     “You don’t have time for a quickie?”

    
Blake grumbled. “
Bloody hell
…how I want to take you right now and bury myself deep within you but I can’t, I’m running late. I have to go back to London later this afternoon. Do you want to join me, cara?”
 

     “
Hell yes!
You’re not about to escape me, Knightly.”

     He slapped my ass and kissed me senseless. “Good, I don’t plan to escape your begrudging hold. I will be back around two
then we’ll head out together to the airport
?”

     “Ahhmmmm
.
” I was distracted by him and how hot he looked.

    
I wanted to devour him whole. God, he
looked
so sexy in his black Armani suit
. My eyes landed on his crotch
and I unknowingly licked my lips.

     He groaned
and muttered.
“
W
oman
,
you are shameless.”

     “Can we just—for a bit—
just…
” he groaned again and took my lips. My hands went directly to undo his pants. He took his suit off and I pushed his underwear off. Once his cock sprung free, he instantly shoved it inside me. We both moaned in unison. He started off slow, wanting to savor each stroke but I didn’t want him to be late.

     “Blake! Hurry quickly….
meeting
….or you’ll be late!” I said in between kisses.

     He grabbed my hips and fucked me
hard. PERFECT!

    
He screamed my name as we came
together, his body tensed. I felt his cock pulsated thickly, squirting his seed inside me.

     I shoved him off me, “
GO
! Or you’ll be late!” I spanked his nice sculpted ass.

    
He barked out loud. “Brilliant! I feel so used just about now!” He got up and went to the bathroom to clean himself up.

     I was still lying on the bed, quite content and happily sated when he came out. He bent over and gave me a long sweet kiss. “I love you”

     “I love
you
Blake
.
”
W
ith another kiss I marched him out the door.

     His amused look made my day.

    
I sighe
d happily, went to grab my robe and wrapped it around my satiated body.
I’m in love
……my dreams can’t even chase them away.

     Once in the kitchen, I brewed coffee and made
a
cheese omelet. “Buenas diaz, Magda.” I smiled at her.

     “Buenas diaz
,
my ass!
Come here
you
!”
Chad
ran towar
ds me
,
picked me up
and
squeezed
me until I ran out of air.

    
“
Uh
, good morning to you too?”

     “Oh, shut up! When I saw Blake on his way out, he gave me a jolly high-five. So, I was like ‘huh
?
’ Now, I see you have the same look. Sooooo, I’m guessing you two made up and are going to be bumping uglies forever and ever?”

     “We did make up—we’re back together again. Although, we have a lot to work out still—but the best part is we’re doing it together! Gosh, Chad—I’m so happy!
” I placed the omelet in between us, handed him a fork and we shared it.

     “You deserve it
,
chica!
You so do.
Anyhow, Luce left two hours ago. Can you believe what she said last night? I didn’t sleep
well because of that
.” He grabbed my coffee and took a long sip.

     “I mean—if it makes her happy….”

     “
I know
, I guess some things just don’t last huh? Life is shitty like that.”

     “True—but when it gives you butterflies, it makes it all worthwhile. And you are getting oodles of butterflies from Luke.”

     “I definitely am baby love! So, what’s the plan today? Everyone seemed to have vanished overnight!”

     “Blake’s picking
me
up later at two. He’s taking me back to London town.”

     His
eyes bulged out. “
Hello?
I want to go too. Luke left on the first plane out back to London.”

    
What about his therapy? I don’t even know if going back would be safe. It’s just too early for that.

     “You have to ask Blake about it
,” I replied.
“
He’s in charge
of
this situation. I mean—you two had this deal thing. I’m not coming in between that. You two sort it out.”

     Chad seriously looked deflated. He sigh
ed loudly
and finished my entire coffee.

     “Dude—
you finished my entire coffee, y
ou better make me a new one!”

     “Bummer.
” he muttered as he sauntered to where the coffee pot was located. 

     It was one thirty when I came out of the shower. I was already packed and ready to go at eleven. Chad and I danced for a solid hour and half. The whole session revived my body.

     I’m still a little worried about what Blake and I have at this moment and for some reason I feel like I should bring it up again. Things happened quickly last night and we didn’t really underscore the important facts. With my robe on, I walked out of the bathroom
towards the bedroom to get my phone
with a small towel to dry out my wet hair.

     I called Dr. Murray and informed her about my recent change of plans and cancel
led
today’s session. I made an arrangement
to conduct the
sessions over
the
phone. She booked Tuesday and Thursday afternoon for me. I somehow feel comforted by this, knowing I have someone to talk to without malice or without judging me.

     My phone beeped with a text message as I entered the bathroom to do my make-up. It was from Kyle.
Hey! Just checking if you’re okay? I know how freaked out you were last night. I’m here whenever you need me. I miss you badly.

     I miss him too but I don’t know how Blake would react if I continue being close to him. Okay—he’d be furious if he’d
found
out.
But how do I
ditch my best friend
of
over a decade?
That’s just not possible. I decided to text him back.
I’m good! I’m actually going to be back tonight with Blake and hopefully with Chad as well. I miss you too. What’s up?

      “Babylove! I’ll be joining you guys. Blake just got here and he said yes. I have to pack quickly or he’ll change his mind or something, ta-ta!” Chad shrieked for a minute then left in a flash.
That man is something else entirely. I can’t believe he almost killed himself over a month ago
. Thank God he didn’t succeed
, I thought with a pang of guilt.

     It doesn’t matter how many times Dr. Murray said that it wasn’t my fault, I still feel like I could’ve done something, anything to prevent it. But I guess
we all have our own crosses to bear and this is one is mine.

     I applied my usual make-up do with tons of mascara, tinted moisturizer and just a swipe of peach gloss. I was dabbing my lips when I saw Blake stared at me in the mirror smiling lazily. My heart accelerated at the sight of him. I guess I have to get used to seeing him smile at me again? I admit that I got the hang of his usual brooding mood when he’s around me.

     His hugged me from behind and enveloped me with his large frame. “You’ve been plaguing my m
ind
since
I left the bed this morning.  I didn’t pay much attention to the damned meeting because all I can think about is you
,
” his husky voice murmured
in
my ear. My body shivered
involuntarily
.