Cinderella Dressed in Ashes ( Book #2 in the Grimm Diaries ) (30 page)

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A Girl with no Hands

Shew panted, her heart racing and kicking in the top of her chest as she rode away.

Cerené clung to her silently from behind, embracing her with two small arms. Shew could feel Cerené’s cheek on her back.

How could Bianca say I would not take care of her?

Shew rode through the Juniper spying eyes, the tree that wanted to shake hands, and the owls watching with wide eyes from the trees. Unlike Loki, she didn’t talk to animals. She had no Charmwill to save her. She didn’t even have supportive quirky friends like Axel and Fable. All she had was Cerené, but Cerené had saved her too many times already. It was time for her to make a stand, and protect Cerené.

She whipped her unicorn with the palm of her hand again, riding away and heading nowhere.

The Huntsmen followed, breathing heavily, hungry for her. Even their three-eyed unicorns were hungry for her.

Shew slashed at the curving tree branches and penetrated her way through. She came upon the lake of frogs again and didn’t hesitate riding through it. The first time she saw it, she thought the lake should have slowed Loki down because he would have to find a way around it. Now that she had seen him eat a frog, she knew the lake was useless. This wasn’t the old frog-fearing Loki anymore.

The lake wasn’t deep and the frogs sang to her in their croaking voice, ‘Happy birthday to you.’

Happy bloody birthday to me, Shew thought.

Suddenly they arrived at the foot of a hill and there was no way back.  The only way to go was up.

“Hang on, Cerené,” she patted her hands clinging to her waist. “I’ll take care of you.”

The road up the hill wasn’t easy. Her unicorn struggled, but Shew begged it to keep on going.

“You can do it,” she whispered in its ear. “You’re no loser.”

Fear, in its most imminent manifestation, chained Shew’s soul. The worst thing about fear was the thinking. The more she thought about what could happen to her and Cerené if they were caught, the more the fear spread over her body like a crawling tattoo of Goosebumps.

“Be optimistic, Shew,” she told herself. “You can do it. Pretend you believe in the Chanta.”

No one’s helping you here, Chosen One. Her damn voice nagged her. Everyone looks up to you. They expect you to set an example, to be an idol, and an inspiration.

Shew fought the steepness of the hill, cursing the gravity that tried to pull her back down. She begged the sky to help her and pull her up the hill. Shouldn’t things like that happen in fairy tales?

“Damn all fairy tales for making me think living a real life was going to be a walk in the park,” she mumbled.

 “Can you ask the moon to help you?” Shew said to Cerené, fighting her way through.

“She doesn’t want to,” Cerené said. “She says this is your moment to shine brighter than the
moon
!”

“Easy for you to say, hanging up there like a plate dangling happily from the sky,” she spat her words up at the moon. It seemed she’d offended someone up there because at that moment it started to rain heavily.

 “Want to me to get off the unicorn and stall them?” Cerené spat rain at her.

“No!” Shew pulled Cerené’s arms tighter around her. “You don’t leave my sight. Understand?”

“I’m sure if I try harder, I can breathe fire like dragons at them,” Cerené said.

“Please, no,” she patted her hands again. When was Cerené going to realize that she wasn’t capable of creating fire like her mother? “Just stay with me, or they will eat you alive,” she told Cerené.

Shew urged the unicorn to fight its way up, “I can’t be the Chosen One. It surely is a mistake,” she mumbled. “How can I be when I’m always running away from something?” She had to run away, save herself and Cerené.

The unicorn struggled even more. The rain and snow complicated everything. The poor unicorn didn’t know whether to trot through or be cautious of slipping.

“Rain, snow, and bad weather,” Shew grunted. “Next I’m going to get a damn tsunami in my face…”

Shew’s unicorn stopped atop of the hill.  Speaking of tsunamis, there was nothing on the other side but the endless Missing Mile ocean, and it was a straight shot downwards to reach it. A large wave crashed against the rocks at the bottom as Shew sat paralyzed, looking at the endless water ahead.

“This can’t be,” she said, fear taking over her completely. Cerené’s eyes bulged out, speechless as her friend. They gazed back at the waving hordes of black cloaks and unicorns closing in, and then back at the ocean.

“What are we going to do now?” Cerené asked. “You think we should just jump in the ocean?”

“We could,” Shew said. “But that doesn’t guarantee we’ll live.”

“My mother said, you’d be immortal when you turn sixteen,” Cerené said.

“I’m not sure I’m immortal yet,” Shew said. “I don’t feel immortal. Maybe I have to split my heart first or something,” she said under her breath. “Even if I were immortal, you could die, Cerené,” she said.

“It was going to happen sooner or later,” Cerené said. “I’m glad I met you before I died.”

Shew squeezed Cerené’s hand tighter, “I’m glad I met
you.
You taught me how to live—in a very weird way, I suppose,” she turned her unicorn around, facing her approaching killers.

“What are you doing, Joy?”

The Huntsmen were in her face, only a hundred strides away. The Huntsmen were like time, and time was the greatest serial killer in history, it always arrived, never tick too soon, or a tock to late.

Shew took a deep breath, closed her eyes, and imagined the future. She imagined passing through this moment. She imagined surpassing all the pain, crossing over to a land of lilies and singing birds where she and Cerené were playing in the field. She imagined all the beautiful things that could happen later. It helped her lift some of the moment’s weight off her shoulders.

Then she opened her eyes.

Shew felt as if she was seeing the world with new eyes, the eyes of the future. If she were to cross this very dark hour, she had to see further than the length of her sword, further than the horizon, further that what logic and physical shortcomings permitted, and further than the imaginable. It was the only way to cross this moment: to long for the prize and reward of the future.

Cerené was shocked to see the Huntsmen slow down, a little cautious of Shew. Their yellow eyes dimmed a little. They were watching Shew watching them, and the air was charged with anticipation.

The hunter had become worried of the hunted, because the hunted was one step away from becoming the hunter.

Slowly, the Huntsmen made way for Loki’s unicorn, appearing from the middle. He stopped a stride ahead of them and pulled back his cloak. No amount of rain could wash away the darkness that stained him. He was bleeding from his scars caused by Shew and the glass dragon.

“I’ve never really had to go this far to kill someone,” he spoke. “Still, everything dies in the grip of my hands eventually.”

“I’m not in the grip of your hand, Loki,” Shew spoke back with the same seriousness and intensity.

“You will be,” he nodded. “Look at you, princess. You got the ocean at your back and me in front. Death doesn’t come any closer than this.”

“If I jump off this cliff and die in the ocean,” Shew said, “death will be yours because the Queen will kill you for not getting my heart.”

“I’m a good swimmer, princess,” Loki said. “I’ve even pulled a ring from the belly of a whale,” he said.

“Unlucky her who needed that ring,” Shew smirked.

“I’m no woman’s man, dear princess,” Loki said. “I’m not interested in you anymore. I’m not even going to give you the honor of killing you myself. I’ll let my hungry Huntsmen do it, just the way the Queen let’s her cats take care of the rats in the castle. You’re all alone now, princess. Who do you think will stand up for you?” He turned his unicorn to leave taking the same path he’d come from.

Loki disappeared, and his Huntsmen began approaching. Cerené’s heart beat so fast that Shew could feel it pumping on her back.

Instead of freezing, every step forward the Huntsmen took, Shew equaled it with another step forward. She wasn’t afraid of them anymore. If the Huntsmen were fear itself, she’d decided there was no better moment to face it.

About fifty strides away, the Huntsmen stopped. They pulled their cloaks back, showing their ugly disfigured faces, staring at the bold princess who stared back at them.

Cerené swallowed hard.

Each passing moment Shew looked at them, she gained more strength. Fear was just a coward like all of us sometimes. Dare look it in the eyes long enough and it will bow with respect.

A flat smile shaped the Huntsmen’s faces. It was like: really, are you looking back at us? Who do you think you are?

Shew made sure she did not flinch for a second. She raised her sword in the air, and one of the Huntsmen took a stride back. It was the beginning. Rights were taken step by step. Wars were won drop by drop of blood.

Another Huntsman stepped back. Shew could see the confusion building up on their faces.

She took a step forward and uttered one word, “Me,” she was answering Loki’s question when he asked her who’d stand up for her. “The worst thing about fairy tales is that they make you think you have to wait for the prince.”

The Princess of Sorrow, realizing she needed no mentor, no Chanta, no moon, rode down the hill and attacked.

It would be hard to explain what really happened. Shew swung her sword as if the Queen had really eaten her heart, and the heartless girl left was nothing but a beautiful monster. Shew was merciless, chopping off heads with one strike just as Loki did in Furry Tell. Everything her father taught her crystallized before her eyes. She even imagined herself wearing her father’s armor, killing the Intruders. Every trick, every maneuver, and every heartless swing was in the name of her father whom people feared all over the world.

She stroke as if she were one of them, evil, heartless, and a darkness eater. This was what she was meant for, to be one of the and yet kill them.

She rode the unicorn down the hill, killing whoever was on her left or right. No one dared block her way.

Cerené closed her eyes most of the time. Even when the blood of Huntsmen spattered on her face, she didn’t open them, grateful to the rain for washing it away.

Shew got wounded, but she didn’t bother to look. She was determined to be as strong as Loki.

Pain, wounds, and aches were an illusion, only manifested by the colors of bruises and blood, but it had no roots; pain was a figment of one’s imagination.

Only one thing could stop her: Death. Even then, she had found it arguable.

Slash, swing, chop, scream, slash, swing, and never look behind.

Fight fire with fire.

Her sword and fangs were Shew’s fire. Her fangs only scared the Huntsmen away. She wasn’t going to waste time biting them one by one. But her sword, made of white glass, energized by Cerené’s breath, was her Art. Some people’s art was a painting, some their knowledge, some their caring for their families. But the Chosen One’s Art was different. It was the cruelty she had to use to make things right, the darkness she used to bring the light, and her individuality in gathering a nation. Shew would have simply ridden back and given her heart to the Queen. She didn’t need one anymore.

Like a maniac, she ended up chasing the Huntsmen as they toppled and ran away from her down the hill.

“She really is the Chosen One,” one of them yelled, fleeing the scene.

Shew ran freely into the forest, away from them. She didn’t bother gazing back at the dead she’d left behind.

“You’re bleeding,” Cerené said. “Let’s stop. I can mend your wounds.”

However, there was no stopping. One single three-eyed unicorn was chasing her now. She could smell his deviously beautiful scent. It was Loki, coming to avenge all those Huntsmen she’d just killed.

“Can you kill him?” Cerené asked, grabbing her shoulder.

Shew’s warrior eyes softened a little. She still wasn’t sure, even after all those she’d just slaughtered, “if I kill him, he will never wake up again,” she said. Cerené looked confused. “He isn’t like the Huntsmen. He is like me, filled with darkness and confusion, not knowing what to do with it. All that he’ll sacrifice for me, being banned from Heaven and saving me, will be for nothing if I kill him.”

Cerené had nothing to say. She wasn’t going to ask Shew about this dream she always talked about. She only sensed Shew’s reluctance for a moment and got off the unicorn, running toward Loki. Cerené decided she’d stand up to him, not to defend herself, but to defend the Chosen One.

“No!” Shew reached out for her. “What are you doing, Cerené?”

“My job, I have to protect the Chosen One,” she yelled, running at the coming horse. “You take care of me, I take care of you, remember?”

Before Shew could catch her, Cerené stood foolishly in front of Loki’s approaching unicorn, stretched out one hand in the air and yelled ‘Moutza!’

Cerené closed her eyes, thinking if she focused strong enough, she could create fire and burn the evil Huntsman.

Shew was approaching to pick Cerené up, not intimidated by Loki, but then let out a shriek as she glanced up at him.

She was too late.

Loki, angry Shew had killed most of his Huntsman, raised his sword at Cerené who still had her eyes closed, trying to create fire with her mind.

Sadly, he was closer to Cerené than Shew, who could not believe her eyes. Loki’s sword had landed a blow on Cerené.

Cerené opened her eyes, disappointed she could not create fire, and glad she wasn’t dead. When she saw what had happened to her outstretched hand, she looked puzzled. A fountain of blood squirted in the air. Cerené looked at Shew with pleading eyes, wondering if this was really happening to her.

Loki had cut her hand off.

“I told you not to leave me!” Shew yelled at her and bent over to pull her up on the unicorn.

As stubborn as Cerené was, she pulled away from Shew and ran toward Loki again, stretching out her other arm, and screaming, "Moutza, you Queen’s Bastard!”