Authors: John Feinstein
Brennan laughed. “Did you see that survey of high school football players a couple years ago? They asked, âIf you knew that by taking steroids you would guarantee yourself a ten-year career in the NFL
but
you would also guarantee losing ten years of your life, would you take them?'
Seventy-five
percent said yes. Because there's a lot of money and glamour in the NFL, and high school kids don't think they're ever going to die anyway.
“And you have to understandâthe margin for error in this league is tiny. You lose a half step of speed or a tiny bit of strength and you can be gone for someone younger, cheaper, stronger, healthier. Contracts aren't guaranteed. Everyone wants to keep playingâmaking the big money, hearing all the cheers, being a hero. Most guys will tell you they'd take the risk in an instant to extend their careers.”
“Or to win a Super Bowl?” Susan Carol asked.
Brennan simply nodded. “Exactly. Obviously, these guys thought they needed that extra edge as we went deeper into the play-offs.”
“So you guys didn't get tested until after you won the conference championship?” Stevie asked.
Brennan shook his head. “No, that's the thing, we got fooled. This is all new, remember? We were actually tested before we played the wild-card game against the Giants. I was one of the guys tested that time tooâit's all random. They can test up to half the team at any given time. Everyone was clean. I think the guys just figured we were in the clear.”
“Only they tested again after you beat the Redskins,” Susan Carol said.
“Right. I remember some of the o-line guys looking nervous when they posted the list of who would be tested. Three of them had already been tested the first time like me and they were grumbling about it.”
“So when did you hear about the positives?” Stevie asked.
“Friday,” Brennan said. “Omar Nelson, our fullback, told me. He rooms with Pete Akombe on the road. I guess Pete told him that he and the other four o-linemen had come back positive. I said to Omar, âMy God, with the week off, they'll all be suspended once the B sample comes back. We're done.'”
“What's the B sample again?” Stevie said, remembering something about a two-test system from their late-night Internet scrolling.
“They take a second blood sample if the first one comes up positive, just to be absolutely sure,” Brennan said. “It's the same kind of testing they do in the Olympics and the Tour de Franceâthat's how Floyd Landis got nailed, remember? When I said that to Omar, he shook his head and said, âPete says there won't be a second sample. He says Meeker is taking care of it.'”
“Meeker?!!!” Stevie and Susan Carol both screamed at once, causing Eddie to look around the dark gym as if someone could hear them.
“Shhhh,” Brennan said, putting a finger to his lips. “Yes, Meeker. He's at the center of this whole thing. When the tests came back, he told Coach Kaplow that he would take care of everything.”
“But how?” Susan Carol asked.
“That I'm not sure of,” Brennan said. “But with his money, he could maybe pay off someone at the lab to keep quiet for a while. It's up to the team to report test results. And if Meeker can say the results came back too late⦔
“But sooner or later the test results will come out, right?” Stevie said.
“Yeah, I guess,” Brennan said. “But if they come after the game, what's the league going to do? Declare the Super Bowl a forfeit? No way. They'll just say it's regrettable, that we need to revisit the system and probably fine the team for being sloppy in dealing with the test results. Then Meeker will scream and yell and say we were the only team tested twice, which I know from Darin isn't true. The Ravens were tested twice too.”
“And no positives?” Susan Carol asked.
“None.”
They sat in silence for a while. “I assume,” Susan Carol finally said, “that most if not all of the team knows about this.” Brennan just nodded in response. “Won't someone go public with it? Are you all just going to sit back and let this happen?”
Brennan laughedânot a funny laugh, an angry one. “Go public?” he said. “If you go public, two things could happen: the first is, the entire o-line is suspended for the Super Bowl and we have no chance to win the game. Ray Lewis would sack me twelve times by halftime. Most likely they'd carry me out on a stretcher.”
“What's the second thing?” Susan Carol asked.
“Oh yeah, even better than that, you become a pariahânot just on your team but in the entire league. You're the guy who ratted out his teammates. Not only that, you're the guy who cost your teammates the chance to get a Super Bowl ring.”
“What about doing the right thing?” Stevie asked. “What about the fact that these guys cheated and your owner is cheating, lying, and buying people off? Should that be allowed to happen?”
“No,” Brennan said. “No, it shouldn't. But that's another code among athletesâyou don't turn another guy in.”
“Even if he's guilty?” Susan Carol asked.
“Even if he's guilty,” Brennan said. “Look at Jose Canseco. When he said that steroid use was rampant in the major leagues, he became the most hated player in baseballâeven though he was telling the truth.”
“He did that to make money,” Susan Carol said. “He was selling a book.”
“Yes.” Brennan nodded. “But the book was true. Who do you think people hate moreâCanseco or the other guys who were doping? And this would be worse because it would cost a team the chance to win the Super Bowl. That's all you'd be remembered for.”
“You mean that's all
you'd
be remembered for, don't you?” Susan Carol said. “That's what has you spooked.”
“Well, of course,” Brennan said. “I don't want to go down in history as the quarterback who turned his teammates in. And remember, there are forty-eight guys on the roster who haven't done anything wrong. This might be the one chance any of us has to win the Super Bowl.”
They sat in silence for a while. Stevie could understand Brennan's dilemma.
“Let me ask you a question,” Susan Carol finally said. “Let's say you keep quiet. You guys win the Super Bowl. How will you feel when it's over? Will you feel like a real champion? Or will you feel like you let people cheat your sport and get away with it?”
Stevie added a thought: “How will you feel,” he said, “seeing Little Donnie Meeker holding the Lombardi Trophy?”
Brennan stared at the two of them. “Are you trying to make me completely lose my mind?” he said.
“No,” Susan Carol said. “We're trying to make you understand why you should tell the truth.”
“And what about after the game?” Stevie said. “When the story breaksâas you say it willâdo you want to be the quarterback of the team that cheated their way to a Super Bowl title?”
“Aaaaaah! I need time to think,” Brennan said.
“Okay,” Stevie said. “But you have to decide what to do soon.”
“I know,” Brennan said. He stood up. “I'll be in touch.”
He pulled the hood over his head and walked out of the gym.
13:
THIRD AND LONG
STEVIE AND SUSAN CAROL
sat and watched Eddie leave the gym, his sneakers squeaking quietly against the floor.
“I feel bad for him,” Stevie said. “This isn't his fault, but he's going to have to pay the price anyway.”
Susan Carol stood up. “You're right. He's trapped in a way, a little bit like Chip Graber was trapped back at the Final Four. He's not being blackmailed, but no matter what he does, it's going to be wrong. He can become a pariah and guarantee his team won't win the Super Bowl, or he can help his team win a tainted victory and live with the guilt.”
“What do you think
we
should do?”
“I think we need to find a way to report the story without making Eddie the fall guy.”
“How?”
“I haven't a clue, Stevie. I haven't a clue. Come on, I have to go change before the interview sessions.”
They found a cab and Stevie dropped Susan Carol at the Canterbury and then went straight on to the Dome. It was 8:30 when he walked into the CBS compound, which was already humming with life. He found Andy Kaplan reading the
Indianapolis Star.
“Hey! Your piece got rave reviews last night.”
“Our piece,” Stevie corrected. “I didn't stay up to watch it, to tell you the truth.”
“I can get you a tape,” Kaplan said. “I hope your parents saw it.”
Stevie had called his parents to tell them he was going to have a story on the CBS late-night show. They had planned to tape it since the show didn't come on until after Letterman.
“I saw your Bisciotti story online this morning,” Kaplan continued. “Good stuff. I already made a call to see if he'd come on camera and got a flat no. He doesn't like to do TV apparently.”
“Yeah, he told me that. He's very friendly, but he hates the spotlight.”
“Unlike Don Meeker, who can't seem to stay out of it.”
Stevie nodded. “What if we did something on Kyle Boller today?”
Kaplan looked baffled. “The Ravens' backup quarterbackâwhy?”
“For one thing, he's a good talker. I've seen him. For another, he's had to come in a couple times this year when McNair's been hurt, and he's played well. Who knows, it could happen again on Sunday. Plus, how many guys who were starting quarterbacks as rookies in the NFL have had to deal with becoming a backup? It's a good story, I think.”
“Sold,” Kaplan said. “I'll call Kevin Byrne and set it up.”
Stevie was proud of himself. He had come up with an ideaâa good one, he thoughtâwithout Bobby Kelleher. Plus, he could probably write Kyle Boller for the
Herald
too. The old kill-two-birds-with-one-stone trick.
While Kaplan went off to make arrangements for the morning, Stevie went through the buffet line, grabbing some French toast and bacon. He was tired, he realized, so he poured himself a cup of coffee. He sat down at an empty table and thought about what Susan Carol had said back in the IUPUI gym. How could they possibly find a way to break the story without forcing Brennan to out his teammates?
The lab people would know the resultsâbut what lab was it? Had Meeker really paid them off? Even if they found the lab, could he and Susan Carol really persuade someone to talk to them? Noâthey had the whole team hereâ¦.
“The doctor!” he said aloud. They certainly couldn't use the information he had given Susan Carol as source material, but what was to stop them from making him
think
they could?
He pulled out his cell phone and called Susan Carol. “Where are you?” he asked.
“In the car, on the way over to the Dome.”
“We need to talk as soon as the morning session is over. I have an idea.”
She sighed. “Why don't we meet in your room again. Who knows how long it will take for Jamie to read his lines right.”
“Okay. I'll finish my CBS stuff, then go back to my room and write while I'm waiting for you.”
“Deal.” She paused. “Stevie?”
“Yes?”
“Am I going to like this idea?”
He smiled. “Probably not. But it might work.”
The morning went quickly. Three days in, and Stevie felt like an old hand at preâSuper Bowl coverage. Of course, his job was a lot easier than most since people were hand-delivered to him to talk because of either Kelleher or CBS. There wasn't a lot of demand for Kyle Boller during the Ravens' session on the field, so they were able to get him one-on-one before the end of the time period. Boller was everything Stevie had hoped he would be: friendly and honest. He said if he were running the Ravens, he would have traded to get Steve McNair too. He had learned a lot of football from McNair. But yes, he hated watching from the sidelines.
“I'm a football player,” he said. “Not a football watcher.”
Stevie got all he needed for both CBS and the
Herald
from Kyle Boller, then he and the crew went off to pick up a couple of quotes from Steve McNair and Coach Brian Billick.
Kelleher was pleased that Stevie had come up with his own idea. “Better than what I had in mind for youâ¦. Pretty soon, you aren't going to need me for anything,” he said. “Which is a good thing, because Tamara and I will be tied up in writers' meetings and doing radio all day.”
“That's fine,” Stevie said. “Susan Carol is free, so we'll hang out.”
“So you two are okay again?”
“Oh yeahâjust like old times.”
It was one o'clock by the time Susan Carol knocked on Stevie's door. Since the Ravens had gone first, he had been back in the room by eleven and was winding up his
Herald
story when she arrived.
“Perfect timing,” he said. “I'm starved. Let's order room service.”
She agreed, flopping down in a chair and looking frazzled and tired. “Man, this is hard,” she said. “I'm working with a producer I can't stand and a partner who has no clue.” She looked at him. “I can't tell you how much I miss you on that show.”
“Thanks,” he said. “But we've got more important things to worry about.”
“True,” she said. “Call in the food order, then tell me your plan.”
When he had, she said, “So you want me to call Dr. Snow and tell him I want to meet with him.”
“Right. Tell him you need to discuss what he told you the other night. If he claims not to remember, remind him.”
“What if he just says no, he won't talk to me anymore?”
“You tell him you're prepared to go on air with the story and name him as the source.”
“But I can't possibly do that.”
“I know that. But
he
might not know that. At the very least, he won't be able to take the risk. He'll agree to meet with you, I guarantee it.”
“I don't want to spend
any
time alone with that guy.”
“You won't. I'll go with you. Not only will you not be alone, but we can tell him there are two of us prepared to go with the story.”
“Bluff him? Okay, but what then? What are we really hoping for?”
“We tell him if he puts us in touch with the right peopleâthe lab guys, other people in the organization who
must
knowâwe'll protect him as a source. If not⦔
She nodded. “It might work,” she said. “Move over so I can use the phone.”
Stevie was quite proud of the fact that, for once, he was the one who had come up with an idea. Susan Carol had kept the card that Dr. Snow had given her at the party, which had his cell number on it. Snow must have picked up on the first ring because an instant after she had finished dialing, Stevie heard her say, “Dr. Snow? Hi. It's Susan Carol Anderson.”
She paused, clearly waiting to see if he remembered her.
“Right, at the party on Tuesday.”
She rolled her eyes as he responded. “No, not quite six feet tall.
“The reason I'm calling is that I think you and I should talk.”
Her face turned red at his next response. “No, not over drinks. I'm fourteen years old. I can't drink for seven more years.
“I understand. People get confused because I'm tall. We do need to talk, though, about what you told me the other night.”
She listened for a moment. “If you'd like, I'll refresh your memory. It was about drug testing and the Dreams' offensive lineâ¦.”
Stevie thought he heard shouting coming from the other end of the phone.
“No, actually, you never said anything about off the record,” Susan Carol finally said. “In fact, what you said was, âI'll give you a scoop, gorgeous.'”
More shouting.
“No, I haven't spoken to anyone about it, except my friend Steve Thomasâwho is here working for the
Washington Herald
and CBSâ¦.”
Now Stevie could actually hear Snow's words: “CBS?! CBS knows about this! Are you out of your mind? Look, I was drunk, I didn't know what I was talking aboutâ”
Susan Carol broke in. “I know you were drunk, doctor, but I'm pretty sure you knew exactly what you were talking about. I don't want to embarrass you. That's why we need to talk.”
Susan Carol waited. Stevie heard nothing coming from the other end of the phone. “Well, then, let's find some sort of neutral spot where no one will see us.”
She listened for a minute. “Okay, then, seven o'clock. Spell that for me.” She began writing on a phone notepad that was sitting on the night table. “All right, Steve and I will meet you there at seven.”
She hung up.
“And?”
“The team is staying at a hotel out in the suburbs. Apparently there's a YMCA just across the street where some of the players have been going to work in the weight room in the mornings. He wants to meet us there at seven tonight.”
“Where is it?”
She looked at the notepad. “Greenbriar. Wherever that is. Look, I have access to a car with a driver. He'll know the area. Why don't you meet me at the Canterbury at six-thirty so we can go from there. I'm taping the rest of the show at four o'clock. Even with Jamie's screwups, we'll be done in plenty of time.”