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“And Rosa got a letter the same day from Gabriel telling how he had met David. Rosa is very proud of her brother. ‘He is the spiritual one in the family,’ she says, ‘not like me.’

“And then she said, ‘Do you know he would make a fine husband for you?’ Which was very embarrassing because of the way she looked at me, as if she were measuring me like yard goods. After all, I am only thirteen—well, almost fourteen. Papa, I’m sure, would be very pleased if I were to tell him. The Sephardim set the standard with their culture, he says, in spite of being a trifle haughty. But Rosa is not haughty. And Gabriel wasn’t, either. I liked him. He wasn’t fun to talk to, the way David is, though. He was too quiet, I
thought. Papa said he will be a handsome man when he’s grown up. Anyway, I think it was very silly of Rosa to talk like that.”

“We are all going up the river by sidewheeler to stay at Plaisance for the christening of Pelagie’s new baby, her first boy. Just think, she had no children when I first saw her, and now she has four!

“Aunt Emma says it is the duty of a wife to have a large family, as many children as she can. Rosa says Aunt Emma is the typical Creole. ‘Make no mistake,’ Rosa says, ‘these women may not appear to, but they really run things. They are the matriarchs. It is the secret power of women.’ Rosa tells me interesting things about the world, but I do not always agree with them. I think, from what I see, having all those babies cannot mean you run things. What secret power is that?

“So many of them die! What can be the joy of that? One of Aunt Emma’s children died when it was just a week old, three of them died in the fever epidemic, one was bitten by a rattlesnake. How horrible! And some others died of second-summer sickness. It is such a dangerous time, the second summer. Oh, I should feel terrible if any of Pelagie’s babies died! I don’t know how Pelagie would bear it, she is so tender. She cries so easily. Over nothing, sometimes.”

“The house at Plaisance looks like that engraving of the Parthenon that hangs in the upstairs hall outside Papa’s room. It belongs to Pelagie’s father-in-law, Mr. Lambert Labouisse.

“Pelagie has to live there even though she doesn’t want to. Sylvain’s father scares me, he is so formal, with such cold eyes. You feel as if he’d have your head off if you were to laugh too loud or spill something. He
is all starched, without a wrinkle; he kisses your hand and bows his head like a king with such a charming smile that does not go with the rest of his face. Pelagie says he can be charming, but when he has rages, then everyone, even his son Sylvain, is afraid of him.

“David and Sylvain didn’t like each other. David has such strong opinions about people, the way he liked Gabriel and still writes about him. Yet I must say Sylvain is very kind to me. He gave me the most thoughtful present for my birthday, a basket for Gretel, who is growing old. But everyone here is very kind to me except perhaps Eulalie. I think she doesn’t like Jews, but I wouldn’t tell anyone I think so. She sometimes makes remarks that have a certain meaning, I’m sure. ‘Oh, it’s your holiday,’ she’ll say with a queer expression, as if she didn’t think much of it. Rosa says people nurture hatreds when they are miserable, they need something or somebody to scorn. I suppose that makes sense.”

“What a grand place this is! One could fit our house inside it six times over. Every room is filled with relatives and all their children with their nurses. The children are everywhere on the stairs and in the halls, the white children and the servants’ children, running and playing. I have never seen so many servants. The chef was an apprentice to one of the best chefs in Paris, they say.

“There are four thousand acres at Plaisance. It was a wedding present to Sylvain’s mother when she married Lambert Labouisse. Most of the servants came with the place, born and buried here. It’s like an enormous family. They have riding horses, I am learning to ride. There are carriages for everyone, whenever and wherever you want to go. Such splendor!

“I suppose Pelagie doesn’t like it because it isn’t her
own, or won’t be until Lambert Labouisse is dead, which I don’t think will be very soon, he seems quite strong and not so very old.”

“The christening is to be on Sunday. One of the Labouisse aunts is to be
marraine,
the godmother, while Papa is to be the
parrain,
the godfather. Godfather to a Catholic child! Papa laughed. ‘I told you,’ he said, ‘in this wonderful place it doesn’t matter.’ His gift has to be a silver cup. It is the custom. He is a lovely baby named Alexandre.

“This morning Sylvain told Pelagie that now she had given him a son, he hoped she would give him many more. Can she really want more babies? She is getting too fat and after a while she will look like Aunt Emma, which will be a shame. She was and still is so pretty. I don’t understand it. Can’t she say no? Is there no way? Does he force you if you don’t want to? Does he rip your dress off? Suppose you said no to whatever it is that is done—and I’m not quite sure, I think I know what it is, but it’s not clear and there is no one to ask, not even Rosa. She will talk about many things, but not that. Once I said something to Fanny, but she only looked scared and told me I mustn’t ask such questions, it wasn’t fitting for a young lady like me.”

“After the christening I went outside by myself. I felt quiet, not exactly sad, although sometimes I do feel sadness. No, it’s not that exactly, it is only that a person can be so alone, especially when there is a crowd.

“So many strangers talking at once, talking
at
each other, not
to
each other. As if all the talk were a way of saying, Look at me, listen to me, I’m here, I’m important, am I not important? Those are the times I feel scared, because there really isn’t anybody who can
understand the way I’ve been feeling lately. Not Papa, who would tell a joke and buy me a present the very next day. Not Pelagie, who would say something kind about how fortunate I am, which I already know. Not Rosa, who would just insist that I stay for a ‘nice dinner.’ Maybe David would, but he is not here and probably never will be.

“When I feel this way I have to go outside into some green place, even the courtyard at home for lack of anything more green. So I walked down to the bayou and I sat there on a flat rock.

“The slope is covered with wild iris of the palest lavender with moist, thick stems. There are swarms of white butterflies, small as moths; one sat on my hand, I didn’t move, its wings kept opening and shutting as if on hinges. David says all life is one, which means that those transparent wings are made of the same stuff that I’m made of.

“I heard somebody come up behind me and I jumped. It was a man, older than David—I compare everyone with David—but not old. He had on a fashionable straw hat with ribbon ends hanging down the back of his neck. He said his name was Eugene Mendes and he knew I was Ferdinand Raphael’s daughter. ‘How do you know? You don’t know me,’ I said. ‘Because I saw you—I’ve just come from the party,’ he said. He sat down next to me. ‘I’m waiting for my servant to row me home,’ he said. ‘It’s easier than going by road.’ Then he wanted to know what I was doing here by myself. I told him I liked the stillness. ‘You can hear the stillness,’ I said. He asked me how old I was and I told him I will be sixteen next birthday. I did not want to say I had just turned fifteen last week. He said, ‘Then the young men will come to the family box at the opera to be introduced.’ He smiled. His teeth are square. He has watchful eyes, he
never took them away from me. I’m not sure whether he was admiring me or not. It feels strange to have a man’s eyes so close. When his skiff arrived and his servant hailed him, he stood up. He is so tall that he stoops a little. He seems very strong. Rosa would say he is handsome, I know her taste, and it is not for a slight, weak man like her husband, I know that much.

“‘Don’t sit here too long,’ Mr. Mendes said. ‘Alligators come out when it starts to grow dark.’ I jumped up at that and quite suddenly he bent over my hand and kissed it. His lips were wet. When he raised his head he had that smile again. He has strange eyes, the color of tea. ‘I’ll see you at the opera,’ he said, ‘when you are sixteen.’

“Why do I write this down? I don’t know why. I don’t know what I want. When I am sixteen I shall be a woman and my life will really begin. I should be eager for it, they tell me, and sometimes I am. But I puzzle myself. I puzzle the family, too. Aunt Emma will never understand why I would rather read than pay calls with her. Those endless calls! A lifetime of that! Visiting cards and coffee and gossip and coffee, the roasted chicory fragrance as you come through the front door. ‘Novels,’ Aunt Emma says—she makes a little snort through her nose when she says it—‘novels are quite indecent for young girls. Even the newspapers are better left alone, if you ask me.’

“What is there left? To be married, of course. Everyone knows that’s what life is for a woman. Even the old-maid teachers at school know that. They are supposed to teach us how to be better wives and mothers. But how can an old maid possibly know?

“Rosa is wrong when she says that the power is in women. The power is in men. There is so little one knows about men. What are they like under their broadcloth and linen? I don’t even know how they
look. I shiver inside when I think about it and then I feel so warm. I’m ashamed of some of the things I imagine. Am I imagining crazy things, or are they true? If they are true, they must be wonderful. Still, I am so ashamed.

“I want to love somebody, that’s what I want. Still I’m afraid. I don’t want to be like Pelagie, I want to be free.

“I don’t know what I want.”

6

“No, I don’t like that fan. There’s too much yellow, the dress, the bouquet, and the ribbons. I do think the ivory is much better. Besides,” said Emma, “this is the one Pelagie carried when she made her first appearance at the opera, and she wants you to have it. She is so fond of you, Miriam, I hope you realize it.”

The pier glass reflected four women grouped around a fifth in the foreground: Miriam, on this day becoming a woman; Fanny, kneeling to fluff and perk six rustling petticoats; the hairdresser, Emma, and Eulalie. The latter had come in spite of herself to witness the preparations and stood now holding the bouquet of baby hyacinths and golden iris. Emma beamed. In a sense this evening was hers as substitute mother, and Miriam’s triumph was to be her creation. So, wearing royal-blue satin and a pearl collar, Emma gave instructions.

“Yes, that’s right, the fan must hang on its cord around your wrist. Open it from time to time after we are seated, flutter it gently, but remember not to hide your face behind it. Hold it like this. Oh, that dress is really a triumph, my dear, your father will be so proud.”

Miriam’s cheeks were hot. A dozen candles were blazing in the room. She stared at the stranger in the
glass; the stranger who wore diamonds in her ears, whose naked white shoulders rose out of a foam of pastel ruffles.

“In your other hand you will carry your shoe bag, of course. You can change into the silk shoes when we arrive. I must say Scanlan’s makes the most marvelous dresses! The work is as fine as French work any day. Your father says when the time comes for your trousseau we must order it from Paris, though for my part I have always been more than satisfied with Scanlan’s or the Olympic.”

Fat women couldn’t wear French dresses. Aunt Emma, growing wider every year, had to be fitted at home.

“Fanny! I do believe,” Emma said impatiently, “you’ve got the petticoats reversed. The double taffeta goes underneath so it won’t crush the muslin. Raise her skirt, that’s it, and reverse them.” Emma was mildly exasperated. “Oh, I do so miss my Monty! I had to part with him just before you came to us, Miriam. He was the most marvelous dressing maid, never made mistakes, understood clothes to perfection. Unfortunately, I couldn’t keep him past fourteen, he got too old to wait upon a lady. Yes, that’s it, Fanny, that’s it.”

In the evenings, Miriam thought, young men will call. They will play cards with Papa, but they will have come for me. There’ll be soirées on Sunday nights downstairs; we shall dance; like hens in a brooding house, the old ladies will sit in a row watching. Tonight at the opera in the family box, in the front row, people will look over, whispering, “Yes, that’s the little Raphael girl, how charming she is, I wonder who will marry her .…”

And the world was radiant, revolving slowly to enchanting music in a dance of its own with Miriam at
the center. Everyone was so kind, everyone loved her. Eulalie had admired her new earrings. No one need ever be angry at anyone else; people were good; really, one ought always to be happy.

“How nice for you that it’s a premiere!” Emma cried. “And so fitting that it’s Halévy’s
La Juive!
My cousin saw it when it opened in Paris. Terribly dramatic, so sad—but then so many Jewish themes are sad.”

This very night, maybe, he would see her and come to her. But who would he be? Suddenly Miriam veered to panic. What if no one came? What if there was no one at all, not tonight, not ever? It happened! You had only to look at Eulalie to know what can happen. Eulalie, of course, was homely; yet there were others—and mentally Miriam made count of the unmarried, the unwanted—Marcelle’s sister, really not homely at all, or Amy’s cousin, who lived with them, and all the school mistresses. Mam’selle Georges must have been lovely once with that red-gold hair, and what had become of her?

Then something of Ferdinand’s optimism, her chief inheritance from him, submerged the panic. No, no, it was impossible, it wouldn’t happen like that! And she had a vague anticipation of glowing eyes, of a dark head bent over her hand and a fervent voice. But who was he? Who?

“There,” Emma said. “That’s perfect. Now hurry, your father is already waiting downstairs. Sisyphus will walk with us, he has been reading all about the opera and is so proud whenever there is an American premiere in New Orleans. It’s astonishing what that man knows about music. Good heavens, it’s begun to rain! Don’t open the umbrella in the house! Miriam, it’s terrible luck, do you want to bring disaster on us?”

They walked through a fine warm drizzle, picking
their way toward dry spots. But Miriam walked through a silvery gauze curtain; it hung between her and what was to come; suddenly on this night the curtain would be drawn back and a dazzle would be revealed. These streets where she walked every day and the theater itself, which she so often passed, where the crowds were now converging, where an old Negress was selling gumbo at the door, all of these were waiting for her. She was the star of some great play, the lines of which she had not yet studied, but which would somehow come clear.

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